hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

oscardejarjayes* (6/16 - 6/22)
GayTuckerCarlson* (6/23 - 6/29)
Eco* (6/30 - 7/6)
Disaster_of_Passion (7/7 - 7/13)
sodium_nitride (7/14 - 7/20)
peanutbuttercupola* (7/21 - 7/27)
BountifulEggnog* (7/28 - 8/3)    

Seryph (8/11 - 8/17)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

As I was leaving the library a little kid pointed at me and said “she looks like a boy”

At least my efforts aren’t going unnoticed 🫠

One of the things Im most looking forward to after bottom surgery is not having to tuck anymore. I tuck all day for these cretins and NOT ONCE has ANYONE ever said "wow I can barely tell you have a penis Terminal, great job" 🙄

ah fuck

ah fuck

yeah that's a little tinge of romantic attraction towards someone I've known for a while now, isn't it?

ah fuck yeah i know that emotion too well and that's it

fuck...

Between transphobic in-laws, my broken phone screen, the Iran-Israel War, and general chumpfuckery, this has been a cromulent fuckcrustable of a day. Xia needs drinky.

i still get dysphoric a lot

but come to think of it, it used to be way, way worse before transitioning

so that problem has gotten better for me, actually. this is weird to think about for me for some reason

So many basic femme things I'm behind on. Not only have I been slacking on voice training, but I've also never learned how to do that thing where you flip in the air and land on an enemy's shoulders and snap their necks with your thighs. What have I been doing all this time

lmfao lady at the drive through just called me ma’am LET’S FUCKING GO

::: spoiler CW boomer liberal parent things about transitioning Both my mum and dad (who are divorced and never talk) have said they love me unconditionally and would still love me even if I was a neo-Nazi (dad) or a serial killer (mum). I get that compared to their parents and some other boomers this is "radical".

But both times I pushed back that comparing being a "trans woman" to something evil, is pretty fucked up.

Also at some point one cannot subsist on love by itself, I need respect for my personhood. :::

T4T SUMMER...

T4T SUMMER IS REAL!!

Wearing a mask is the difference between getting “sir”’d or “darling”’d by the takeaway guy. (At least on days where I haven’t shaved)

gay son or thot daughter? I'm both

I wish I could hire someone to train my voice. Not lead me in training exercises or whatever but like literally take my voice a la Ursula and give it back after it's been fully trained. That's probably the only way I'm getting the voice I want since I simply don't have the discipline to do it myself

I can't feel anything. I finished the last assignment of my degree 10 minutes ago (that fucking paper who deadline got delayed to tomorrow midnight). There's no emotions going in my head besides a general sense of dread and unease. I hate the fact that work/studying is the main thing going on in my life. I hate the fact that I actually like this field because that means I easily threw away all my hobbies to focus on this one thing for my final year.

::: spoiler NSFW/dysphoria

Even worse is that to "relax" afterwards, I loaded up some erotica, only to find that HRT has killed my libido. And even when I do get some occasional "spark", I still can't get myself off in a "feminine" way, leading me to be frustrated and worsening my dysphoria. I also feel like I won't find any romantic partners with a body like this. I have a crush on a boy who is 100% not gay and I don't even remotely pass as a girl.

:::

My only strategy for dealing with feelings like these is to laugh it off or make jokes about them, or even berate myself for disrespecting myself. Usually works ... but not at midnight. Midnight sodium_nitride is a major doomer. A real b**ch.

I had a very sad dream about my old cat. She was in a puddle, mewing pathetically, sick maybe? Its just a dream but still, I cried

I went to pride with my girlfriend this weekend and we had a great time! We met some folks from a trans org, and we're hoping to get involved in their like social/community aid nights :3

One of the silver linings of boymoding is the amusement from making guys confused about whether they’re in the correct bathroom (it has happened twice this week)

therapy

oversharing on hexbear

celebrating my tranniversary by buying some winter clothes after work because holy shit i'm so cold. can't believe estrogen is making me re-evaluate my favourite season smh

gonna be hanging out in here for a bit to stay away from the news mega. i need some positivity and not anxiety right now

padded sports bra my beloved dysphoria destroyer

Accidentally started thinking this morning, how about we don't do that

Just woke up and my devious plan worked

Today has been much, much better then the last few days/week has been. Nothing too special happened, just feeling more normal I guess. Did get to see a friend for a few minutes at work which was nice. I know I'm not supposed to apologize but sorry if I worried anyone. Thank you for all the supportive messages.

I NEED MORRRE VAMPIRE YURI!!

🏳️‍🌈🧛‍♀️❤️🧛‍♀️🏳️‍🌈

I want to wear autumn clothes again. Go away hot weather.

My tits are actually pretty big now, I'm just so tall and my ribcage is so big and stuff that I feel like they still look pretty small

Started prog recently, shit has fucked me up ;-; . Been spending a bunch of time jsut feeling like shit and depressed, crying in bed for hours. It sucks. When do I get used to this shit so it isn't so mentally turbulent

When I started estrogen, I was crying a lot because it was like a mental barrier was lifted and repressed emotions could just flow out. It made me able to cry at like, anything, at romance movies, at sad moments in video games, at silly cat pictures. It was cathartic.

This is just like someone put my emotions into a jar and shook it before smashing it on the ground uaaaagggggghhhh ;-;

Is it weird to put in my dating profile that I want someone who'll bully me a little

Death to Israel

They have “preemptively” attacked Iran. Join the news mega for updates

YAKUZA: KIWAMI

Im gonna miss working with children. They're so adorable, babies, toddlers, little kids, big kids, teens. Maybe Ill go back or focus on the peds population one day.

::: spoiler probably horny

HELP WANTED

Now that I have unlocked my flip thing skillset, I'm looking for training partner to practice it

Qualifications

• Must be willing to have head held between thighs for lengths of time
• Must be able to lift up to ~(mumble)~ lbs of weight on shoulders for lengths of time

Risks

• Although every precaution is taken to prevent fatal outcomes, due to the nature of this practice, there is a risk of instant death from accidental neck snapping
• There is a small chance that my powerful thighs will crush your head like a watermelon resulting in instant death

Compensation

• Get to have head between a hot girl's thighs
• May experience the sweet release of instant death

APPLY NOW :::

Friday (the 13th) Rice

I just opened a pringles can and want to share. Please comment how many you took and I'll update the count

Pringles left: 100 0.5 (no can)

bloom: in a t4t relationship. i feel amazing , she makes me so happy

doom TW dysphoria ::: spoiler spoiler i hate how I look, not even a big shirt hides everything. want to go on t but it's 30 $ from RxAisle. There's no reason to wait but I'm so scared. :::

My pink areas on da boobs (idk wtf you call them) have been, swelling and shrinking dramatically depending on the temperature and I'm scared.

Also, I'm wearing a black trench coat that my dad used to wear, have ear length (black) hair and black shoes (no laces or velcro, those slip on types). It's kinda crazy how going on HRT has made me care way more about dressing nicely and grooming myself. And as a result, I now look like a stylised military officer. I just need boots to stamp on the human face for an eternity complete the look.

Transes, I'm eepy and stuck at work

i wrote more lyrics

Told myself I wouldn't post sad shit today but whatever.

It's been a bit over a year since I accepted this. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but I really wish I had gotten better. I don't know why things break me but make other people stronger.

My therapist has said a few times that it's weird this isn't pushing me to do more. (my words now) It's broken me instead. I don't know why. Why am I more broken then I was a year ago. Why am I not better. I've tried my hardest. My hardest isn't good enough.

This past week has been so bad.

If anyone wants to check my mutual aid post. I'm going to a hospital and cannot pay rent this month. I'm looking for trans positive housing.

idk what to wear most of the time but also don't like what I have.

A bit diegetic but I've incorporated my health bar into my nail polish, you can tell how much health I have left by how much polish remains on my nails. Right now I'm real fucking low

Doing my best to stay humble, embracing fully the queer art of failure. One day I know I'll be tested harsher than I ever have been and all these mistakes and falls will prepare me to bounce back and not shatter.

bit idea - write a handful of thoughtful farewell letters to some guy friends before i move interstate BUT add in a little estrogen patch for all of them just in case

Just got the results back for my first bloods since starting E and even though I was pretty sure they were gonna be in the range I want, it's such a boost having the numbers laid out to see!

Looked at some pictures of myself from last summer, wearing almost the same outfit I'm wearing today, and it's pretty hard to pinpoint what exactly the difference is, but I looked way more androgynous back then HRT truly is magic

::: spoiler CW: body dysmorphic self deprecating humor gym bros like to say "don't go to planet fitness, it's full of fat people who only do cardio" but tbh it sound like I'll fit right in :::

Reading an article that is ostensibly pro-trans and realizing we need trans women political commissars in every organization.

when i say friday you say rice!

friday!

I'm not a quite a Doll

I'm more akin to an Action Figure, actually

the difference between the two is more just vibes than anything but there's a spectrum there and I'm somewhere between Doll and Action Figure

Been so eepy since getting my piercings Saturday. That's normal right? Just the body recovering and healing I assume.

up with trans

Going to sleep in a moment, but one last post before I do.

I think I'm going to start voice training again next week. Its been like 2 years since I last did and when that dumb mental block kicked in, and I think once I finish all my little tasks this week I'll have time and energy to try to do it again. Posting this here mostly as a way to make myself accountable to myself about it. I'm.. Kinda excited to start it again though, honestly. It was fun the first time, it could be fun to do it again, but permanently this time.

If anyone has more up to date resources they'd be willing to share I'd appreciate it. I used to mostly work off of L's guides plus some other ones here or there that I forgot.

i think susie deltarune should get to have a gun. as a treat

I got over one of my big make-up fears and got a deep red lipstick

Was very careful to get something that matches my skin tone so I don't look like bozo the clown when putting it on. The color is gorgeous, but it's definitely a bit overpowering. Once I put it on the rest of my make-up looked really bland, it almost didn't look like I was wearing any blush at all despite using quite a bit. I basically had to use either an extra layer, or a more intense color, for most of everything else to compensate, and then it looked great.

Very happy with it, but will probably save it for weekends or special occassions due to the extra work it takes to make it look nice.

I declare this friday the 13th during pride month our own little halloween.

Update: Things pretty civil with various in-laws. I guess I'm going to be the bigger woman (both morally and just physically I guess lol) and forgive but not forget for the sake of my partner.

more deltarune posting

Y'know some days I feel like I'm not doing anything and have been unproductive because I spent an hour nomming on chips and scrolling on my phone. But then I realise I walked to work, worked 8 hours, went to a café for lunch, cooked a meal for dinner, and learned to sew buttons so I could then tailor one of my skirts to replace the missing buttons while making it a better fit for me, and I realise huh, maybe I actually am decent at doing things.

kind of want to get rid of my she her pronouns entirely and start identifying as straight because "He/Him het trans girl" is some blisteringly hot gender that I don't know if I will ever achieve, even if I'm close. Unfortunately in this instance I like my she/her pronouns and also other women

I wash my hair every other day and I’m wondering if I should get a leave-in conditioner or something for the days when I don’t.

rant >

::: spoiler spoiler Going anywhere other than this site online is a mistake. i previously had a Tumblr account but deleted it , then created one yesterday , searching things on Tumblr is aggravating. ppl conflate being pro-palestine w being anti-Semitic. so I delete the app. i tried to use the app only for writing requests but it's just too much for me. :::

Why is it so hard to find nudist content that is not just porn

Like I just want a story about people doing things while they're naked because that's cool.

Captain Momo's Secret Base is a really good example of this actually. It's a manga about a girl who lives on a spaceship with her cat and is naked nearly the entire time. I think the nudity is only brought up once because it's barely plot relevant, it's just how she is. And I think that rules

::: spoiler dysphoria guess I've got some sort of terrible bottom dysphoria pendulum. before I started on hrt I had real bad bottom dysphoria, but once I started it cleared up pretty quickly. even started thinking it was kind of cute. last few weeks though I could feel something creeping up, not enough to really think on it too much, but then last night and today it's back real bad. dumb reason too, was just ambiently thinking about piercings I might want and suddenly it's cascading and I can't think about anything else. stupid stupid stupid. :::

I thought estrogen saved me from acne but it just moved from my face to my chest send help

I remember telling my friends in high school that was gonna be in the next smash bros and being told "no Wmill, he's a sega character that's stupid" and then brawl came out and no one remembered me making that claim I can call things and people just pretend like I don't this is just one example but it stuck with me.

::: spoiler dysphoria for a while I tried to tell myself that wearing a hoodie Every Single Day was not a dysphoria thing for me, these are not dysphoria hoodies because all my other clothes are gorl clothes! I just really like hoodies!

... but, uh, yeah I'm starting to think it's a dysphoria thing after all. :::

Are dysphoria naps a thing?

::: spoiler chasers Was alone at the queer club yesterday. I was wearing a cute top, and I kept being approached by men that clearly only talked to me because they wanted to fuck. One of them tried to talk to me three times. I kept walking away from the conversation, and that helped because after a while he gave up. But there were still a couple of moments after that where he was around and I could sense he was debating himself to approach me again. After a while I put on my sweater because I didn't want to deal with this kind of stuff again. What can I do in the future against these types of men?

Sort of related, but I feel a lot of these men are bisexual or homosexual and can't deal with that so they settle for fucking clocky trans women so they can tell themselves they're straight. I'm only half a year into HRT, have a slight receding hairline and a masculine face. If you want to fuck me and are a man, you are not straight. :::

::: spoiler loneliness Last night and today I feel very lonely as well. I got attention from these men but they only want to take advantage of me and I crave female attention the most. Not in a sexual way but want to feel like they accept me as a woman. Before that happens I will still feel these dysphoric feelings of being a creep, which I've had my whole life. It's better than before, but those feelings are still very severe. Maybe I shoud talk to my gender therapist about this more. :::

I am currently witnessing what I can only describe as a straight pride parade. Just, legions of scantily clad women in black leather boots marching across the field. Followed by legions of loud and drunk frat boys blowing those birthday whistle things at cyclists.

Most of my friends are away this weekend for various reasons and i feel lonely

You (yes, you) can help me cope with this by replying so I get a notification dopamine hit

::: spoiler breast growth Nipples have been hurting a bit lately, just thought it was growth, no they are physically bigger so I need to swap out my piercings to something longer, too tight. Lol. :::

::: spoiler healthcare woes finally got healthcare again only to notice i'm missing a surgery appointment. gave 'em a call and "oh uh we're not scheduling for ffs anymore because we don't have anyone who does it". interesting! because the surgeon who was supposed to do it still works there. he's even still on the trans healthcare page of the website. but according to the person i spoke to, for the few months they've been working they haven't had anyone on staff doing ffs. gee i sure do wonder what happened :::

There's a cute queer guy cashier at a pet store I go to and I kinda want to try asking him out but idk how that'd go

He's v sweet and cute though and I wanna tousle his fluffy hair and smooch his forehead and cuddle him tbh

@Carl@hexbear.net

thanks for recruiting ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀me

::: spoiler lonely Irl friend who I wanted to hang out with this week, didn't happen. I don't know when I'll see her next. She said she wanted to and hasn't been working, I offered to pay... how doesn't that happen :/

Online friend who I asked to use my name. Haven't talked since. It was awkward and I didn't like it anyway. There just is no way for someone to refer to me I'm comfortable with. That's why I haven't told my irl friend my name.

I have been drifting from my other online friends too. Nothing like it used to be. That's (largely) my fault for never having anything to say. Another consequence of the pain.

Maybe I'm just not cut out for other people. I feel broken. Also, to make this all worse, I've really been wishing I had a partner recently. I know that can't really happen now but I want. :::

CW : disordered eating, mention of death

::: spoiler spoiler fuck the nhs. i found a website dedicated to someone who died of ed complications. This person had a history of anorexia, was dying and neither 2 orgs that were supposed to help them did anything. ghoul shit. :::

::: spoiler cw: sex, butt stuff Well, first time bottoming (anal) didn't exactly work out. We couldn't really get it in, although I didn't expect to take much more than the head so that's okay. All my toys are tapered, and I don't really know how to take a rounded head. :::

down with cis

Years ago the intervention of my partner and a timely comment on True Anon stopped me from buying a Mariner hat (what Lenin wore).

But now I'm a girl living in a cold climate instead of a sad man in a warm one? I'm going to look so cute.

Im going to make today a good day!

Journalposting below

(sometimes) cold food is the taste of freedom

I won't explain

::: spoiler Entering my punished Xia arc this weekend… (CW transphobia) …by driving 6 hours from the cosmopolitan city to the regional town I grew up in, to smooth the egos of my parents in law in person, my phone has died today from being dropped a second time, so I’ll have to get a temp one tomorrow, I’m staying in a mediocre motel so they can have “space”, I’ve already been eye-balled by a youth en route who looked like he wanted to hate crime me. :::

just got 82 pringles and i plan on sharing, comment and tell me how many you'll be taking please

now i have 60

Do you think seeking arrangements has sections for sugar grandmas. Like, older women who don't wanna work and wanna be financially dependent or whatever on younger men.

::: spoiler nsfw sex related edited just in case I asked deepseek a question regarding sex and protection and the fucking thinking part calls me out "user seem unfamiliar and self conscious about this topic" fuck you deepseek don't call me out like this. I could get laid I just chose not to because sex is weird :::

New grifting idea: dreamt instead of having crypto wallets they started introducing crypto pants. This is brilliant actually because when these dorks get robbed they gotta go home in their underwear.

too many deltarune spoilers on the interwebs

I swear if you leave me alone for 5 minutes I will conjure up 3 new hobbies for myself. I feel like I should start taking bets. "Oh she's starting watercolours rn, I bet she'll do fountain pen calligraphy next, maybe shoemaking."

what happened to the beyond pink and blue thread?

No kings day, smdh what about the short kings huh? Yeah that's right height discrimination is all to real and when they can finally get a day to themselves all the tall people are like "uh actually we abolished the monarchy"

Uh, waiter, I was promised theres be thick subby femboys but all I see are muscle mommys

I've posted like 10 posts here this morning and I have no clue why. Guess I'm just in a talkative mood today.

I love it, undertale and deltarune even unfinished are games that I hold close to my heart

Undertale was really special for me, my abusive parents were making me depressed and the game filled me with determination to continue until I could run away from home

Day 3 of trying to find my god damn nail polish remover, I got this real nice pink nail polish that I wanna use and the confidence to use it openly now but this bottle I put somewhere is just out of my reach. It is nice being gnc no one really cares or and most people are pretty supportive. I still sometimes feel the reflexive hid my hands thing but I'm over coming that and being more confident in my presentation.

::: spoiler vent, meds, mh So exhausted. So overwhelmed. So empty. All from nothing. Still unemployed. Living situation deteriorated. I just... I cant anymore. And ive been here before. So i know that I will. But i just cant. The fear. The anxiety. The paranoia. Non of it rooted in reality. The hunger. The disgust at food. The horror of meds. Ive been on them and off them and on them and off them. Different every time. Never right. Always never enough or too much. Im not on them right now. The only thing that addresses my (mild?) impulsivity is crippling anxiety that keeps me from doing anything. No one will help with the impulsivity because its hidden behind the anxiety. So they do the anxiety stuff. But then cant control my actions. I spend. And spend and spend and spend. I went off my meds when i started looking at used cars (cannot afford car rn) and ordering takeaway/delivery every day. Id rather have the crippling anxiety and constant low grade depression with occasional crashes into deep depressive episodes than blow everything and end up on the street. But now im back in the nothingness. Theres just... Nothing.

::: spoiler cw si Cant i just be free? Cant i just leave? Cant i be done with this. I dont want to be here. Every day is painful. Or joyous. But then the joy leaves and the pain says hey you took a respite lets hit you extra hard now. :::

::: spoiler burnout, non-personhood, doomer Through my life ive burned out a few times. First i tried to head-down-power-through it (that went well). Then i tried ignoring it and just scaling back a little (also went well). Then the last couple times ive just stopped earlier than i needed to in order to avoid the really bad-bad effects of burnout. But the one constant has been that every time ive dealt with burnout, ive never recovered my same level of functionality that i had before. Im effectively nonfunctional at this point. Im not even really a person. And i dont want to be. Im a NEET and have been for almost two years. Im immensely privilidged. And i see people who could do more with my resources. Who could actually live. Who would be able to get back on their feet. Im so thankful, but part of me just wants to send every drop of money in my bank acct to someone better than myself. Someone who could actually use it to live a life thats not constant pain. My body is trash. My brain is fucked. My heart is broken. I dont want to be here anymore. Im trying to start applying for jobs again, but who would hire someone who randomly gets laid up for weeks at a time with depressive episodes? How can I even begin moving forward? Ive failed my family, my friends, my roommates... There is no redemption that Im capable of doing. :::

::: spoiler cw si My current plan is to just go as long as I can, and once the resources are all used up, take a walk to the bridge. :::

Is this what giving up looks like?

bit idea: guy whose kink is going to orgies and being ignored by everyone

My dumb ass took off my last patch but forgot to put on my new one last night and I only now realised at work 🙃

::: spoiler lonely My loneliness is eating me away from the inside. It's been so long since I was intimate with someone. :::

before the new thread i just wanna make it clear that i'd break into the watergate hotel if susie asked me to, noelle and kris could be the howard hunt and gordon liddy equivalents

::: spoiler weight cycling shit lost a bunch of weight. got down to 190 pounds, and my pants all felt like they were about to fall off. I went from a size 14 to what felt like a size 12. I put a bunch of that weight back on, at about 204 pounds now, and my pants still feel pretty loose. idk if this is supposed to happen with weight cycling or what. or if i even had a point to this post other than "damn i'm getting more girl shaped i guess" :::

Most of the way through chapter 2. Susie is pretty great, I loved having to warn the enemies of how psychopathic she was in the beginning

Saw the trailer for the new Sega racing game crossworld, calling it just that because while I love them changing from sega racing to sonic racing is dumb. Looks alright and being there was cool but damn if Ichiban doesn't look so off model on the face.

Wassup Beijing! How're ya'll doing this fine afternoon? I'm pretty excited, my Xi bucks payment is coming today. I'm going to spend them all on noodles.

Also, I bought this really nice smelling hair oil that the bottle says is from Morocco.

🫩

Looking at my hair and what split ends are and my hair looks like it's in rough shape :/ and like it usually is, until recently I didn't really take care of it right. But I really, really do not want to get it cut short and I'm worried they'll have to take a significant amount off. I don't know how I'd cope with having short hair again. It's literally the only thing I like. If someone wants to see a pic to judge/tell me the bad news I can show you. ::: spoiler complaining about shaving Istg every time I get a razor out I cut myself 😭 last time it was a bunch of cuts on my legs and this time my face. It feels so awkward. Plus some have scarred. I've been shaving my legs now for like a year why is this still happening...

Also I hate shaving my face it's so awful. It's difficult, I'm never really happy at the end, stings like hell, just fuckin sucks. Like I hate watching my leg hair come in, actually shaving it kinda sucks in the way it's a chore I have to do, but at the end I'm usually really happy with it. That's never really the case with my face. ::: At least my hair routine is a lot better then it ever used to be.

I remember going through all the bioshock games plus the dlcs and I think I concluded bioshock 2 minerva's garden was prob my fav. Infinte just had way too much shit with the story and both siding a revolution that it left a distaste in my mouth. Burial at sea was def better and part 2 might have been my preferred one but still. I do think bioshock was alright it did establish the mood and was the baseline to what I was comparing the sequels to.

honorary mention in deltarune goes to noelle. she is so nice and sweet

::: spoiler spoiler the weird route made me feel worse than genocide did in undertale. at least genocide was our decision. noelle basically got manipulated into becoming a monster and you can tell it ruined her mentally :::

::: spoiler Wind Breaker S2 spoilers My brother starting watching Wind Breaker the other time just telling me the premise that it was some fighting anime. Decided to join in, not expecting much, but it kept being surprisingly wholesome, so we kept watching it together.

::: spoiler the anime trope warning Was not expecting a show about an all-boys high school to suddenly have an episode featuring a character that seems pretty clearly trans (but its anime, so of course it does that "she's actually a boy" meme). Wasn't expecting suddenly have half an episode showing flashbacks to this newly introduced character struggling as an child with their feelings vs how they felt they had to present themselves for society and finding people who loved them for who they are. Some of it isn't relatable to me, but it seems like one of the best attempts in anime (very low bar unfortunately) to give our stories some attention. And its in some fighting anime of all things. :::

:::

chapter 4 is so much fun oh my god the old man? brilliant, i love him

also

::: spoiler spoiler im fighting the roaring knight on the weird route currently and i would say this is way harder than genocide sans. at least with sans its possible to tell what you were supposed to do :::

Sometimes you live long enough to see yourself transition and sometimes you live long enough to see the Persona 4 remake announcement. It's nice when both of those things are true

had a good dream, why'd I have to wake up from it feeling like shit? c'mon, brain, let me have one win

Being mspec mono can be dangerous, for example you might give people the idea that they can use labels in good faith to describe their unique experiences! They might also learn about the historical basis for such terminologies.

My enjoyment of the "my adventures with superman" probably peaked at brat twink Mr. Myxplitx if I'm being real. The show is now doing "is he really a good guy?" every thing media does with the strawman people cropping up who we are supposed to hate. Don't even feel a need to spoil it with how played out this story line is.

plug waaaaaaaaaaaalk, i don't even understand how the fuck my, plug talks...

::: spoiler si A lot of the time I tell myself to just wait another year. I don't want to this time. Nothing is going to happen in a year. I'm still going to hate my body, my voice, being trans, society, all of it. I don't want another year of suffering. It feels like there's no end. ::: spoiler more graphic I saw this on my fyp last night:

And cried. I remember that feeling. Feeling happy. Loved. Accepted. Before I was broken. There was a joy, a spark. Now I feel like a husk. It's gone. The joy, the excitement, it's just gone. Why live like this. It's not coming back. What is more time going to do for me. Why suffer another year.

I'm safe right now. Dw. Just upset like usual. I'll post something good when I can. Sorry :::

maybe I'm crazy but I didn't think the ::: spoiler deltarune ch3/4 deltarune secret bosses were particularly hard. I thought they were excellently designed and ngl I love the roaring knight fight :::

this new chapter isn't standalone is it? there are more cumin out, yeah? if so imma wait till the story is complete

I'm like 3 episodes in my adventures with superman, mostly started it since I saw they made Mr Mxypltyx a twink, really they made everyone a twink here and that's alright cool even. Just feeling sleepy now

Not sure if I would like deltarune or not, I do have undertale but never beat it.

secret best scene from deltarune everybody missed

::: spoiler spoiler https://youtu.be/zT18yvikNVM :::

"fans" would be like okay we either sacrifice 06 or secret rings so one or the other will be a good game both are good you're just a pleb. 06 is the adventure 3 people deserved and secret rings is an underrated gem that was ahead of it's time pioneering the early days of the wii's motion controls and making a beautiful world that I still dream about from time to time.

fucking pissed, apparently if i want to watch Harvest im going to have to get a mubi subscription bcs i cant find it to pirate online.

maybe they do free trials idk, if not eh it is what it is

Was thinking for a sec that despite being a big yakuza fan I don't actually own any of the physical media until I realize I have yakuza 6 disc. I really should look into getting the ps2 games since emulating them was a pain and I'd like to go back to them one day

I forgot how hard shmups are, noisz re:||verse has been kicking my ass

Seeing a quote from RGG on why you never play yakuza in the yakuza games seems to be just a policy they had and keep. Other than dead souls for majima it pretty much tracks for all the games and I guess the name like a dragon makes so much sense now.