Trying hard to trust the process, and while I have seen other expected changes in skin, hair, and mood, I am getting anxious that nothing is happening under my shirt. I had some minor sensitivity within the first two weeks, but never anything painful. ... read full post
Three months on and I've definitely improved since last time. This was the best of several takes, and although I was trying a bit harder than usual it's not too far from my usual zero-effort voice. I just need to remember to keep the resonance tight and stay bright.
I'd give this a C- "almost satisfactory", so let it rip!
I want to say it doesn’t hurt, but it does.

It's nice to know that they don't even have the propensity to care if I'm trans. They aren't perfect (my cat is a gremlin and my dog loves to dig), but I don't care. They are the best. My dog and cat have comforted me in my worst moments. ... read full post
Well, I finally gathered the courage to have my coming out to my mother. Overall I would rate the experience a solid 4/10. The first reaction was kinda trash (She replied with, "does that really have to be") and then later complained, that I told it to her at around 8pm, because now she will think about it and probably wont be able to sleep that easily. Some of her not so nice other reactions: ... read full post
Well, as the title said: I got the courage to finally go out with a skirt. Specifically i would meet up with a friend and his girlfriend in the next city, eat something and then go to the club. The worst part was, when I had to walk through my city wearing it, since Im absolutely paranoid, that anything about me being trans comes to my family through some of my brothers fellow students (he studied at the same University as I do and I am active in the same social circles as he was), since Im not out to them already. The only reason I was able to go to the train station was, since I smoked some weed to be a little bit more relaxed, wore it over my pants (also because it would be cold at night when I was coming back and I also needed them for the pockets), listened to unhealthily loud deathmetal, wore my most comfy hoodie and pulled the hood over my head and completely hid my skirt with a jacket I knotted around my hips. The walk to the train station was pure stress for me. If someone would have poked me with a needle i would probably have exploded like a baloon. After I arrived in the city I was getting a little bit more comfortable and started not covering my skirt completely all the time. ... read full post
Mods, please lmk if this post is not appropriate for this community ... read full post
Someone at work that used to be my direct manager had a meeting with me to introduce themselves. They didn't recognize me at all and I didn't want to out myself by disclosing who I was, so I went along with it. ... read full post

As the title says, do you have any tips and tricks that you think are good for dealing with sudden outbursts of Dysphoria, so you dont feel like shit until you fall asleep (at least that's when the Dysphoria ends for me usually).
So I started oral estradiol 2mg and bicalutimide 50mg about 2 weeks ago. A week in, I started feeling these weird pains in my body. They felt like small stabbing pains that immediately dulled - almost like the pain of getting an injection, and were always in my legs, arms, or chest. ... read full post
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Well, so yesterday night i had tthe "luck" of getting to feel what depersonalisation and derealisation (DPDR) actually feels like. ... read full post
I recently asked this community how you experience dysporia, however it seemed like no one had the same "symptoms" that i am currently experiencing and Im not really sure what it is. ... read full post
Well, the egg "cracked" I guess. After 24 years, I've realized that I'm probably NB or trans. Looking back, I think that for a long while now, there's been something in the back of my mind. Like a seed of doubt. I can think of any number of things that could've contributed to it. And it's weird to me because I haven't really felt any dysphoria, at least I can't think of anything off the top of my head. But I know that there's something off. ... read full post
the label and the manufacturer of my een say not to expose it to light. what happens if it is? last week i did my injection, but forgot about the warning and was holding it up near my bathroom light while i drew the needle. is it still safe/effective? tonight's my next shot, probably should have asked sooner :P ... read full post
Yesterday I was in a car accident. I'm really OK (some mild brain injury and bruising), the car is not. ... read full post
Well, as the title says, I Am curious what Dysphoria feels like for you? When/how did you realise, that certain feelings are in reality Dysphoria?
Edit: Damn, some of you really have lived through a lot. I Am very happy that I can't really relate to quite some of the comments here, because that sounds horrible.
So I got home and was taking off my makeup. In the mirror I saw a girl taking off her makeup, and I thought, I wish that was me.
That is all.
I keep thinking about the experience of feeling body envy towards cis women. Since I cracked my egg I've started to notice I have two distinct sets of feelings towards cis women, which can sometimes overlap, one being romantic/sexual desire and the other being envy for their body and femininity. I think for a long time I conflated those feelings and thought I felt sexual desire towards women who really I just wanted to be, and at other yet more unfortunate times didn't recognize my sexual desire for someone as such due to the lack of envy. It's made me wonder how much of my sexual life and awakening has been colored by my desire to be the women I thought I just wanted to bone. Definitely some at least. ... read full post
Title. Does anyone have advice? I can find jeans long enough no problem, tall options are fine. But anytime I find an appropriate waist measurement (~35") the hip measurement is 7-8" larger than mine.
Edit: to clarify, I would want a little extra in the hips to help give the impression of, well, hips. But 8 extra inches seems excessive.
My name is Cyara Kaira. I’m a transgender woman, human rights activist, and asylum seeker currently living in South Sudan. Right now, my community and I are facing an incredibly urgent and dangerous situation. ... read full post
My name is Cyara Kaira. I’m a transgender woman, human rights activist, and asylum seeker currently living in South Sudan. Right now, my community and I are facing an incredibly urgent and dangerous situation. ... read full post