Holy shit, what the fuck causes white boomer women to think I, a 30 something brown man, would be interested them?

These are the vibes I’m getting at work and it’s extremely disturbing.

I was talking to my dad today sharing some good and very important family news.

Dad: I'm just a little sad right now, my friend was killed yesterday.

Me: Oh my God! What happened? Which friend?

D: My friend Charlie.

M: Charlie? Who's Charlie?

D: Charlie Kirk.

M: PFFFFFFT LOL

Apparently we all lost a really intelligent man who just wanted to help other people. And he was not talking about the killer.

Now I'm thinking about environmental racism, the capitalist class truly love shitting where they don't eat. Fuck factory farming, fuck oil pipelines and fuck AI data centers. There are more things to list but I'm hungry rn. Guess it's colonialism all the way down same like with the police.

Bringing up racism in white people's favorite escapism fantasy settings always leaves them reeling especially if they feel themselves as progressive in some manner. The headspace I get from them is "I'm not doing a racism myself just letting it slide from friends/family/strangers whenever it comes up, how am I the bad guy?" They more confrontational at being called racist than they feel like confronting the racist culture around them.

3 HBCU campuses on lockdown from death threats. White man kill white supremacists HBCU gets threatened. Most on brand American shit

My non-white coworker, who takes public transit, is very shaken up about what happened in NC. I know it's not technically racial but also I know it is.

A whitey just shot up 20 children not even a month ago. Random violence is as amerikan as apple pie but whiteys wanna act like only Black people are violent.

I'm at a point where I functionally can no longer see myself in a relationship with a non-Black person again. I've been thinking a lot on this subject, and my mind has been kind of uncertain these past few months or so.

What I ultimately came to realize is that, in the context of how I view love, there will be always be something critically lacking in any relationship I'd have with a non-Black person.

At first, the thought of continuing to accept non-Black partners seemed possibly within my reach so long as they truly were based, were radical, and understood how to fight against anti-Blackness, and as great as some non-Black people are in these regards, I'm now at a point where the thought of dating any non-Black person feels as right as the thought of dating a conservative.

Of course, that's not me saying it's as bad—hell no. My point is that it just indescribably feels "off" in a way that no amount of other things we have in common can reconcile. Very much needed solidarity will always be missing.

Ideally, I want a partner who has a lot of things in common with me (the aforementioned 5 traits I've brought up several times). However, to keep my pool somewhat open, I'm going to base my search for a partner (when I'm ready—not a priority at the moment) off of these three things: Blackness, queerness, and veganism.

I'll go from there, but what I can certainly say now is that I will never entertain romantic and/or intimate encounters with non-Black people ever again.

I remember this episode of static shock where Virgil's dad was dating a cop and like Virgil runs away from the cops when they were gonna go through his backpack. The show goes out of its way of justifying from the cops perspective because they really really need to find something super duper important 🥺 nvm 4th amendment protections.

I know it's still cape shit but in the first season I quite liked it because of it's themes of community and understanding. The show got bigger and eventually folded into the DC universe but that wasn't why I was there to begin with.

I was followed by a bunch of men telling me how good my pussy smelled, I don't like going out.

i dont think ill ever get into superhero media in a way a lot of people are. its like greek mythology/percy jackson-esque fandoms. theres just very little for me to identify with. the exceptionalism of it all. yes im sure its easy to be a "good person" when you literally cant lose because youre that much better than anyone else. pretty much no stakes either because of that. its just masturbatory.

read something like journey to the west or watch the 1986 show instead.

Rest in piss, Charlie KKKirKKK

I get my cake today, and I'm so excited!!!

Police watch me sometimes when I'm at the park, they haven't harassed me or anything and I'm usually too zoned out reading/writing/listening to music most of the time. I do think they are getting annoyed with me being so boring, idk having to preform and like this is eh. I'm used to by now always being put under a microscope, like it doesn't help my anxiety most of the time but sometimes I just wanna be invisible.

Hearing the blue genocide whites at my job talking about how evil it is to celebrate Kirk getting got

Still a little iffy here since all the stuff went down about burning the flag, but talking to other POC eases my anxiety.

Talked with some coworkers, we're all various kinds of POC that's been in the headlines lately, and it's been so relaxing. We all fundamentally understand racism because we experience it. The big difference is some other POC are feeling it from the state now while Black folk been feeling it since we were brought here. Regardless, we're able to agree that we feel it and it's all connected and we have solidarity with each others over it and that's enough to keep me going.

Just also wish my coworkers didn't have the liberal slant but one thing at a time.

So the supreme court in America ruled its okay to racially profile huh. I hate these motherfuckers

"They dont even call it 'Japan' in Japan" <-smartest white at my job

Charlie Kirk: “If I see a Black pilot, I’m going to be like, ‘Boy, I hope he’s qualified.’” Shit you don't have to worry about black pilots..... Or any pilot again. Look at death laughing look at it

Just had a trip in Quebec City. Feels like any other Canadian city but edition...

Managed to find an Afro-Caribbean non-binary therapist willing to provide pro-bono therapy for me. This is real nice. My last therapist was a dismissive cis white gay man who was deeply infuriating and ineffective.

Ngl the Kirk stuff did worry me some the other day because of the possible back lash but like if I have to monitor every fit I would never get things done. Focusing on my HVAC career and the possibility finally of helping to lift my family out of poverty. I got goals and a future for when finally goes down

My dreads been lookin a way that got me feelin like Shadow the Hedeghog (and I love it)

EU officials downplaying china’s significance in ww2 isn’t too surprising. A bunch of America worshipping whites who live off Netflix and US social media slop. Surprised they even know the history of their own countries.

Are the farmers facing bankruptcy begging for help from the government gonna be called welfare Queens or is that only for

The Charlie Kirk thing is pretty interesting. You don’t typically see assassination carried out like that in the US compared to Central America where that’s considered getting off easy. A little nervous about how this will escalate things over there.

Got 5 interviews on my calendar right now, and I'm sure I got more to come

Woke up and had a voicemail for this missed call to set up an interview.

I called back to set up an interview, and that is one W, but another is that, even with my groggy, "just woke up" voice, the person on the phone called me "Miss." That means my voice passes as femme at this point. Nice.

Apparently I missed a big struggle it sounds like about em poc people? Which is weird because I check hexbear every day.

::: spoiler [CW: Racist, Zionist, and Misanthropic BS in the Vegan Movement] There's this awful right-wing "vegan" activist who'll call himself a "centrist," and he simps hard for Gary Yourofsky. His name is George. I'll explain why this is relevant down the line.

For those of you who don't know, Gary Yourofsky is considered to be one of the most influential vegan activists there is, having a very wide reach when it comes to his messaging. He retired for about a decade, but he recently came back.

The thing about Yourofsky is that he is a hardcore Zionist, and he's one who claims to have "made 5% of Israel vegan," but he has no actual data that supports this claim.

Since his return, Yourofsky has been doing interviews with several vegan YouTubers, creators, and activists, and recently, he did what he called his last one for the time being, a so-called "debate" with intersectional vegans Natalie Fulton and Catherine Klein. (CW)

Now, I watched this whole thing, and it's honestly so damn embarrassing to watch. Gary got extreme levels of angry just because they challenged him on his Zionism. And by no means were they aggressive about this. They were incredibly polite and gentle with how they approached the subject with this man, certainly far more than I'd be, yet he just started lashing out, swearing, and saying contradictory back and forth things (e.g., on one hand, he'd say "Fuck all humans" and more generalized misanthropic platitudes, but then say something that praises Israelis in particular and denounces Palestinians in particular).

Regarding his "I turned 5% of Israel vegan" claim, Catherine responded by providing statistics stating that Israel is #8 in the world for meat consumption and #1 in the world for chicken consumption, emphasizing that the amount of chickens who die for Israeli food is a huge number especially because chickens are small individuals who get exploited in large quantities. She also noted that the claim that Israel is "the most vegan country in the world" has no sound evidence or empirical data. It's actually a talking point pushed by this Israeli asshat who runs a large "vegan" organization.

And, of course, on top of all of this, Catherine noted that, even if Israel is this "vegan" (meaning "very plant-based" really) haven that Zionist "vegans" say it is, it doesn't excuse genocide.

What baffles me the most about this whole stream is that Gary Yourofsky did a typical liberal move where he basically unknowingly blurted out "I love radical aesthetics but not actual radical politics!" By that, I mean he said that Malcolm X is one of his favorite figures in all of history. What the fuck.

This was all too much a fucking mess because Gary has such a huge fucking ego that he hates being challenged on anything ever.

So, now, back to the first sentence I made about George, this awful right-wing "vegan" activist who'll call himself a centrist and simp for Gary Yourofsky. He made a video responding to this debate, and of course, in it, he was cucking for Gary really hard.

In his comments, someone said, "I'd feel more sympathy for Palestinians if they were vegan."

George seemingly had no issue with that!

On this subject, I find it really odd when Zionist "vegans" say shit like this, as if Palestinians are especially non-vegan when compared to other groups of people, let alone the sheer disregard for their material conditions. Obviously, most people of any given country, culture, and ethnic group are going to be non-vegan, period. And yes, that quite clearly includes Pissraelis.

But in comes this hypocrisy: George has been whining a lot about Charlie KKKirKKK's death on social media, and on a Facebook post he made today, he states:

You do not need to know who Charlie Kirk was.

You do not need to know what party he voted for.

You do not need to know what political opinions he had.

All you need to know is that a husband, and a father of 2 young children, was shot in the throat while engaging in peaceful debate on a Western country's university campus, in 2025.

Note: I will be deleting ALL comments that just condemn him for what opinions he had or for subjectively being a "bad person", in accordance with the very principle of this post.

LMAO, I love how he mentioned "On a Western country's..." specifically. I should also note that this guy is big on some shit.

But besides him allegedly being a champion for "free speech," here's the crucial irony that exposes just how disingenuous this concerning trend of veganwashing Isn'trael's genocide is: Charlie Kirk was firmly anti-vegan.

Ridiculousness all around.

The fact that people like this are too damn common in the "vegan" movement makes me so iffy about a lot of them. Certainly is a part of the reason why I took a big break from browsing the vegan side of social media. :::

Went to lunch with a friend today, it was nice until the topic of Charlie Kirk came up. I didn't hold back my delight at his death and made clear that he deserved it. My friend immediately starts going on about how that makes me as bad as MAGA - an argument that I don't engage with because it's a stupid person argument - and how I'm radical, which I say "Yes!" to.

He's recently been pivoting hard into Christianity and I know he spends a lot of time on Reddit, likely where he forms his political opinions. He tried to spin me a story about this Christian woman who forgave the killer of her children... after 3 days. He expected me to be impressed but I just found the idea of that absurd. How could anyone possibly do that? How could someone else hear that and think it's something to emulate or be proud of? It's just absurd.

I think he was trying to suggest people should forgive Charlie Kirk out of some Christian idealism - but no, why? I believe in second chances, but the man spouted evil up until the moment he died. He wasn't sorry. This was his grift, this was his job.

I felt a bit bad for ripping the woman he mentioned to shreds so I apologised if I offended him, and he 'joked' "no, I know you're just not very intelligent." This irked me because he is just like everyone else, going along with the mainstream narrative, believing and saying what they're being told to say about Charlie. Not using any critical thought. He's gay too (but white passing) and yet he doesn't see the threat that people like Charlie Kirk are to us. His solution to people advocating for the removal of our rights and our murder is to forgive them. And yet I'm the unintelligent one.

I don't have respect for people like that. He will never contribute positively to liberation. He's a citizen, he will happily live his life and be absorbed by his little problems, irrespective of what is happening around him, irrespective of the type of political climate he is living under - until it affects him. He's my friend but equally people like that sicken me because they are the majority and their lack of attention to things that matter and their willingness to parrot what they're told without critical thought is what enables all of this.

Nobody here knows about Charlie Kirk except me and an expat from Canada lol

All I can see from US social media is that the Groypers think this is their time to shine by saying things like “You thought Charlie Kirk was bad? Wait until Nick Fuentes becomes just as big”

Why do I feel like this will get really ugly soon enough?

::: spoiler This Ziobio lmao "dad•rabbi•chaplain progressive Zionist🇮🇱 veganⓋ🌱•feminist•BLM•🏳️‍🌈ally 🎭(former actor)•⚾️" :::

Recently, I managed to make some strikingly good gluten-free vegan deli slices using portabella mushrooms.

I don't have any issues with consuming gluten, but I can't use gluten to make vegan deli slices because VWG/seitan is not readily available where I am, and pre-packaged deli slices like Tofurky are expensive, so I started to seek different solutions.

Tofu is alright, especially since it's quite rich in protein, but I still feel like the texture doesn't come close enough.

Once I sliced some portabella mushrooms really damn thin and seasoned them just right, I realized that the texture outcome is perfect. It goes so good on a sandwich, but ya gotta cut it real thin.

Typically, the seasoning I use is:

• 1/4 cup soy sauce
• 2 tbsp EVOO
• 1/4 tsp garlic powder
• 1/4 tsp onion powder
• 1/2 tsp smoked paprika
• 1.5 tsp liquid smoke
• 2 tbsp agave
• 2 tsp rice vinegar
• a pinch of cinnamon

Coat the thin slices in this marinade in a container.

I use the microwave, and I microwave it for a fairly lengthy amount of time (5 minutes) to release the moisture and give it that perfect texture. I put a lid on the container and just crack it slightly.

Would highly recommend! I put nutritional yeast and sriracha on it as a sandwich, and I eat it with BBQ beans and non-mayo coleslaw on the side.

::: spoiler Re: Fighting scam

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Thanks axolotl. I was a victim of Discord-related scam and I was fighting to retrieve my Discord account and $25 worth of funds.

Remember, please check the details of the person, if it's too good to be true, do not engage. :::

Got a few interviews lined up. It sucks how it's been raining over here and I usually walk to get places. A friend of mine (the same one who got me the cake) said he's willing to get me any Ubers I need. Love him for that.

I type 120 WPM, and I just found this transcriptionist job that I feel pretty damn hopeful about.

Most people online who describe their experience doing the job (even R*dditors) speak pretty positively about it, and I find that's rare for these freelance kind of jobs.

They are also willing to do an over-the-phone interview (which I should get an email about in a bit, as I've just taken an assessment for them). I see this as a plus. Too many of these remote, freelancing kind of jobs would never actually let you connect with an actual person. They overall have an issue of lacking transparency big time.

The job also deals with legal and medical concerns, which are constantly in need of people to do transcriptions, so people have been saying that the job gives them plenty of work for it to be a full-time thing for them.

As expected, pay rate differs depending on how fast you type. It has been stated that someone who types 75 WPM should expect around 11 USD an hour, but someone who types 100 WPM should expect around 15 an hour. With my 120 WPM? Who knows?

I'm not getting my hopes up too much, though. Some people have stated negative things about this job, particularly tight deadlines and the fact that you may be dealing with emotionally intense stuff having to transcribe for legal and medical cases. However, for the point about the tight deadlines in particular, people have stated that if you have an absurdly fast typing speed (like I do), it's far less of an issue.

I'm still applying to other jobs a whole lot, and I also got a few interviews to show up to next week, so that still goes on, but fingers crossed on this one for sure! 🤞🏿 The fact that it's remote is also a major plus for me because I don't drive, and I live in an area where it rains rather frequently.

I'm taking the time to remaster all the MIDIs I have for the songs I've written so that I have a solid proof of concept.

I did this one last night. This is the opening track of the album.

I'm happy with how this mix sounds, and this entire process of mixing these tracks has been a way of teaching myself production, though I still have much to learn.

Overall, for this track, I'm really proud of the guitar solo (also, a wah bass solo is played underneath it around 3:25), and I think the ambient/clean guitar track is solid, too.

I've also finished lyrics for 2 songs already. That gives me 5 more to go because, though there are 9 original tracks in total, 2 are fully instrumental.

If Kirk was at an HBCU he'd still be alive. This should tell them something but they're too ignorant

I somehow expected the shooter to be a chud, still wondering why no one said he was doing "adventurism" when we didn't know his identity.

Another day, another bajillion applications

I applied to so many damn jobs throughout the day, and no, I wasn't counting. I'm just basically at a point where I scroll job boards basically the whole damn day with breaks in between. I got a few interviews already.

Did this one (track 2)

And this one (track 3) (The harmony around 2:40 gives me life! So proud of it)

smh my head

Also, is it just me, or is that pic definitely AI-generated?

Seeing chuds put pics of charlie with mlk saying "you don't get silenced for the truth" when most of them don't view us as human beings I never wanna hear Westerners chat to us about propaganda

Composed this proggy neat lil jam earlier today

The garage was so hot today that I ended up chaffing my thighs really badly and now I can’t sleep it hurts to much

I love the hexbear logic of supporting and sharing aremoveds work is okay if you just kinda dont care about his victims