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Pretending to be asleep

My parents are talking about forcing my hair to be cut (they really have a problem with it)

My brother starts defending me and shuts down their convo.

What a good kid.

I came out to my little brother!

It went ... completely smoothly lol. No surprises on that front.

He guessed I'd been transitioning for 4 years. This was actually kinda correct since I did start exploring my femininity around that time (aka when I left home)

Wasn't the worst birthday I've had, I didn't even cry. But someone forgot or at least didn't say anything which felt and continues to feel bad. And I can't help but wonder whether they'd care more if I was a real girl

The Time Has Come (Again)

Also just got my ears pierced and I feel so cute and gay :)))

It's my birthday :/ I wish I could just postpone it or something.

Mom is currently discussing with her friend as to why I suddenly went from keeping a buzz cut to growing out my hair.

"What could have happened?"

Truly a mystery for the ages

Being a professional library goer (unemployed) I was asked to fill a survey today. Passionately wrote down all the library did for me and how cool it made me like on a spiritual level

::: spoiler sex Had sex with a dude for the first time last night, bi confirmed

He was really nervous and couldn't get it up but gave great head and knew how to finger the prostate like a pro. Looking forward to when he can annihilate my ass :::

Important PSA:

Many people want a mommy to take care of them. But where do mommies come from? Not from the sky*! In order to fill the shortage of mommies, we need more femmes to step up and become mommies themselves.

We must seek eggs to nurture them!

*I know your mommy is an angel, but that's besides the point

It took me ages and ages having boobs before I started having them in my dreams. But it was like 2 days of having a vagina that I started dreaming it was there, that was super fast.

In 2000 you could get a plant based McDouble for $1 and a side of estrogen for 50 cents

Dad takes my phone. Starts looking at my lock screen which is like some enby mf with 6 arms meditating in a dumpster surrounded by LSD angels. His comment was "anime ..."

::: spoiler negativity, jealosy Sometimes i cant stand seeing other trans ppls progress photos or happiness/joyposting or selfies, stuff that should be positive and feel-good just makes me jealous and upset. Idk if somethings wrong with my brain, i hate it :::

::: spoiler HRT and body changes I think my boobs are starting to grow. I can feel a little bit of new fat on them, they bounce a little when I'm moving around too. I am a very skinny person and I know how my body feels pretty well, so I guess I'm just noticing very small changes, but it feels nice to know things are happening. :::

Can't believe I'm at 6 weeks already. Very excited for what's coming next.

Leading our monthly meeting tomorrow, fuckin hell how did I get roped into being center stage

I wish I had someone. I'd like to yap a bit and cuddle. I'm tired. And I kinda wanted to talk more earlier today but idk what specifically about or what I'd want to message someone about.

I'd also like to have someone to cuddle with me right now. I feel alone.

Cuddling and yapping about stuff, two things I wanna do.

Looking at my chest and low key wondering if there's visible growth? Like at least for me, doubt anyone else would notice atp (thankfully).

Everyone start using linux right now! Linux mint is so easy. I booted up windows and was shocked by how much slower it is than linux

::: spoiler I want to scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :::

It's weird to go back and be totally different. Time moves, but everything is familiar. I guess life is just like that.

Reconnecting isn't always bad.

::: spoiler HRT, body changes, family stuff Nipples feel very sore, chest feels a little soft and I can feel it bouncing a little bit sometimes. My sister noticed my nipples poking through the shirt, not sure how to feel about this, maybe I'll need bras soon. Being in the closet to my parents and still living with them sucks, I'm going to be in trouble on the next few months, probably.

There's also this headache and brain fog, I can't manage to do anything at the moment, not even videogames, maybe I'm just tired, I don't know... :::

Been crying lately thinking about the different life experiences the women in my life have had that I never will. Today's was a wedding. Imagining how they must have looked on their day. I wish that was me. I wish I was a normal, typical woman. A husband, kids, just how they look and are...

...but I'm not. I'm not straight. I can't have kids. Even if I could I think my autism/overstimulation would make it not for me. I just want to be them. And I'm not.

Ahhh, never tucking again~ so nice.

Youre supposed to be pretty dry the first few weeks and months of bottom surgery. And since I have nothing to do, Im off work for this, Im pretty much sitting around with my pussy out all day lol

::: spoiler wierd?

I tell my friend that I don't feel joy from anything anymore and I'm depressed af. He tells me "you need to get fucked"

I mean, true ಠ_ಠ, but kinda crazy to tell someone.

:::

Nightmares every single night sucks. I used to have great dreams too. Constantly woken up from this.

Sister asked my mom (who I'm assuming would be the supportive one) how she'd react if I was gay and she refused to respond, how over is it chat?

::: spoiler transphobic family, rambly My dad messaged me for the first time since christmas day and I don't know I guess I'm actually really considering this being the moment I cut ties.

I haven't had an actual relationship with the man since high school, and even then I always kept him at arms length. We never talk about anything that's important to me except for when I asked him to call me by my name and he can't do that I guess. He knows nothing about me. I'm seriously curious what he'd say if someone asked him to describe me. I don't think he'd get anything beyond the suface level right. I think I could say more about the girl at the coffee shop I buy chai at than my dad could say about me.

I send him songs every now and then which he ignores, and every couple of months he calls me and I give him a bullet point list of the interesting things that have happened since the last call, and that's it. That's my relationship with my dad. That's the totality.

So like he's just some guy, right? Literally just some guy I happen to be related to genetically and who has my phone number. Which would be cool if he was some guy I talked to who called me by name at the very least, but he doesn't even do that. So why do I indulge in his calls?

I really don't know how to explain this to him, but that's where I'm at. :::

I got conscripted to be an Estrogen tester at the femmeperor's imperial court :(

They gonna take me to the flower capitol and dress me up in smooth silky pink robes

Then they gonna force me to wear jewelry and makeup and "serve" her majesty's every "need" TT

Thankfully I'm a communist spy so I gotta assasinate her then run away. It's only temporary. I gotta endure.

Learning to 'put my mask on before assisting others' is fucking difficult wtf, can I just not and be fine anyway pls

Oooooh

I've been forgetting my evening HRT, thaaaaat's why Ive been tossing and turning for so many sleepless hours recently.

I'm so silly.

I've seen a few megathreads on the topic of Lancer, but it seems to be some kind of computer thing I'm not aware of. Now its the Lancer I am aware of! Yippee!

If you put your gender under your pillow when you sleep the trans fairy will replace it with a new one

::: spoiler CW Transphobia, Homophobia, Dysphoria, family abuse, Australian nonsense So Australia has this reactionary federal senator, called Pauline Hanson. She's always doing these little media stunts (wearing a Burka to parliament to be Islamophobic etc). On the federal public holiday that is so called "Australia day" she released a transphobic song that was a collaboration with a failed former TV star/musician/trophy wife called Holly Valance, who has also been a reactionary ghoul for a while. She was famous for being on a Soap Opera called Neighbours, tried to become a singer but didn't get very far, married a rich guy just to get divorced etc.

And it's transphobic anti-woke trash. Quality wise it's dogshit. Like you couldn't do an ironic camp cover of it or something, because it's so characterless.

But it's kind of made me sad. Which is I guess there intention, but for a different reason. Like I'm in my late 30s and Pauline Hanson has been around since I was kid, just being a piece of shit. It's like wow the same dumb shit from my childhood.

My dad was really homophobic. He worried I'd be gay (lol he was right just not in the way he thought). So he'd buy me all these swimsuit magazines. Not like hardcore porn, just bikini stuff. But I had quite a few posters of Holly Valance (she's a few years older than me and was probably most famous when I was in high school) on my teenage wall and I would stare at those amongst others with yearning I now understand was dysphoria.

And I don't know it's just fucked to hear about someone who you haven't thought about in decades and they're a piece of shit. Like fuck I don't want little domino Holly Valance fails her music career, big domino I get murdered transphobically. That's so chicken shit.

At least Natalie Bassingthwaighte (another Soap Opera actor of the time who had a more successful music career) is a trans ally. :::

I used to think I was a cat, starting to think I'm a puppy now though. Not sure if I'm sometimes kitty sometimes puppy, or just puppy yet, remains to be seen.

My group is meeting in a few weeks and it looks like I'm going to be able to make it, looking forward to it a lot. The therapist has a trans son too and I'll be able to meet him. And see all the people irl (usually we have a zoom call)

This will be the first Valentine's Day that I will be spending with a partner. Definitely trying to make it special. So far, we got a hotel room in a nearby city that's on the same block as my favorite LGBT bar, and there's also several nearby nightclubs for dancing (including an LGBT nightclub). There's an LGBT clothing swap/charity thing that we're going to earlier in the day, and we have reservations at my gf's favorite sushi place in the area. Really looking forward to it.

4 months of injections, a reminder on my phone, thinking about it several times throughout the week and multiple times in Friday itself, still nearly go to bed without doing it.

Think I'm getting brain zaps from sertraline withdrawal, delivery is like a week late. Thanks Mark Cuban I love it

I hate every part of taking care of my hair. In the shower, brushing it, dealing with it when it's wet, it all sucks. Tbh with yall I do not deal with it every day. I have to get better about it.

Just more and more personal care shit. Plus I ha e to add makeup at some point, plus skincare, plus actually doing all the things I'm already supposed to do.

disco elysium

my life is a cartoon

unfortunately that cartoon is Bojack Horseman but like 4 times sadder and not even that wacky this last season

What you all need to understand that while I may come off as a whiny loser when my family needs me I lock the fuck in and become their rock

down with cis

Got a progesterone prescription! Unfortunately, my PP doesn't do suppositories, so I'll have to see if the 100 mg oral has a benefit (or if it's a capsule that can be taken rectally), but they do offer a 200 mg prescription. PP appointment went well. Was kinda worried since my last set of labs wasn't on the patient portal, but they had them in the office and those levels were good even after I went on EV monotherapy.

For a while now I have been trying to thrift theory books. Kind of a useless personal challenge, but hey, it's free for as long as I can't find anything 😭 Local used bookstore politics section is 99.8% reactionary garbage and 0.2% gems. Finding a compilation of Lenin's writings printed from before the fall of the Soviet Union today was pretty cool. I have now seen on paper.

Unfortunately still no Little Red Book. Not sure if I'll ever find that one in the wild TBH.

::: spoiler spoiler i'm gay :::

::: spoiler dysphoria, loneliness Because of loneliness I missed out on romance in my teens and early twenties. How do I convince myself it doesn't matter? :::

Just got invited to a friend's wife's baby shower (former labmate and close colleague), and I am super excited. This will be the first time introducing my gf to my former labmates in person. They have all been supportive of my transition so I hope everything goes well.

Drinking alcohol is like having an older lady friend/aquintance that you see once in a while and hook up with on occasion. Not as glamorous as the youthful energy drinks, but God, she certainly knows her way around your heart.

Recently have become more of a workaholic, which sucks. I guess I just don't want to deal with anything personal because it's gotten too difficult for me again. Feeling exhausted and empty in a way I haven't since college.

I'm hoping soon I can get hormone levels checked and start figuring my gender shit out. Honestly, my biggest mood boost lately is from finding a good excuse to shave daily so I can actually see myself sometimes.

Dysphoria is making me fail my classes :(

::: spoiler being rly gay I posted a bit ago about how this one girl sort of saps all of my charisma. I guess because I have a huge crush on her

well we finally kissed!! it was so much fun y'all, she gave me a hickey and every time I see it or remember what happened I get all 🥰😵‍💫😌 she's so so so cute agsuxiwjwb

I will still probably be rly nervous when I'm around her but it's nice to know for sure she's into me hehehe :::

so my confidence is through the roof now 📈📈 how to fully internalize that though is another story...

Every single choice in video games after 2011 boils down to "Stormcloaks or imperials"

My room mate called me hot in a way that made me uncomfortable

i am reaching new levels in not being okay with myself

Anyone trans around these parts?

Thought it would be cool to learn how to ID different animals, and thinking of starting with marine mammals. However the book I'm downloading is huge (lots of pics) and AA is being finicky. Just please download overnight.

I wish I was evil. Would make being alive so much easier.

I think I get the sexy plumber fantasy but it's more like it be hot if I had an HVAC job and was making money, I'd skip the sex part just to be explaining further how neat dual run capacitors are to some milf

I cut my bangs back into existence and I definitely increased my cuteness rank. More cuteness updates to come hopefully

I think my water is going to be frozen all fucking week. I swear this happens every year in January and I always think "I should replace the heat tape on my plumbing when it warms up" and then I never do and then it happens again the next year. 😞

At least shaving is super easy after laser. I just have little whiskers that need electrolysis to finish off and can get a nice smooth shave with a single pass. I'll be shaving from a hot bowl of water, but well, that's what I fucking get for not fixing my shit.

::: spoiler /personal Every so often, my username reflects how I'm feeling. I'm very good at processing and packing things away, but there's this one jagged thing I struggle to get a handle on. Unfortunately, something I have to do this week will take me somewhere a bit scary. Standing in the shadow of past trauma, I can't help but feel uneasy.

It'll be alright, though. I'm making progress.

(Tbh this post was really just for me) ::: Transition steps are often scary

I'm afraid that because I've been reduced to an "it" by shitty people, I could never confidently be called "it." I don't think it's my pronoun, but I want to feel like I could be called "it" if that were truly my pronoun. Who else wishes they could be called "it" if it were their pronoun, but couldn't put up with sticking to that pronoun due to trauma?

For those who go by "it" confidently, how do you do it?

winter is when I become a creature that ventures out and punches the snow. wearing a hoodie instead of a coat because im probably overheating. trying to clear out concrete-like blocks of ice for everyone who cant shovel (the outdoors has become my gym)

Sorry I haven't been replying to comments the way I usually try to, been very eepy the last few days

Playing Kotor2 finally again after a decade! o-oh it came out in 2005 uh....playing it again after two decades!

i can't believe how i was shocked by the "protocol droid" in my first playthrough, like goddamn. ESL and I was a child but still, the droid is like; "Incredibly Suspicious Statement: Nooooo, Master. I definitely didn't kill everyone. I'm just a smål bean uwu."

ah anyway, it's great. I followed a mod build from here and it was surprisingly easy, even on a Linux, just make sure you make all the files in the override and modules folders all lowercase so there isn't 4 different files with technically the same name for the game to fuck itself with.

Also for me the game crashed if I put in different sized movie files, but ymmv

Every Deltarune character is my favourite little weirdo

Especially and

Edit: Oh and this dweeb too --->
honestly the whole game could just be all the Darkners being goobers and I would be eternally happy

I have developed a crush on my long time friend 😭 it’s never gonna go anywhere and now I’m just like bleh

To the trans lesbians here, do you see more dating success with trans lesbians than with cis lesbians? Because I feel like I get almost no matches from cis lesbians and mostly matches with other trans women

Had my meeting with the GP. Not particularly surprised that he had nothing on finding a coach for voice feminisation. Idk if it was intentional, but I felt quite silly talking to him about my dark thoughts. I think it was a good thing shrug. I need to calm the fuck down.

Yeah very funny, posting this the day after after I get intrigued by Lancer the TTRPG and start asking friends to start a game...

I've been getting weird name feelings. I picked out my name awhile ago, and it's what everyone I'm out to knows me by (some of them for several years at this point). I really like it, it's me a lot of the time, but I have to admit it's not me all of the time.

Between middle names, and initials, and possible nicknames or stuff there are like... seven or eight different names that I think are Me and could go by, and depending on the nature of my relationship with people would want to go by multiple or all of them to a person. I just don't even know how I would like, convey that or bring up the subject. Just, "Hey, I know you've known me as [Name A] for like five years since I've been out, and like that's still my chosen name and stuff but also I'm kinda also like [Name B], like I'm still [Name A] but also [Name B] I'm like both, so you can like use both interchangably."

idk, it's not even that big of a deal, it's just kind of annoying because lately I've been feeling a lot more like [Name B] than [Name A]...

On good days, my favorite little weirdo is me. On other days, it's recently been Quark from ds9. I fuckin' love the lil guy and his big ol' lobes

Good news: got my new femme glasses! Bad news: the lenses are fucked up and giving me the worst eye strain of my life 😮‍💨

Never really thought about changing my name. Cause it just feels a little ... off. Never had any attachment/problems with my name (or my bday, or other special events in my life), which I guess is just a side effect of feeling like I wasn't living in reality/distant from my surroundings/dispossessed.

I am interested in the concept of just .. being multiple people. Having multiple personas. Sounds cool and fun. I don't like the idea of having a fixed identity.

But I somehow doubt the legal system will let "Ritisha"* get away from the murders that "Jasmine"* committed.

*example personas

You hate capitalism because of its exploitation of the working class. I hate capitalism because Adam Smith wasn't a trans girl. We are not the same

Funny story inb4 the thread closes, so I've had a lot of falls lately due to being clumsy af and all the non stop ice storms teaching me to skate without skates, my knee hurts at night and wakes me up sometimes since my worst fall. An older former coworker mentioned pregnancy pillows are gold tier for all sorts of aches, though she was also big on holding yoga stances for 30min, especially lying on the floor 30min straight with your legs up against a wall, that was her doctor. Anyway, pregnancy pillows are no joke expensive, like 50 dollars on Amazon and 20 dollars or so on Aliexpress/etc. Last week I saw them at the local hardware store on sale for a mere 9 dollars, so I buy one.

So, I pick it up and I carry my big ass pregnancy pillow big as me through the big ass hardware store, the whole local universe knows I was fired recently and the confused weird stares I get are just fucking gold. I can just imagine the elaborate soap worthy tales they're cobbling up in their heads since I pass, though I'm sure whoever various HR is in town knows otherwise and let others know via the mill. I couldn't help but crack up in my car it was some Mel Brooks meets John Waters tier shit.

::: spoiler dysphoria ughghghghghgh I have to listen to myself talk for the next hour and a half or so and I'm already hating the first few minutes :( :::

Been listening to an HVAC/refrigeration lecture and I can keep up with it 😲 feels good ngl 😁. Was doing a course these past days on rack refrigeration and getting more in depth on EPRs is tight

Mathologer agender confirmed?

Keeping true to my fae nature I keep my true name hidden not just for ospecs but so people can't ask me for favors or cast hexes on me. Y'all need to get on this shit fr

I really like how all Alyson Greaves novels are like little advice books on top of the drama and emotional stuff. Like drink more water! Put your hands on your hips more girl!

Born to ponder fantasy power systems

Forced to interpret homework assignments that are never clear enough (homework can be so autism unfriendly)

Was researching transition stuff for the last, I guess 2 hours and ended up researching VFS surgeons again. This one surgeon who looks really good requires a month of no speaking at all, damn recovery is such a pain... I need to train too idk if any surgeons would even take me if I haven't got at least a somewhat trained voice.

Lord help me. The Fallout TV show is making me want to play new Vegas again. I'm at the fiddling around in an online character creator stage. I'm thinking an incredibly lucky cyborg who uses lots of firearms (so the same character I always make except she's a trans woman now).

Chapter one is just a presentation, chapter two is typical but good, chapter 3 starts evolving, chapter 4 starts getting sserious Overall love the game, its more videogamey than undertale

Where new mega?

I think I've finally turned a corner with embedded Rust, I tricked a Pi Pico 2 into playing NSF files!

I'm scared of how many thousands of lines of code the NES emulator I had to write was, and for a while it felt like it was never going to be fast enough to run on a 150MHz processor, but some optimization that was within run-to-run variance on the benchmarks on my laptop must have really favoured the pico 2, and now there's no dropouts!

Lessons learned:

• as far as I can tell, if you overflow stack on these microcontrollers you won't get a fancy stack overflow error, it will just hard fault (although I suspect sometimes it won't even fault and will just give you fun UB). Lost a day to that.
• goddamn lifetimes and statics and interior mutability etc. caused me so much grief. There's a crate called embedded_alloc which gives you access to Rc, Arc, Vec, etc by actually letting you define a heap. I highly recommend this although remember that when a Vec needs to grow it needs 3x it's previous size in memory, because it creates a new Vec with 2x previous capacity, copies from the old Vec, then drops it.
• I didn't end up using both cores (yet) but Embassy doesn't appear to support the doorbell IRQs or the inter-core FIFO queues, so if you want those you need to use rp-hal.
• The embedded-sdmmc library certainly takes some getting used to. You need to implement long file name support yourself, no file sorting (do it yourself but use a master branch), use RawFile instead of File because it seems to be so ready to drop my files when I look the other way, etc.

Anybody know where I could get DIY Progesterone? I've almost gone a year in HRT so I'm pretty sure now is the ideal time to introduce it.

Kind of feel like I don't get nostalgia, at least not now. Transitioning definitely has a part in that, but I'm just more interested in what's going on right now.

Maybe one day I'll think back this time in my life and be like those were the days

The algorithm gives me so much to pull from, got recommended smash or pass content and lesbian paradox gaming stuff just this morning. I've just had my oatmeal I'm too sleepy to pick

Webnovels like these are why the cultivation genre is considered brainrot. Imagine the kind of brain damage a medieval daoist monk would receive if they read this shit.

::: spoiler kink I get the appreciation of a cheap cheap collar, or like a dog collar even, but I love the eternity collar even though its stupid expensive. I could justify it for the right sub :::

I have a great friend group from high school, but also lost touch with a lot of people I knew from high school. I wish I did more to stay in touch.

The library only fire if the chairs are the kind you can be slumped in for hours as you read, only down side the library closing for lunch if not I could easily do a 5 hour slump streak

frostpunk 2

::: spoiler star wars nerd shit been reading through the wookiepedia articles about "legends" lore. got an interest in Star Wars stuff again due to my KoTOR2 modding spree (I'll play it I swear ) and it's just so great how during the smallish period of like a 100 years there were FOUR galaxy-spanning conflicts of which THREE were somehow started by the jedi, AND the one not started by them was still related due to the mercenaries of the previous war deciding to start shit!

i dunno but maybe the jedi code needs revising or something, they have a remarkable tendency to create brutal galaxy-wide conflicts due to religious disagreements.

But what about the sith? Not even around, just chilling outside the whole galaxy. :::

The higher up the ranks of the electromagnetic illuminati you climb, the less magical it feels. You can only have technical difficulties with your fucking orbs and silicon runes for the 58657th time before you forget all about the wonders of thundermancy and the profound formulae of fourier's spectres.

@GenderIsOpSec@hexbear.net you've inspired me to bypass the backlog of Games I Will Play Eventually™ to play modded KotOR 1+2 for the millionth time lol.

Actually, KotOR 2 is a childhood egg canon experience for me. The first time I played a woman character and the first time trying to copy femininity (they stand differently than the men do). Thanks for reminding me of that 🙂

My mouse (razer deathadder) scrollwheel is buggin out, when I scroll one way or another it likes to scroll the other way its very buggy. I don't see anything stuck inside it, might just be what a decade of use does. I don't really play anything competitive enough anymore to care too much about my mouse but I still need to shop around.

First 😎

TVP rocks, I love that shit. Made a stir fry style thing with cashew, TVP, udon, vegetable stock, peppers, hot sauce, broccoli yummy

This sublimation-ink printing thing I bought is so cool, I can just draw some stuff and put it on a t-shirt, I fucking love this. I hope I can sell some around in my city. The only thing I need is to buy more t-shirts to sublimate.

::: spoiler cw:suicide

Waiting to go from being a passive suicide risk to active suicide risk so I can fucking end it already.

Good news is that I'm getting there :)

Been thinking recently of some vague conceptions of a plan (usa democrat style), but there is a small chance of actually enacting them (also usa democrat style).

I know this post is attention seeking. But I keep getting urges of starving myself till forced hospitalisation. It sounds so easy and fun. Maybe if I do it the doctors will pay attention.

:::

Watching other people react to "A knight of the seven kingdoms" and turning to myself who hasn't watched it yet like a medieval sergeant at arms, steadying a row of archers "hold, hold, HOLD! Wait until you can see the whites of the fifth or sixth episode's eyes!"

I dunno even though I really liked undertale I didn't really vibe with deltarune and never played past ep1.

::: spoiler very mild spoilers Chapter 1 is honestly kinda so-so, it especially lacks most of the very cute and wholesome yuri. In general, the first two chapters are much better on a replay because they mostly set up character arcs that get interesting later on. For my favorite little weirdo Noelle and my favorite big weirdo Susie, the first two chapters only show them at the beginning of their development, as a damsel in distress resp. a big meanie, and this only really pays off once we get shown what their deal is and they start to move beyond that. Same for Ralsei and Kris, although their arcs take longer to unfold. :::