With my first day with real energy in awhile being coupled with two temper meltdowns, (theres been a recent med change I should mention, but every one we have seems to just vacciltate between these two states). I feel like Im just... Im either a destructive ragebeast OR a useless sleepy flop who cant do literally anything. ... read full post
generic Adderall is back in stock at my pharmacy 🎉 was really starting to worry they weren't going to get more until next calendar year or whenever the annual quotas reset or whatever, but I got both 30 mg xr for me and 20 mg xr for my son ... read full post
I am currently re-researching ADHD management (for gods know what time already) after wasting the entirety of the past two days. ... read full post
If I have to go through and delete or check off each of the 20 preset tasks one by one I am uninstalling your app
so i've been in therapy for a couple years and it's been working sort of. like i've gotten better at processing and understanding my shit. so instead of being lost in a forest, i feel like i'm following a trail in the forest. ... read full post
the past few months have been deeply miserable. panic attacks, general tingly anxiety and manic depressive episodes. i have not felt ok for a while. waiting on an appointment with the doc in two weeks to get medicated again but i would like to scoop out my brain with one of those funky ball scoops. that would help i think. ... read full post
It is recommended that you use a VPN when you access TankieTube to protect your anonymity because your IP may be accessible to others while using the site ... read full post
Lately I’ve just had a fucking hair trigger on crying and if I ever do anything slightly wrong or upset my partner I feel such overwhelming guilt and start crying and then my partner feels worse for upsetting me and then I feel even worse. ... read full post
Apparently it is not normal to constantly worry about failing to notice incremental shifts in one's moral principles such that one arrives at a repugnant perspective without realizing it 
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It’s like you’re super engaged and feel like you could do x forever until you suddenly crash. Then you’re bored for either a second or like a month (no rhyme or reason but the chaos in front of you) until the next thing comes along. But Godamn that boredom is real and often leads to sadness. I need a why to the whole thing ... read full post
I'm making a better effort to meditate, but I don't know if I'm doing it right. Focusing on my breathing and releasing thoughts is hard and if I relax too much, I fall asleep.
If you have related issues when meditating, have you found better ways to meditate or alternatives that give you similar results?
It’s not that I don’t like them, it’s that I literally do not know what to do. Like why do some people get hugs without initiating and just assume I don’t like hugs
Is this relatable whatsoever
I recently got prescribed aderall after explaining to my psychiatrist that I wanted a longer lasting stimulant rather than a short burst type. I’m on a somewhat large dose of Quitiapine that I take at night but I still feel the effects throughout the day which is extreme lethargy, I was always bed bound and because of this I felt more depressed as I didn’t accomplish much I would sleep around twelve hours and then stay in bed for the remainder of that day. After reporting this to my psychiatrist he put me on Ritalin and that really turned things around for me, at least for the first week. It had been the first time in about two months that I would shower everyday and go out, I went outside with a boost in my confidence, I even started taking my camera out after three years not touching it, I wore my hair long which I feel self conscious about but it didn’t matter because I felt pride in myself for the first time. The first few days were some of the best days I’ve had in my life in a long time and I was feeling very optimistic about my mental wellbeing and feeling like I was finally overcoming my conditions, but then I ran out of Ritalin and my doctor didn’t prescribe me any more, I guess because I didn’t ask but I think he was being more cautious considering I’m on an assortment of meds already and it was apparent that Ritalin changed me so much that he didn’t want me to acquire a dependence to it. ... read full post
I have an appointment with a psychiatrist that is probably going to suggest me to try a SRRI meds for seasonal depression and I’m a bit apprehensive to try it because I’m already on adderall for adhd. Does anyone have experience with this combination? I’ve read so far that it’s possible but that the breakdown rate is lower so I’d need to be on smaller dosage. ... read full post
it's really become some nastybones business in the last couple few years. Like a totalizing thing that affects most of the things I do. In the course of writing this post I'm doing repetitions and that's just normal at this point. I frequently curate upvotes on my posts so they're not bad numbers. It's to the point where I have to go back and forth between tabs or closing and opening them to make sure it's not a bad number. It's even such that I am policing my motions with my hands so they're not bad. Even in the body of this post, I'm counting as much as I can in service of avoiding certain numbers of sentences or repetitions of words. ... read full post
what're you choking down when you have to eat something to keep the pills down, and you have to take the pills ... read full post
Two years ago I saw this this video about ADHD in adulthood through some post on hexbear and experienced a certain... feeling that there was puzzle piece missing to my utterly disjointed, disorganised, unmotivated life. Thank you to whoever posted that video. I owe you so much. ... read full post
Literally every time. If its in an enviroment with people I havent spoken to about it before at least.
I a long-winded way of saying “It’s not what you know, it’s who you know.”
This irks me chat. This is an elephant in the room that should be causing mass chaos
Hey, I'm Leyla, moderator of /c/drugs and very knowledgeable on shit people put into their bodies. Someone the other day made a post questioning if supplements actually do anything. I think this is a very good question, there's a lot of marketing BS behind vitamins and minerals, it's difficult to separate the useful from the useless (and if it's useless, it's probably harmful in some ways). While there is a lot of marketing that deludes information, some supplements and vitamins are still quite helpful and worth investing in. The ones that are worth it are normally pretty cheap too. I'll order these from most universally applicable to least universally applicable, meaning the stuff on the top will probably apply to you, while the stuff at the bottom will be for more specific issues. Obviously I'll specify the issues in the paragraphs. Also, while I will provide sources for what I say, I will say that a lot of this is lived experience. ... read full post
alt-text for thumbnail in case it embeds: it is an image of a queer flag with an infinity symbol, on a drawn wooden background with the words “autistic people mistaken for AI” on it
I keep getting TikTok ads and whenever I see the shop logo in the corner or “sponsored” I scroll away. They claim to help AuDHD but I have no idea what to trust.
I’m curious about mushrooms, lions mane or whatever, and microdosing hallucinogens.
As an AuDHD perfectionist I’ve never valued rest that much. I feel like I should be doing something interesting and being sedentary is bad for you. Recently I have realized the importance of resting as I have been exhausted by external demands and stimuli. I am at the point where even mostly lying around in my room all day, small demands and noises are too much. All I am able to really do is hyperfocus on my phone or maybe half attentively read. I know people can spend days in bed recovering from life, but I don’t have that time. I value this time not doing anything, but I’m afraid if I don’t get active or something I will have trouble falling asleep later. I know staying in your bed while awake disassociates it from getting ready to sleep so I have been lying elsewhere. Any tips? I have been eating. Are there comfy headphones that actually kill all the sound? Bc my ears do not want to process anything anymore. ... read full post