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1.9yr
Bad feel: when you realise (only because someone notified you) that a thing people were doing seemingly randomly, was actually a big important social cue
And it has all kinds of implications and context and shit. ... read full post
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1.9yr
As someone who has been a planner/organizer my entire life, it makes me want to blow my brains out when my boss makes twice my salary to be far less efficient than myself
It’s just really really hard for me to accept I guess, but that quality is super important in climbing the fascist corporate ladder. Missed out a spot in the social hierarchy with my mega social awkwardness though ... read full post
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1.9yr
I am lazy
I am a lazy failure who can't do anything. Basic shit I consistently just... don't do. Its embarrassing. I don't even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I've wanted to for years that I've just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I'm not fucking doing that. I've been wanting to take steps for months to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I'm fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can't even remember when the last time I didn't struggle with this. And it doesn't feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I'm not sure how it ever can get better. ... read full post
24
1.9yr
video on how "aspergers" is named after a fascist
https://youtu.be/Tfe46Z3MAHgalt-text for thumbnail since it embeds: it is an image of the autistic flag with an infinity symbol and multiple colored bars (i have a hard time telling them apart), on a drawn wooden background with the words "aspergers is abeist" on it
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1.9yr
I am jealous of young autistic adults
When I was a child, autism didn't exist. Obviously it did, but it wasn't in the DSM then. It was a fringe diagnosis.
I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I'd known early on that I want to crank out spreadsheets for 8 hours a day—for fun.
Anyway, I hope you folks get dealt a better hand than me, now that our condition is real and acknowledged.
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1.9yr
ADHD/Autism = same thing theory?
I’ve seen it referenced on TikTok but I’m curious about the evidence. It seems pretty plausible. The same gene is involved apparently. There’s very high “comorbidity.” Even in non “AuDHDers” many of the symptoms of one (that an individual “doesn’t have”) are present. Autists can be very different from eachother and it seems like they may sometimes have more in common with some ADHDers than eachother. Dividing things into specific labels like this is kinda lib and undialectical anyway. People already realizing Aspergers and other things were just autism. “Pathological Defiant Disorder” (allegedly) seems to basically just be a common presentation of AuDHD. There’s also the monotropism theory that both tend to be high in. ... read full post
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1.9yr
Autism and Marxism
26
1.9yr
always paranoid
i live with my parents right now, and i often have thoughts that they are tired of me and going to have me killed or something. ... read full post
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1.9yr
Re: Acquiring medication now takes up nearly an entire day every month (because of the DEA)
This is a belated follow-up to a post from several months ago. ... read full post
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1.9yr
AuDHDers, how tf do you calm down?
I have trouble telling what the pain in my stomach is telling me, so I pretty much only just realized how bad my body hates certain sensory and social stuff. It’s as though my insides were on fire and the only way to slightly affect it is to cry (and obvi get away from the noise). I thought it was just anxiety or under stimulation before, but no, those are separate things. I have spent hours today doing various self care type stuff (meditation, being in nature, exercising, mindfully eating, yoga nitra, massage, taking a bath, fun things on the internet, positive stimulus of other sorts, zoning out), and the feeling’s still there. I don’t even mask. How do you deal with having to be in a sensory hell for hours of the day? How do you calm down? Please don’t say drugs. ... read full post
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1.9yr
Uphold ReadFanon Thought
Posts: ... read full post
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1.9yr
Revealing the background for why you think a certain way about a thing in the hopes that it will cause further understanding, only for the person to use it against you instead
Idk if this is common it happens to me a lot.
67
1.9yr
Lateness is not a moral failing, and punishment for it is systematic oppression
Timing the start of something is not a simple process. Punishing people for being late disproportionately impacts poor and disabled people. Not all of us can drive a car or even have a car to drive. We might have to wait on other people, or use public transportation, and the more steps we add to the process the more likely something is to go wrong. Punishing people for being late is systematic oppression towards these groups. This punishment can include starting without people, especially if that itself is framed as a punishment. ... read full post
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1.9yr
This Is Why You Can’t Get ADHD Treatment
https://youtu.be/eRPeU1DYOWA18
1.9yr
psychosis
I've never had, like, permanent psychosis, and psychedelics/weed/"normal" drugs have never triggered it. ... read full post
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1.9yr
SUD posting?
Substance User Disorder (drug addiction, basically) is in the DSM. It has "atypical patterns of thought or behavior". So talking about it fits here, right? What should go in c/drugs and what should go here? ... read full post
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1.9yr
Anyone else with Dyscalculia?
I've always struggled with math my entire life. It's so bad that if I can't count it out on my fingers I need a calculator. In school I was in special classes for it along with reading (not quite sure why I was in reading classes when I can read just fine, although sometimes words seem to run together, not like seeing them backwards like dyslexia though) and in those classes I still struggled. The highest math classes I took in school was algebra which I had to pass to graduate. ... read full post
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1.9yr
UNMASKING AUTISM BOOK CLUB CHAPTER SIX: "Building an Autistic Life"
WHERE TO GET THE BOOK: http://libgen.is/book/index.php?md5=F6B31A8DAFD6BD39A5986833E66293E6 ... read full post
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1.9yr
Who do they think you are?
what mask are you wearing all day?
bonus points if you'd like to disclose who you are underneath it, so we can admire and adore the real you ❤️
and if you don't know who you are under your mask, we will support and encourage your discovery process, should you choose to undertake it ❤️
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1.9yr
I have 1000 ethical debates and stupid discourses in my brain, get them OUT
Please I want to stop pretending to be a youtuber while I talk out loud to myself about the subject while I lie away or get stuck in the bathroom doing it in front of the mirror in a hyperfocused way while I forget to eat and drink water.
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1.9yr
[Vent post] Being nonverbal is a permanent condition, selective mutism is not
This isn't directed at anyone here, I've just been hitting my head against a wall of willful ignorance and lateral ableism elsewhere and it's frustrating as hell. ... read full post
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1.9yr
I am autistic, an autist, not a “person with autism”
I don't like being referred to as a "person with autism". I can't just set it down, it's not something I can remove. It is fundamental to the way I interact with the world, right down to how stim enters my brain. If my brain has types of inputs no allistic person can even approach, and methods of processing inherently different, it is an existence no allistic person can reach. There is no version of me that is not autistic. ... read full post
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1.9yr
Anyone taking atomoxetine?
Started a half dose yesterday per my docs orders, upping to full dose after a week.
Damn i feel like it knocks me out of commission. I slammed 2 energy drinks this morning and have brain fog like a mother fucker. It's like im high, got that wet blanket feeling in my brain, but without the fun stuff.
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1.9yr
Grief sucks man
Sorry i just idk where to post this. ... read full post
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1.9yr
How do you feel about breathing exercises?
It feels weird to say but I hate them. I don't know if I Would describe them as painful, but they're definitely uncomfortable. It does not feel right in my chest or my throat. And I hate how irregular the rate at which I inhale/exhale air is when I try to do it slowly. And I can't breathe in/out for as long as I've been instructed to. Ok when I write all that out it kind of sounds like I have a medical problem. But to my knowledge my breathing is fine I passed the test with that thing doctors wear around their neck the stegosaur or whatevr ... read full post