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I havent gushed about my bottom surgery lately but I am very happy about having a vagina and the results of the surgery!! This shit kicks ass

I can't get over that stat that there's probably 400,000 trans internally displaced refugees in the USA. As in people who've fled one state to another. That's like a factor of 10 more I would have guessed. If a civil war had displaced half a million people that would be news worthy

The world is getting so much scarier for trans people and I feel like I just have to come out. I've been a closter enby agender for years and only ever come out to one person, but I think if I don't come out soon, I never will.

But fuck I hate having that conversation. Like "hey, I'm not who you thought I was and I don't like who I was. Please love me regardless." And my friends and family are all good people who will accept me and do their best and really try to respect me, but it's still so scary.

No matter how terrible life gets, my mood always improves when I realise that I'm destined for some real nice tits

(´･ω･`)

(Not going to post actual size cause that feels wierd. Is it wierd?)

They should invent HRT that fully gets rid of body hair.

transitioning is a type of looksmaxxing

Things are starting to look pretty bleak in my relationship. They are an anxious personality type and are needing constant assurance that nothing is changing. Things are not changing in who I am as a person, but damn, we don't want anything to change? My lifelong depression should just stay this way?

This is probably just from me not feeling sure about who I am. If I could come out as trans without friction, I'd probably do it just to try. I'm waiting for the waveform collapse. I have to do something even though I don't know what that is, I can't stay in the closet like this much longer. Please send your best vibes.

transfem dorothy saying "we're not in kansas anymore" but it's actually a good thing and she's never going back again

started HRT today, nervous as all hell, but I've been making more music and i really have y'all to thank for regaining the confidence to get back at it. lots goin on over here lmao

i like the person i am dating 🙂 they are cool and smart and make me feel special pretty much every day i talk to them

thank you for your attention to this matter that is all

Regular at work telling me he thinks I should join the navy

::: spoiler misgendering New housemate was initially perfectly consistent on gendering me right, then eventually I brought up my transness and had fun talking about it a bit to them, but, since then ive consistently been misgendered, which has me less bothered and more just highly suspicious now (like maybe thought I was cis before?), hope its just a coincidence of mistakes and I won't have to deal with more annoying stuff. There was one especially silly house meeting where I was misgendered 3 times in a short span with my other housemates chiming "she" in correction each time (my heros), almost like a sitcom bit lol. :::

asked my doc to up my dose and she agreed yay!

You know...

Even after everything

If I had the option to restart my life

To choose my birth gender

I would still just choose to be myself

Would love to take a break from being g trans but then I see women and I lose my mind cause I wanna be her. When I see men I lose my mind cause I want to be held like a girl.

There's a version of the trans flag in my mind which is a war or evil version.

Where the light blue is navy, the pink darker and the white grey (white is surrender, grey for the morally grey things I must do to survive).

Sometimes I wear those colours to work, navy skirt, dark pink blazer, grey top.

Up with trans!

Fuck LLMs, you should never listen to what they say, but I still get the people who say they trust them more than doctors or psychologists

1 year on HRT today. Which is wild. Now that I've hit it doesn't feel that important. Like I knew I wasnt cis ages before, but I didn't know I was a woman until a couple of months in and I only came out a month after that. Also my dose was too small at the start etc.

But still really cool.

Dressed up today and I almost feel girly. I just need to get rid of this beard shadow. And do something with my hair.

My prog order got sized by customs. Fuckers still took taxes from me anyway and likely won’t refund. Dogshit legal and medical system.

Idk what the fuck to do. Where in europe could I get prog OTC?

::: spoiler more negative whining

Everyone who is supposed to help me is against me and making things worse. The amount of gatekeeping, bigotry and hatred are getting to me.

:::

I had my first personal trainer session on monday (ya gurl is getting over her fear of the gym!) and holy fuck. Lemme tell you, skipping my running routine for three months did NOT do me favors for leg day. Im still stiff and sore down there two days later. I'm trying to get some stretches in here and there but good lord are my dogs BARKING.

idk why but I was really hesitant with my injection last night, usually its not an issue for me but I was feeling really weird about stabbing myself. Hope this doesn't become a trend.

My new ID got mailed!! Based on what people say online it should only be a few days until it arrives. I quite like the black and white version of my picture, I hope adding color doesn't make it any worse

I still have to get a new version in around two years, which will be a good opportunity to get my gender marker changed if I haven't already

chat....

CHAT

that is all

::: spoiler us healthcare whenever somebody tries to defend the insurance industry by saying it has so many jobs it's always kinda like bizarre to me, like they're literally saying "we have to keep Killing You at the Killing You Factory because think of how many jobs are at the Killing You Factory we simply cannot stop Killing You." preaching to the choir here obv but capitalism is just an actual death cult like for real :::

Between here and my support group, I've finally been able to make the leap to an outward queer identity. I've settled on non-binary for now, knowing that's probably not the whole of it.

Things are very complicated and hard because of that, but my partner has taken it pretty well 🙂 Actually, it feels like the first time I've been fully present for them in a long time. They make me feel so loved and accepted 🥰

@TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net, thanks for giving me such tough advice. I really needed to hear that, even though I didn't want to.

:::spoiler a screenshot discussing the social gendering of sex with regards to the non binary identity, and my own follow up comment.

bloomfilters says: basically if we really want true nonbinary legitimacy and the explosion of nonbinary existence into the daily lives of the world the category of 'sex' must be transsexualized and taken head-on to reveal itself for the ideology it is, as the gendering of the body

otherwise we will always just be 'boy nonbinary vs girl nonbinary'.

The social gendering of sex is how I see my own body as androgynous / masc. I have never really vibed with "female sex" and I have always felt that it was a social determination for me. I don't like the label "afab" either.

:::

down with cis

::: spoiler dysphoria (maybe?) sometimes my boobs look like boobs and sometimes my boobs don't look like boobs and I dunno what to make of that, especially since yknow they're the same boobs :::

Had a therapy appointment for the first time in 10 years. They did not bring up my gender dysphoria diagnosis or my transness at all despite that being a pretty major development in my mental health since I last went. A trans friend have me resources though, so I’m going to go to one that specializes in lgbtq mental health so I don’t have to deal with cis ignorance

::: spoiler cw:trauma

Thing about being fucking traumatised is that you don't know what tf to do afterwards and then just have to go about your life as if nothing happened.

Kinda like being shot in the arm, not being given any medical treatment, then having to go next day to your job lifting boxes.

And yes, that analogy works very well cause my brain is injured, and my work/schooling involves me using my brain.

I was already spending a good chunk of my classes and shit being distracted by bad thoughts. Now that's gonna get worse. I already feel a much greater sense of dread and fear of other people.

And I'm assuming that people here will understand that being given the right kinda words from another person doesn't really fix the issue. Whether it be a psychologist or counselor or maybe even therapist. Well, the later could help, assuming I get the right therapist, get through the waitlist and have enough money/insurance for it.

Kinda like how getting a kiss and being told that the boo-boos will go away won't actually make your gunshot wound go away.

:::

I cut myself like 4 times whilst shaving my face. I looked even more purdy afterwards, so I guess it was worth it.

Gotta say all the recent news doesn't make me feel peppy.

I had a zoom meeting where there was also a woman with my name participating, and before it started I mentioned to a coworker that I wasn't looking forward to the confusion. The coworker said "They're a woman!" or something like that and busted out laughing, the only reasonable justification being that me being mistaken for a woman is funny...

Ironic, as I'd been on a webinar with the name sharing lady presenting yesterday and thought to myself "I think I look more feminine than her". Guess not!

::: spoiler self-image and hair loss stuff, but slightly positive I have been completely unable to look in the mirror properly for around 4 years, this is mostly about hair loss. Today after my injection, I wanted to take some pictures, and I felt pretty hot and feminine and then I caught a glance of my hairline in the mirror, that gave me the confidence to properly look at myself and wow. It felt good. Like, it's not completely perfect, but I thought I had the world's worst receding hairline, but it looked fine. And now I really want to get a haircut, because that can make it look pretty nice.

I feel great about being able to look at myself. But wtf, I had some REALLY BAD body dysmorphia about this, like I thought it was bad enough that the only way would be shaving it all. I completely avoided mirrors for YEARS, and this probably blew everything out of proportion. And while writing this I realized I had a very severe case of body dysmorphic disorder plus dysphoria. I am so happy. :::

Anyway, does anyone have any cool hairstyle suggestions for curly (3A, to be specific) hair?

Yo so I guess I've been doing my hair wrong my entire life? Treating my wavy hair like it was straight, getting big frizz every morning after I brush my hair dry.

I am way too old to be figuring this out, but the past couple days I've been detangling in the shower and letting it do its own thing and by golly it looks much better already.

I have been drawing for the first time since around when I started puberty (wow, I wonder what happened to me that killed my "soul" (I don't belive in souls, but you know what i mean) and my ability/desire to create)!!

And it's feeling so good, like it's fixing me

Thank you for the lake talk!

Over six months off booze and a couple on estrogen and I feel revitalized. I’m not even “back to my old self” so much as I feel I’m becoming a new more comfortable and confident person. So early in this process, haven’t started shots yet, and already I feel like I’m going in the right direction

I found out why I never go home with someone after clubbing. I'm bisexual and I always go to gay clubs and most of the men there are gay, and most of the women there are their straight friends. You could say I should go to straight clubs but I'll probably get hate crimed there.

My transition has been great and all but have you heard the transitions in Alive 2007?

::: spoiler mundane transfem woes (CW dyphoria) So I ordered some women's boyshort style underwear because I needed more and I wasn't going to buy men's underwear

I wore them for a couple of hours and felt great, so into the bin went all my old underwear and I ordered some more. However at the end of the day, I've had way too much chafing around my scrotum. And I'm like crap I can't wear these right now. And like I decided I do want bottom surgery so cool I can put these in a cupboard somewhere for then.

But okay I need underwear for now. So okay I sheepishly fished a couple of my most recent boxers out of the bin (they were clean in a paper bag).

Then I went online and Kelvin Klein has some pride colored underwear packs so fuck it at least they're not straight underwear I guess. :::

::: spoiler question about SA How am I supposed to react when someone tells me about them getting assaulted/harassed? Like to me that's a really terrible and scary thing, and a big deal, and I try to show as much empathy and care as my autistic ass can. But what really threw me was the last time someone told me, she really acted like it wasn't a big deal and it's happened before. Which I know it's not an uncommon experience for women, idk I'm just not sure how to react if they're downplaying it or how I'm supposed to react as a woman (or how women usually react to other women?) :::

Whatever happened to that DIY electrolysis thing that was getting posted about on here a while ago?

::: spoiler I think I know why I'm depressed Haven't done fun things in a while. Haven't left my house to go anywhere that isn't like a pharmacy or a grocery store. My clothes don't fit the gender expression I want. Even videogames are boring right now. Haven't gone out with friends, so no social interaction that isn't online.

I feel terrible.

I don't think I can fix this for now. At least I can feel things now, which didn't use to be the case. :::

damnit we drove right past that park last fall. it was really a road trip going to random places in upstate NY and vermont though we want to go back

stumbled upon John Brown's gravesite which was cool though but his hometown is pretty shitty these days

Kansas legislature go here

::: spoiler dysphoria/negativity Wow I hate this. This whole week has just been awful. Consumed. I've been so dysphoric. So hopeless. My bottom dysphoria has been bothering me a lot more than usual. I mean so has everything else.

I hate being trans. It's traumatizing and horrible. It's not worth it. I hate my existence. There's barely a reason to keep pushing. It's all so overwhelmingly awful.

I've thought about messaging people to complain but there's no point, there's no point to any of this. Nothing is going to make this stop. I don't want to keep living if this is what it's going to be like. And I don't have any hope :::

When I change my walking route I sometimes end up in the nice part of town and am reminded that I'm poor lmao

One moment you go from the apartment complex next to a police station and prison (no joke, there're just 200m away from me), the next you end up in the part of town with copy paste american suburb style houses built next to a river with a water wheel (a fucking water wheel)

I bet these petite bourgeois mfs don't even get weekly lottery ads in their mailbox.

When she reads theory

I've learnt that when talking about Fallout 4, it's red flag someone's a chud if they call the character from that game Nate, instead of Sole Survivor. Something about the two hit punch of ignoring the female option and having no imagination to give them a different name.

::: spoiler Frustrating reminder (vague trauma) Everything can be packed up neatly to get through the day, but one unknowing comment can really mess things up.

"[Event] is something people don't forget, it really messes with them."

Right, I almost forgot. :::

Small thing the Wikipedia article for Green lake:

and at the chemocline is a dense layer of purple sulfur bacteria which makes the water appear pink

Trans Megathread

I don't think the writers for Young Justice intended for Miss Martian to be a trans narrative, but holy shit what a trans narrative.

Jimothy Cool is playing Celeste on stream (therefore this post belongs in the trans thread) and he's having an incredible glitch on his chat. English messages are being filtered and he can't see them, so everyone is writing ni hao in the chat, because for some reason chinese isn't banned

::: spoiler trauma? homophobia, self-harm One thing I absolutely was not prepared for with starting to come out is the level of internalized homophobia. I have this absolutely bloodthirsty, malicious voice in me that wants to harm any part of me that steps out of line. I've been writing about it to try and vomit it all out. It keeps coming.

::: spoiler ideation Wrote a poem about drowning myself in a local pond I like to visit. It was more about the before and after. The walk into the woods, the weather that day, whether I would leave my keys in the car. Then how I would be found, by whom, how hurtful it would be. That the resting expression on my face doesn't show me at peace peace, it shows there's nothing there at all. :::

I want true peace and joy so badly. I can almost envision it, but it feels forever just out of reach. The struggle continues even though I am too tired to face it. I can't give up again either. :::

Thanks for all of your support. I hope we can all get through this.

Gotta be honest, I had no idea lakes did that. But it's cool as hell.

Am I right in assuming that the seperation of a single cycle into an epilimnion and hypolimnion is dependent on the thermal gradient of the water?

The hotter water up top moves faster, and when currents try to move downwards, they are "reflected" if they encounter a large thermal gradient (just like how light reflects when it encounters a new medium).

So if you have a really large thermal gradient, you can actually get more layers of cycles?

yellow is such an underrated fashion hair color, honestly one of my favorites of all time along with blue.

My jester hat calls to me like the green goblin mask

::: spoiler polyheartbreak my primary partner broke up with their other partner. felt really sudden for everyone, it's clear they're going through a lot but feels like they caused needless hurt. came at a bad time too. I feel for both of them but it feels like the other one was cast-out and I'm real sad for them. remembering that I'm a big softie and catch feelings easily experience heartbreak easily.

they've made some personal breakthroughs in the short time since, and it came out that some tweaks were needed, but why couldn't these have been shared before taking such drastic steps? these were minor issues if only they were brought up to all involved. now our futures have all been drastically altered (there were changes coming I was looking forward to a lot) and I had no say in the matter. I'll get through this but all hands on deck for my support network.

Because of the post-break changes I want us to try again but the hurt can't be undone and it's the foolish hope of an unrequited lover.

The weirdest part is navigating the "survivor's guilt" and balancing being there for my primary and their needs with my empathy for other and my feelings this was somewhat rash.

I kinda feel like at the end. :::

TL;DR

When she starts acting like in your dreams

Reading theory is just fanfic fuel for me, I wanna get to the trash arc now can we talk about the trash for a second if basic fantasy settings have to answer the question of where does the poop go the industrial settings need to answer what's happening to the trash

I really miss working in pediatrics 😭😭

In nursing school, we all had our little fav areas we wanted to work in. A friend of mine was aiming for flight nurse, knew what she wanted to do (ER, CVICU, etc). Another wanted to do maternity, and she did! I was going for oncology. We did a bit as like student nurses in schools and I actually really enjoyed shadowing the kindergarten class which should've been a sign I guess. Pediatrics oncology is a thing (kids can bounce back hard from it, they tend to get different kinds, either way I am also comfortable with the sad side of it and paliation and Ive had my share of hard passing away), but I actually really liked general peds - mental health, inpatient and outpatient, emerg, medsurg, etc. Im still aiming for gender clinic stuff but I know my old unit wants an NP and I know they'll pay for your education for a return to service agreement... it wouldnt be impossible to go back and run a clinic part time.

Any weight loss advice? I've been unsuccessful at losing weight over the past year. I was very depressed over college and put on about ten kilos in my final year, and I can't keep living like this. I enjoy going to the gym, but I'm also awful at regulating myself. I snack too much and make meals that are way too big. I feel really guilty when I don't finish a meal, so I end up eating too much

I just saw that Open Gate is retiring in a few months. She's doing a going out of business(?) sale so if you're in the USA or UK and you diy estradiol, it might be a good time to stock up.

I had a bizarre, almost lucid dream the other night. Which was unusual because I've never had a lucid dream before, but I was, for whatever reason, addicted to cigarettes in my dream instead of being the normal alcoholic that i am. I remember very vividly taking a cigarette, smoking it, and then immediately being taken aback because the flavor of it was all wrong. I've never smoked a cigarette in my life, nor done any nicotine. I have no frame of reference for what tobacco smoke actually tastes like beyond smelling it second hand and smoking weed on rare occasion before. My mind attempting to approximate the taste of cigarette smoke was so unconvincing that it suddenly snapped me into this bizarre lucidity to where i wasn't in control like a lucid dream, but I was 100% cognizant and aware of what was happening. In my dream, I was fully aware that my brain couldn't convincingly mimic the taste of something I've never had, and spent the next bit of that dream fully understanding that I was dreaming and I knew exactly why I knew that. I saw a glitch in the Matrix of my own dreams but I couldn't get out or use anything with that info

Random bout of crushing loneliness again AAAAAAAA

I am now her soyfriend

I really do just be feeling pretty happy right now, for no particular reason.

Seems like the evil voice in my head has left on a break 3 hours ago and hasn't returned.

::: spoiler Tap for spoiler

(Yes, feeling normal for 3 hours is a big deal)

:::

My new transman roomate has become my arts and crafts buddy. We've been working on patches, braclets and battle vests all weekend. Has definitely helped me stay grounded with all the chaos going on in the world.

Went to a psych about my anxiety and ADHD. Symptoms changed a lot when my hormone profile changed, and they're basically unmanageable now. I got some propranolol for now which actually really helps at work when I'm stressing the fk out over being overstimulated, but I still can't focus on shit or start/switch tasks or remember what I was doing five minutes ago so lol

My mom has always maintained that she, my sister, and I have some kind of Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, and I haven't taken it that seriously until recently.

• We were talking in the car and apparently when I was getting therapy for my fine motor control as a kid they noted I had a ton of flexibility in my hands. I've also always had poor grip strength and super sensitive hands
• I have a wicked amount of stretch marks all over my torso, armpits, pelvic/crotch area, and knees. A lot of it was already there when I was like 16 prior to my significant weight gain
• I did the Beighton test stuff and think I got 5/9? But it's hard to tell if I'm doing it right...
• I think I have soft skin, but I don't touch other people's skin enough to compare
• I have pretty severe kerstosis pilaris on my legs, which is fairly common and not exclusively an EDS thing but apparently there's an association
• Strenuous activity leaves me with muscle soreness for multiple days afterward, although I've never been super fit so could just be normal?

On the other hand, I wouldn't consider myself super flexible (sit and reach test was murder as a kid) and I don't think I've ever dislocated anything ever.

Of course the only reason I care so much is because of the association between EDS and transness. Would be nice to turn that around on my mom and show her scientific evidence for me having a higher likelihood to be trans

So apparently liquid leaking from an injection site is probably interstitial fluid. There's always a little drop of blood leaking too. I didn't know interstitial fluid was a thing and you can actually leak a clear body fluid and it probably is fine.

me (a black and white manga still of griffith) except i'm not evil 😇

unrelated, but what is it with the the long white haired snake affiliated archetype, I feel like I've been encountering many of them lately 🤔

::: spoiler depression Spent the day rotting, doing nothing. Slept through all afternoon. I ate a lot less than normal. Getting depressed has been much more frequent, I guess this is just life being terrible, feeling useless, hopeless about money, lost and incapable of doing anything. :::

It's probably a good sign re: my mental health that I've been reading what the rules for trans prisoners are in each Australian state.

Where am I supposed to go for good fitness/workout advice? The internet is a vast sea of information, it's overwhelming.
I just want something that is simple and works.

I really enjoyed the mega topic!

CA giving updates no one asked for (clint) while still ignoring the people who have been asking for years to implement more pronouns, smh.

VERY IMPORTANT QUESTIONS:

How do you support your boobs while sleeping? Best to wear a bra to bed, or let them free?

If I sleep on one side, will that side's boob develop better (presumably, since it is rested while the other hangs, there must be am effect)? So if I want to balance out my boons I sleep on the small boob to help it grow faster ....?

Silent hill 2 is about league of legends and in water ending is james reinstalling league

::: spoiler weight + eating, working around a disability, adhd going to mirror the other comment and ask if anyone has advice for gaining weight. While its clear that I'd be able to eat more frequently in a better situation, still wanted to ask just in case. I have to avoid exerting myself so im mostly sedentary, and it feels like I'm already maximizing the space in my digestive system (I look a bit bloated just from the food volume), and focusing on healthy fats and anything calorie dense, but still are underweight. I think addressing my chronically understimulated brain might help? Its always running exhausingly fast and I'm sure thats burning energy, and even though im underweight im quite tall so theres quite a bit to fuel even mostly sedentary. Haven't been able to find any medication so far that's slowed my brain down without awful side effects unfortunately.

Maybe I need to get in contact with a nutritionist, see if theres any other changes to what I eat that'd help (I'm not a picky eater other than being vegan). :::

Reading a new book that involves the criminal underworld, gonna call up RGG I got a new plot for the next yakuza game. Roll kiryu out in a wheelchair we got some work to do

Oh ok, the physicists have been hiding teleportation from the public this whole time.

So about prog. Genuinely what do I do? I ain't got a clue.

Ask my GP to prescribe it? He wasn't even willing to prescribe E. I don't really trust anyone to tell them about my DIY. Not sure what kind of consequences I'll get into that.

Do I try to synthesise it myself??? Is that a thing you can do at home?

Travel to the UK and get a batch from a UK pharmacy and presumably have to do this for many years? And also risk getting caught at the border smuggling medicine?

Oh nice, Kneecap droped a new album

So for the early movie tomorrow I can’t decide between Redline and Barber Westchester. Which should I go with?

Instead of complaining and doom scrolling all the time, I'm gonna pick up a new web novel to hyperfixate about. Unfortunately, I've already read the 2 CN web novels which are most highly praised.

Aparantly, from this point on I'm supposed to lower my expectations.

But instead of doing that, I'm going to find a novel with a FEMALE MAIN CHARACTER written by a WOMAN AUTHOR (this is supposedly not so hard these days and there's a lot more popular options)

Learning damaged vs undamaged hair was a great mistake. Fuck my life

I need to stay an hour later at work than usual today and it feels like foreverrrrrr but no one really cares what you do here in the afternoon so I can kinda just goof off. Then I go to my mtf group, maybe get food and go shopping in-between? I need more pants

Wanted to sh earlier but of course the work environment is not conducive to that. It did get me thinking about a portable sh kit I could build which is probably not good. Suppose I just have to hope I'm exhausted enough when I get home that I just don't seize on that idea

::: spoiler I have been playing Mount and Blade : Warsails again because you know everything is stressful and shit lately. (CW patriarchal violence) My current character is an enormously tall, blonde and clocky Nord woman who is never going to marry or become a lord, only a mercenary and trader with workshops funding her troop's wages in the down time between wars.

Her clan is the Völur (which is the plural Norse word for Sorceress). She has scary face paint and her sigil is a hand with the evil eye in the palm. Her ship is Sturgian Lodya (like a black longship with a ram) called Witch and the figurehead is a Siren (which we just captured). She fights with a sword and field, and a 2 handed axe. Her armor and gear is intentionally light for gliding across a deck and swimming to enemy ships.

She has 4 female companions all with grievances against the Patriarchy or mystical backgrounds. Her second in command is a Nordvyg woman who was made to marry a Vanna (Sami equivalent) man and learnt their ways, then her brothers tried to make her poison his clan in an ethnic cleansing, so she booked it. The medic is Sturgian wisewoman, whose mother and fiancé were butchered before her wedding in a raid. Her steward is an Aserai woman whose brothers disowned her when she lost their money when a good investment was destroyed by an accidental fire. Finally my scout is a Battanian woman who was cursed to never have a happy marriage and had three husbands die in quick succession.

I kind of imagine them as big Coven and polycule. Their crew is a motley mix of Nords, Imperial/Sturgian Sailors, Sea Raiders, Corsairs and random convoy guards we've rescued.

I'm having a lot of fun. :::

check out this hyperpop banger

::: spoiler weight stuff, not depressing

Funnily enough, despite my weight being my number cause of "I fucking hate my body", I have never actually purchased/used a weighing scale (of any kind, not even for cooking).

Do you know why? Because I'm too stupid to have thought about it before typing this comment. And I'm sure that I'll forget about it soon enough then never buy one.

So yes, having "stupid b*tch syndrome" isn't all downsides. There's upsides too.

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jakar's megathread post

Many questions it seems today

Maca extract pills as a substitute for Progesterone? Does it work? Am I tripping?

Anyone else taking their prog as a troche? It says it dissolves after 30 minutes but there's always some left over. Should I spit it out?

I was gonna make a book reading post but I got a call and got ma'am pretty hard. Idk know what the call was about

I have fully perfected the brooding anti-hero archetype who wears too much black, has a revenge motivation and a tragic backstory.

The violent desires and burning hatred are also there.

Only thing missing are guns/swords (and women swooning over how cool I am)

Is walking around 5-10 hours a week considered good cardio (I know the variation is high, I don't have a fixed routine per say)?

::: spoiler gross made a great escape from the call last night because everyone was talking about paying for food with boners and "getting to" pick up dog shit with their bare hands... :::

I liked reading about the lakes this week.

I found a YouTube link in your post. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:

• yewtu.be
• inv.nadeko.net
• yt.artemislena.eu
• piped.video