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I got offered a job in critical care pediatrics!!!

happy lesbian visibility week and earth day to all the trans lesbians!!

Get to hangout today with my girlfriend, my boyfriend, my other girlfriend, my partner, and my lover 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Great day to be t4t poly

Me on my lunch break rn

I gained 20 lbs while I was in surgery recovery, and I really like how big my boobs got on it... wish I could lose 20 lbs but keep my new big fat tits. This rocks.

::: spoiler bottom surgery Got to use my actual dildos on myself. Having a vagina is awesome!! You just keep going, has vibe inside feels good-weird. I never did any ass play, so this is all a first. My prostate is reachable through my vagina which is also great 👍

I only bought this fuck-off huge ones cause they were fairly close to my old size (ones a little longer but skinnier, the other is pretty bang on) and everyone Ive topped has been a size queen. I am not a size queen lol, I have never claimed to be, as great as these are they would probably be more fun if they were smaller. :::

Lunch lady commands me to give my glasses to her

I obliged with 0 hesitation

She cleans them and hands them back to me

"Much better, right"

"Yes ..."

"You gave me your glasses with 0 hesitation, you trust me that much?"

"Yes ..."

"If I asked for your wallet, would you also give it?"

"I don't have a wallet but if I had one, yes"

hit someones car when turning into my first laser appointment. Life is wild. no injuries, just shaken and embarassed. doubling down on my anti-car stance

HRT has caused me to take better care of my appearance.

It used to be the case that people would assume I was homeless and would try to donate clothes and shoes to me (this is not a joke, I've had occasions on the train station where people would take off their personal belongings and try to donate them to me*).

Now? People ignore me. Which is ... not really sure that's much better ...

It is somewhat nice to have people randomly pity you and try to give you shit. Makes you feel like the world cares. But I also like feeling like I'm sad and small and pathetic.

*this happened mostly in the winter where I wore clothes so skimpy people thought I was freezing because I couldn't afford proper clothing. It was actually because I liked freezing in the cold.

I was here just thinking about how much more comfortable, free and at peace I feel when my parents aren't home. Really makes you think

Happy Lesbian Visibility week!

Downside of being on HRT is I can't really be forcefemmed :(

After thinking it over I have decided that I don’t want to go back on HRT for a few reasons:

1. I tried it once for about a year and didn’t like it
2. I’m perfectly comfortable still presenting as masculine
3. I have a family history of breast cancer

Sometimes I feel “less valid” because I don’t want HRT but then I just remind myself that that’s the transmedicalists and gatekeepers getting to me, so it doesn’t bother me for long.

I prefer my coffee black, maybe with a bit of soya milk sometimes.

Awawawawawawawa

::: spoiler more t-phobia

I guess my chest has finally grown large enough for my parents to notice, which has caused them to make remarks about how I should get a checkup with the doctor and how it's unhealthy (god they are so controlling about my body shape).

They think it's an exercise I'm doing. Which is better than them understanding how HRT works.

But I have gotten super self-concious about myself so thanks I guess.

:::

i keep reading "bigender" as "biggender", and really, is it incorrect?

I usually make drip coffee and drink it black :) I like espressos too, which I also enjoy without anything extra, but I usually don't gravitate to it because I drink like a fish 😬 espresso does not last long and I get overcaffeinated, lose-lose lol.

Also I am living as a nonbinary woman now and it feels good! Keep seeing myself in the mirror at stores and getting euphoria. Shaved my legs finally and got a huge rush from seeing them "as they should be" 🥰 Relationship stuff is hard, but we are working through it 💜 They have been buying me flowers and helping me pick out new clothes and jewelry 💜💜💜

"I'm such a trainwreck" she says despite probably being in the top 5% of trans women in terms of having her shit together.

Chinese jasmine black tea, steeped for 2.5 minutes in slightly sub-boiling water, nothing else added. You can re-steep the tea once or twice throughout the day for a slightly mellowed flavor and lower caffeine content, so your leaves last a lot longer than you'd think.

Solidarity with my trans comrades. I got nothing else to add but my tea snob opinions, but I love ya.

Walked around a lake on a whim then went to a free botanical garden shit was tight you can pick fruit and eat it there for free, only issue is all the low hanging fruit already picked 😭 planning on taking my gf there one day and overhead pressing her up so she can get the fruit for us. Not a viable strat for everyone but why not take advantage of my strength

It's wild that HRT gives you freckles

Hi everyone, I've been lurking here (too shy to comment) for about bit more than half a year but thanks to this website I've been on HRT for 6 months and formed some sort of online presence on the comms here.

I'm not that good at introductions but I can answer the question in the post title: I don't really drink coffee but the few times have been decent. Except the time I ordered a Espresso and judging from my friend's reaction when I tried it, it really wasn't for me.

::: spoiler Question What exactly is tracha like? I know its an online group chat but I've never had experience with discord or similar. :::

Thank you to everyone who commented on the previous trans mega and enjoyed the artwork

I like my coffee iced with a lil vanilla and my green tea plain, a fresh lemon squeeze on occasion

What's a good matrix home server? Someone wants to talk to me and I need to make a matrix user again, but dont know all the hip and happening hotspots

I found a few oriented towards lgbt and/or trans people but they had things like "nothing illegal in Germany or France" which to my eyes means "Zionism is good and antizionism will be punished" which isnt great to my eyes.

(Before anyone asks, chapo.chat isnt accepting registrations anymore)

Wild that just, what like 5ml of medicine has had these various effects on me so far.

Getting through my first vial is going to be so satisfying

::: spoiler sex on hrt I am intimidated by what sex on hrt feels like. I have never been this insatiable and desperate during sex before. Which is weird because I had a high sex drive in the before times but what the hell, I swear somehow it's stronger now and it's pretty normal for me to just keep going after my first orgasm because I'm not at all sated. My partner is delighted, I'm having fun, but it certainly feels intimidating. :::

::: spoiler CW organized international transphobia attempting to try and ruin the life of a specific trans woman The Australian/UK tabloids (they're owned the same people) have doxxed Beth Upton the doctor who received all the transphobic harassment in Scotland (leading to the transphobic Supreme Court finding), she had moved to Australia and is working and training here. They found out through her AHPRA registration (the list of registered doctors and healthcare providers), meaning some ghoulish interns had been checking anglophone registries to find her. The headlines have been dogshit calling her "controversial". There has been discussion by local reactionaries about her being registered as female on AHPRA and how that shouldn't be allowed. This is despite the fact most Australian states and territories have self-ID for sex and there are plenty of trans doctors, nurses, psychologists registered on AHPRA.

It just so fucked :::

::: spoiler Transphobia

My mom outta nowhere asked me in person if I still wanted transition and thanked me when I told her no.

She also started asking me when I was going to cut my hair and said that I couldn't run away from the question by hanging up the phone cause I am here in person

I came to these people to rest and so I could fucking sleep for once.

:::

I hate the bit where after I've texted someone (not even dooming just texting) and they don't reply and I feel stupid and needy and like I should never try to contact anyone again because they probably don't want anything to do with me again

Thank you everyone for your support on my comment last mega, I meant to get back earlier but was really tired today.

The Good Doctor fucking sucks lmao

Genuinely incapable of calming myself down. Both with regards to all this shit but also a work issue.

Why do I have to spend my life with my entire nervous system on fire

Rion, I can't reply to your Yuri dog comment on lemmygrad because it somehow doesn't exist, but let it be known I would like to reply "woagh"

I learnt how to purr by rolling my Rs

This information might be useful to some people 0_o

I don't know who tho

i just think it's bullshit that i can't purr ㅤ/ᐠ - ˕ -マ

i feel like recently, i'm really feeling like there is a lot of gender/sex/sexuality theory that I find really basic and in some cases, enforcing cisheteronormativity (not here) but I feel like some of you might understand a little what I mean, even though i'm being kinda vauge about it. Its like... I only really want to hear about theory that cuts to the root of it all

I didn't know that I'd be getting a bonus boob upgrade with the injections in under 30 days. I'm an injection truther now

Part of this is probably more water retention since I'm off spiro now but there's been noticeable growth too. I'm just surprised since it's been so long since I started hrt

::: spoiler kissing So I IRL ghosted someone and I feel bad, even if he kind of deserves it. I was kissing this guy in the club and it was very hot at first, but I couldn't get over his bad kissing. He kept biting my lips very hard and the longer we made out, he starting getting rougher. He also started pulling on my hair, and grabbing my crotch. And whenever I told him to stop doing those things or hinting at it, he kept doing it again a while later. I decided that I wasn't going home with him, but instead of telling him directly I told him I was going to the toilet and then I left. He had it coming but I still feel like I should've told him directly :::

Starting some new medication. Doctor is concerned that my mostly unmanaged anxiety disorder would be exacerbated by most ADHD meds since they're stimulants (kinda bullshit, overstimulation is one of by biggest triggers but whatever) so instead I've been started on a norepinephrine re-uptake inhibitor. That still might exacerbate anxiety, so we're starting on a low dose and working up.

It'll take a while to get the blood levels high enough to be effective, so won't know if this does anything for a week, but I'd love to actually do the things I want to do instead of just thinking about doing them and being anxious because I'm not doing anything.

::: spoiler content warning

::: spoiler Transphobia, depression and body shaming

Yeah besides just trying to constantly interrogate me about depression or transness (both of which I'm suspected to have) in the most threatening and emotionally manipulative ways, my parents have started body-shaming me.

I really did not expect this. It's a new thing. This "vacation" has become a nightmare very quickly.

:::

Gender affirming back pain

Owwie

Ah ... ah ... ah

Average interaction with uni admin:

Me: presses wrong button

Admin: fuck you

Me: please un fuck me :(

Admin: hahahahaha no. Go talk to your academic supervisor for next steps

Academic supervisor: un fuck the student please good sirs

Admin: 😢 oki

Admin: sends me an invoice of 50 euros pay this and we will unfuck you

Kill every single car

Gas to $40 a gallon

i usually do my tea "grandpa style," throw in some white tea or oolong in my matcha bowl, pour some hot water over it, let it cool down, and drink + resteep throughout the day. Sometimes I make my tea gongfu as well when i have the time with all my tea tools, gaiwans, and little pots. :) otherwise, cold brew + oat milk in mug gets me going.

I am a tea purist, by which I mean I only drink bagged tea. Thank you for your attention to this matter!

Coffee is for people who enjoy the bitter end of the taste spectrum. Fortunately you can drown it in milk and sugar to make it palatable. I was watching a period drama once on Chinese TV and one Qing dynasty ponytailed gentleman said to another: "Try this, it's a new drink from the West." The other: "Blech!" It's vile! What is it?" The first: "kāf ē ī"

(coffee)

I found the most incomprehensible before and after of my life holy shit

Screenshot of how I looked summer 2024 vs how I looked today HOLYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I wish I could post pics of myself online without immediately torpedoing my opsec I look actually hot in the new one

Is it normal to be easily tired and fatiqued when starting hrt? Ive been feeling that way and im guessing its cuz my body is getting used to the new hormonal balance+the whole second puberty thing taking a bunch of energy (im on injection monotherapy, its not cuz of any AA side effects)

I've been playing this game called The Farmer Was Replaced, you control a drone using python. Basically a sneaky way to practice beginner level python. It plays a bit like an idle/incremental game as well which I like. I've been wanting to kinda get back into python so this has been nice

I wrote a function to move my drone to any arbitrary coordinates. I spend a lot of the game basically just looping over the farm. But anyway, new crop gets a multiplier it fills the field. BUT there's a chance for it to die, therefor not combining. So I wanted a way to plant the field, then be able to go back and selectively replant instead of having to fly over the entire field. Right now I have to fly over everything if even one crop died. I think the best way to keep track of dead crops is a 2d array, also need to figure out a way to pick the nearest crop to fly to. That's definitely going to be harder. BUT anyway the fly code felt super satisfying to figure out even if the solution looks simple comments were just me working through the problem.

::: spoiler code

# if we are at 1, 1 and we want to go to 0, 5
def fly(target_x, target_y):
	current_x = get_pos_x()
	current_y = get_pos_y()
	
	difference_x = current_x - target_x
	# 1 - 0 = 1
	# this needs to translate to moving 1 west
	difference_y = current_y - target_y
	# 1 - 5 = -4
	# this needs to translate to moving 4 north
	
	if difference_x >= 0: # number is positive, move west
		for x in range(difference_x):
			move(West)
	else: # number is negative, set absolute and move east
		difference_x = abs(difference_x)
		for x in range(difference_x):
			move(East)
	
	if difference_y >= 0: # number is positive, move south
		for x in range(difference_y):
			move(South)
	else: # number is negative, set absolute and move east
		difference_y = abs(difference_y)
		for x in range(difference_y):
			move(North)
	
	return
	
fly(5,3)
fly(2,7)
fly(5,0)
fly(2,7)
fly(0,0)

:::

I just wanna be okay. I think I'm gonna get there but it's hard... Often harder than when I was content to stay broken. Wish someone would take care of me

I love coffee but it hurts me, so tea it is! Straight oolong for now

Chat what do u do abt the loneliness and feeling im drifting further apart from everyone and that ppl secretly hate me

::: spoiler cw: transphobia/cis obliviousness My mom just keeps repeatedly calling me her son. After that failed coming out attempt and I just can't deal with this anymore. I want to get as far away from this place as I can, as soon as possible. :::

Kinda wanna start an engineering youtube channel to show off my silly projects (currently working on a cool walking scorpion combat robot, and a full controller - no more mouse/keyboard - for Kerbal Space Program) but being trans on youtube/the general internet is very different from being trans in my very-accepting local environment, so maybe I won't.

egh I hate having to do my injection. I don't mean to complain about this every week but fuck.

Honestly I don't really want to do anything for myself though

I just ran out of both unflavored green and black loose-leaf teas today, but luckily I timed my order pretty well a month ago and should be getting ~2 kg of the good stuff from China any day now. I do western-style brewing for convenience's sake, with my tiny, cute-ass teapot, with a little bit of honey.

deadlock Mina is cute

down with cis

::: spoiler hrt been lightly rationing my e patches ever since i started them, figure it cant hurt to have a stockpile, but also get to occasionally be like "ok, its been a week, lemme take my next patch early as a treat" :::

Another sleepless night :)

Spent it all sweating/shivering like crazy and constantly waking up.

I'm pretty sure this is some combo of stress plus dysphoria.

I stayed up late working on a creative project. Kind of sleepy today, but I love that feeling of getting so caught up in a project. Wouldn't trade that sleepy satisfaction feeling the next day

I think I'm more upset at being stood up than I thought I was

Gendered bathrooms consistently cause me psychic damage now which is fun. My workplace doesn't have them which I guess is how I've avoided how shitty this is hitherto, but not so lucky at the two events I've had to attend this week. All I can do is just sigh with resignation as I enter the men's.

I did realize when I looked in the mirror that it was probably pretty obvious to everyone that I'm not really a guy. My chest isn't bursting out or anything but it's on the noticable side of subtle in this kind of shirt

I got some local grown light roast and it's super delicious. I drink it with a drop of milk but no sugar

I see this random little white girl rocking an Indian style face paint and it completely crushed my confidence. She mogged me so fucking hard I can't recover. What the hell have I been doing this whole time?

One really frustrating dysphoric thing

::: spoiler social dysphoria Is feeling dysphoric about the way I'm acting/talking with guys. Because like, I'm choosing to act that way, and that's how I feel like I "naturally" am, it just feels so gross though. But I literally don't know how to change it. Like with women, I feel a lot more comfortable with how I act. I can mirror them, I can be natural and it feels fine. I don't feel like I'm a man talking to a woman, more like just two people talking. But with a man I feel like another man and it's gross. Idk how to fix. :::

tea, black tea, green tea, white tea, hibiscus too. sometimes with (oat)milk, btw, sometimes as is. always atleast one and half litres. on the daily, every day

green or black tea with some kind of fruit added (guava or pear). steeped until cooled down so its as strong as possible. sometimes I forget the half drank steeping mug till the next morning and then drink it cold and slightly thicker from the concentration yum.

::: spoiler kink I went to a sex shop to buy a flogger for experimentation purposes and ended up getting upsold for something I'm literally never gonna use because I was overwhelmed and didn't know what I was doing lol :::

Godd I've been loving Mexican food so much lately and there's two near where I work, both speaking Spanish in the kitchen and they're sooo good. I tried the one slightly further away today but only got a couple tacos as a snack and I'm craving more so bad.

Which reporter might have "whatever it is it takes", to attempt to shoot Trump?

Im the final comment

Posting after reading this is a ban offense

Posting without reading this is a ban offense

Not reading every comment or post I've ever made is a ban offense

Is it unnecessarily risky to do DIY HRT without getting blood tests? The closest place I can get gender-affirming care is an hour away, and I can't drive, and my parents refuse to take me to get that kind of care. I don't think I can afford something like Plume. If I were to DIY like some pills or something without getting blood work done, would the risks outweigh the reward? I don't know what the risks would be to even try to decide for myself.

Keep getting games in my feed that look cool but are definitely designed to be 4 player experiences :/

Cuddling with my little brother was the best cure to insomnia all along hehe

I use a french press, my favorite is a medium colombian roast brewed for two minutes and topped with steamed milk. My favorite tea is this lavender/black blend from a local boba place that's sickeningly sweet and amazing.

God I do want a giant pet that can kill people.

I am a tea purist. I enjoy the full flavor of the leaf. No need to cut with milk or lemon. Don't get me started on sugar teas!

Boba tea is fucking delicious if I can find a vegan one.

I appreciate the taste of nice coffee, whether made at home with good equipment or from a shop. But, tbh, cheap ass coffee made in a cheap Mr Coffee ass machine gets the job done for me in the morning, so that's what I do.

Tea I like loose leaf black breakfast tea I get from a really good local place. Sometimes with nothing, sometimes milk and sugar

::: spoiler spoiler

Assume this is me catching 💤 s with my brother

:::

I hate working in the evening so much, I feel like I'm spending my whole day anxious and on edge. Usually I just get up and get there.

5 days late on my shot and my roseaca is so much worse than usual

I like loose leaf green tea. I heat water in my electric kettle, pour it over the leaves in a pyrex to steep, then pour through a mesh strainer into my mug. Usually I make sure to use a little less water than would fill the mug so I can add a touch of cold water to make it drinkable right away.

If you aren't given a break by the uni, just take one yourself. By that I mean you should skip classes. By skipping classes I mean that your body gives out and you literally can't wake up on time despite all the alarms you set.

aw yeah first

17 grams of very lightly roasted preferably Ethiopian beans to 350 grams of water, preferably a few degrees below boiling. Absolutely no bladed grinders, on the course side of medium grind, spray with a light mist of water to prevent static on your grinder. Scoop out the floating grounds after allowing it to settle, seep in French press for at least 9 minutes, don't depress the plunger all the way through the coffee once ready to serve, depress the metal filter just below the water line and pour into glass. Allow the last dregs of coffee to remain in order to minimize fines. Thank you for asking B)

::: spoiler suicide Was trying to think of how exactly to express my pain and what is wrong, but it feels pointless right now. Part of the problem is there are so many things that are so severely wrong.

It is all too much for me to live through and suffer with. Any one of the issues being trans causes me would be a lot. Plenty of them are enough on their own for me to want to kill myself

No one in real life really cares. Not enough to let me actually explain myself, my problems, and believe me. Why would they. :::

Idk what exactly it is but I feel constantly and weirdly hungry. It's kinda scary.

Feeling incredibly pessimistic and doomer, thinking about both my personal transition and the world at large.

Drink coffee with just soy milk myself, I know people rave about oat milk in coffee but soy tastes better to me. No sugar just coffee and soy milk

Update regarding feeling bad about being stood up: I stopped taking my new med and I feel better about it

I like many kofi, many kofi good. Every morning I have drip with whole milk, because its easy. I like Turkish kofi but its a treat and I can't make it at home. the aeropress is fine but I normally want more than 1 cup and dont want to clean a whole aeropress just to have more kofi. percolators/stovetop machines have the same problem. French press is nice too. I dont like pourover cause its just frustrating to do for multiple cups. Not as frustrating as perc&aero tho. I dont want ritual, I want sweet dark bean juice with milk, and I want it now.

French press

Oh nice french press tastes good!

for 15-20 minutes.

Oh dear god that sounds terrible.

Im not extroverted, just regular verted ✨️

Late in the mega so im complaining

::: spoiler dysphoria Being trans sucks. Years completely wasted. Alienated. I want to be a woman. Instead I'm just a sad, gross looking man.

What I want to look and be like is too far from reality. I can't get there. I don't have anything in me to put in the actual effort to be a woman.

Its just sad. Heartbreaking. Despair.

Life is not worth living. And it is literally all because of this. Because I'm trans. Because of what being born with the wrong parts did to me. :::

God I'm so fucked and so stupid

I have been super emotionally distressed these past few days (especially after my parents continued to hurt me on sunday). So I give in to my impulses and in the middle of a lecture make my dad book me a train to them.

::: spoiler content warning

::: spoiler suicide

My boobs have grown bigger, and my hair has grown longer. I'm only risking things by going back. And these are the people who keep hurting me and endangering my life by pushing me to suicide

I keep having these daydreams where I'm outed at their home and kill myself in front of them. Why the fuck am I being so self-destructive? Do I really just want to kill myself but want my death to have an impact?

:::

Insomnia .... ah what a removed you are. Please let me sleep past 4:30 AM. I promise, I don't have more work to do ...

Down with cis

Also, about half-and-half almond milk and heavy cream, and usually a lighter roast because I'm a caffeine fiend. If it's dark roast, I might throw in a little bit of honey and maybe molasses to take the edge off, but I also tend to get garbage-tier coffee due to time constraints.

recently got into longjing tea, there was a vendor nearby and i'm trying to avoid using teabags at this point so i'm making the switch to loose leaf. with most other green teas i would add a little bit of agave but i don't think longjing tea needs it. only thing i still have to add is my tummy medicine.

i got some roasted tieguanyin as well but haven't tried it yet. green tea is just so part of my routine that it's difficult for me to switch it up for a day but i'm really curious about the taste...

Tried to use an aero press once and blasted hot coffee sludge all over the wall of a tiny kitchen in the offices of the royal navy.

Anyway I use a French press at home (steep for 4 minutes -- 15 minutes, wtf?) and add maple syrup to it because my beans are cheap.

french press everything. cold or hot. raw sugar (tea and coffee) or honey (tea) if i have some.

i've basically given up on coffee for the most part because tea is such a better bargain and it doesn't tear my guts up in the morning. also it's easier to decide my caffeine strength (black tea = strong, green = medium, white = nighttime)

AREOPRESS REPRESENTTTTTTTTTTT

I FUCKING LOVE MY AREOPRESS

ITS ELEVEN YEARS OLD AND HASNT LET ME DOWN

IVE HAD IT SO LONG THE PLUNGER BROKE

THE METHOD WHERE YOU FLIP IT UPSIDE DOWN IS THE WAY TO GO AND I HAVE SPILT IT LESS THAN 10 TIMES EVER.

YES I AM SINGLE.

Turkish coffee is the best coffee, they got it right the first time.

SPREAD EAGLE CROSS THE BLOCK

Love good coffee but I drink instant with a bunch of cream and sugar in the morning because I can't be bothered to do anything else. It certainly is caffeine!

In other news, it's 9 months since I met my GF today and I love her very much. :snail-wave:

Tomorrow is therapy for the first time since my crash out/OCD flare/??? and I just hope it goes okay. I want to get better and so I will get better, but that doesn't mean it'll be easy... I hope she can just dismiss my BPD worry because of something really simple that I missed

beans.mp4

How do I take my coffee?

Getting into heat load calculations is pretty tight, it's basically one big calculation I gotta do over and over again and having the lay out of the house alongside the orientation, longitude, and materials plus the hottest time of the year handy. I'm sure there exists apps for this but some good old math and tables to look up is honest.

I'm still praying I get into this union I tested for last week but if not I'm doing what I can to keep learning and not sink into a funk. I already did a course on udemy on vent design now heat load calculations. Remember folx check your library's electronic resources page you might just have access to free programs like this.

My coffee: black, medium roast, french press. My tea: charcoal roasted oolong.

felt fucking great, come home and now its just :/ I could cry. Just hit me. I'm lonely I think. And dissatisfied with life.

I like my tea with boba because i'm weak to anything with lots of sugar, but it's so expensive

Also my therapist confirmed some of my behavior is quite BPD coded but that a diagnosis would likely not be helpful. I'm looking to do DBT anyhow and there's heavy stigma associated with having something like that on my record

the best coffee I've ever had was in Costa Rica, they use something called a chorreador and it looks like this

but I am not a coffee drinker, I mainly drink loose-leaf tea. my favorite is Longjing green tea, or Assam if I'm in the mood for black tea

Sorry too many comments again. They're quite dark heh. But also perhaps corny. Well it's my true feelings! Don't judge :(

::: spoiler content warning

::: spoiler death

I am too dependent on other people and what they think of me. It is a chain that binds me. I want "support", but what does that mean? Just a feeling of not being alone?

Why do I need to feel like I'm not alone?

Humans are born to be lonely and to die by our lonesome. We must live our own lives.

Not wanting to die alone is just my fear. I must overcome it. I need to learn how to withstand solitude, or I'm going to keep hurting myself.

:::

CYCLEHOLICS

Oh my god, Based God

You could steal my car, Based God

Gas prices to the maximum

Gasoline on a hunnid-thousand, hundred-trillion a gallon

Oh goddamn, Based God

Mmm I'm a big cold brew enjoyer. Much less acidic! Now that's getting warm again I think I'll try to go back to that vs the cafe latte protein shakes I've been doing

Tea only for me, mostly herbal teas. I have this yummy red hibiscus tea with orange peal and mint I'm going through right now, usually with a splash of oat creamer and a scoop of artificial sweetener with dinner.

I've fallen asleep in my headphones twice now and now the ear cups are all ripped up. Have to order new ones. At least I can get replacements

@CARCOSA@hexbear.net pin pls

::: spoiler mild nsfw

This is the ideal 3 people marriage

:::

I have an aeropress and I feel like it makes coffee that's way too weak. How do you make it actually make coffee strong?

So, for context, a lot of the people I'm friends with or otherwise close to are people without a lot of friends or otherwise on the "outside". Just how things work out, could speculate why, whatever is how it is.

But what's frustrating for me then, is when friend one is frustrated I'm friends with friend two. Neither of them get along with hardly anyone. This situation keeps happening, and like ofc it happens. Everyone I like is generally unliked or struggles to get along with others. But damn I keep getting in this position and it sucks.

I've been in a wierd state since about 3 AM this morning where no matter what I can't go back to sleep but my head hurts so much.

Currently 5:30 AM. Past 2 and a half hours of conciousness have been rough. But the rest of the day should go fine once I fully wake up.

I like pour overs (origami or kalita wave depending on how confident I am that day) but I use aeropress for decaf because that shit is impossible to get right otherwise.

I take my coffee iced with soy milk and sugar. Tea depends on the type. I drink green tea hot and black tea iced, with nothing added for either. I also like hot Chamomile tea before bed. Oh and green tea with mint is wonderful, I like it iced on a summer day.

Will from tv Hannibal was much better autism representation

I add oat milk to either coffee or tea, though I can drink tea without anything. Never been able to drink black coffee.

I usually drink an energy drink for a treat drink, but I swap that for iced canned coffee probably once a week. I don't usually drink coffee hot. Tea I can enjoy either way.

Oatmilk with strong espresso and no sugar

I'm so tired and drained. I wanna cry. Work this week has been a lot.

I could write a whole book about my coffee / tea experience so I will just stick to the present.

I like coffee desert, basically. I will take a gas station coffee and I gotta have irish cream, french vanilla, hazlenut, or all three mixed together. French roast or dark roast, mixed with medium or light. I like to add a couple tablespoons of cinnamon.

currently I have no coffee making device, coffee is getting more expensive, and I drink too much of it. So I have a jar of instant coffee I can add to stuff. I will make the viral whipped coffee sometimes, equal parts coffee, sugar, water, whipped to a mousse. I add cinnamon to it of course, brown sugar, sometimes cloves, nutmeg, allspice, ginger, which is the basis of pie spice (pumpkin spice) and then you add it to whatever medium, served hot or cold.

Right now I have been making earl grey tea in a big mug that holds at least 2 cups, boiling temps, steeped for 15-20 min, 1/16 lemon wedge, and a spoonful of sugar.

Hi, I posted earlier in the mega asking about DIY without blood tests. Thanks for the information and warnings! I guess I'm probably just going to hope my disability benefits claim works out and maybe I can then afford to get Plume? I dunno. It feels like the goalpost just keeps moving. Hopefully I can get there at some point.

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Remembered this event for some reason today and it made me sad. At least myself and my mom are gainfully employed but she's still in that fuckass building paying way too much and the wealthy friend had a brain bleed or something and doesn't seem like he can help anymore. I wish my parents were secure

I have black coffee from a drip filter on a timer on the morning. If I'm at a cafe I have an oat flat white.

At two of my work places they have coffee pod machines and I might have a black coffee if I am running late

I like strawberry flavoured green tea in a bag at work in the afternoon.

With guests I might brew a pot of black tea (vanilla bergamot early grey) or a herbal tisane, especially if I'm doing tarot. I have a little warming stand with a candle for the pot.

I make iced peach tea in summer.

i drink coffee and tea black at home, but if i'm at a cafe with a proper espresso machine i'll have a flat white with oat milk

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This they/them be cute

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Am I a masochist because the feeling of pain makes me feel less guilty? It's like I'm being punished. It makes me feel like it evens out the score a bit.

What am I scoring myself against? Uh ... I don't know exactly. The universe? For what crime? For being alive pretty much ...

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I drink black cold brew. I started drinking cold coffee when I was doing construction cause unless I brought it, Id have to buy a cup on a break. And then Id have to down it in like 15 minutes and didnt want to do that with hot coffee. So now I have a taste for plain black iced coffee or cold brew with nothing else. Cold brew has more coffee per coffee.

I still drink tea but not as much after HRT. I loved licorice root tea, and the weird European licorice candies. Anyway, it turns out licorice is a mild anti androgen so I was micro dosing HRT for ages lol.

Drip coffee, using an inox steel filter and brazilian style: very hot and in 35°c heat. It's so funny we drink hot coffee everyday even in scorching days, I love it.

I don't usually sweeten my coffee, but I do like a nice oat milk cortado. 😋 I usually do a siphon brew or french press. usually an Ethiopian variety, but any kind of light roast really.

I've drank a lot of mate in my life too and I love me some oolong and puer teas.

sweet just isn't my thing

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Genuinely life ruining and cis ppl don't get it :::

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