Nearly 42 years into life and nothing to show for it.
My achilles tendonitis has flared up again, I’m so worried I’ll end up housebound for months again. Whenever people talk about strokes they never talk about this - how you can end up with one side so weak that even the simplest everyday activities can give you literal sports injuries that keep flaring up and never go away. An inflamed achilles tendon probably doesn't sound like a big deal, but I've already spent months this year housebound because of it, gone through shockwave therapy and physiotherapy, it keeps coming back and as I don't really have anyone to help me it means being unable to do basic things for myself for god knows how long. Being trapped indoors like a prisoner.
And to add even more stress I’ve had a letter from the DWP - they have a huge backlog of appeals and assessments so I’ve been told my appeal will take longer than originally estimated. It won’t be sorted by January. And I don’t know how I will manage for that long as I have no family to fall back on and mutual aid is almost dead now.
This is on top of all my usual stress and problems, I’m having a flare up of side effects from my thyroid cancer treatment, my eczema is infected again and I’m covered in oozing, itchy sores. I thought I’d be getting a hysterectomy to solve my bladder issues but that’s looking unlikely now. Bank charges that can’t be paid off piling up on my maxxed out overdraft, struggling to keep up with my medical appointments and absolutely nothing to look forward to whatsoever. It’s my shitty 42nd birthday this month and what have I got to show for 42 years on this earth? A wrecked body, no money or property, not a single friend in real life, no family and no hope. Can’t even do anything for xmas or my birthday, my landlady is going away and I’ll just be alone with nothing to do and no company. I wish I had some shrooms or acid but that's a distant dream.
ClassIsOver [he/him] - 4day
You're an active contributor to one of the cooler social media platforms that's aligned with an extremely ethical worldview that you kind of need to have to participate, so the brain you've got is pretty great, even if the suit it's riding in isn't doing it favors...
It turns out that I happen to have updorped a number of your posts in your post history, so that's fun too. I do hope you manage to get your hands on some hallucinogens to give that nice brain of yours a few hours of entertainment. You deserve it.
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DisabledAceSocialist [comrade/them] - 4day
Thanks. But even my brain is deteriorating, I feel really cognitively impaired since I started my cancer treatment. I have trouble concentrating on things and struggle to learn new things now. I wish I could get some hallucinogens too, not just for fun but to give my brain a clear-out and my mood a boost. When shrooms were legal in the UK I used to do them and always found it really helpful.
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ClassIsOver [he/him] - 4day
Do you know a guy who knows a guy? Asking around rarely goes bad, contrary to how it feels.
My wife had Hodgkins lymphoma when I met her, and when she was going through treatment, she felt like that too. That was seven years ago, and now she uses her brain for whatever she wants.
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DisabledAceSocialist [comrade/them] - 4day
I haven't had any friends or social life since 2010, everyone just drifted away when i got too sick to hang out any more. There's literally no-one for me to ask. Also I'll be having this treatment for life, I doubt things will get better.
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fort_burp @feddit.nl - 3day
Can you get on tor? Just buy some acid on the darkweb, I'll pay :) Send me your Monero address when you're all set up and found a good seller and let's make it so.
I hope you get some peace of mind, comrade.
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DisabledAceSocialist [comrade/them] - 3day
I would love to take you up on this, but I can't have a crypto account as my banking is going to be checked by the government - I'm not allowed to have any money. They specifically say they're going to check for crypto too, I don't know how. I could get in trouble even to the point of being sent to prison. I've also tried to use the darkweb before and couldn't do it, I have trouble learning new things because my cancer treatment has fried my brain.
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Nearly 42 years into life and nothing to show for it.
My achilles tendonitis has flared up again, I’m so worried I’ll end up housebound for months again. Whenever people talk about strokes they never talk about this - how you can end up with one side so weak that even the simplest everyday activities can give you literal sports injuries that keep flaring up and never go away. An inflamed achilles tendon probably doesn't sound like a big deal, but I've already spent months this year housebound because of it, gone through shockwave therapy and physiotherapy, it keeps coming back and as I don't really have anyone to help me it means being unable to do basic things for myself for god knows how long. Being trapped indoors like a prisoner.
And to add even more stress I’ve had a letter from the DWP - they have a huge backlog of appeals and assessments so I’ve been told my appeal will take longer than originally estimated. It won’t be sorted by January. And I don’t know how I will manage for that long as I have no family to fall back on and mutual aid is almost dead now.
This is on top of all my usual stress and problems, I’m having a flare up of side effects from my thyroid cancer treatment, my eczema is infected again and I’m covered in oozing, itchy sores. I thought I’d be getting a hysterectomy to solve my bladder issues but that’s looking unlikely now. Bank charges that can’t be paid off piling up on my maxxed out overdraft, struggling to keep up with my medical appointments and absolutely nothing to look forward to whatsoever. It’s my shitty 42nd birthday this month and what have I got to show for 42 years on this earth? A wrecked body, no money or property, not a single friend in real life, no family and no hope. Can’t even do anything for xmas or my birthday, my landlady is going away and I’ll just be alone with nothing to do and no company. I wish I had some shrooms or acid but that's a distant dream.
You're an active contributor to one of the cooler social media platforms that's aligned with an extremely ethical worldview that you kind of need to have to participate, so the brain you've got is pretty great, even if the suit it's riding in isn't doing it favors...
It turns out that I happen to have updorped a number of your posts in your post history, so that's fun too. I do hope you manage to get your hands on some hallucinogens to give that nice brain of yours a few hours of entertainment. You deserve it.
Thanks. But even my brain is deteriorating, I feel really cognitively impaired since I started my cancer treatment. I have trouble concentrating on things and struggle to learn new things now. I wish I could get some hallucinogens too, not just for fun but to give my brain a clear-out and my mood a boost. When shrooms were legal in the UK I used to do them and always found it really helpful.
Do you know a guy who knows a guy? Asking around rarely goes bad, contrary to how it feels.
My wife had Hodgkins lymphoma when I met her, and when she was going through treatment, she felt like that too. That was seven years ago, and now she uses her brain for whatever she wants.
I haven't had any friends or social life since 2010, everyone just drifted away when i got too sick to hang out any more. There's literally no-one for me to ask. Also I'll be having this treatment for life, I doubt things will get better.
Can you get on tor? Just buy some acid on the darkweb, I'll pay :) Send me your Monero address when you're all set up and found a good seller and let's make it so.
I hope you get some peace of mind, comrade.
I would love to take you up on this, but I can't have a crypto account as my banking is going to be checked by the government - I'm not allowed to have any money. They specifically say they're going to check for crypto too, I don't know how. I could get in trouble even to the point of being sent to prison. I've also tried to use the darkweb before and couldn't do it, I have trouble learning new things because my cancer treatment has fried my brain.
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