i swear us americans treat travelling to different countries like going to another planet. a lot of "travel guides" especially to asian countries are lowkey racist and chauvinstic as fuck in a way i cant express clearly enough.

All the anti-ICE protests kicking off give me some hope if I'm being real. Seeing libs go "noo we have to this peacefully" please go get your head broken by the police and the national guard then. As always it's on the oppressed to be peaceful as the gestapo marches in 🙄

Sometimes you really do know some on here are too online, western(ized) and propagandized. It becomes immediately obvious through their mannerisms and speech patterns. Especially when it comes to anti-imperialist actors internationally.

I would like to type so much - but I know it won’t help so I am exhibiting some self-control.

There's nothing left to explain, I don't need to tell white people anything anymore, there's genocides going on supported by their governments, it's so obvious and so clear, you're an enemy if you don't recognize it.

White "leftists" be like, "No need to try to unlearn my white supremacist conditioning if I just act like POC don't exist!"

one of the accounts that has been rising since the protests in LA is this Mexican chud that think only the anglos are capable of settler colonialism

evidence even latinos are capable of having brain worms

I don't know how many times I gotta say it, but something white leftists just can't seem to get:

I'm Black before anything else.

White people when my freeform dreadlocks were in the earliest phases: "Have you considered combing your nappy ass hair?"

White people when my freeform dreadlocks are longer and mature: "OMG, WAOW. SO COOL! IT'S LIKE BOB MARLEY! THAT'S SO EXOTIC! OMG!"

I swear to fucking God.

fucking hate libs. ''peaceful protesting'' is fine but the moment violence is used, that's too far. ICE deports people FFS.

I am very bias, please convince me that I'm wrong. So, I can't view Vietnam veterans as heroes. They came to conquer, to massacre, and left behind starving pregnant women. Then they made a musical to romanticise that, justified the passport bro movement and returned to the land they had hurt to marry young, uneducated women who didn't speak their language. I can't take them seriously when they condemn the Red Army for invading Eastern European countries that were under fascist occupation. I can't take them seriously when they vote against giving funds to agent orange cleanup and anything progressive. Why should any American veterans be considered heroes when the US started every other war they fought themselves anyway?

I am back to restricting myself to c/em_poc and c/mutual_aid, and this time, I intend it to be permanent.

This was the final straw.

I can't post an innocuous thread without having issues, and truthfully, I've been feeling a vibe to quit Hexbear entirely, but I still need support from c/mutual_aid, and even once I get more stability (whenever the fuck that'll happen), I want to support users there as well. However, after I hang for some time (I don't know how long) after having employment and financial stability and whatnot, I will delete my account and possibly stop using this site entirely.

It will never get fixed. I might, at the very least, remain on an alt to post on this comm again—I don't know, but there's no hope.

I know @CommunistCuddlefish@hexbear.net said she'd miss my posts, and I'm sorry, but I'm glad you seem able to understand.

Through all the bullshit I've gone through since I first started using this site, thanks for being there for me, all you beautiful EMPOC comrades.

Hate how every other post is like RACIST RIGHTWINGER SAYS MILDLY CORRECT THING, GOTTA HAND IT TO ‘EM

Always thinking back to the fact that someone who I'm on good terms with and still talk to these days posted this on social media:

::: spoiler CW: Whte Lberal Being a Whte Lberal

"Genuine anti-racism doesn't make exceptions. If your anti-racism includes demonizing white people, it's not anti-racism. It's just racism." :::

if you are not actively wishing for the USA to be nuked you are a loser

A bit late, but Happy Juneteenth.

Tupac: I see no changes, the black community systematically oppressess Black people to sell and die in the streets to survive capitalism

Some white journalist named chuck: this song is a beautiful epitaph about the Black on Black crime that led to the creator's demise.

Time moves fast and all that but I forgot how strong the casual racism of Black folk was in the 90s-2010s born from miss characterization and stereotypes. Because how do you hear tupacs "changes" and only take away "Black on Black" crime

The freeform dreadlocks keep getting more and more no cap

found this at the segunda

Happy Juneteenth!

Frijoles y arroz con repollo till I die fr. I think one day even when I make it I'm gonna stick to these classics. Been eating this for weeks on end, gotta say got a real chance of living better still gotta finish this course and get my EPA 608 license. It's everything my parents ever hoped for for me, a good job and future. Powering through sickness and apathy for something better, once I make it I'll be able to pull up the rest of my family I hope.

Happy Juneteenth nerds

Looks like a global war is more likely to break out and economic collapse. If that happens and I go missing indefinitely it’s because I decided to live with the indigenous permanently lol

Remember, you kicked the colonizers jaws, it didn't stop wanting to eat you

discussion on Iran be like: "I will literally make up random unsourced claims and if you disagree with you're either ignorant or you do that stuff"

So, happy Juneteenth. Hope y'all well.

I still do not regret my 3rd party vote. Majority of the people in my life do not know who I voted for(I think they assume Kamala) but if I hear hollow brain takes like "this is what they voted for", then I'm letting it rip. A coworker told me Biden wasn't that bad and I had to shut that down on the spot.

I'm cheating on my dentist and I only go to them because I'm a lib. My main dentist is black owned they play good music and they're nice but my fillings keep falling out from them. The good dentist is not black owned and plays Taylor swift but they have sturdy fillings :(. It's been a multi year breakup for the black dentist but I can't fully let go

Accidental rizz, a simultaneous blessing and a curse

Making sure my siblings is with my dad more often when he goes out, heard immigration nearish where I live. My dad's a citizen but he does not speak English a lick. My mom's a legal resident and while the place she worked at tried to get in before the management told them to fuck off. Need to check in with extended family later on but damn

Sup, the only people on this site who I can truly vibe with

They'll let you have a few breadcrumbs if you promise them you won't fight

White ppl on this site making it very challenging to not take a hiatus.

Unrelated: reading Blood in My Eye

first!

Just ended up getting the most pretentious Frenchie in my DMs all because he wanted to debate etymology with me. Here are some banger quotes:

::: spoiler [CW: Cringe, Brief Mention of French's Horrible History]

Him: "Etymology is the logical root of words. Without it, language becomes arbitrary, malleable, stripped of meaning. That’s exactly what the system wants: to twist words in order to twist thought. Newspeak begins here—when we forget that freedom, justice, or authority have precise, inherited, rooted meanings. To know etymology is to resist. It is to think clearly with words that still carry truth."

Him: "Every word carries historically constructed semantic content. Its etymology reveals not only its linguistic origin, but also the primary intention behind its use. For example, education comes from the Latin educere, « to bring out, to raise » a dynamic toward autonomy. If we redefine this word to designate simple conditioning or passive transmission, we negate this fundamental orientation. The word then ceases to designate what it designated. This creates a short-circuit of meaning."

Me: "No, this is not true. Etymology does not set rules. Like I said, please acknowledge the fact that you have to concede that 'girl' is gender-neutral in this case. You don't have to do a whole critical analysis here—it really is not that deep."

Him: "We don’t have gender neutrality in French. In German, they have feminine, masculine, and neuter."

Me: "Okay, but that's not relevant to the fact that we say 'girl' in English to mean 'female child' specifically despite it etymologically descending from a gender-neutral term"

Him: "So we can write anything arbitrarily and interpret words without foundation. Worse, we can lose words to ideologies"

Me: "Strawman argument. I said that words are defined by how they are used, not that you can use 'toaster' to mean 'tree.' My argument is that etymology doesn't prescriptively dictate the meaning of a word, and there are many examples of this."

Closed out with this:

Him: "I am not responsible for the lexical poverty of English and your difficulty in accepting that Latin words are relevant and based on implacable logic. Etymology is a major tool against obscurantism. Extremely so in France, where the system is violent in its distortion and dilution of words. It is a tool. An empirical DNA."

Me: "The system is violent in its distortion and dilution of words? Reminds me of how your people were violent to mine when they enslaved them. Now fuck off."

and then I blocked.

And how did this conversation start? Someone used the term "principle" instead of "doctrine" (in a particular context) in an Instagram story I shared, and he replied to it with, "It's a 'doctrine.' Not a principle!"

I shit you not. 🙄 :::

This woman who was a customer at my last job one time saw me in public and asked me where I'm working now. Of course, I wasn't terribly transparent about the whole mess, but I told her that I'm looking for a new position. She gave me her email and told me to list her as a referral when I'm applying for some positions at her own workplace, but unfortunately, even with that, they didn't accept me.

This was a few months ago, but out of the blue, she emailed me today to ask me how things are going. Really good timing because I am feeling more and more dry when it comes to ideas. She said that she'd be willing to see if she can find anything else for me.

I emailed her my resume, and she said she'll get back to me after the weekend.

I don't know what she has in mind, but I'm certainly a bit more confident now. It also helps that she's a Black woman because y'know how jobs are with discrimination.

Fucked up thing is all that Afrikaner family with no food has to do is post a video saying a slur to a poc kid and they're gonna make money

If anyone here knows of jobs that make good use of fast typing speed (like remote transcription positions and that shit), don't be afraid to let me know.

I have a typing speed of about 120 WPM, and I'm tryna leverage this skill really well to get out of this unemployment hole.

https://inv.nadeko.net/watch?v=RqhWKQzFdwg&pp=0gcJCdgAo7VqN5tD The brainworms have spread far and wide. Even at home. CIA and Ronald Reagan looking at social media like it is cooked. Shit be gathering spirit bomb like give me all your ignorance

There is no doubt in my mind that the great firewall China put up is a good idea and as academic performances around the world drop it will become clearer

Yeah I'm gonna forever use economic anxiety sarcastically as anglo trump fans cheer this madness. I'm sure starting a regional war will magically solve this.

So some crackers on this site really want to nuance the "Falklands".

I think I missed the struggle session on that one. What are empoc takes on it?

I've been thinking about my first ever partner a lot, and I miss her.

I'm not gonna get into the whole story behind us, so to keep it short: I met her early on in college. We connected really well over the fact that we found out that we're both Black and into metal. She was the only Black person I've ever dated, and I think that's why she's been on my mind a lot as of late.

As some of you may know, my dating pool is already very small due to some non-negotiable concerns about personal values. For this reason, I didn't think I was ever gonna feel to racially restrict it, but I cannot see myself ever entertaining a relationship with another non-Black person again.

I've become increasingly scared of people who do not truly understand the Black experience, but with that, I've been taking a lot more pride in my Blackness and really find it crucial to seek solidarity with other Black people.

Of course, no amount of introspection and questioning of anti-Black conditioning can ever make a non-Black person truly understand the Black experience and why it can be so damn important for us to be understood by other Black people, especially in a deeply intimate setting.

Intersectionality makes it even more rough. My relationship with this person wasn't just a Black relationship—it was a queer Black relationship, and that makes it hit hard. That level of understanding and connection is so valuable.

When I'm ready (which I will consider myself once I finally achieve some fucking job stability), I will get out there and try to meet more Black queer people. I don't ever intend on dating another non-Black person ever again.

As far as my non-negotiable values go, I'm gonna play things by ear. Really, what's most important to me is finding a Black queer who has at least these two things in common with me upfront: radical and vegan. The other things? Well, they can be discussed and talked through so I could get an idea of what they think about them, but hell, the thing is that I'm not necessarily just looking for long-term or even specifically romantic, really. Having that connection with another Black queer will be important regardless, and even if they're incompatible with me long-term, I'll definitely value getting to know them.

I'd take being single my whole life over entertaining a romantic relationship with a white person ever again.

EZLN doc : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQaJYlgKp_A

I mixed an acoustic version of this one for fun!

Right here!

I threw away the last track I was working on and started fresh on another one.

This one has a happier vibe and opens with a drum solo!

I realized the last one wasn't working so well for me because I tried to structure it around a concept I previously developed. I'm far more vibes-based in how I write music than one might think, so when I try to stick to a certain concept instead of just letting the heart do what it does, I find it goes worse for me.

This is track #8 out of 9. After I finish this, the last track I'll work on for the debut will be a shorter one (likely no more than 3 minutes). I will focus more on structuring vocal arrangements and lyrics next.

Edit: Also, unlike many other things I've written, what I got so far here is entirely in 4/4. Shocking, I know.

Blasting this during pride month

my goofy singing when I was lying in bed because I was in a fucked up in-between state of being tired enough to lie down but not tired enough to go to sleep

this song is good rizz I'm sure

Already got a good deal more of this done!

Decided to throw in some wah bass at around 1:26!