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Lancer - Trans Megathread for September 22nd through September 28th, 2025

Lancer is a playable character class appearing across the Final Fantasy video game series.

Heavily armoured, dragon-themed knights have been a staple of the Final Fantasy series almost since its inception, first appearing in Final Fantasy II and gaining their signature abilities in Final Fantasy III.

Typically called Dragoons, these units are sometimes referred to as Dragon Knights or Lancers. Typically they specialize in the use of polearms to deal heavy melee damage, and are able to Jump great heights to attack enemies from the sky. In some games, Lancer does not appear as a class but does appear as a special magic used by the Dragoon class.

Appearances of Lancers in Final Fantasy Games

::: spoiler Final Fantasy V Called Ryūkishi (Dragon Knight) in the original Japanese release, the class was initially localized as Lancer before being referred to as Dragoon in subsequent remasters. In FFV Lancers are not restricted to using only polearms, also being able to equip knives. However, the power of their signature Jump ability is double when a spear is equipped.

FFV is also the first game where the Lance magical ability appears. It has a low MP and deals middling damage, but drains HP and MP and never misses. :::

::: spoiler Final Fantasy Tactics In an identical case to Final Fantasy V, the Ryūkishi class in Final Fantasy Tactics was initially localized as Lancer before being changed to Dragoon in remasters.

As before Lancers specialize in polearms and have access to the Jump ability, but as a class they function very differently due to FFT being an isometric turn-based strategy game and due to characters being able to equip skill sets and traits from other classes they've leveled.

Jump is functionality is changed dramatically - instead of targeting an enemy the Lancer's jump targets a tile, allowing enemies a chance to move out of the way of the attack and potentially wasting the Lancer's turn. They also have the lowest magic power of any class in the game, which limits Lancer's options for secondary skill sets. This effectively limits the class to basic attacks for their offensive options.

However, they remain one of the strongest martial classes in the game. Lancer's attacks are very powerful, and their polearms give them a reach of two squares (potentially hitting two characters as well). At a minor sacrifice to physical durability, they can also pick up the Two-Handed trait from the Samurai class to boost their physical attack in exchange for no longer being able to equip shields. By doing this, it's relatively simple for a Lancer to deal the maximum possible damage with a basic attack. Lancers also have high durability against both physical and magical attacks, and despite being heavily armoured their innate Ignore Height trait allows them to be one of the most mobile classes in the game.

All in all, Lancers in FFT have their setbacks but are able to easily overcome them and be useful well into the endgame, and match up well against nearly any other class in combat. :::

::: spoiler Final Fantasy XIV FFXIV is the first Final Fantasy where both Lancers and Dragoons appear as two (kind of) distinct playable classes. Lancer is one of the available starting melee DPS classes, and players who reach level 30 as a Lancer, complete the Lancer class questline, and progress a certain way through the Main Story Quest can obtain a Job Stone to become a Dragoon.

In story, Lancers are primarily associated with the Wood Wailers of Gridania. Gridania is one of the primary city-states of Eorzea, governed by an Ancient Racist Tree that controls The Elements, and the Wood Wailers basically function as city-guards and cops. The Lancer storyline involves tracking down and fighting a rogue Lancer who instead of wanting to serve the Ancient Racist Tree is into lancing for the love of the game. :::

::: spoiler Stranger of Paradise: Final Fantasy Origin Stranger of Paradise is the second game where Lancer and Dragoon appear as distinct classes. Here, Lancers maintain their high mobility and efficacy at mid-ranged combat with their Lance Hurl ability allowing them to attack and knockback enemies at range and their Swayback ability allowing them to quickly dodge backwards away from enemy attacks. In Stranger of Paradise leveling Lancer is required to unlock the Monk and Dragoon classes, and in the Trial of the Dragon King DLC unlocking all Lancer abilities gives access to the Errant Champion and Restless Champion classes. :::

::: spoiler War of the Visions: Final Fantasy Brave Exvius Unlike in other appearances of Lancers, in War of the Visions certain characters have Lancer as their static primary or secondary job. Here Lancers (shockingly) focus on piercing damage, and are able to place different debuffs (called enfeeblements) on enemies. :::

::: spoiler Games in which Lancer appears as a specific magic or ability

In Final Fantasy IX the party member Freya Crescent has the Lancer ability as part of her Dragoon Skillset. As with FFV above, the Lancer ability deals physical damage while draining MP from the target.

In Final Fantasy Tactics Advance, Dragoons have access to the Lancer ability. Unlike previous instances, Lancer in FFTA does not drain MP but rather absorbs health.

In Lightning Returns: Final Fantasy XIII, the player is able to unlock the Dragoon garb which grants the Lancer ability when equipped. Lancer once again absorbs HP from targets struck, and can hit multiple times. :::

So, uh, yeah, that's Lancer I guess. I really love polearms, so Lancers are pretty cool to me. I'd love to hear about everyone's polearms!

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gaystyleJoker [she/her] - 3mon

HELLO THIS IS THE MEGA SIGN UP POST/LIST POST

if you have a preferred week please tell me

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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 3mon

can i reserve the week beginning 32nd dodecember 2046

fuck off and suck one please

can i have a megathread actually for real though please. it doesn't have to be then

ok i guess...

GayTuckerCarlson [she/her] - 3mon

Another one

Disaster_of_Passion [kit/kit's, she/her] - 3mon

put me back in, boss

also I think the dates might be messed up, shouldn't it be 11/10 - 11/16 and then 11/17 through 11/23, and so on?

good catch, thank you

BountifulEggnog [she/her] - 3mon

got my hrt today party-cat

hell yeag hell yeag!

really happy for you! cat-trans

lilypad [it/its, pup/pup's] - 3mon

Omg yessss lfg Eggnog!!!

peanutbuttercupola [she/her] - 3mon

Hell yeah, that's great news! trans-heart

SuperZutsuki [they/them] - 3mon

lets-fucking-go party-parrot-science

You made it! So happy for you!

XiaCobolt [she/her] - 3mon

Let's fucking go!!! So happy for you

0x2640 - 3mon

ywyayayayayay pwoud of u

DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them] - 3mon

Congrats!

sodium_nitride [she/her, any] - 3mon

It begins trade-offer

MusicOwl [comrade/them, sie/hir] - 3mon

congratulations

meler [she/her, pup/pup's] - 3mon

LETS FUCKING GO

EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 3mon

party-blob WOMEN! hexbear-lesbian

girlssss

waow-based

DANCE REPORT 3: The "find a partner event"

I didn't find a partner
There were 9 leaders and only I was willing to be follower
If I passed I would have instantly been able to find someone

Imma be real, I don't want to continue trying. I just left early. It doesn't matter if guys compliment my energy if they aren't willing to be my partner for the actual course.

TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 3mon

Did they really say they didnt want to have you as a partner or did you assume they wouldnt be up for it?

I asked everyone. I didn't make assumptions. All the guys unanimously wanted opposite sex partners.

🙄 oh men why must you be like this

WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them] - 3mon

No all men... just 9/9 men!

🎀 Seryph (She/Her) - 3mon

>New FE mobile game got shadowdropped last night

>The protagonist is a lesbian puppygirl forced to be a boy in public for political reasons

How is this game real

ALSO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN LYN IS UMA MUSUME NOW

hehe :3

I have been feeling much better today. I also rescheduled getting my hrt, should be Saturday.

SwitchyandWitchy [she/her] - 3mon

Yay congrats! cat-trans the Hrt is exciting I bet.

I really do appreciate this (cis) person at work being so supportive of me, but she kinda makes me nervous about keeping things on the dl. Like just earlier she was calling me by my (new, to be clear) first initial in front of a bunch of people from work pretty loudly. It makes me a bit nervous.

Good news though, she found a local support group that apparently has a bunch of resources 'n stuff. She's going to give me all the information and stuff tomorrow and I'm hoping we get a chance to talk longer.

I straight up told my coworkers to their faces that nobody calls me [deadname] outside of work and everyone calls me [first and middle initials of actual name] and it just went right over their heads... cis people are pretty dense with this stuff.

I guess, I don't know. Just really not ready to be out full time for a bunch of reasons. I'll try not to worry about it.

I have (small but noticeable) tits, no facial hair or beard shadow due to laser, girly earrings, and my skin is glowing from the E. No one at work has said anything and the few people I trusted enough to tell were very surprised. All the old men probably just think I'm getting man boobs like them.

up with trans

Wmill [they/them, fae/faer] - 3mon

I been working on my presentation when it's my turn to make the trans thread next month. It's gonna be so good that we might not have a thread afterward folx a-little-trolling you'll be like "Wmill Wmill, we love the megathread so much we're upgrading it to a Gigathread it's just that good and we're not gonna lock it folx but I will tell you who we will lock up" hillary-contempt

I do not like it when media or people glaze "humanity", "humanness" or circlejerk about how special being human is.

I do not like it when that is a theme of stories, especially if there exist other sentient creatures (robots, aliens, demons, etc) in the story and the message is something about how you shouldn't mistreat them because they are like us. Both in the "damn they can feel human emotions" and "damn, they got a nice humanoid figure that I wanna fuck" sense.

It strikes me as arrogant and uninspired.

Humanity is not worth glazing

Sometimes its just fantasy or sci fi racism, just a way to recycle racist narratives but with aliens and orcs and elves - so dont get mad fellow woke liberals, look humanity is diverse in this setting.

On the other hand, I dont mind an introspection and reflection on what makes us special or what makes us different from all the rest for the world. Or even a narrative where the point is that we're neither anyway. I do think there should be more exploration into humanities apparent self destructive impulses rather than "look how good and special we are." Or make really alien looking aliens that someone falls in love with and wants to be intimate with, whatever that means, to show that love extends beyond mere senses or whether someone hits the right "youre hot" circuit in our brains

being human sucked so we stopped being human :3

Normal stories: abandoning your humanity sucks and is evil

Me fr: abandoning your humanity is bridget-vibe

Characters in Chinese cultivation novels: I abandoned my humanity and ascended to Godhood last tuesday so I could impress my crush

iridaniotter [she/her] - 3mon

I don't have an issue with humanism per se, but the humanist project pre-Marx was idealist and blatantly hypocritical, while the liberal humanist project post-Marx continues with this as a complete rejection of proletarian science. And while modern science and popular consciousness even can accept materialism on its own, accepting dialectical materialism has been a hurdle capitalist society just cannot pass, as discussed by Lenin in Materialism and Empirio-criticism, and decades later by Levins & Lewontin in The Dialectical Biologist. While Marxists have no issue accepting that little green men and incarnated anime girls are human, and that there is not much stopping a New Caledonian crow from becoming one and a Homo from not, the liberal humanist struggles to fathom a monozygotic twin. It's insulting, yes, but also deeply embarrassing!

Arahnya [he/him, fae/faer] - 3mon

The term "humans" bothers me because of who is considered human, and who isnt. And then how people say things like "humans are the virus" or "as humans we [bioessentialism]" so I say people instead.

SerialExperimentsGay [she/her, fae/faer] - 3mon

Recently watched some Dungeon Meshi with a friend and she remarked on how much she digs that they use "tallmen" instead of "humans" to not create an implicit linguistic division between the humans and the fantasy races. I think she really has a point there, something is fishy about how we center ourselves as the default in universes that have all kinds of different sapient species.

knight-nod

The goal of scrolling the trans mega is looking for the comment that makes me think so true bestie as an automatic thought. I hope you tiny transes who fit on my phone screen are having a good week

Shaleesh [she/her, comrade/them] - 3mon

Me: "Haha yeah this is great Im so stoked to meet up with you again! I'm so happy to go hang out with you and go to the [thing] that is located halfway between us! That makes it very convienent because we are located roughly 100 miles away from eachother!"

Person: "totally! this is gonna be awesome! Is been years and I'm so excited! When are you picking me up?"

Me: "huh?"

Person: "yeah I dont have any means of transportation, I neglected to mention this at any point in time during the three months weve been trying to work something out haha!"

mfw

::: spoiler being real for a second In all seriousness, the phenomenon of the trans person without a means of personal trans portation is resultant from the poverty that is inflicted on our communities. I think its tragic and have come to accept that maintaining friendships with my trans people requires a large amount of driving now that I live in a new place.

But cmon, you gotta say something about it earlier than the monday before.
:::

I didn't know the trans person without a means of personal trans portation was a common thing but it's unfortunately me doggirl-tears

hi, i intentionally broke "transportation" into two words and you picked up on that and i love you for it, thank you,,,

also yeah shitty public transit systems are transphobic

Like at that point it’s less driving to just go to them

But also I wanna go apple picking at this one place and Im not willing to fold on that.

Fuck i hate being tall sometimes. I try to find pantyhose that wont sag that ill have to pull up every 20 minutes. But no. Everything is at best 10cm too short. Plus all my height is in my legs so more like 15 cm too short. I find some stuff on alibaba that might fit, its 3 USD so fuck it worth the price to experiment. But no account immediately locked. So i keep looking, find stuff that would fit! Yayy! Except its 100 USD per pair and designer shit. Fuck me. The tall tax fucking sucks. I hate this shit.

Nice humble brag about having legs for days im-fuckin-gay

SickSemper [she/her, they/them] - 3mon

As my partner refers to me, we got “long legged dame” problems

Anyway, if anyone has recs for where to find 100+den pantyhose for a girl whose 195cm tall, please tell me. Amazon maxes out at like 183cm, everything else is sheer or smth. I just want simple pantyhose.

My search began with "i want cute colors, solid purple would be nice!" and quickly became "nope just something that fits please".

Also im somewhat thin so like all the nxl sizes have waists that are too wide for me despite being closer to my height doggirl-cry

Whelp i tried ordering from snagtights. We'll see if they fit...

Was about to recommend snag, i get all my pantyhose from them. Hope they fit you as well as they fit me

Look into garter belts so you don't have to keep pulling them up at least

inTheShadowOf [she/her] - 3mon

::: spoiler Vague and personal I have been picking up pieces for three years now. Sometimes they drop, sometimes I need to find them again. Feeling a heavy cloud of grief today. Hopefully it clears tomorrow. :::

First time meeting parents in a while. They came over to attend my graduation.

My mom sees me and immediately starts screaming at me in public. She says that my clothes are madness and that I am deranged.

No, I did not show up wearing hooker clothes. This happened because I was wearing clothes that weren't weather appropriate.

After this she had the audacity of accusing me of being a terrible "son" because I wasn't excited to see them.

Lightening the mood a little, I was wearing shorts and tshirt in wintery weather.

Yes, I'm well known round my university for being a wierdo. Of you came to my uni, you could unironically recognise me by my Safari vest, flip flops, t-shirt and shorts. I'm the only one insane enough to maintain this look even when it snows.

It's the one thing that makes boymodding sorta tolerable. If I can't act my preferred gender in public I can at least be unhinged about it.

Theres always at least one on every college campus, dont worry youre not alone

Also every girl ever in a winter area has gone out in a short dress and tights~ youd probably fit in with a bunch of other shivering college chicks on a fun night out. Ive done it. Actually, I did it when I was cross dressing on like Halloween ages before figuring myself out.

t-shirt and shorts in the dead of winter was basically the uniform at my uni

segfault11 [she/her, any] - 3mon

somehow after several months of weekly DIY injections I have developed anxiety over it cowboy-cri

How it feels like to do injections

powercry-1 gui-better explosion

fr 😭 i was so nonchalant about it in the beginning but in the last 6ish injections, 3 or 4 of them caused some unexpected sharp pain or muscle spasm and i'm anxious about it happening again (i'm still procrastinating on it 🥲)

If you ever played bloodborne you can try doing it like how hunters heal themselves with vials, I'm not a doctor but I can say that looks kick ass

LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves] - 3mon

I was always a snuggly baby but hormones have made me the snuggliest baby. I just constantly want to be held and called pet names. I used to cringe at people calling their partners kitten until someone I have a more casual thing with called me kitten and it just melted my heart.

What are y'all's favorite pet names?

My ex and I had an incomprehensible and loud noise we called walrus mating call

Otherwise not much in the way of pet names, I had a few that were plays on their name so I wont post it. They didnt say my name for the first year we were dating, it was weird. They'd only say hey you

walrus mating call

And they say romance is dead

They didnt say my name for the first year we were dating, it was weird. They’d only say hey you

Curious if I'd even notice. I had one person whom I never knew the name of and whom I never gave my name to despite sitting together each class for a semester. I thought it was better that way personally. Of course I'd be different for someone with a closer relationship, especially if you interacted with them in group settings.

GenderIsOpSec [she/her, kit/kit's] - 3mon

ughhh i would melt if someone called me kitten tbhtbh

I know I love it so much, kitten is quickly becoming my favorite pet name it just makes me melt so much. It just makes me feel small and cute. My favorite used to be princess but kitten is taking the spot now

crush lovely

my favourite to use is sweetheart or some variant but it's kind of wordy for constant use for my esl self. Kullanmuru from finnish is a good one. It basically means "Piece of Gold" so colloquially it would be like darling or sweetie. catgirl-heart

About to tell my therapist, I’m gonna vomit, I haven’t really come out to anybody like this before. My partner has just kinda known for a while but nobody else has been clued in

Psych they got sick and postponed

Cis people don't think this hard abt this shit right, like this should be evidence of transness

Cis people probably don't want to find evidence of being trans.

So true. Cis people probably don’t spend years thinking about this stuff

I wore long pants for the first time after weeks of dresses and booty shorts (don't worry my fit was still Hot to Death), very odd really, how quickly wearing long pants feels strange and unnatural.

::: spoiler Also re: pissing I know a lot of trans girls like to sit to piss, but I just do what's tactically advantageous. Sitting to piss really works better with pants and standing to piss works much better with a dress, society fucked this one up. :::

::: spoiler spoiler Hard disagree, I do not want to potentially accidentally hit the dress even a little bit, not to mention how annoying holding up a petticoat or long dress is, sitting is better for both :::

Depending on the dress, holding just the front to pee is far earlier than holding all of it further to avoid touching the toilet to sit.

::: spoiler spoiler I sit to pee in public but in my house or someone Im comfortable enough with Ill do the shorter and easier thing. Its not as clean cause it really does splash every fucking where :::

shallot [she/her] - 3mon

I do it the opposite way round lol

I miss teaching adults. Tutoring kids isn't for me

We should trade, I love kids way more than adults :(

I like a mix of both. Keeps things interesting. Just children would be exhausting though.

That's probably true for me too honestly. I think it would be more accurate to say that if it had to be exclusively one or the other, I'd prefer adults. Because yes exclusively children is incredibly exhausting, as much as I love them.

CDommunist [she/her, love/loves] - 3mon

Chat lets get a sandwich and do the kind of things we thought impossible

In that case, I'm gonna get a job that isn't exploitative and pays well enough to live comfortably immediately after graduating from university! berdly-smug

Aliveelectricwire [it/its, she/her] - 3mon

::: spoiler NSFW update The rib is broken LMAO :::

doggirl-gloom

RedSturgeon [she/her] - 3mon

I'm thinking about going out to socialize, but without hiding I'm trans. I'll only do it if I find an inclusive space, but I figured it's probably better I do it sooner than later and maybe talking about it will help motivate me to do it.

I got called miss by a stranger even though I didn't even try to look fem today and have noticeable stubble on my face. How does this happen?

my stubble is absolutely not noticable today and i got called sir despite my best attempt at a fem appearance. what gives?

I've gotten back into doing my daily voice-training. Which is good. I somewhat plateaued in my transition, after figuring out hair, clothes and accessoires. Now I am back at it, which is fun. Transitioning is hard, but being trans is honestly amazing, despite cis-society doing what it does.

Transitioning is hard, but being trans is honestly amazing

The former has kept me away from the latter for years, just looking at all the trans women in my orbit with longing but too scared to actually do anything

It's not bad-hard. But fun-hard. You get to learn a bunch new things about yourself and try stuff out. It's a lot, but it's fun and rewarding.

I feel like the primary deterrent was it being uncomfortable-hard which, in my mind, was somehow less tolerable than the discomfort/safety of being closeted

Thats how it felt to me for a while but eventually the discomfort of being misgendered and closeted sucked more than the pleasure and euphoria of hearing my name and getting called maam

I can’t wait to reach that point, I fear it’ll be a bit, but boy do I not love being he himmed

meow-hug

I mean, you could organize diy hrt in advance, so you have it ready when you need/want it. You just need to be able to use crypto to pay for it, a years supply (+injection supplies) will be less than 100€/$ local currency. It's very cheap, and it keeps for years when stored cold.

Thankfully hrt is extremely available where I’m at, it’s just been a mental thing

You lot have been a rock while I’ve been closeted

Best of luck!

10000-com

SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them] - 3mon

ao3 is downnnn and im languishing at workkk with nothing to reaaaaaadddddd negative

literally me rn

Chat, is there a consensus if estrogen injections are noticeably better than pills?

they are easier to do monotherapy on, and they dont interact with the liver. additionally they only have to be done weekly, and they are cheaper and last longer. but they arent strictly "better". the same level of estrogen and testosterone on pills or injections will have the same results because hormones are hormones.

Injections are cheaper, more consistent and less logistical effort overall, as well as better for your health.

That does not mean pills are bad, or don't work. But i had problems with my fluctuating levels, and forgetting to take them. They also often require anti-androgens, which actually are quite bad for you, that or expensive as shit. Pills are especially expensive for diy, costing like 12x as much as injections over the same span of time. It's also hard to accurately measure effective E2 in your blood on pills, since the levels are very spiky cause of the short halflife. Also the amount of E absorbed per pill varies wildly, from person to person, and method(subL, or swallowing) to method. Whereas injections are easy to measure accurately and titrate accordingly. As well as generally more consistent in their effect from person to person.

No, there is not a consensus. Some people will tell you injections are always better, I think most people will tell you it doesn't matter if your levels are good. fwiw injections have other advantages like not needing an AA and the side effects that come with that.

I think the former has that opinion because a lot of people on pills get underdosed.

imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her] - 3mon

i think you're invariably gonna end up with less consistent and smooth levels on pills cause if you miss one by 30mins or don't do the sublingual admin perfectly etc it's gonna have an impact, especially on your mood which is not desirable of course. so i think you can make the argument that if you're doing pills near-perfectly, there's not a meaningful difference in feminising efficacy, but you have to avoid making small mistakes every day that can throw off your mood and physical wellbeing. so I think overall people just feel better and less stressed on shots for these reasons (which is gonna have knock on effects in energy levels, allowing you to better pursue your goals in and out of transition, etc.)

I think as @BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net said, a lot of people on pills are getting underdosed. Pills are often what doctors prescribe. Who are notoriously miserly with estrogen.

I'm on sublingual pills because I have an okay doctor and I'm lazy. I take them in the morning same time, but when it's time to do blood tests I skip them and say I have taken them (which is always okay). My levels which are usually like 26-28hrs since my last tablet are always decent and I don't get any side effects if I forget them and take them at bed time. My testosterone is also completely suppressed on this dose and I'm really unreliable with my tiny dose of spironolactone (50mg).

I imagine if someone was on a much lower dose that the sudden jumps up and down from a tablet would be rough. I might also be a person whose body responds well to the pills.

Injections are cool and good I just haven't gotten around to organizing them.

RION [she/her] - 3mon

are subcutaneous e shots at all common? I like the idea of a consistent weekly shot and I've heard people say it's more effective for them but I don't think I'd be able to do intramuscular by myself

yes, as theres functionally no difference between IM and subq levels wise (except for eun). its not more "effective" but it can be easier to do

Oh I meant any kind of shot being more effective than oral route. I know officially there's supposed to be no difference but I've heard of people really blasting through changes and milestones after switching to injections

I do subq! With DIY it was easier to do subq, cause the carrier oil was thinner and i could use 31g 6mm insulin needles. But now i use perscription valerate with larger needles and it still works fine. I do subq cause i cant do my own IM shots.

yeah! I subq my e valerate injections after a while of doing im. there is not a significant difference in one’s levels and is substantially less painful. I use a 21g to draw and a 25 gauge to inject.

Subq e is pretty common among those who DIY, not very common for those with pharma e vials. As lilypad mentioned, if your e is compounded in a thin oil such as MCT or grapeseed, you can use insulin syringes for subq injections, which a lot of people find convenient.

Reading Rachel Pollack's book and she says the Tower card doesn't have to be an event it can be an idea or inspiration striking you that changes your life dramatically forever...

...oh word? it's the egg-cracking card

Imagining the next time I draw it in the future position for an ostensibly cis person.

Them: so something bad will happen?

Me: not necessarily, can I ask you a question? If there was a button...

Watching the crypto you had to buy drop while you were locked out of being able to send any and therefore being stuck either buying less medicine than you paid for or buying none at all and gambling on line going back up soon is fuckin awesome lol, most American future

Breath_Of_The_Snake [they/them, comrade/them] - 3mon

As a maybe/not-sure they who is still figuring things out:

My new direct-report is hardcore supportive. It rules. It just feels so good to know that the guy I report to has ended careers over transphobia. He still doesn’t know about me, and he already made that clear.

This department is gonna be hella onboard when I’m done if he continues to support me.

Anyone else got a W to post?

Oh fuck yea, gayroller-2000 the whole department if/when you come out

GalaxyBrain [they/them] - 3mon

By tomorrow my hair will be shorter and pink!

::: spoiler spoiler All that matters is fixing this pain. It can't even be fixed.

What am I doing. It just hurts. I can't do anything without it. I have a bunch of hobby things I want to do but just haven't. I don't know how to explain it. I feel hollow.

ts is so bad. why tf.

Why does it hurt so bad for me and is fine for so many other people

There's so many things that all come together and cause this for me. I really don't think hrt will fix it. i don't think anything really can. i hate being trans. all this does is cause me pain. so much pain. :::

::: spoiler si I can't suffer with this

I'm going to forever

I should just blow my head off already. I don't want to stick around and suffer. This is horrible. :::

::: spoiler sex prep

The desire to bottom hard and for a long time is immediately tempered by douching. I hate this shit (literally).

::: spoiler spoiler When I was bottoming more regularly I found taking an enormous amount of fibre was far more important than the douching. Got to the point where I’d only do if it was direct tongue, penile, or digital penetration. If it was strapon, condom or glove, I’d go to the toilet and have a shower, that was all I needed no mess. :::

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Hmmm maybe its time to go from 2 spoonfuls per day of metamucil to like idk 10 or smth lol

lapis [fae/faer, comrade/them] - 3mon

reading the title and then the post body was a wild ride

Lancer

oh hell yea

Final Fantasy

still hell yeah

anyways uh,

::: spoiler dysphoria and fascism it's been awesome to watch my country slide fully into fascism and decide trans people are a great group to hate a mere couple years after I figured out I'm not cis, but at least I can get cool girl haircuts and have cute, smol boobs now.

I've been really suffering from facial hair dysphoria lately, because no matter what I do, I can't completely get rid of the stubble on my chin, next to the corners of my mouth, or at the back of my jaw. anybody have any tips for this? or lifehacks to get laser or electrolysis for something less than an arm and a leg? :::

::: spoiler spoiler Yea its a great time, I was like 6 months figured out and do not have smol boobs yet :/

I've heard groupon can have good laser discounts, electro can be diy'd cheaply. Our local project is stuck atm but I think there's other ways to make machines. You can also get full laser machines if you do your research but that's going to be like 2k iirc. :::

Supervisor one, (very incompetent at his job btw, have seen things that would get his certs revoked), has been telling me for months now that he wants me to shadow for a couple of months before teaching a class on my own.

Today I show up and supervisor two is telling me she got fucked up on edibles and still isn't fully there. Then asks if I'm fine to teach by myself and maybe one of the other new people can watch me. Says she trusts me somewhat.

So fucking funny watching these two. Anyway looks like I'm going to teach like 90% tonight and she's going to try and stay awake.

She ended up ditching completely and I taught by myself for the first time. Straight up could not teach part of it and left to cry. I should have been firmer with her that I wasn't comfortable with that part.

Literally same thing that happened last week where I just broke and cried under stress. Its the pent up stress from all of this. why tf

*holds*

It just really sucks because I wanted to do well and have everything go smoothly. I have an interview for a supervisor position next week and if teaching went off without issue then I'd feel better about it. Very likely I'll still get it though. Just wish I did better.

My baby sister says my fit is like an auntie today???

My mom agreed??? What the hell is auntie style?

According to the "deadly auntie bangs" lady on tiktok; its the style that says you're tired and your back hurts, so you want to stay in and watch murder movies.

Talking with someone about getting a queer therapist, but I really don't know how to bring up switching to my parents. I know it doesn't sound like a big issue but it is.

Also like tbh, how much will therapy help me. My issues are rooted in reality. It sucks and is horrible and genuinely one of the worst things that could have happened but idk what anyone is supposed to tell me to help.

EllenKelly [comrade/them] - 3mon

I found it a lot easier to someone who shared a queer identity with if thats worth anything, but really i just needed them to not be a man (sorry guys)

there's a group where I live called queer therapists victoria, maybe there's something like that near you, and maybe you can get a referral without talking to your parents?

I'm talking with a place, but they want insurance. Told them about the difficulties with my family and they just suggested group therapy, so ig I'm not getting a therapist who specializes in this for a while yet.

Yea talking with the cishets about this has not been to helpful for me so far.

Oof does thinking about the permanency of my problems not make me feel good

I will never stop blaming others

"doing your dailies" but its just messaging all your friends and telling them how much you appreciate them

more should do this

nerd 🫵

rtstragedy2 [she/her, pup/pup's] - 3mon

by the time I have time to respond to people the thread has rolled over :( sorry people who responded to me last week, I'll get to it when works sucks less

catgirl-huh

I feel like I've been using this emoji a lot recently. Today I had my blood drawn. I was expecting horrifying results, but I didn't even realise the needle was in before the nurse told me. I guess that's the power of a trained professional.

I did almost collapse from light-headedness in the hospital lobby, but eh, that's not the needle's fault.

I've indoctrinated a new person into the church of rust

When were y'all gonna tell me about putting progesterone up my butt?

Just assumed you knew tbh

With everything I used to boof in my hard drug days, I'm surprised I didn't know

When you asked about it.

I do be noticing some idk crows feet on my face but like yes-honey-left it's only the days I fail to drink less than 2 gallons of water otherwise bloomer

I kinda love crows feet, when they get all crinkly on someone's pretty face? Actually - the crows feet themselves make a face pretty

They're a sign that I'm changing and not in a way that I put effort in or wanted 😔

To live is to change

yeah I just feel like my time is running out and coming to terms with that is difficult most days

rawr

thurston

baldurs gate 3 added a native linux build waow-based

edit: apparently not lmao, bricked my entire install and now i have to reinstall the entire game, yay

Carl [he/him] - 3mon

Gridania is one of the primary city-states of Eorzea, governed by an Ancient Racist Tree that controls The Elements

lmao

Chat lets live beautiful lives

i think the makeup went well! my friend was super sweet and gentle and patient. I have some photos I adore that I'm going to share with my therapist tomorrow. I really hope she thinks I look good I am mostly running off external validation here

i'm still on my facial analysis bullshit but i'm trying to be more even handed

::: spoiler cw: scrutiny of my appearance pros

my eyelashes are nice and long, my friend was kinda jealous
my lips are full and pouty
most of my bone structure seems fundamentally solid

cons

i still think my brow is overly pronounced, but getting my eyebrows done might help de-emphasize it?
my jaw may be my greatest enemy for the moment. I thought it wouldn't be a problem because I have my mother's, but for her it's like the one masculine feature she has and that makes her look striking where as i just look more guylike... if further weight loss doesn't make it slimmer I'm going to have to figure out ways to minimize it :::

I've come to the realization that my density is prob got me to being a almost 33 yo virgin, even outside of romance last teacher I had wanted us to cheat but I didn't pick up on it and just studied real hard. It's probably some creature but I can't just blame that because I've plenty of similar friends who are in relationships

Today I feel like the cutest girl of all time. I have my bangs back and I didn't realize how much I missed them

I think my favorite part of self care is how after its done, I can go back to ignoring it

What is an angelgirl?

all girls are angels, clearly

me, I am a pure a precious angel who can do no wrong

Are they related to angelfish?

I can't keep doing this shit tbh. The dance "find your partner event" starts at 9 pm and ends at midnight. Only person I know rejected any idea of me sleeping ay his place.

I'm already exhausted, and I got a whole ass 60 pages of quantum mechanics + quiz to do. After that, socialising and dancing. Then, if I can catch the train on time, I'll be home at 1 pm (gotta leave by 6:30 AM tommorow). If I miss the train, I have to wander the streets or some shit without the police arresting me for "vagrancy".

I am so fucking tempted to just say fuck it and go home. I don't need dance classes.

I actually finished all my homework already with 1 hour to spare till dancing. I am ... smart? doggirl-smart

Holee incredible, your brain

God can't this shit be done on the weekends?

Maybe me coming to terms with how I look is easy when I figure I'm not performing for anyone anyway that and realizing what I want to be ain't me anyway

The yaoi between kiryu-dame-da-ne and majima-dapper is one based on kiryus honor. Majima saw that shit will get you killed yet kiryu keeps at it game after game. Mad dog is majimas attempt to pretend he doesn't give a fuck but deep down he really does, my analysis is painted by 0 and kiwami I'll admit but coming at the games from release order I do feel it was there

JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 3mon

I've started making my own pleather chokers and related jewelry. I made a spiked choker/collar for my partner last week, and today I've been working on armlets for myself.

Lowkey jealous, i want to get into leatherwork but the tools are so expensive. How did you make the choker?

I used two 1 in wide strips of pink patent leather that are joined together by an o-ring (used rivets for that). I then spaced out 12.7mm diameter grommets and pairs of 0.79 in spikes (spikes - grommet - spikes - grommet - spikes) on each strip. For a clasp, I used a pair of snaps.

Overall, the equipment, initial pleather and bits (spikes, studs, grommets, snaps, rivets, o-rings) cost somewhere between $100 - $150 dollars (cheaped out and got stuff on Amazon), but there's enough material to make a lot of pieces. I already had a hammer and cutting mat, but most of the bit sets came with the appropriate tools. I may also want to experiment with buckles later, but the snaps are pretty easy and since I am just sizing each piece for my partner and I it doesn't necessarily need to be adjustable.

Thats really cool! Id imagine its a bit easier if your custom making it for someone, fewer adjustment considerations plus you can dry fit it before hammering the rivets and whatnot. Ive got an old leather jacket ive been wanting to turn into the lower half of a bitch suit, and then have some left over to make a collar and cuffs out of.

But really, I want to get into whip making, but a decent leather splitter is like 400 USD... Not to mention making a beveler, strand cutter, etc., it adds up lol.

Consulting the sacred texts, I'm sorry I didn't the first time TC boohoo

https://transreads.org/wp-content/uploads/2021/12/2021-12-29_61cca107e2f6b_leslie-feinberg-trans-liberation-beyond-pink-or-blue.pdf

Drink water aim for 2 gallons a day unless that's too much then drink less

Wait really? Im lucky if i get a liter in me per day......

I carry a 1/2 gallon jug with me so just gotta fill and drink it 4 times a day, for a while the issue was public drinking water but my library has been getting better even installed a fancy bottle filling one. I'm helping to push that number on bottles saved up everyday it's at 108 since a few weeks ago when it was installed

Fuck i gotta up my water drinking gameee! I just drink a liter before bed most days...

Idk when I started on so much but when I did I noticed that I felt much better and couldn't go back. Those bottles with time frames might help but honestly easing into it with a bit of tea or those drink packets mixed in would help. Do less and less each time till your just drinking water only, you got this doggirl-thumbsup

Tyyyy doggirl-happy i already dont drink much besides water (well, and coffee), i just gotta up it up the amount. Tbh i should probably get one of those giant water bottles, its easier if i dont have to refill my water bottle all the time.

Those are nice I actually got an insulated one I found at the thrift store, amazing find and cold water goes down easy

Ill have to keep an eye out!

Also water log: 2 liters down today, 6 more to go!

what if it's tea instead? i cant do 2 gallons of just water niko-concern

Just drink the iced tea syrup first then drink your gallons think-about-it

Hestia [she/her, fae/faer] - 3mon

lancer-chad

I kinda don't want to go to the psychologist tommorow. I don't want an official diagnosis of anything. This fuckass country has atrocious wait lists for anything useful. What do I even get from an official diagnosis? A red flag for employers? Higher insurance premiums?

I know it still just sounds like an excuse. I can't have a mental crisis on the megathread and then 2 weeks later be like "I don't need help bugs-no "

Don't worry, I'll go. I just have a feeling that this won't make things better.

The biggest thing for diagnosis is the billing code tbh - but it also means a plan for treatment, if that might mean medications or therapy of some specific kind etc

You don't realize how much the weekly manga chapter releases and subsequent fighting in the comments section become a part of your life until it's over.

Honestly, keeping up with shonen manga is practically like keeping up with sports.

I felt like I was gonna snap today and was just hoping I turn into a puddle of mush instead, now I mushy and still need to drive 40 minutes home

Speaking about lancer I'm getting hyped reading up on Lancer ttrpg since me and some friends gonna be doing a one shot. Had to dig through my itch bundles to find it but I'm happy just getting into the rules and fluff. Thinking of being bad and making an outlaw of sort catgirl-smug idk I usually play as support characters so sometimes new for a change should be fun

I like that there's a gun that doesn't exist but it still does damage. It doesnt miss, it always hits, and it really doesnt exist, but it'll still ping for damage every round

👀 I'll need to keep tabs on it then if I can find it that is

All the HORUS liscences have weird shit like that. Check out the HORUS Pegasus wiki.

It always hits, doesnt count as an attack, ignores immunity, you cant modify it. It always does exactly one damage if you fire it.

I'll need to give it a look, one shot we doing is just gonna be basic Mechs to get us started

To the math nerds how plausible is the compound interest thing where you put money in an account and let it grow after 1000 years let's say. Doesn't inflation happen or fees out pace whatever you get? I feel like the other money trope I hear of is having a program that takes all the discarded percentages in banking and gathers them to get money from no where. Guess how possible is that too

how plausible is the compound interest thing where you put money in an account and let it grow

Uuuuhhh, how complicated of an answer are you looking for? The TL:DR is basically "it depends on what kind of account you're putting the money into, how much money you're putting in and how frequently are you taking money out, and what sort of economic volatility happens over the course of that time period."

having a program that takes all the discarded percentages in banking and gathers them to get money from no where

I'm not entirely certain what's meant by discarded percentages, but this vaguely feels like just how loans and debt work and is happening all the time. Whenever a bank issues a loan it's effectively making money from nowhere. It does kind of get like,,, "money" is kind of an ambiguous term in that like,,,, "money" the thing that you and I use to buy groceries is orders of magnitude different than "money" the magical revenue number that pops out of nowhere whenever a bank gives out a loan or charges like a late payment fee on one or something despite ostensibly being the same thing

The first is something like Futurama when fry gets rich for a while the second example I remember from ghost in the shell the anime did it

ah yeah no the kind of account that would be cool with you going AWOL into cryogenic sleep is not gonna outpace inflation

Alas Futurama has lied to me

a grave betrayal, to be sure

kiryu-slam mfw no Futurama emojis

They did the second in Office Space but took the idea, in universe, from Superman 3 lol

shocked-pikachu really of all places

I found out you can make a v4l2 loopback and write to it with rust code and I'm going to use this knowledge to commit discord video call shenanigans

Oh hell yeah, that sounds like fun. If you decide to post more info I’d love to hear about it!

Lord of the mysteries is the only story I've read so far where "trans girls" are such a formidable mortal threat to the protagonist (and the civilians). I've read 3 out of 8 of the volumes so far, and all 3 have major "trans girl" villains. Even the protagonist transforms into a girl (temporarily) at some point. The legendary emperor "Roselle Gustav" in the story also famously had sex with a "trans girl" (this has become a meme). "Trans girls" are depicted to be able to take control of entire countries (in the shadows).

catgirl-huh .

Yet despite the extremely prominent roles, cool powers, and cool lore, none of the "trans girls" (thus far) are confirmed to actually want to be a girl (hence the quotation marks). The only thoughts we hear (thus far) are from a person who explicitly hates being in the body of a girl.

It is an extremely bizzare type of representation.

The amount of bullying AI can get away with is wild, wym GameCube is retro meow-tableflip hope none of y'all relied on it I'm plugging the plug on AI now

weh

Me explaining later that the gorgeous barista with striking features, who was at least 4 inches taller than me in her flat converse shoes, who initially looked alarmed when she saw me then relaxed and was friendly when she realised I wouldn't break her stealth was a trans woman. For all the above reasons and more.

My father: shocked-pikachu

You know what I haven't seen in a long time? All of the guests coats on a bed. When I was much younger, the big fancy adult parties I went to or at families parties - all the guests put their coats on the bed. Wonder what happened? Would be kinda funny if Dane Cook managed to put the kibosh on that with one off hand joke

No Kain in the mega?? That poor brainwashed and unbrainwashed then rebrainwashed and unbrainwashed again guy

that's 'cause Kain's a Dragoon, not a Lancer berdly-actually

What are Chinese cultivation novels even about stress

::: spoiler spoiler It just hurts and is so hopeless. I hate this. Why can't I be okay with it

Everything revolves around this pain. All I need is for it to stop. I just need the constant pain of being trans gone. That is the only thing that matters to me. And it just doesn't. It can't. I'm always going to hate this. Its always going to be a source of pain.

I can't do anything. why are there things I want to do and I just sit here. :::

::: spoiler sh urges have been getting worse this last week and it just hit me really hard again. I think I'm going to go shave and go to bed. fuck this.

its just constant fucking pain and i cant take it and i hate it and I wish i was dead :::

Dessa [she/her] - 3mon

I like the classic sarissa. Just a crazy long pole with a steel spike at the end

oooold reliable

Halberds just seem so top heavy!

::: spoiler me being sad I don't know why my brain has been whiplashing me back and forth between feeling content and cheerful and feeling like it would be nice if something were to happen to me tomorrow so I didn't have to think about taking matters into my own hands. I FUCKING hate this god damn country. This is nothing new. I've been depressed basically my whole life, partly because I couldn't figure out why it was so hard to be myself and partly because of how much I cannot fucking stand having to look out into the world and see how human beings are treated. And now it's like. I wish I had more time as a trans woman before all of this recent nonsense. :::

I have been wanting to get into songwriting for a while now but it feels so daunting. I really want to figure out a way to write music that conveys what I'm feeling inside the way other songs I listen to convey their feelings, but I just don't know how to do that.

With songwriting, do you want to write lyrics, music, or both?

This is just my experience, maybe its different for others, but for lyrics, just write something. Literally anything. It will suck. It will not be good. But get it on paper. Then revise. Change your word choice, grammar, and rhyme/rhythm. Use dictionaries and thesauruses. Its a long and slow and frustrating process. You just have to do it and keep doing it. It will never be complete. It will never be perfect. It will however eventually become good enough that you dont feel the need to revise it.

Omg good advice. Yeah it's lyrics that intimidate me. I feel a lot more comfortable with the music. I will try this

∞ 🏳️‍⚧️Edie [it/its, she/her, fae/faer, love/loves, ze/hir, des/pair, none/use name, undecided] - 3mon

Your spoiler doesnt work. its missing the spoiler

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Ah snap thanks for pointing that out. Usually I preview first before posting to make sure but in my sleepy state I forgot to last night. Sorry!