It hurts a lot knowing that I will never be happy. I don't deserve it and no lies other people tell me can change that. I just need to get rid of this yearning. To be held and loved. It will never happen. I am simply too broken and too ugly. Why would anyone burden themselves with a disgusting creature like me, when he could have a regular woman, who isn't broken. Or at the very least one that is pretty. I will never be pretty enough to be loved. Its ok. I just wish I could make peace with that fact already, but im a stupid fucking worthless bitch who just doesn't get it. In my head, I know my place, and yet I still cry because im so fucking lonely. I wish I was dead. Less garbage in the world