hi hi star here! thank you so much for reposting I finally dragged Mem's years old friend here https://hexbear.net/post/4160129 (points eagerly) >:3 Kir's a fellow disabled trans comrade, lol the unmedicated adhd is very obvious on both of us.. please give him a big warm welcome and check out his art works, as he intends to stay :D

He actually garnered a bit of reputation on COVID conscious twitter for painting masked portraits for folks for $20 each to support Mem! it's a huge discount because time and effort wise it really should be more, but, we are trying our hardest and best to make it however bit easier we can, as we just want Mem to be able to have the barest of necessities to continue to survive :(( so please! gift us with at least your attention! Not even for ourselves! I bow with sincerity.

We are both doing commissions for Mem's bare survival minimums! I will draw almost whatever you want for however much you can pay, Kir's starts at $20! a very flexible price point, eheh... please allow yourself to be enticed, we are passionate drawers and even more passionate friends! We are very very worried as the last donation to Mem was 8 hours ago, and we'd do anything to lessen the labor Mem has to do while already being cyberstalked online!

ty for reading ;; (hand heart!)

Will it actually take another pandemic for leftists to just put on a goddamn fucking facemask? Find out in the next episode of hellworld! ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ

with leftists like these.... (wince)

I brought some masks to my party AGM earlier this month, offering them for both protection from COVID in the enclosed space of the office, and for mitigating the cops facial recognition at the Palestine rally.

One dude who's a nurse took one and informed the others that they probably should wear them in enclosed spaces, but only one other person did and he kept taking it off. (granted, he was leading the meeting and talking the most, and it was mostly to drink water.)

I'm thinking of slowly bringing it up more. Try to get other's to be more covid conscious. I'm planning to use the oncoming birb sickie to push it. Something along the lines of "yeah you're going to need to soon anyway with the way things are going. May as well start now."

Anti-maskers won. It sucks.

Yeah it would be fine if she just cared, but she's actually struggling to accept the reality of the situation and then putting the denial back onto you to deal with. It sounds really exhausting on top of everything else that must be so fucking exhausting already...

::: spoiler yapping about my own shit Reminds me of how my extremely chud parents, after someone in their family was diagnosed with cancer, tried to convince them to not go through with chemo, because "these natural remedies have healed this person in this way in a story I saw online!" It's so exhausting for the person who's actually going through it, especially because my parents were being so insistent on it. Being alone for the holidays sucks, but it actually feels much better than spending it with them tbh :::

Reporting for revolutionary yapping duty o7

welcome back! (⁠⁠˘⁠︶⁠˘⁠⁠)⁠.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡

I have had t1 for 20 years and I don’t think this is possible unless you are very wealthy and can afford the fancy pumps + monitors they have now. Even then I still don’t really think I prefer it over manual injections and monitoring, but I’m possibly a bit of a freak anyway + Bluetooth tech sucks shit and is unreliable and I DO NOT trust that shit with my life-saving medication lmao. tbh I went through (very unhealthy) phases of “I wish I could ignore this” and it took more than one hospitalization under ketoacidosis to tell me it’s never going to happen. I am not an abled person and you are not an abled person and that is ok. There is nothing wrong with that. I take pride in it now. I’m not going anywhere, at least if I have anything to say about it, so people are going to have to fit around me if they want my company, not the other way around, and I’m not sorry about it anymore. It’s not going away, like you said, and it’s annoying, but that’s the beginning and end of it for me these days. There is not much point in making it harder for ourselves by feeling bad we can’t be like the people who give the least shits about us I reckon.

If this is less a matter of psychology and more practicality…I don’t really have a satisfactory answer. Life gave us a shit hand, but we’re not the only ones. Seeing people like me and you and people amid all other types of disability keep on keeping on regardless (and maybe even happily!) is what empowers me, trite as it sounds. Another thing that keeps me grounded is thinking about animals and pets, creatures of nature with missing limbs and eyes and etcetera. I cant possibly imagine what they’re thinking, but maybe they’re not thinking much about it all beyond “this is how it is, huh, ok.” and they carry on and live. That in its own way is empowering to me, too. If they can do it, so can I.

there IS promising research in China actually for a cure for t1 (genuinely!) and my partner has the article bookmarked but I don’t have it on me (when I find it I’ll links it); if nothing else, maybe keep in mind that things are happening, still!

:( fuckkkk. so sorry you went through that, comrade.

Life tends to suck a lot of the time. I have no advice, just solidarity.

I don’t know what you’re supposed to get out of therapy tbh. I guess it helps privileged people who don’t know how to think for themselves? Metacognition doesn’t do much for misery.

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I delete it and give up because I think that I shouldn't burden too many other people with that knowledge

"Burdening" someone with the knowledge of what you're going through isn't anywhere near the same as actually going through it, and I think it's fair to expect solidarity when sharing these kinds of things. Imo the problem is more the normailsation of suffering and how hard-found and hard-fought genuine solidarity is for disabled folks. Edit: or even just all the comrades' capacities being battered to shit by increasing precarity since 2020 tbf

I'm sorry you're doing worse again after a short spell of doing a little better. I find that I struggle to make full use of those better periods, because I'm already expecting it to get worse again, which makes it feel pointless. But I know that's not very revolutionary optimism of me and I'm trying to work on it.

In terms of therappy, I also find it really ineffective. The few times I've tried it, I was just told that I'm already very self-aware, so I should be fine. It's almost like you can't talk your way out of living within shitty material conditions... I try to talk to my friends about it expecting a level of solidarity, but recently I keep being told how exhausting I am even by people really close to me and it's taking everything in me to not go down a doom spiral thinking about it too hard. It feels like I have to keep so much to myself, because if I don't then I'll lose the little support I have from those who do still care more than most.

Solidarity with you comrade, I hope for better days ahead for all of us. :::

I keep relapsing back to bad habits and things I have been working on which I know benefit me and even smaller things which have managed to stick and make me feel good eventually fizzle out to anhedonia because I have no world to share the joy with anymore. When/if we ever get through all of it I'll never forget. I'm never going to forgive these people. Why on earth do anything, then? I'll let you know when I have the answer.

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same :) 💜

back at ya

Good luck! I wish I could say something more reassuring but I'd be in an anxiety spiral as well. I can only imagine revoking computer access would come before your door pass if they did want to let you go.

I have a lot less protections against being let go in my new role than I used to so I'm hesitant to request any accommodations because it'll set off a chain of what ifs in my head.

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Good post !

I think @ReadFanon@hexbear.net (if online?) might know something about that.

Also you can remove the ___ they are just a placeholder

Maybe @TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net knows something about this?

::: spoiler spoiler If you can't go to the hospital with your friend, I would have your friend phone you so you can speak with the nurses. You can call the unit your friend is on (ER right now) as well and ask about them. You might feel like you're being annoying, but that's okay. If you're there support person it will help them and the team to have you involved.

So long as your friend is okay with it, have the doctors or nurses explain all the medications and interventions to you and have them explain what the team thinks your friend is sick with or needing. The team will need your friends consent for a lot of procedures, there are some pretty limited circumstances in which they wouldn't have capacity to make their own decisions. Even if they're in against their will, in a psychiatric hold for example, they still most likely are allowed to refuse medications or procedures (even getting vitals). I would advise sticking with what the doctors say is best but use your judgement about what would work best for your friend.

For the police, they can't really ask much besides your identification unless you volunteer information willingly. I'll leave it to you to decide if it's appropriate to cooperate with them or not, but keep in mind most lawyers still get their own lawyers when being interviewed by the police. Sometimes they get more leeway depending on the circumstances and if they have warrants (Im pretty sure they need a warrant to get a BAC but they lean on nurses that aren't very sympathetic or just don't know and sometimes they intimidate patients too for the same).

Probably the number one thing you can do is be there (in person) with your friend if at all possible. A hospital can be quite frightening, ER can be pretty loud and intense. :::