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My parents love my gf and they haven't even spoken to her (language barrier). They know she's trans and love her still my dad's gonna pray for her same with his church buddies but so she'd can pass her exam she's studying for. Having great parents and an amazing gf really is a blessing, things may not always work out in my career but at least I got love in abundance

This last spring was my 13th year hormonersary. Such an unreal thing to write, even more unreal to be a part of such a vibrant community here. Love you all

Well chat, forget what I said the other day about people not being able to see, my fav coworker (knows I'm on hrt tbf) pointed them out and said I'm "blossoming". Talked about me needing to wear a bra. "You've got tits!". Was swimming (also tbf, with a shirt on ofc). She also said I'm glowing so I guess my better mood is visible too :) That I am very visibly doing better. Had a really good talk with her tonight. And I'll see her again on Saturday!

Since a bunch of other people were saying it, I'm 8 months hrt, a little over two years since I accepted I am trans.

I can't really complain about what hrt has done so far but I definitely need my tits to keep growing for a while longer... really glad at the body hair reduction though I got super lucky, shaved like 5 days ago and its still basically nothing. Wish E did more but for what it does I've been doing okay I think. Need more tits.

I have concluded that I am in fact non-binary. I feel happy the way I am (e.g. long hair but wearing formal male clothing) and don't feel the need to transition into being a female. With that being said, I do not feel like a man and do not want to have to live up to toxic masculinity.

Anyways, happy pride month!

I hit one year on hrt the 12th

Estrodiol is amazing

Already gone from an a to a b and feel so much happier with myself in general

Really weird that I'm trans

I don't have anything to post about my little transgender life though. Started my summer job today and it's very chill. There's also a guy here who might be gay? Has gay vibes.

But it definitely is weird that I'm trans

::: spoiler Medical I had to go to a sexual health clinic for some matter, and ended up having to mention I was trans. And it was perfectly fine!? It was a clinic oriented towards LGBT+ people but Medical places generally make me uncomfortable (recent news doesn't help). They gave me some info for injections and also mentioned that if I ever have lumps developing around my breasts that don't feel normal I should get them checked there. Anyone heard of this/know more about this? :::

Today is the 2nd anniversary of deciding to transition!! In 2 weeks will be my 2nd HRT anniversary. Thanks to all the DIY suppliers for making it quick and painless to get started.

Congrats on 2 years, celebrating my first month.

Today I got my name and gender entry legally changed. Feels amazing.

Happy Pride to yall

made it out to the trans gathering I had been putting off forever. It was scary but mostly in a good way. I’m a little overwhelmed though.

::: spoiler comparison is the thief of joy I wasn’t comparing myself to that many other women because I hadn’t seen anyone since I began transition (hermit life), but fuck me there were so many gorgeous girls and I feel so hopelessly inadequate. I know everything in its time and everyone’s transition is different but Jesus Christ I really thought I was doing fine in my own lane at my own pace and this shattered that. It was really nice to be there and meet all these people, see some friends I hadn’t seen in the months since coming out, but I can’t get over how great everyone looked (fine) and how I feel in comparison (bad)

I also used my sorta deadname in introductions and it just confirmed I never want to do that again. I was too scared to use the new one but turns out that was stupid and made me feel worse. :::

I'm getting pretty good at makeup! Hrt has been doing work on my body, my wardrobe is getting pretty good too.

I'm so hot

I put the demon in pride month

Yes I want a perfect body, yes I want a perfect soul. However I DO care if it hurts. I want it to be easy thank you

It's pretty fucked up that they make trans people pay taxes.

happy pride

I hear so many trans girls complain about their experiences with providers but I've had mostly good luck with that. My previous provider retired recently so I saw a new one for the first time today. I braced myself a little since it's always hard going in without knowing what to expect, but he turned out to be really good. Some highlights:

• Approved of me stopping spiro on my own when I switched to injections, said that I didn't need it and spiro is a terrible drug
• Said to just let him know if I break a vial or whatever and he'd order another, no questions
• Told me he likes to keep track of overall health because it's sometimes neglected with other trans providers
• Just seemed to give a shit about trans patients as a whole

down with cis

Happy pride month! Laws no longer apply to us this month

During Pride Month - Leroy

Happy pride and death to america and england

2 years on HRT

I love that for you, congratulations

I'm 15 months on the HRT.

I'd already been lastering my body and taking finasteride for a couple of years so my hair was long and phenomenal. I started with pretty wide hips weirdly and I'd lost a lot of weight rowing.

I've been eating so much. So I've got decent breast growth. My breasts would be big on a smaller girl. My butt is coming in nicely. I gained an inches in height from confidence.

Skins been great. I'm losing the puppy fat ageless look but I look way different to before. Clocky but different.

Mentally it really helped.

i remember when you first transitioned!

::: spoiler kink, nsfw Dominant who commands their sub exclusively with Bop It voice lines :::

Sometimes I forget the writer of the Altered Carbon books is a huge transphobe. Because what a rich setting for trans story telling. The person who gets their egg cracked by renting an opposite body for a night, the schism in the trans community between trans people who use gene-modifying viruses to change their original bodies, versus those who find someone who wants to do a 1:1 swap with them, both thinking the other is less trans then the other, the ultra rich cloning themselves but with doubled x-chromosomes or donor Y chromosomes to be the gender flipped but genetically same version of themselves, etc

Hi my lovely trans comrades, I love all of you, haven't posted here for too long. I am doing well on the girl front I think, I get a lot of compliments for my thrift store outfits, and seem to be quite good at girl. Else, electro is a lot harder to organize when working even just a bit. Oh well, at least I am really good at shaving now(the tricks are oil, cleaning the razorblade after each use and regular skin care.)

heaven help this girl flirting with me, she's opening pandora's box by giving me attention

Oh shit it is pride month. I was so confused ....

Since my parents live in a super liberal city I'm sure they're being bombarded with pride month stuff and I wonder what it makes them feel like. I especially wonder about my dad who might even have to say some words about pride at work.

Oh I'm sure both my parents can lie through their teeth, but I do get some smug satisfaction that for a whole month they're going to have to taste the rainbow and I didn't even have to lift a finger

It's weird that breast growth was one of the things I was super nervous about liking when I was first figuring out I'm trans and now I just can't wait for them. They're like, noticeable enough for me but like, no one else could enjoy lol.

Why am I like this 😭

Girlmoded for my uni assignment because I didn't have good quality "boy" clothes (as was requested for the assignment). It's sure to give the lecturerer a surprise.

Coming up on 7 months on hrt (and 10 months off alcohol), and it’s unbelievable how much better my life is now compared to a year ago. I can work towards a future i couldn’t imagine before. I can exist without feeling fraudulent. And the physical changes have been a blessing, I feel so much more confident, even though not that much has occurred

Life is so much better when you have a piece of media to obsess over

Happy Tranniversary!! My 2 year mark is in two weeks!!

congratulations on your tranniversary, tucker carlson. i hope you got a good stat boost.

Congrats on two years :cat-trans:

I guess we doin life updates now

Tomorrow is 500 days on HRT, about 6.5 months on injections and 2.5 months on prog. I should probably be happier about how things are going but I still find ways to fret. Mainly just wrapped up in feeling terminally undesirable and like the stench of maleness is never gonna go away. But probably like 20% a real problem 80% in my own head

I have decided to do a new name though. below is the list of interesting ones I'm working off of. Let me know if you find any of them particularly nice (or bad ig)

Riley

• Con: "Primarily male" :/

Rory

• Con: Means "red king", too Gilmore Girls

Rosalind/Rosa/Rose

• Pro: repping Rosalinde Franklin, plus my old Fallen London character

• Con: Too common?

Runeille? (Made up for a DnD character, pronounced Roo-NAIL)

• Pro: Unique, good story behind it

• Con: Completely made up

Ruby (Latin, gemstone)

• Pro: Classic

• Con: Ruby isn't my birthstone, Ruby Tuesday's

Riona? (Irish Gaelic, pronounced Ree-nah or Ree-oh-na)

• Pro: Irish, funny story

• Con: Kinda weird

Ria

Remy (Remy Hadley/Thirteen from House!)

Rhea (Rhea Seehorn my goat)

Runa (swedish, "secret moon")

Rowen/Rowan ("Scottish/Irish, "little redhead)

Red

• Pro: Videogame name

• Con: Videogame name

Robina (like Robina the Hood)

Aurora (can be shortened to Rora or Rory)

• Pros: Nice origin

• Neutral: Doesn't start with R

• Cons: Fairly popular

Still having trouble accepting aging. I'm in the late stage era of being considered young, so I'm really trying to use the time I have to make peace with the future ._.

Between transition shifting life milestones around and not being interested in things like starting a f*mily, I feel pretty out of sync with life.

Best I can do now is keep a good skincare routine and brace for the future. Aging will happen whether I'm ready or not. Maybe I'll look back in a decade and think how silly my worries were.

Good night gay people and happy pride

Was helping my sister move yesterday (went from 11am to 10:30pm, I'm a walking corpse today) and when my dad and I were at her new place to unload we met the neighbors, straight couple and their 2 kids. My dad introduced himself as my sister's dad of course, and then the mom looked and me and went "are you [sister]?" before thinking the better of it after a second and saying "no, you're not [sister]".

Wasn't wearing makeup or anything flattering so maybe we take that as a partial dub?

::: spoiler reflection on comparison Oops it wasn’t hotness or “passability” I was envious of, it was the self confidence to be out in public. And I know I’m working on the same thing (I was there wasn’t I!?), so even if I was a bit butch, it’s all part of the process and not worth being ashamed of. Just need to shake off the fear of being perceived/embrace it as a fact of trans

I am tired of the half closeted state I’m still in, need to rip the bandaid off :::

I got Vinted and I love how the algorithm has no clue what gender I'm supposed to be. Boygirlthing? You want skirts? You want hoodies? You want latex gloves? You want boots? They do not know

I struggle with being able to be proud a lot, in like the community sense but also in just taking pride in myself... but I try to remember that it's good to take pride in small things, and when things are difficult there's even pride to be taken in just surviving and making it to the next day.

even if it's something I struggle in being kind to myself about, but

I'm proud of all of you, every time you make it to tomorrow

Gay month!!!!!!!!

Got tacos for taco Tuesday and I'm so fat and happy

::: spoiler cw: transphobia, depression, suicidal ideation probably more

so i'm apparently too depressed to get surgeries that i need according to the trans clinic. ive been suicidal already due to...well, many things, and this certainly wont help.

im very tired :::

Have never felt very connected to "pride" stuff but I'm also struggling w feeling disconnected from my community + I could go for kissing some strangers. Hmph what to do 🥱

So f'n bored.

Talking with a guy who might take one of my snakes. That'd leave me with one. It'd be good to not have to worry about her, I've struggled taking care of her. But I do love her. I don't know what to do. I also don't know how much to trust this guy.

Crying now. I wish I wasn't so terribly mentally ill. I wish I did normal stuff. That not everything was a struggle.

I that same vien finally de tangled my hair today. Took forever. Cried.

::: spoiler seeing someone I've kissed the same guy in the same bar two saturdays in a row and we've exchanged our instagram. He's also really fun to talk to and has a good sense of humor. We were talking about hooking up together but we both still live with our parents. We made a deal that if one of us is home alone for a day, that we can ask the other over. But we're both pretty reserved people, and even more so when we're not drunk so it's hard to say if we could find the courage to. I'm frustrated we haven't slept together yet. :::

Trans mega has always been good for recommendations, so i'm gonna ask you folks for yuri suggestions. Wholesome preferred, but good toxic yuri is ok, too. No doomed yuri pls, especially not the kind of bs where a girl ends up with a guy in the end (gross). Ideally i want stuff that's openly and proudly lesbian, but if it's really really good i can live with the yuri being strongly implied.

The lesbianic event turned out pretty well! I even danced for the first time ever and it actually turns out nobody tried to best me to death with hammers I was a little disappointed that I didn't get hit on, I thought my outfit was okay... although I was joined at the hip with my friend most of the time so maybe people just assumed

Was also taking with them about relationships while waiting for the bus and they asked if I had a type... And I was like isn't it obvious? I have the constitution of a prey animal dude

Stayed up way too late being a horny bitch and am now paying for it

new vegas modders coming through

morrowind not to be outdone

It’s one and a half years since I started hrt now. My tits continue to fill in, I have an actual cute butt thats way better than the Hank hill man ass I had, my face looks so much softer and more feminine. I’m so excited for the changes to keep coming. HRT is amazing.

Dating is too hard I can't do it

The following are the lineup of university assignments I have right now:

1. Teach a machine how to think
2. Investigate the secrets of glass by multiplying 2 light beams together
3. Pretend to interview a classmate for a trucking job.

Since everyone is sharing, I'm at 5 months HRT, not that much has changed physically, I got a couple kilos, my thighs are thicker, my butt is a little bigger, I have smol tits now, I want them to grow, but I'm just waiting for now, I have to be patient. I think the biggest thing for me is that I actually enjoy being me. I feel comfortable in my skin, somewhat, there are still problems, but I'm actually able to look in the mirror, my hair loss basically stopped, comparing to before it feels like nothing and this was a big confidence boost. I'm excited for what's next too, I've been wanting to start a new graduation (pharmaceutical science) motivated by all the curiosity I've got from this process too, I want to research trans healthcare and be an advocate for our rights in the fields of medical science.

Does anyone know a good, and hopefully not super expensive, soldering iron/station? I'm trying to make things and need to solder a lot of small things. I think I can get jlcpcb to put the maim IC on the board for not too much, but so many components require repositioning things so if I do them all it gets expensive fast. So I'll be soldering on everything from big thru holes to the tiniest SMDs (and possibly removing or re-soldering them too)

What I want: changeable tips, ability to specify temperature, and if there's a hot air gun included in it that would be nice but not needed.

I have no idea how to evaluate soldering irons/stations, and everyone just wants to sell you things or shovel llm slopsites into you, so I dont really trust the comparisons between the products I find. I dont need perfect, just good enough. I've been looking at yihua, their general stations. I can find them online for sub 100 USD (specifically the 8786, though there's an 862BD+ on sale for sub $100 right now) and they seem solid. But I have no idea what's what anymore with online shopping.

Its been a long time since I soldered anything, and even back then I was doing component to component and not working with boards, just tiny wires. It will be fun to start again tho, and i would love to be able to make electronics projects again.

Think I'm going to try taping my tits, they're actually not that small and I'm getting paranoid again

I keep opening reddit up like there's anything good there and I really need to log off, been sliding into TTTT shit and I don't need those brainworms in my life. I got jrpgs to obsess over, fanfics to write and shit to read but the damn muscle memory of opening up a reddit tab is powerful

crashed out hard in my trans group's discord at the weekend and i'm so ashamed. may the bourgeoisie perish in minecraft.

Not me crying reading each of the mass extinctions because all life could have ended (spoiler it didn't)

I've gone soft :doggirl-cry:

Wow Manhunt is heavy, not complaining since thats why we wanted to read it in the first place but like all the descriptions of transphobia/transmisogyny cut so much deeper than the basic violence and SA we expect from this kinda book anyway (weve read worse on that front, frankly, but this one still hits harder than those did)

Up with trans!!!

We have a responsibility to be as gay and annoying as possible

Listening to the latest Dan and Phil podcast ep and I really felt that. Hell yeah 😎

::: spoiler gross gastrointestinal stuff

I really gotta sort out this whole "regularly painful, bloody bowel movements thing" cause it's gotten quite old. Especially given my growing interest in recreational activities in that area...

I have a bunch of chia seeds I haven't broken into. Might try to make some chia fresca? Or start adding them in some overnight oats

:::

::: spoiler vent, regret, seeking advice I didn't transition until my late 20s. How do I come to peace with this? I'm agonized thinking about how differently my life would be right now. I'm in a much healthier place, but I'm not happy with the current state of how I live, and all I think about these days is how differently things would have gone for me if made things happen sooner :::

Feeling dysphoric and told my cis friend I wanted to headbutt a belt sander. Forgot that sounds more concerning to someone who doesn't get it

Ok fine you can have a little life update as a treat.

I'm still going out wearing my ripped jacket, broken shoes and ill-fitting bras. Not only does it save money, it also saves time. I'm pretty sure like 50% of my clothes are torn in some way. We call this frugality.

::: spoiler medical Guys I think I'm getting gyno?? Has hrt done this to any of you?? Bit worried about the side effects. ::: spoiler spoiler this is a joke sorry :::

There will come a day where I will out down ritisha as my new name not because it's meaningful to me but because I didn't think of anything else.

We call this descision making by laziness.

Or in machine learning terms a "greedy algorithm" (aka take the best you have right now without waiting to compare with future data)

my friend (afab) is questioning their gender and asked me for any resources to share. does anyone have cool recommendations? or just like queer / gender theory 101? i also made a post asking the question https://hexbear.net/post/8654119

Weekend yap again because I’m vain. This shit feels like a turning point for me. On Saturday I got a bunch of fundamental clothing (shorts, shirts, skirts, dress () and on Sunday I went to a queer trans event in someone’s backyard in a fem fit for the first time publicly. Displacing my old wardrobe feels good, being somewhere where I’m taken at face value rather than interrogated and put under a microscope feels better. It’s kinda solidifying my thoughts of coming out at work, at least I’ll be able to make my coworkers embarassed when they call me sir by having prominent tits rather than rocking a hoodie or long sleeve when it’s 90 degrees out

I also got a tattoo and was bitten by the bug, now I want to fill up a lot more space on the canvas :)

its kinda cool finally realizing the social implications of being genderfluid, like, yes... I do multiple roles, that's kind of my thing. I tend to gravitate towards the inbetween or the fluctuating roles.

Makes sense as to why I can never seem to "pick a side" in terms of identity / modes of being, which is evident in the way that I play games. Yes I do have multiple archetypes I like to play, also I will play anything.

I texted one of my friends about how I was a happy little lizard when I was basking on a rock in the sun after my run.

I feel bad about it because I dont think that message was remotely possible to make a reply to.

Was watching some enby fashion advice, they were going for a more masc look and settled on jorts getting a shock form middle school being reminded those exist

HAPPY TRANNIVERSARY!!!!

Ugh I just feel terrible today and want to leave. Can't wait to be done with this awful place.

If working full time somewhere is worse then this I actually won't know what to do anymore.

Also fuck society

They're calling her the Napoleon of Trans

Well ok it turns out crying dramatically on the floor is insufficient to summon the inventor of python to do my machine learning homework for me, so I gotta do this myself.

I hit 1.5 years of HRT a little over a week ago! My tits are small but mighty and my ass looms ever larger. I'm so happy I figured my shit out. I've never been happier!

Peanutbuttercupola

I will not be throwing my hole digging contractor down the hole. It's rude.

::: spoiler (TW: work, self harm, anxiety posting) I beat myself bloody today and the shift leader saw.

It was the first dangerously hot+humid day of the year in the factory and I spaced out on drinking my ice water for the first hour because of my ADHD (I've been trying to get meds for a while, but my panic attacks make them reluctant to prescribe stimulants even though my ADHD is what often triggers my panic attacks), and when I went to get a drink I realized I accidentally left it on an empty bin and it was taken away by the forklift material handler.

Okay. Deep breaths. Just ask for help.

So I call him back to my welding cell and ask if he could look where he took the used bin. He agrees, drives off, but he's taking a long time and I'm starting to get really anxious. On top of that the heat symptoms are starting - lips tingling, legs cramping/lethargic, rapid heart rate, very sweaty, flushed complexion, and confusion. Meanwhile, I'm continuing to run my welding cell (lots of running back and forth, bending+lifting+twisting, and focus on inspecting parts) and the confusion has me running around my cell even more because I'm trying to find where my water might be (just in case I missed it the first six times, I swear I did pushups 4 times looking under my station and bins).

He comes back fifteen minutes later, can't find it. Of course. So, uh, I punch myself as hard as I can in the face four or five times. I don't know why I do this shit. Am I trying to punish myself? It's humiliating. Anyway, then I get back to work.

I call my team lead to tell him I don't have water and I don't feel good, and he mentions the blood. I thought I wiped it all off. Shit. Okay, I'll wipe it off more and get back to work. He and a few other people look around for my water, eventually the shift lead comes by with an empty water bottle to fill and I'm excused to get some water.

And I was still bleeding, and he saw the blood, and he told me to clean myself. He knows I have a problem with self harm at work, and I've been warned about it before multiple times, and I'm certain I'm going to have to talk to HR on Monday and I'm going to get fired. I have so much fucking debt I can't lose this job, fuck fuck fuck. I ruin every opportunity I have and squander all of my second and third chances. They've talked to me about this so many times, why can't I just be fucking normal?

Before my transition, my panic attacks manifested as yelling and hitting things (in addition to the other more normal panic stuff) but now it's all self directed. I'm only yelling at myself and I'm only hitting myself, because... why? My mom self harmed, my dad was violent, am I just reenacting their behaviors? Did I simply transition from my violent dad to my self destructive mom? Am I just trying to punish myself? Do I hate myself for being a woman? For being like my mom?

And I'm fucked. I'll know for sure on Monday, but I'm already pretty sure. I won't find another job that pays as well unless maybe I get 2 jobs, and fuck me, I already live in filth and my garden still isn't fully planted and there's so many backlog projects I need to get to around the house and fuck fuck I've ruined everything like I always do. I'm going to lose my trailer, lose my car, lose my health insurance and access to hrt, I'll never be able to go back to school, I'm a fucking 34 year old kiss-less handhold-less virgin and everything gets worse forever. I have so little and now I'm going to lose what little I have - I always ruin everything.

And now I have this hanging over my head for the whole weekend. I guess I'll spend another weekend miserable, doing nothing.

I have no clue what I'll do if (when) I lose this job. I'm not finding another one this good, not in this economy. This is it.

I don't want to die. :::

congrats on two years

Let me complain about my hair being tangled again (windy outside) to my mother, this will be nice

You know what would fix that? Short hair again.

wow, that was great, great advice, great bonding experience. Glad I said something.

I hate long hair though. Too much work. But its not like I can get rid of it.

::: spoiler horny horrible exhausting day at work but it broke my brain in such a way that for some reason i can't stop thinking about how great my boobs and nipples are and all the fun things that lesbians need to do to them so i guess it's not all bad :::

Fantastic thrift haul. I picked up red fitted button up shirt, like vivid crimson red. It's not my usual style and I'm not sure when I'd wear it but it looked sooo fucking good on me I had to take it home. I tried pairing it with a black pencil skirt and it was just though I also just kinda looked like a unreleased Helltaker character.

Just feeling kinda blue today... I'm supposed to go out to some lesbianic event with a friend tonight though. Hopefully that'll lift my spirits. Or it could make me feel like complete dogwater. Who knows!

My new job is cool af. These are some WILD heart pathophysiologies

::: spoiler health

I don't know if this nausea is the symptom of exhaustion or what but I'm so fucking nauseous I can barely focus or think. I constantly feel like vomiting but there's nothing coming out.

:::

new hazing ritual:

PATCH TEST & CONSULTATION: Please arrive for your patch test with full hair growth to all treatment area(s). This is to monitor your hair-loss journey. We will shave a small area to carry out the patch test on the day.

the last place never did this to me. how awful.

Congratulations gay Tucker Carlson! Woohoooooooo (and also I guess it’s pride or whatever)

::: spoiler cw body, weight So is weight cycling real? :::

I love how every Miku song is like: "I'll sing for you! Enjoy my music! Believe in yourself!"

And every Teto song is like: "my life is collapsing I don't know who I am or what I'm supposed to do

Does ass take longer then tits to grow? I'm like 3 years in hrt; my tits are pretty big and nice. Lots of other great changes. I'm very happy with it, and honestly love my body. My ass hasn't really changed though, still pretty flat. Any hope for that?

I don't think being constantly nauseous, with a headache and sleepy is a sign of good health. Shit's lasted for more than a week now. Maybe it's caffeine withdrawals? I hope it's that and not something I have to take seriously.

Too horny for how (not) hot I am. Bitterly disappointing.

got a very gender affirming haircut for me and my readimask worked great. the seal on those are amazing and it was so nice for the barber to not have to work around the earloops of my other masks. and i saw lots of flowers too. i was all stressed about this haircut all week but it just ended up being a banger day.

Whoever is playing the frozen ost at work should be shot and I don't care if that's the 15 year old.

I am extremely bored at work, but can't think of anything to post.

Happy tranniversarry!!!!!

Swear to god I keep reading the mega titled as removedversary

I'm really going crazy atp.

::: spoiler spoiler

1. Chronic headaches that last for days (multiple)
2. Talk to imaginary figures in my head
3. Constantly repeat the same phrases in my head about content warning and "it's my fault". These phrases take over my brain.
4. Genuinely have a mini-breakdown every time I see a girl
5. I really really really don't want help or medical attention or even to help myself anymore. I'm sick of it all.
6. Genuinely loosing ability to be functional or responsible. It's a huge problem.

:::

trying to book some more laser over email. the clinic replied asking for my email address (?) and then again to ask if i'm an employee of their company because apparently me using theircompanyname@mydomain.tld to interact with them is extremely confusing

Congratssss

Since giving life updates will only reveal pathetic information I will try to post a meme instead.

Look at her. Is she not cute? Any shape can be cute! Why rhe fuck do you think youre not cute? Huh?

I really disagree with you when you say you're not cute! I'm going to fight you on it.

With punches!

winds up punch and launches it

(Idk what game that's from)

The area code for your phone number is 612

You are now doxxed

Got my hair done just in time for alternative pride (free, non-corpo, very nice politics) this weekend but my friend is sick. So I might maybe go alone. It'll probably be fine, right?

::: spoiler cw: sexual stuff, hook-ups I'm still trying to get this girl to go out and touch grass my ass, but she's depressed and doesn't leave her house, how do I do that? :::

What if I did a trans lit megathread? That could be cool. I'd need to brush up on a few things beforehand.

Me, working on literature review in da library without eating lunch

Random girl, goes around distributing home-made banana bread because why not

I just realised there's still more work to do for today.

::: spoiler dysphoria going from feeling great about my boobs to like cripplingly dysphoric about them. it feels like some kind of joke. :::

I got some straws to do those Semi-Occluded Vocal Tract excercises. Plastic, cause that's the only kinds they had at the store :/ hoping this'll help me keep up with voice training even when I can't deal with hearing myself speak

::: spoiler gross gastro cont'd Yeah a toilet bowl with contents the color of pink lemonade probably isn't good huh. Maybe I should go to the doctor :::

cognitohazard alert:

::: spoiler spoiler dbzero added two /tttt/ adjacent comms and I started to see them on the "all" sort :::

Annoyed with both jobs now, which sucks because I could probably quit one and pick up the hours at the other but I can't do that with both.

Good news is though, got tomorrow off and going to go hangout with my lesbian friend! Going to be a long ass day but it'll be fun.

Ah shit I forgot it's my week to do this. Hang on a minute I'll have a new mega up

I get horny+yearning only when I'm in bed which is also precisely the one time in my life I'm definitely not able to do anything about it.

Seeing old 3d sonic levels recreated in P-06 is nice but seeing the same enemies from 06 over and over again is getting tiring. Saw one recently recreating sky troops from shadow the hedgehog and it look ok but suddenly it goes off to do a bit of heroes before going back to shadow. Idk I'm missing older enemies more than just what 06 had to offer

It's still hard to believe that it might finally be time for Atlus to talk about Persona 6. It's all I'll be thinking about until the Xbox showcase on Sunday.

In the time between P5's original release and now I've transitioned, moved out, had my cat for seven years, just so many things. Life has changed a lot since I first played P3, which was essential to getting through an era of my life where I couldn't transition yet. It's nice to know I still feel just as excited for a new release as I did back then.

vaush is actually quite attractive ngl

Louis Armstrong - When The Saints Go Marching In

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