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My friend scratched my head and called me good

Idk why my post didn't post earlier. But it's so nice not having had to do a "coming out" at this new job. They asked me what my preferred name and pronouns were when I put in my application, and from what I've seen so far, it seems like my name in all of the systems is my preferred name and I only had to use the legal one for, well, legal reasons. I keep being referred to with she/her pronouns in emails and stuff, and it's so nice that I didn't have to ask for it. And no one has been weird in zoom calls yet. I'm being treated completely and entirely as a woman. I don't really know how to describe it, because all of my friends treat me like a woman, but I think the difference is that I had to come out to them. I just got this job, walked in the proverbial (online) doors and from day 1 I'm just a woman. It feels incredible.

i kissed so many t girls in a week that the gods had to make me sick to stop me and my girl kissing rampage

I mentioned this already on tracha, but I think I'm going to log off and touch grass for a while, at least a month, probably longer. I just have too much going on right now, I feel like I'm drowning. Holding a full time job, school work, irl social obligations, online social obligations... I just can't anymore. So I'll be taking a break to focus on myself for a while.

Holy fuxk I just told my lib family. They’re not transphobic, this shit is still terrifying

telling trans girls to eat more so they grow bigger tits is good and praxis but we should also be telling them to eat more so they grow bigger tummies

::: spoiler discussion of pornography, though nothing inherently explicit what is with the prevalence of anti-porn anti-sex etc sentiment present even in leftist spaces (yes even here)? are we really still pretending that this stuff is bad for you in 2025, or that "porn addiction" is a real thing? anti-sex puritanism unless missionary for the purposes of procreation is not something that should be part of your ideology methinks. sex, sexual development, etc are normal healthy things that should be encouraged. weve already seen what mass sexual repression does to people and its not a good thing.

promoting fascist ideology and helping create very serious problems is a bad thing actually, and the fact that we are still encouraged to live in a panopticon where questioning your fascist beliefs even slightly can make you lose of your entire support system is a shame.

"gooner" is literally just the new "removed" in a lot of cases (which was, among other things, the word nazis used to describe people/things they didnt like) and for some reason we are just okay with this?? and if you dare point out "hey this is a bad thing actually" then people refuse to take you seriously :::

Hi comrades, I'm feeling really confused. It doesn't seem possible that I could actually have these feelings. I never seriously considered it an option for myself. I don't feel like a man and never have. I hate everything about myself. I promise I'm really asking, I'm not trying to be a jerk or anything. I'm sorry. I'm always sorry.

Is it really possible to choose to be a girl if I want? I mean me personally. Like other people can but I don't think I could. Is it really something anyone who wants to can do? Why wouldn't everyone?

What if I'm just bad at being a guy but that doesn't mean I should quit being a guy?

Similarly what if I'm equally bad at being a girl and it's being human I'm bad at?

I saw a lot of pics, and literally everyone looks better as a girl, but what if I looked way worse?

Is it really true that most guys don't feel any FOMO about being a girl? I only get one life why would I want to be a dude the whole time?

What if I'm just such a perverted and pathetic straight guy that I've tricked myself into doing this for some kind of thrill?

Obviously I'd love to be told I was a good girl and all of that, but again, who doesn't?

How do I know I'm not being delusional? How do I know I'm actually trans and not pretending or deceiving myself?

I just got the queer and trans zine I submitted my artwork to in the mail and it features dozens of artists from all over the world, I'm on the back cover and I have another piece in it as well. It was also part of a local zine fest. This is the first public art event I've done since the start of the pandemic that killed all my desire to do art markets and gallery showings.

::: spoiler biting during sex I love biting so much. I used to be a gross gum kid as a kid, like keep it all and chew on it over days lol. It never made the leap to sex until after E and now its not like a fun side thing or oh I just like doing it. It is MANDATORY and WE WILL DISCUSS IT BEFORE. Now, it does not have to happen to the other person - I am also satisfied biting clothes or blankets, but I will be biting no matter what :::

Wake up.

Still wish I was a girl.

Oh.

people will say "protect trans kids" and then be anti youth liberation and i find that funny (its not actually) i swear some of yall will turn like 20 and immediately forget how much it sucked to be treated like property and not have human rights. literally "it doesnt effect me so it doesnt matter". hell some will actively encourage it continue or even get worse... wild

(this is not in reference to any recent discussion here, nor directed at or referencing anyone in specific, recent discussion just made me think about it :p)

i'm getting a trach shave next week (small yay!)

i've only told my partner, my boss (for sick leave), and now trans mega

Chat. I have a place I can reliably do my online job

this is your mandatory reminder that you cant trust doctors

Behold! My amateur nail work (2nd time ever that I painted them). I feel like it would be actually cute if I had long nails and was an anime girl.

tfw he says he prefers personality over tits or ass but i have giant tits, a great ass, and a toxic, horrid personality

Soooo i got my first pair of pumps! These shoes were not made for walking... Because theyre 12-13cm stilletos. BUT! They make my feet and legs look sexy as hell! Im super happy, got them on sale, and all i need now is some foam for the toebox and a heel grip. Never gonna wear them out-out. But will happily wear them to events that are primarily seated. Fuck my ball of foot hurts but its so worth it! And theyre aggressive enough that i cant wear them everywhere, so i have a deterrent to constantly wearing them and giving myself bunions. Wish i could put a picture of them here... Also whoever recommended onlymaker shoes, thank youuuu!!! They fit very well, tbh theyre a touch large on me, but thats a good thing it makes my toesies happier.

the reason cashier jobs n such dont allow you to sit and have "must be able to lift x weight" etc as requirements (goes for office jobs too) is so they dont have to hire disabled people btw

I'm homeless now. So that's a life update I can throw out onto the internet.

::: spoiler bad and gross vulgar talk despite all my rage i have still put my cock in a cage :::

Missed support group (the situation is understandable and not really anyone's fault) but low key have been almost crying since. Its okay, just was looking forward to it and I guess estrogen is doing something

Also >spent like 2 hours analyzing lines, opponent moves differently then expected on move 2

I look forward to when i get meds, locking in, and achieving my dreams of becoming a wh*re

Itty bitty titty revolutionary committee.

Did my self care routine and am very happy to be clean and soft

my boobs hurt.

it's because I got punched in the boobs.

Texting someone and accidentally hit the suggested response of "Yay!"

My mysterious femme fatale thing has been ruined, now im bubbly :pensive:

How can I ever tell anyone? How can I be who I want?

What if my ribcage and shoulders are too big??? 😭😭😭

Why does "gender critical" mean complete uncritical acceptance of hegemonic ideas about gender?? We're the ones who are actually critiquing gender over here lol.

Defenders of the status quo really love to pretend that they're edgy critics of the system huh

I've been getting gender envy a lot more often and stronger now that I've realized I just wanna be a girl with no asterisks. Like why am I sitting here in such jealous longing looking at a cute little sketch someone made on a blackboard.

Every time I try to do something in Godot I am reminded of how little I know about everything

I think I'm getting better at identifying what is within my capabilities to do now or learn to do in the short term and that's helping me pare down my ideas down to a scope I can work with

I continue to feel like a fucking child because of how much my problems revolve around my parents.

::: spoiler spoiler

I've made up my mind. I'm not going to tell my parents anytime soon.

I can try to enforce my boundaries with them, but they don't give a shit. My mom just told me like 10 minutes ago that she doesn't respect me enough to respect my boundaries or just behave politely.

I'm not good enough for her. That kind of basic decency is exclusively for strangers and my mom's elders.

Maybe I'm just too autistic or something and don't get social norms of "love". Either way, I'm done with illusions. Hopefully it lasts.

:::

Should be starting HRT soon but I’m kinda scared of the emotions. I’m already barely this side of okay.

seeing leftists defend the use of ai makes me sad

framework is going fascist which is ughhhhh

literally all you had to do is not that

::: spoiler horny FUCK
NEED TBOY BOTTOM GROWTH DICK
I haven't been this horny in a while I have no idea why this is happening now wtf, its my own femme version rutting season apparently :::

I hate modern tech now for many reasons so I guess I play games from the late 90s and/or early 2000s to cope, wow there were a lot of RTSs at that time, some are fun even (note: opinions may be tinted by nostalgia)

More crying today idek what I want to post about. I want a hug.

Looking in the mirror in the morning and thinking "damn I'm cute!" is slowly becoming a frequent occurrence. Is this what it's like to feel okay? I hope this continues.

I feel satisfied with where I’m at (low dose of e, masculine-leaning presentation) but this weekend my dysphoria had me almost crying at the thought of how much I don’t look like a woman and I don’t know what to do with that. I haven’t had dysphoria this bad in over a year since I started my estrogen. I want reskinnable character creator mode for my body so fucking bad.

::: spoiler stupid life shit i guess

Im trying to be emotionally vulnerable with people in my life who bring up difficult reactions and processes for me. But im so scared im making my own shit their problem. Like, im clear with them that this is my shit dont take it on, but still i worry. Scared i drive people away by being simultaneously way too much and not ever enough. Idk. Im probably up in my head.

In other news things with my closest romantic relation (idk the word to put to it we have discussed words but not come to distinct conclusions about social markers) are really really good. We have good communication, we support each other, we have what i think are healthy boundaries... Its really good and im so happy! Her primary partner is also an absolute joy to be around, and we can all three of us sit down and have a wonderful time together which is so nice.

Im also anxious about new people i met who will maybe become friends? Idk, i suck at reaching out and cannot tell if they like being around me or not, so idk if friendship-friendships will develop, but i really like these people and hope that they become friends ^^

Wow I actually am a cat. The sun is shining down onto my spot on the couch and now I must stay here. Only a spray bottle could dislodge me from this spot until the sun moves.

we have 84 comments just in this megathread,,,,, :3

::: spoiler Lol I did something silly CW Dysphoria I ordered a dress online tried to put it on and it was impossible. I felt gigantic, especially awful about my huge shoulders. Realized I accidentally ordered a Size 6 not an 18. Like most women aren't getting this on lol. Actually pretty affirming to be upset by a size 6 dress as a woman.

weve seen a push in a lot of trans communities to seperate those who do and dont medically transition and its pretty concerning

like yall did we not agree that transmedicalism is a bad thing like... forever ago?

plus nonbinary people exist

overall just... can we not

i think i sprained my wrist

ow

The dating apps are fucking brutal. I don't think Ive liked a single person's profile wtf

I cannot find T4T anywhere especially T4T het, also if you're monogamous and T4T good luck lol

Update on the hormone arc

I heard back from the PP nurse

Thanks for reaching out. Lab work is not the best driver of this care. The better indicator is how the patient feels and if they are seeing affirming changes. When we had your telehealth visit, you expressed being happy with the changes you were seeing and liking the dose of medications you were on. Therefore, I didn't make any dose adjustment recommendations when I received your labs. Target range for estradiol is 100-200 pg/mL and for testosterone its < 100 ng/dL. You are on the highest dose of estradiol tablets, so there is not an option to increase. You can absolutely consider switching to patches or injections if you want to explore another way of taking estradiol. There is room to increase Spironolactone if you want to see a lower testosterone level. We can certainly make that change if you are wanting to try that.

#1: I get the idea of patient sentiment being priority, but I've only been doing this for less than a year! I have no idea how fast or slow anything is supposed to go and I depend on them to see if what I think is good is actually good. What if I'm only getting like 33% of the results I could get??

#2: If the target range is testosterone is below 100 ng/dL (ignoring the WPATH standard, for whatever reason) why is it okay for me to be over twice that? And shouldn't they note that when they tell me about the labs beyond just saying "they're fine" or "no change"? In my labs for my PCP my B12 was high and even though literally all you do is piss out the extra he made sure to make note of that.

I hate this I hate this I hate this

Update to update: she's offered to up me to 150 on Spiro but won't prescribe injections until the follow up months from now. Time to find a new provider!

I'm gay

frantically posting at 3 am in a cold sweat on quora "DOES CHARLIE DAY HAVE T BOY SWAG YES OR NO???"

Toxic masculinity made me pick bigger size shoes growing up 😔

::: spoiler CW joke about Gender Dysphoria I don't have Gender Dysphoria, I'm a temporarily embarrassed woman. :::

this is your mandatory reminder that the creator of fnaf directly funds the US fascist regime, and supporting them is a bad thing

Submitted a job application for a job im kinda excited about... Aaaand now im super anxious about it. I know i wont get the job, im not experienced and have a very poor resume. But i keep thinking about what life would look like, could look like, with that job. And i want it. I want that life so bad. But i wont get the job.

::: spoiler venting and anxiety

The application period closes at the end of the month, so i know i have some time before the "were moving forward with other candidates" email, but i just... Fuck i want it! I need employment, i need employment that wont break my body, and all the jobs i qualify for are bodybreakers. I have skills but i dont even know what they are until someone reminds me. At least this one i have some skills for and they said it can be hobby skills and not professional, which is encouraging. But im still anxious. It would be such a good job for meeee!! I want it! Its close to where i live, its also on major bus lines, its 4 days a week, it pays well (or at least, well enough for me), it would look amazing on my resume for when i inevitably quit or get fired, its part organizing others and part direct technical work so i wouldnt be doing only social interaction, my weekend would be during the week so i could go shopping without facing the massive crowds, the work is interesting, im good at systems-oriented thinking, and i dont mind installing hardware or running cables.

But i know i wont get it. Ill show up to the interview if im selected and do my best, but i have very low hopes. Theyre probably getting applicants with tons of experience, and i have relatively little. And like, this is the first time i listed "i am or have been disabled" on a job app cause they said they need to meet a minimum of 7% of their workforce being disabled, and that may have been a massive mistake, but maybe not? Im giving it a shot at least.

Ill probably end up back in kitchens, breaking my back in order to make minimum wage and barely be able to afford to eat... Fuck this shit. Fuck capitalism, fuck the ownership class, fuck the tarrifs, fuck the amerikkklan political party driving us off the fascism cliff in the the neoliberalism car, fuck it all.

::: spoiler spoiler I don't know how to not be depressed about humanities evil and willful ignorance and what that means for me.

Literally how tf can you be trans, treated this way, and not be fucking misanthropic?? Like it genuinely just makes no sense to me. Is everyone else on some kinda mega copium or do they just handle feeling like this better then me or what the fuck? How the fuck do you be happy post puberty (and dealing with all the dysphoria and pain that comes from that) and in this fucking society, world?

Want to kms fuck this. Hopefully I can leave work early. :::

hrt that makes u a dragon

I figured out what I accidentally kicked off my night stand, it was my melatonin bottle. I can't find it. Oopsies guess I'm not sleeping tonight.

I must remember for voice training: meowing is praxis. 1 minute of meowing just did more for my voice than any other single thing I've done.

When I was a teen, I thought if I was a Pokémon Gym leader, I would have a dark/fire gym with Arcanine, Houndoom and Mightyena, three dog Pokémon. And I'd have black hair with red tips.

Yet it would take me another two decades to realize I was a trans woman.

What music are you listening to? I've been absolutely hooked on The Funeral Portrait. They're inspirational.

Just putting the word out there if you're my librarian you're super cool and an amazing person if you read this. Be even cooler if you gave more more time on the computer tomorrow 1 hour isn't enough to learn stuff. Anyone hooked into the library culture give them a heads up how cool I am ty

helppp theres still people that believe reverse racism is real

this cannot be i refuse

girls

I'm done crying (for this morning, the next session will be later at night). My tears ran out. Now I'm dried up and hungry.

Shout out to comedians who make fun of transphobic comedians. Love you James Acaster

a human told us the other day that we were a weirdo n we got all giggly n started waggin our tail

speech bubble "amazing i hope hrt gives you everything you want"

thought bubble "get fatter get fatter get fatter ..."

chubby tgirl appreciation will continue until moral improves

4th done. Still no physical effects, just crying more. Mental- hard to say. I've been feeling generally pretty normal most of the time but there's definitely still bad lows + dissociation type feeling.

"Qatar is a Chinese proxy, we can see this since Qatar's largest trading partner is China" - OANN talking head

lmao

i think i might just be perpetually crashing out at all times and im just numb to it

but occasionally i get a little less numb to it and this happens

It's time for some halloween nails I think.

down with cis

getting my friends to use "winding down" when they are getting ready for bed so i can tell them "its time to wind down, doll"

I slept for like 11 hours last night, fuck yeah

Ain't got nothing to share about right now other than the fact that I'm feeling the bittersweet feeling of finishing a book series. Past 4 months of my life I'd just open up the book whenever I felt like getting dopamine. Now it's gone.

When I was in middle school english class, I had an assignment where we had to analyze some song I can't remember anymore. My interpretation of the song was apparently so nihilistic that the teacher told me that I'm a teenager and I shouldn't be feeling that life is stagnant and miserable. The whole incident was played for laughs and I thought nothing of it.

In hindsight, I should've thought a lot more about it.

oh thats the UN signing a mass surveillance law

it might be over

Kinda sad, craving cuddles, and dont know what to do about it... I just want to feel secure and safe and held... Been feeling more stable mentally than i have in a long time, but also feeling so unstable in my life. No job, housing situation is kinda fucked but moving is so hard and finding a place when i have no job is really difficult. Im tired... So tired... I just want to curl up with cuties and cuddle up while doing nothing but exist.

I'm 3X years old and I've never had a worthy adversary let alone a homoerotic nemesis fml

our body has many failings but we can balance on one foot impressively well :3

don fink weve posted these pins before so enjoy

::: spoiler depression Every now and again there's a moment of clarity of how miserable life is and I am and how much of my life is trying to escape it and fuck that hits hard :::

::: spoiler Ugh i hate socializing.

Trying to do the due diligence to keep up with people and its so hard. First i have to get over my rediculous "oh no one wants to talk to me" internalized shame and self hatred. Then ive gotta actually compose and send a message (i suck at that). Then i have to freak out when they dont immediately respond (because this means they despise me, obiously ). Then i have to actually uphold a conversation if they ever do respond to me. And messaging multiple people at once? Yeah no, thats not super functional for me. Hate this shit.

I love my brain so much, it causes me no pain at all :eyeroll:

Idk i just worry that i let things sit for too long, that even if people do like my company i dont reach out enough to maintain social connections and they feel like i dont like them (I DO! I just suck at reaching out). Thats on top of the fear theyre all lying to me and dont actually want to know me (which i know is irrational and not true, why would they ask for my phone number if they didnt want to know me? But my cognitive reality is not my emotional reality).

::: ::: spoiler coding

I am stuck on this problem. How do i maintain backwards compatibility, fix the emergent issues that prevent the old way of doing things from working, and keep code bloat to a minimum? (For reference this is all because of a method signature. New things require it to have one more argument than it currently does, but i cant change it across the board cause then all the old definitions will break. So im stuck between a hard break to not support older versions (currently unacceptable) or introducing a new method and generating all ~200 methods per version in addition to the old method. Would be pretty great to have a good way of doing this, and im sure one exists but its not making itself apparent to me)

my vision is 20/20 but i wanna wear glasses anyway cuz they r hot

convinced all the boolyin ppl get for wearing glasses is jus cuz ppl r jealous of how good they look,,,,,

round glasses on girls <3

Me outside the megathreads: This battery technology is clearly inferior! I have the math to prove it.

Me in the megathreads: Overwhelming existential/mental/emotional crisis mode

The dosage and hormone levels posting will continue until (my) morale improves

I'm crashing out even more now because I did a comparison and my hair is definitely thinner than it was about a month ago

I know I asked about this before, but to confirm that I'm not being silly—isn't it a concern that my T jumped from 88 ng/dL in April to 331 ng/dL in July? And now it's at 227. I've only gone up on my E and Spiro doses in that timeframe.

Also I boofed my prog last night and I feel like my cheeks are super flushed now but weren't earlier in the day?? I could also just be getting sick

honk-shoo

Well I figured out what I'm doing after my nails.

singlepawbedly boosting the amount of posts dis megathread by a significant amount

all computers are broken and software was a mistake

I don't care what people (irl) say! I'm rocking these nails! It's a bold and fresh color!

Okay Instagram algorithm it's been a year. But you've finally locked in by showing me dresses in my size, country and price range. Bonus points for the ones with the very clocky models. This is dangerous.

thats it youre going in the get along collar

Up until now, I've been stealth moving by wearing a coat whenever I go outside. Hides my figure well. Actually, recently you can see my feminising figure through the coat as well.

But I'm starting to go out without my coat and letting everyone see. Occasionally. But still. Improvement.

I wish I had voice trained and had longer hair and exercised more. Then I could go all out in trying to pass by now.

One thing they will probably never stop hurting is missing out on being myself in my younger years. And especially not seeking out queer community back then. I love seeing queer kids finding each other, it fills me with hope. But the tears are never far behind.

::: spoiler this got a lot heavier than I meant it to. I wish so much that I could go back and give my younger self guidance. To tell her that it's okay. To give her the nudge to go join the gsa when she was looking for clubs to join in high school. To not worry so much about what other people thought of her. To be herself rather than trying to fit in. To tell her to be honest with her best friend about her feelings. To tell her about estrogen, hrt, and all the wonderful possibilities that she didn't know about. To hug her and tell her that what she went through in elementary school wasn't right, and wasn't her fault, and she didn't have to hide who she was to prevent that from happening again. :::

staring at the stars is staring into the past

I would love to see a otoboke beaver and baby metal show

Baby metal and MCR are playing next year but I cant justify going to the states again :(

I have typed out and thrown away so many posts. Because I cannot convey my thoughts/feelings. And because even if i could, it's all meaningless anyway.

comments are friendlier than posts because we dont have to come up with a title xP

hellppp its 2025 and people still think misandry exists

i got told to keep posting so im just treating this like a little microblog to throw my thoughts into until i lose interest which will be like tomorrow

or ill run out of things to say

i dont dress butch because im scared of dressing fem and think i look bad, i mean i am, but thats not why i dress butch!!!

its hot as fuck and a cute girl should come shine my boots

being trans on the internet is so fun sometimes

you can say "im so cute today!" and at least one person will be like "well thats great for you but im not, why would you personally target me for looking like shit"

its like eating chocolate and saying you like chocolate but someone says they dont and its bad and you should feel bad for liking chocolate because they dont like it

i know society had decided women are acceptable targets for abuse and offloading misery onto, but they do infact have their own lives and interiority and are infact more than just objects

gender affirming transmisogyny

its hard not to feel guilty about having/sharing what few nice moments there are when so many people feel the need to project their own problems/insecurities/dysphoria/etc onto you and make you feel miserable

if you cant share in someones joy you can just not reply

this is your mandatory reminder that misandry still isnt and will not be real

adhd sucks

Very lonely tonight.

I saw the one person at work who calls me by my (new) first initial. I really like that, and she called me that to another person who's been there and known me for a long time and she didn't blink an eye. Guess I've been more worried about that then I needed to be.

I should work out something to message her about tomorrow. Maybe that will help with the loneliness. It feels like I can't remember a time without this feeling

Where did the weekend go? I'm not ready for the week to start yet.

::: spoiler discussion of meat eating, sinophobia okay so we all know about the whole like "omgggg chinese people eat cats/dogs/whatever" whatever that people like to say

ignoring the inherent issues with all of that, who is deciding what animals are and arent okay to eat?? nobody is going "omg these americans are eating cows!!" but if you eat the "wrong" animal and suddenly its not okay to people? doesnt really make sense. the arbitrary x meat is okay but y meat isnt really says a lot about the people who say that kinda stuff.

guess trying to rationalize inherently irrational things doesnt really work :p

(and yes theres the inherent terribleness of the meat industry and whatnot but the people who say these things dont care about that) :::

see dis is what happrns when we get too seeepy eepy we get all sleep drunk and start spreading communjsm

Dying my hair black for Halloween let's fucking go! Also because I'm dressing a bit pop punk lately.

call a puppygirl getting an orchi getting fixed

we can just do surgery to change the shape of bones now and thats rad as fuck

Feel a lot better on my iron tabs for anemia already, I thought I was that horribly burnt out.

Have a second interview coming up to be a dialysis tech, its one of those retail hell v medical hell showdowns, work at min wage 4x7 a week some weeks to 6x12 others, or work 16x3-5 a week for a few dollars more. At least the technician place provides paid training, and this is one of those places they train you at, so ideal world I can use that to gtfo or at least find something that isn't min wage. Medical stuff is always horrible hours wise and this being as rural and impoverished as it is competition will be brutal for it.

I tried going to a queer bar a few times, but idk if I feel confident going back without friends.

big soft squishy chubby girls with small tits and grabbable tummys is this anything

lemmy is so annoyinggg we have to do so many little itty bitty fings to get our funky wunky cute wittle famces to look correct :c

I'm awake! Good morning! I'm enjoying being up before the sun so much, I get to watch the sunrise!

we could be doing so much cool shit with vr headsets with current technology that we just arent and thats a shame

up with trans

I have a sleep study tonight because I have like WILD insomnia. I have a feeling its going to be a not very great time having a bunch of stuff attached to me and not being able to sleep. I just want powerful downers so I can make myself eepy. GIVE YA GIRL SOME AMBIEN!

My aunt who only started talking to me once I started transitioning texted me out of nowhere to ask me if I'm still transitioning

My first act as Australian Prime Minister is nationalising Bluey and making Bandit come out as a trans lady dog.

The international community cannot stop me. All 3 previous seasons are now a poignant backstory.

You thought Bandit was the world's best father? Jokes on you she's a normal mother.

A new masculine role model will be established (Lucky's dad Pat?). As well as a new transmasc character.

slowly turning into an infohazard

girls in boots

mandated by the state to never stop posting

I know the LOTM power system has wierd things in it, but ain't no way one of the power levels you can achieve is "sex addict".

I should try to get a diagnosis for adhd. My executive functioning skills being this abysmal can't be normal.

need to get paws tattooed on our paws,,,,,,

::: spoiler idk what this is People at work keep thinking I look younger then I am. Now, reasons this could be:

-perhaps T hasn't done as much to me as I fear and I still look like a teenager instead of young 20s. Very good and hoping its this
-My hair obscures a lot of my face and what I look like, so people can't tell how I old I actually am
-My appearance is shitty and teenager like and most actual adults would put more effort in
-I behave like I'm younger then I am

idk what of this it is and my perception of self is fuckin horrible so I really do not know. Not sure if I have some kinda facial blindness or its dysphoria or what but I can really only pick out very obvious things about how I look. Please let it be that T just didn't do as much and I get a little freebie few years... :::

thousand yard stare into the mirror

shattering a mirror and staring into it wouuld feel sooooo ggood,,,,,, especially the shattering part,,,,, can we break ur mirror pwetty pweasseee we'll pay for it we pinky paw pwomise

being a system is so fun we just need to collectively keep posting and at least one of our posts will resonate with somebody

friendly reminder that once you know somebodys pronouns you should stop referring to them with gender neutral pronouns unless thats what they want

I really gotta remember to not eat before bed, that was young Switchy behavior back when I had an iron digestion that could handle anything.

gender gender gender (in the style of howdy howdy howdy from the shark in toy story)

new nilered video

Doctor's appointment shifted 2 weeks back cause the doctor got sick. Can't have shit in [not gonna dox myself].

I was looking forward to getting recomended to a guy who can recomended me to a ADHD diagnosis pre-liminary test.

Now I just gotta go through ADHD tumblr and go "that's so me fr fr" at the posts.

I have no idea where I am supposed to get a haircut

shiny necklace

factorio is industrial colonization simulator but its also fun so take that

laid down to take a nap during my lunch break but ended up talking about fallout the entire time instead. oops.

::: spoiler si but not really? I don't mean this in a particularly suicidal way but life sucks and I just don't have an interest in continuing with this. It fucking sucks lol and is not for me. Not for me. Not up for this shit. :::

Get yourself a husband who can cook a full course meal using his tentacles.

Filed/shaped my nails! Another self care win on the books.

"it/its if ur better than it! na she/her if ur better than it

it/its is aspirational. it is a category above being human

/silly but also /hj

I had a dream that I asked apollo (yes the god, been playing too much hades lol) for help, because I thought he was associated with fire and I specifically needed fire to protect myself. Well, fast forward to waking life and im over here reminding myself of the aspects of apollo that don't align with my goals re:colonialism (did you know one of apollo's aspects is god of colonialism??) but this led to an interesting discovery... Adonis was considered "a man with Apollo, and a woman with Aphrodite" now I know this probably wasnt being interpreted in a literal way, but still felt like a win for multigender ppl in my heart ❤️‍🔥

Our memories aren't static videos of past events, but active recreations that change every time you do recollection. The way you recall events depends on your mental state, desires and agenda.

It is terrifying. I often wonder how accurate the memories of my life truly are. Everything I know about other people in my life is based on a foundation of lies and mysteries. Why do I feel love or hatred for this person? I remember them doing this to piss me off/endear me to them, but is my memory just a reinforcement of a pre-existing bias?

...

I can't trust my memories. I can't trust my feelings. I can't trust my judgement. Forget trusting others, I can't even trust myself.

girls infodumping,,,,,

life sucks

*flops*

Holy fuck it's been almost 2 years of ts. It doesn't feel like it at all. Where the fuck has the time gone

I genuinely just rot

I need a more drastic change in the next 2. Idk if anything is even possible.

Life rotting away and I know exactly why.

apparently theres an aboriginal tribe who always refer to directions by their orientation. so its not left foot, its north foot (if the foot is to the north). standing in a room inside with no windows they know which direction they are facing and their kids can’t understand why outsiders cant

this is the coolest shit ever hello???????? brains are fucking magic and we need to start taking advantage of that more

cctv operators become one with the building thats the most metal shit ever

learning a sign language would be cool...

::: spoiler spoiler

Top 10 people I hate the most:

1. Me
2. Me
3. Me
4. Me
5. Me
6. Me
7. Me
8. Me
9. Me
10. Me

Honorable mention

11. Me

:::

me when im too seepy eepy and i accidentally refer to german as dutch

oops

signalis <3

Good morning tracha traa mega. Oops, habit.

I heard we’re beeping again

beep

Please write a comment in support of my proposal to increase the pronoun limit if you want more than 2 pronouns.

[Last Post for today?]

Cyan nail paint looks cute on anime characters (when used with a pastel color scheme), does it look good on me?

I will try TOMMOROW. Yes, I will post results tommorow. I'm writing this to force myself into doing it.

Edit: This was not the last post of the day

friend told md i give off wolf vibes sometimes n now im having another species crisis

made the mistake of having caffeine and being reminded why i cant have caffeine

hey you

yes you

read WARHOUND

this is not a request

Cancelling calls from people you don't like is giga Stacy behaviour (I've been told Stacy is the female version of chad)

::: spoiler CW distress, looking for bipolar advice

Looking for help, how do I ground myself and make it through a bipolar episode (mixed state)? I feel like I'm destroying my life and don't want to make it any worse

:::

[complaining of being tired through lots of noises]

I wish I had manual control over my circadian rhythm. Jet lag got me like

Do a dark grey 3 button coat and turquoise nails really not go well together? I thought that the color combination was great, but I'm being told by someone that it isn't. I ask for second opinions.

one of those wolf quick muzzles that vets use would work on me,,,,,

den time

marvel rivals devs stealing from small artists yippeeeee

Really shitty thoughts alert

::: spoiler si

I often fantasise about killing myself I'm such a way that other people can find out everything about me. Just laying bare all my secrets, and fucking off while giving a giant middle finger. I want to shock everyone that they knew nothing about me, and leave them with guilt for their shitty actions.

Of course, such a thing is dumb. How can I savour the reactions of people if I'm dead?

And also, what a petty and selfish way of thinking. The others don't deserve to be treated this way. If I'm going to throw my life away, I should at least do it by bombing downing street 10, no?

:::

My brain be making me think impure heterosexual thoughts

Kids Bop Kidz for those not in the know, is a group that produces kid safe versions of popular songs performed by kids. It's kind of a blatant money grab, but also I know a few young kids who like being able to listen to versions of recent pop songs, instead of more patronizing stuff.

Famously some of the changes they make to songs are really bad (Thrift Shop). And occasionally the edits are actually better (Dear Future Husband).

They've tackled Chappell Roan a couple of times. Their cover of Goodluck Babe is not good, it's changed to be more heteronormative and just kind of confusing. Their cover of Hot To Go is okay, making the song about dancing and having pizza is pretty fun.

I really love their cover of Pink Pony Club. They make some changes like "FRIENDS are in the bathroom" etc. Whatever it's for kids. However it is kind of wild they didn't change "I thank my wicked dreams" or "Where boys and girls can all be queens every single day" and it's still about leaving Tennessee to go to LA and dance/sing with friends in a club.

But the best thing is it's all that being sung by a bunch of kids, of mixed genders, separately and together in chorus. Released like 6 months ago in the USA, while reactionaries continue to rage about Drag Queen story hours and protecting children. A song that implies it's awesome to upset your parents, leave home to go and be queer. I think that's neat.

Wondering what I did or didn't do. Wondering what I have or don't have. Wondering what I am or what I'm not.

wolf if im better than you,,,,,

when u want a piece of pretty jewelry but u cant wear bracelets and ur ears arent pierced and u wear a collar 24/7 so a necklace might be uncomfy.....

i really need to start reading again sighs

head too full

This comment broke the devils number, sorry everyone

Anyways "Someone with devious intent sent [this video] to you"

transcribing this here could not depict it accurately enough so instead you get an image

the mods r out to get me,,,,,

Put things off to last minute

Pull up the motivation to try

Fail because I didn't act early enough and didn't think things through

"What is the point of trying next time?"

::: spoiler gross I fucking hate showering, especially when I'm already not doing good. I hate, hate, hate it. I don't want to get naked and wet and have to deal with my hair and shit. and it doesn't even last that long. I'll be sweaty again within the day and it was all for nothing. and then I have to be naked and wet all over again and it really doesn't seem like it but it genuinely is awful :::

they are using AI to make call of duty assets,,,, this was the clear next step in the slop cycle

Truly wise words. I'll take them to heart.

EpicGamer04 "Black Ops 6 and mommy ASMR, life can't get much better than this" 👍 402 likes, ❤ Hearted by creator

If y'all are wondering why I decided all of a sudden that cyan is a cute color, it's cause of this video

They (character depicted in video) are so cute! It makes me want to wear a monocle and witch hat and witch robes

older black women that call you darling

ive been posting too much it might be time to ban myself from posting

I feel like this is only true because the standards for writing women are so trash that in so many series, the men are the only ones with romantic potential.