I'm sick of it. I'm sick of looking like a man. I am sick of feeling like a shell. I have had ONE good day in the last two weeks. The rest of them have just been misery. Life is awful. Nothing has been hitting. I just want to wake up as a woman. But I can't. I feel frozen, with life moving around me.
Yes I'm on hrt. 7 months. Out to my friends.
I can't possibly describe how terrible I feel. How much I struggle with even basic tasks.
I want nothing more then to be able to put this behind me. Given that I am always gendered male now who knows how long that will take. I just hope I can eventually. I'm worried about both my size and voice training. I just need to be done with this. I hate being closeted, I hate looking and sounding like this. Horrible experience so far.
RION [she/her] - 2mon
the big thing that gave me solace is that, as long as I keep taking my hormones, every single day is progress. even if i don't see that progress immediately, scientifically I know that they're slowly turning me into more of a girl even as i sleep.
I think it took at least a year until my first confirmed malefail? and they're still sporadic, but each one is like a hard drug
BountifulEggnog in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
I am so tired of where I am at in transition
I'm sick of it. I'm sick of looking like a man. I am sick of feeling like a shell. I have had ONE good day in the last two weeks. The rest of them have just been misery. Life is awful. Nothing has been hitting. I just want to wake up as a woman. But I can't. I feel frozen, with life moving around me.
Yes I'm on hrt. 7 months. Out to my friends.
I can't possibly describe how terrible I feel. How much I struggle with even basic tasks.
I want nothing more then to be able to put this behind me. Given that I am always gendered male now who knows how long that will take. I just hope I can eventually. I'm worried about both my size and voice training. I just need to be done with this. I hate being closeted, I hate looking and sounding like this. Horrible experience so far.
the big thing that gave me solace is that, as long as I keep taking my hormones, every single day is progress. even if i don't see that progress immediately, scientifically I know that they're slowly turning me into more of a girl even as i sleep.
I think it took at least a year until my first confirmed malefail? and they're still sporadic, but each one is like a hard drug