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Also, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It's for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
america finally collapsing
you live there and are a member of a vulnerable minority group
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Moss [they/them] - 1.5yr
I hate the phrase "he or she" in academic texts. Like come on, we have a pronoun for when someone's gender is unknown or unspecified, its they. You don't need to do "he or she" at all. Its just worse than "they" in every way.
Now if your gender is "he or she", then that's a lot cooler
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
fox news: the school nurse is giving kids bottom surgery if they ask nicely
actual school nurse: i literally cannot give you an ibuprofen or else the entire school district is getting sued to kingdom fuck
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
Bah. I spent decades of my life trying to force myself to stay in the closet and no amount of repression could keep me in there, and most trans people can claim the same. Does Trump think he can force us back in with a few executive orders? He has no idea who he's dealing with
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler Depressing stuff
He doesn’t think anything about us really. He just says and does whatever makes his supporters go wild for him. Many years ago he even made the news for overturing a ban for a trans beauty pageant from his Miss Universe organization.
It’s honestly depressing to think that all of this dehuminization is just an act to boost his own ego and to keep himself in power, all fueled by our blood.
:::
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
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GenderIsOpSec [she/her, kit/kit's] - 1.5yr
going to start the trans equivalent of the japanese red army and start stringing up transphobes from traffic lights :3
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
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0x2640 - 1.5yr
:3
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
It's funny how a week after fucking with trans people's passports, air travel becomes unsafe in general
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Got tucking underwear on Monday, have worn it every evening since. Felt gender euphoria for the first time on Monday
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
Came out to my brother and he was super supportive. Just crying tears of joy and relief.
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bolshevikLovelace [she/her, love/loves] - 1.5yr
i may doompost later so to balance that out here is my cute taco kitty
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
I'm pan and nonbinary and trans feminine
You all know that already but just felt like reiterating
I'M THEM
I'VE BEEN THEM
I WILL CONTINUE TO BETHEM
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
She who makes a beast out of herself gets rid of the pain of being a man
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AcidSmiley [she/her] - 1.5yr
The beast in question:
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dragongloss [she/her, comrade/them] - 1.5yr
trans girls with deep voices are super hot
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
shout out to transgirls that sound like whiny preteens
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
If only I was one of them.
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Azarova [they/them] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler doomposting
you ever feel the need to just rot in bed all day and not do anything because whats the point in doing anything if the world is careening off a cliff with the pedal welded to the proverbial floor?
:::
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I feel this way when I’ve slept most of the day on accident
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Behold! As of today, I’m both biologically and legally female. So fuck you, fascists! Victory is mine!
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egged [they/them, comrade/them] - 1.5yr
Having top surgery 1 week from now, I'm very nervous but excited !!!
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bolshevikLovelace [she/her, love/loves] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler depressing
the state government here are pulling a terf island and pausing puberty blockers from being prescribed through the public system for under 18's
since there was literally already a review done last year (that found kids were in no way being coerced into hormone treatment but instead that wait lists were way too fucking long - at 577 days for some patients), i'm guessing this is just an excuse to defer to the Cass review. i kinda guessed something like this would happen soon but shit's really making me want to
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Yukiko - 1.5yr
I somehow drummed up the courage to get fitted for a bra at a local boutique. Holy actual fuck what am I doing? I'm terrified.
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Got a treat for doing the chores. Jealous?
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
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inTheShadowOf [she/her] - 1.5yr
Clothes are fun. They should be free for trans people for the first few years of transition.
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AcidSmiley [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler i've made 5 or 6 attempts to write a post now so i'll just keep it simple:
GAY
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
simple perfection tbh
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Wondering how my family will react to me being in a butchfemme relationship where I’m the femme.
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WhyEssEff [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler privileged question
which countries should I be trying to nudge my family towards if shit ramps up untenably in the states. they're considering the UK primarily atm so I absolutely have to find a different avenue if we are to pack and abscond
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler discussions of transphobia
how to tell a cis person that trans people should be allowed to compete in sports because sports are arbitrary competitions they've attached excessive weight to and they should get over it
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler venting about transphobia
It’s fucked up and annoying how people who as recently as a couple years ago were hardcore anti-feminists (and probably still are, but just aren’t as vocal about it) suddenly spouting TERF talking points and pretending they give a shit about “protecting women”
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
edward elric and winry rockbell are a straight t4t couple
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peanutbuttercupola [she/her] - 1.5yr
Bit idea: when a cis guy talks about having a vasectomy, refer to it as bottom surgery.
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
Bottom surgery but it’s brain surgery to augment the parts that make you submissive
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Edie [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
This implies bottom and submissive are the same or connected
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I wish there was HRT that made you less wide
Tbh, I wish HRT worked the way it does in something like Trials in Tainted Space.
Where it’s like a delicious candy and it rapidly alters your bones and muscles and can turn you completely cis if you overdose.
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
But alas, they can't even invent a width slider for most video games...
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Tommasi [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Someone should invent a HRT that just removes your lowest rib tbh
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omenmis [she/her] - 1.5yr
u can do this yourself if ur quick or smart about it*
* note to readers: do not try this at home.
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iridaniotter [she/her] - 1.5yr
There are surgeries you can get for shoulder and ribcage width
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lilypad [she/her, it/its] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler need some advice (cw institutional transphobia)
Just saw something from a person saying they went to renew their expired passport and werr told that they could not be issued a passport, under any gender marker, because they updated their marker with social security.
Ive done that, and have a passport thats still valid for a couple more months now. Am I facing a de facto travel ban? I think i am, but im really unsure.
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
Well, I wasted a fair number of syringes and a couple doses getting it right (I think I got it right...), but I completed my first intramuscular EV dose!
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Yukiko - 1.5yr
My cat children now find it funny to sleep on my tits like they’re pillows for cats. Their head just lying on my breast and nothing else. Gods I love them. They’re such little shits.
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TheGenderWitch [she/her, she/her] - 1.5yr
today was a really bad fuckin day
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
Are my nipples supposed to feel kinda sore on week 2 of the good shit or am I placeboing nipple tenderness?
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0x2640 - 1.5yr
uhhhmuhmuhmuhhmuhmhhm >~<
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
The woke left doesn't want you to know this but you can just make your own gender and make a flag only you use and be sick as hell
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AcidSmiley [she/her] - 1.5yr
I'm making up new lesbian pride flags all the time, but we already have like 10 of these and i keep procrastining actually making any of them, so the poly t4t disaster lesbian community is still not properly represented.
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Bearlifter [he/him] - 1.5yr
All I have playing in my head is, what am I supposed to do.
I feel like crying but I can't.
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler spoiler
I wanna frot with a trans guy. I wanna measure up week by week as he's taking T and I'm taking E, see when he inevitably gets bigger than me 🤤🥵
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Read I Love Amy, was good but very sad at parts
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Thinking about wearing something like this to my sister’s wedding.
Top:
Bottom:
Idk about fashion
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🎀 Seryph (She/Her) - 1.5yr
This would look very cute, I'd maybe add a corset or a ribbon to add a bit more visual flair around the waist to fit how detailed the top is but it's plenty pretty as is.
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
omg I wanna see tomboymoder in a corset that would be so fun
Depends on the kind. Some of them are essentially very wide belts you use to accessorize and accentuate your waist/chest. They can be very intricate and ornate, or much more minimalistic. They're cute, and I think they'd be a good choice for your outfit!
Ooh, some open toe wedge sandals?? With some sparkly nail polish??? Idk depends on the type of wedding and season and venue and everything but that'd be really cute imo
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Gotta do my transplaining gender presentation for nursing students again but I'm so sleepy, finished a night shift only had 4 hours of sleep 😴
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Got an appointment for orthopedic for my broken hand
Uninsured lol
This is gonna fucking suck
::: spoiler dysphoria
(boymoded for the appointment before this and X-rays)
(Nurses assistant) "Any medication changes? Are you still taking.... estrace and spironolactone? (??)"
(spaghetti floods the exam table)
fuckkkkkk that was awkward
She was really nice about everything but ahhhh
I looked like absolute dog shit and my voice was all hoarse and gravely from smoking a lot and screaming when I broke it and fuck
Probably the most masc I've looked/sounded in ages and it's the one time I get directly clocked lmao
I gotta work on voice training
Otherwise I'm just gonna have to go for "futch tomboy Dr. Girlfriend"
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
More men should show me their soft bellies with their little treasure trails
They would if they weren't cowards
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
another boyposter, finally
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Boys 🥰
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
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MusicOwl [comrade/them, sie/hir] - 1.5yr
boys are so kyoot
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
YES
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Yukiko - 1.5yr
I did get measured today fora bra after work. It was terrifying, but I did manage to do it. I now have a definitive bra size and I love it and hate it. 38I/40H. I didn’t expect that large of a cup size. Kind of gave my mind rest so I don’t have to worry about them being too small. Also, I will never buy another bra under $70.
I was terrified and nervous, but the shopkeeper did an excellent job taking care of me. I’m shocked I was able to do it. Maybe things are turning around. I hope so.
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hell yeah, my new clothes unexpectedly arrived just now after waiting for almost a month. Nice quality, look amazing and I got them for a really good price:
::: spoiler Some fancy white jeans with a big floral print
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::: spoiler and a translucent, black shirt that I can nicely combo with a spaghetti-top
:::
So fucking happy with both of them.
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crosswind [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
I started doing voice training exercises, and it feels really good and I’m already seeing changes and I’m crying a bunch.
Does anyone have tips for not having to keep stopping to yawn?
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
I've been doing some thinking about my own morality as of late and why I believe the things I do, and the more I think about it, the more I feel drawn toward veganism
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
looking through my old discord DMs, I can pinpoint the moment my egg cracked drunkenly venting to a friend about my gender with a margin of error of about 15 minutes
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
My egg cracked when an online friend asked if I was trans because I was using an anime girl as a mascot online and I said "no" and then a few days later I did the makeover mage in runescape and said "maybe"
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
This is basically what happened to me, haha. I was on an ancient ass forum and someone called me She because I had a catgirl pfp and I was just like, "ooooh shit, I'm She."
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Mine cracked after watching Strawberry Panic!. My poor brain just got completely overloaded with gay shit to the point where it just shut down and rebooted with my new genderOS.
Edit: Although it still took like 3 more months to fully hatch because I wasn’t completely sure whether I was an enby or just an androgynous woman.
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DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them] - 1.5yr
I wrote a note in notepad about my gender dysphoria. Which I then read back to myself. That is where I set the point of my egg cracking.
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Kiagz [she/her] - 1.5yr
I want to learn how to knit so I can make sweaters for my plushies
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Zorothamya [she/her] - 1.5yr
I've been thinking about what name to call myself. I have one name in mind that I really like, but it's literally my birthname with two letters added. And I don't know how to feel about that. And while it sounds good in most of the languages I speak, it sounds like it was ripped out of some fantasy novel in english, because that's the only context where I have heard the english translation of that name being used.
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SorosFootSoldier [he/him, they/them] - 1.5yr
Good morning to you.
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Is it worth it to get actual bras instead of the cheap sports bras I got when I started hrt? Breast tissue still isn't very developed so I'm just anxious about spending money on bras over and over
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I like when my dream is like:
“c’mon you’re male, you are the brother, beat up your sisters abusive ex”.
…and then I actually do it as if I’m not a 5’3 estrogenized girl-thing who can’t even pick up 50 pounds to save my life.
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Moss [they/them] - 1.5yr
I haven't come out to anyone about being agender which is weird because I like being agender. But I absolutely hate having to come out. I've still barely told anyone I'm pan, and I've never done that sober.
And I'd like to say my friends will all be supportive and loving but I'm not sure that's true.
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hello trans mega friends, I think you’re all very cool and I’m glad that you’re here.
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
I like to name my characters in video games and ttrpgs the name I veeery nearly chose for myself, as like a little joke that literally only I find funny.
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
Secondhand enterprise IT equipment should be considered gender affirming medication covered by insurance
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler suicide
Sorry for the fucked question, but is there a trans suicide hotline that won't call the cops on me?
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BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
translifeline: U.S. (877) 565-8860 or Canada (877) 330-6366
This hotline says they won't call unless you ask them too. I hope you are okay/as okay as you can be. I'll be thinking about you.
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Thank you
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
broke: quitting drinking for health reasons
woke: quitting drinking because it makes me long for a bf so badly 🥺
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
i thought of "full middle malcomist" and assumed i was being original but someone's already made the joke :(
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crosswind [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
malcomist third middleist
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler kink adjacent
when your dick is too small for the chastity cage
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I see all the suffering in the world and feel like I don't deserve to be safe or happy.
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler dysphoria
I feel like never looking at myself is giving me a very warped sense of myself.
I either pass more than I think I do and I’m inflicting needless mental anguish on myself, or I pass even worse than I think and knowing that will destroy me.
Maybe I’ll hazard a look when I’m 50kg and been on this dose of hrt for a year.
:::
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
Planned Parenthood follow-up went well. We upped my dose from 1 mg 2/day oral tablets to 5mg/week EV IM (keeping on the 50mg 2/day spiro for now). Really excited!
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Zorothamya [she/her] - 1.5yr
Last mega I asked about feeling out potential allies. I finally just asked my sister directly what her opinion was about queer people. To throw her off of any suspicions however I immediately followed it by asking her what she thinks about the war in Palestine, to make it look like I was just trying to find out about her general political views. I stuttered in the first question, but I still think I nailed it.
She said "Good. I have no problem with them", and to the second question she said that she wasn't informed enough to have an opinion about it.
It doesn't say much, but at least I know she isn't a right wing freak (though I did know that already, because if she were she would be constantly talking about it).
I guess the only way to really know is to come out to her and hope for the best.
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
idk what your family situation is like, so like...it can vary depending on where you are from or how religious the person is, but for the most part I feel like younger apolitical cis people are probably just going to be really imperfect allies, but not really care about people being trans.
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hope everything goes smooth.
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Zorothamya [she/her] - 1.5yr
Thank you!
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TheGenderWitch [she/her, she/her] - 1.5yr
Victims of Transphobia Foundation
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Josephine_Spiro [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler Depression, anxiety, self thoathing
Feel fucking useless. Every time I try to go do queer shit so I'm not so chronically lonely I get most of the way there, barley holding myself together from anxiety, then it all bursts and I have to struggle not to break down right at the door. It always ends in me being so mentally fucked while I'm there that I don't talk to anyone and nobody talks to me, or I am so broken down mentally that I don't go and leave crying. Just dont understand how the fuck people do this shit. Just feel constantly burnt out and lonely
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
First?
EDIT: Yes.
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Azarova [they/them] - 1.5yr
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Sodium_nitride @lemmygrad.ml - 1.5yr
Yesterday night, I took too many drugs (doctor prescribed) and ended up telling a friend I'm planning on transitioning. Ended up deleting the messages before he saw them, but damn that felt good.
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
I'm thankful to be living in the same universe as oatmeal
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WhyEssEff [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hyped myself into telling my mom about wanting to experiment looks-wise/gender-wise down the road. She’s hesitant but open to helping me try which is honestly on the better end of what I can hope for w/rt it
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
imagine having to stand on a chair to reach the top shelf. couldn't be me
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
how do I be nice to myself
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler volcel violations inbound
yep .about 5 days on 200mg prog and i can really start to feel it in my chest and downstairs as well
:::
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
The actual puppygirl struggles they don't tell you about
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kristina [she/her] - 1.5yr
So busy lately wow
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iridaniotter [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler anti-trans legal situation
So far I have heard of state agencies rejecting ID renewals if you use an amended birth certificate, and one case of a trans woman having her passport renewal rejected despite other documents having an updated sex.
I am wondering if the latter was a case of authorities refusing to honor a sex change during the passport renewal process, though, or if the previous passport had also been updated and somehow they knew anyway.
gonna try to be less of a lurker on here. howdy to all
shout out to progesterone, just upped to 200mg from 100mg and my tits are feeling a type of way
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
shout out to progesterone, just upped to 200mg from 100mg
oh shit you too? I haven't been on that dose long enough to really feel it yet but let's see!
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Oh shit you too?
I got mine doubled in October and my emotions went absolutely ballistic on me for about 2 months. Never understood what other trans people were talking about because E alone did almost nothing to me emotion-wise. But holy moly do I get them now.
So enjoy the emotional rollercoaster ...well if you’re as prog sensitive as me.
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
E alone did change my emotions just fine but prog mostly just made me horny
might start fucking literally anything i could conceivably fuck in like 4 weeks though let's see. It's only been about 4 days
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Really interesting how different our experiences can be. My libido is still pretty low, although it does spike now every couple of days or so, which can be overwhelming when I’m not expecting it.
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
Oh, mine definitely is usually super low, but even once in a while it's completely consuming of me
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
Then apparently our prog experiences are pretty similar, at least when it comes to the horny stuff.
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
did prog make your tiddies grow bigger yet or did it not do anything noticable like mine?
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler CW: Genitalia
Tried tucking for the first time (in private). I got some compression panties from Tomboy X. They are expensive, but seem to work. Unfortunately, I got an erection from gender euphoria that ruined the tuck, but I was able to try on some pants that I had gotten and really like but couldn't wear due to the fit as it regards the untucked crotch.
:::
Also, starting to do voice training exercises. It's neat to feel and manipulate the larynx, although I can see how it's going to take a lot of practice and effort to sound natural/consistent. Got laser hair removal scheduled as well. Just going to be $75/session for the the face/neck, which isn't bad at all.
Regardless of the broader context, I am happy to be making consistent transition progress.
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Tommasi [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Saw a posting for a job I actually want instead of just needing to survive, but I don't think I'm qualified Might just apply anyway. If they laugh and throw out my resume it's not like I'll know any way.
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
thigh highs vs thigh hickeys
🤔
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TheGenderWitch [she/her, she/her] - 1.5yr
bad thoughts must be destroyed
must be productive, must finish work, then play games
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
I had such a long and exhausting day but I got a permanent cast for my hand instead of a splint held on with an ace bandage wrap and the lady that put it on for me was the nicest person and really good about explaining everything and was so sweet, I'm gonna have to bake her some brownies or something and get her a nice card
::: spoiler sad
I think that's the first time someone's (sort of) held my hand in like 5 years lmao
After all this stressful shit, when I got home all I could think about is how nice it'd be to have a partner to come home to and just cuddle me
I'm so fucking lonely lol, it physically hurts sometimes
:::
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Edie [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
reading r/transnord, getting reminded how garbage our healthcare is for trans people.
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
From the mind of an exhausted night shift:
hexbear dating sim
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Sleepy-time tea done, time to lie down
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
first bit of gardening done this year ^_^
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hexbear trans posters
What standard superpower would you want? You're all trans or questioning, you all get shape shifting by default so we'll put that aside so we can give the other super powers a chance
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
it's friday (rice), friday (rice), gotta get down on friday (rice)
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CrookedSerpent [she/her] - 1.5yr
Is life just an endless cycle of u-hauling into a different relationship every 2 years? Surely it will be different this time...
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SwitchyandWitchy [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hai everyone!
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Want to post through the pain (not actual pain or mental pain don't worry I'm just using words wrong) but I'm realizing I jus kinda need to see a psychiatrist or some shit. Also get friends but that's even harder somehow
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
just when i think shit in life might go right for once it all goes back to shit again
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Luna - 1.5yr
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Fuck I had a terrible thought I am being a bad communist
::: spoiler smut, horny
Had a thought about being in a relationship with a theoretical person in a communist party where because of the power dynamics at play they order me to cuddle them and get kissed by them and I have to follow their orders
:::
Alright anyways, I think I'm a bottom-switch, but I am near constantly a sub and a flustered mess when someone is mildly nice to me
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BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler spoiler
::: spoiler self harm / suicidal thoughts (yes again 😭 sorry I keep doing this)
I've gone back to self harm after about two months clean. Honestly idgaf about being clean or not right now, I want the suffering to stop. There is only one way for that to happen.
I have never been able to deal with anything. I've always been weak and pathetic. I don't think there's anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.
I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Why can't I be free. Why is dying just... Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it's just over. It's just suffering my whole existence and then it's over. Why don't I get to not suffer.
:::
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
There's such sweet adorable guys in this world
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0x2640 - 1.5yr
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
screampost
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
I scream
You scream
We all scream
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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Luna - 1.5yr
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AcidSmiley [she/her] - 1.5yr
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Moss [they/them] - 1.5yr
Hawk Tuah
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
the feminine urge to get thee to a nunnery
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BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
My sleep has been so broken lately, a few hours in a row at most. This sucks
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
hello
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
I had no idea people were DMing me on discord. I had no idea I had DMs from people other than my friends on discord. So many people have tried to hit on me only to whiff because I'm like Mr Magoo and literally didn't notice it lmao
Keep at it strangers online, I will continue to ignore you because it's way funnier if I never notice
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
I have a coupon for trans girl fiction recommendations that I'd like to redeem
Been feeling down a few days because of some kinda bad decisions I've made, but heard a song I really love today and it grounded me back to earth a bit. I'm not the same person I was pre-transitioning, I can handle a setback or two without shutting down completely
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
I think I want to have a fem voice when I'm talking but keep my baritone singing voice
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DinosaurThussy [they/them] - 1.5yr
Sup?
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Tommasi [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Had a dream featuring a cute robot lady and she kept threatening to bite me, but like in a threatening way and I just kept swooning for her
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yewler [she/her] - 1.5yr
Caves of Qud is so much fun!
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Edie [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
Dysphoria-pilled bedrottingcore... or something like that
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
No one has commented on my piercings at work. I think I could walk in there wearing a dress and people would be too polite to say anything to my face. I'm glad that I'm not getting aby mean comments, but the complete silence on the changes so far has kind of been annoying.
Next week: nails in public.
Also, consultation with the medspa for hair removal went well. Going to be a lot cheaper than the cosmetic surgery place. I also got a quote from Milan and I am creeped out by how persistent they are with the sales. It's way too expensive and I don't want to commit to a lifetime package.
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WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them] - 1.5yr
I think I could walk in there wearing a dress and people would be too polite to say anything to my face.
I feel like if changes are overt enough, people will assume you are doing it as a bit or because you lost a bet, so they'll be more likely to laugh about it, thinking they are laughing with you.
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
(cat reading newspaper)
I should get better at baking
Gave cookies to the x-ray ppl and orthopedic place that helped me with the broken hand and they were all so kind and appreciative
Wish I was a good baker instead of just adequate but I thought the cookies turned out well all things considered
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
my booba itch
but only the left one?
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tamagotchicowboy [he/him] - 1.5yr
CW: Dysphoria been pestering me, also potential harassment hard to say
::: spoiler spoiler
The new meds the doc has me on makes me feel all bloated and weird, gained like 5 pounds overnight, almost get a phantom chest flip out in the corner of my mind's eye. Then while I was walking around early today some dude started making some standard pick up people on the street commentary and my dysphoria laden brain goes 'omg I'm so bloated I don't even pass anymore!' rather than a tiny bit more sensible 'people raging against the closet in the dark hours' or 'frat brats starting pranking early'. Hard to say if it was even toward me since there were two other much older guys walking by me and we all sort of looked up like 'wat, who' and joked about it.
:::
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
I've been a dog person my whole life. I was such a dog person that I'd let the outside dogs jump in through my bedroom window to sleep with me (my room was in the basement). I never actually got my own dog though, I never had the room or proper space. I've had a couple cats and an ex who is more or less a cat lol, I did like the cats but I miss doggies more
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Dreamt I was having the intake for bottom surgery ;-;
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I found a cool Yuri webtoon I like and read the whole thing in a day and a half of " working" at my job
Why can't every artist just make their art like 20000% faster so I can enjoy it more?
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imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
ran out of prog for almost 2 weeks and got back on, how long are these intensified mood swings gonna last it's exhausting i went through the same thing when i hopped on initially and it lasted for a good few weeks but ultimately settled down and i decided the drug was worth it. but if I'm in for another month of this cause i took 10 days off I'm gonna be pissed.
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SuperZutsuki [they/them] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler lovey dovey stuff
::: spoiler actually it's smut
My partner and I went to the sex shop yesterday and got some new toys, including a strap-on harness and new dildo. Unfortunately, my hole is in recovery from bad, scratchy shits
We still ended up fucking for 3 hours but I wanted it so bad Now that we have the strap I'm more motivated to watch my diet and drink a metric ton of water, though.
:::
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
Gonna have to remember to ask my therapist if I was able to adequately tonally convey pissed the fuck off while maintaining femme voice
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WhyEssEff [she/her] - 1.5yr
does faceapp still have the best gender filter or are there better alternatives out there now?
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WhyEssEff [she/her] - 1.5yr
also, if anyone could recommend a good virtual haircut tester, would appreciate it
looking for ways to grow out my hair in a way where I can do it without having 'conversations' with my parents so have to find one that looks natural on me. have basically been in stasis with my hair since I was 10 so I'm pushing lengthening through the idea that I need to experiment more because I don't want to go my entire life without trying something different, but (reasonably) they want me to actually have a style in mind. tried Ulta's but it's not really doing it for me
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
can't spell "sonic the hedgehog" without "he hedgehog"
people who headcanon him as transfem owned
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
Well, the trans support group I was hoping to start attending isn't having a virtual meeting tonight since the subject is first aid (which makes sense for in person demonstrations), but because I still have the sniffles (and it's an hour drive), so I will have to wait until next week.
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GenderIsOpSec [she/her, kit/kit's] - 1.5yr
In the most recent Larian community news post about Baldur's Gate 3:
our Community Team took the next most natural step and joined Tumblr - because if the gang are going to star in a thousand slow-burn romance fics, we might as well be there to see it.
it's like they follow me~
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Statscan has been calling me lately, the first two times I thought it was a scam. I finally picked up. They were asking about my ex lol, it's almost been 2 years and every once in a while our very enmeshed lives still comes back
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
What is statscan?
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Like the US Census Bureau or the UK's Office of National Statistics.
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bolshevikLovelace [she/her, love/loves] - 1.5yr
does anyone know what kind of office-appropriate clothes i should buy? work's starting to enforce RTO so i want to look good when i'm arrested for arson
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
We will always have Friday Rice
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Erika3sis [she/her, xe/xem] - 1.5yr
At like 4 AM a few nights ago, sleepless, I frantically penned down an apparently brand new idea for a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto, despite not being a proficient Esperantist. It's like this:
geu estas neduuma esperantisto (they are a nonbinary Esperantist)
mi ŝatas geun. (I like them)
ĉu vi vidis gees katon? (have you seen their cat?)
To quickly explain the idea: Esperanto has a prefix that (unofficially) forms gender-neutral words, and a suffix that (mostly unproductively) forms pronouns, so I figured that the most obvious way to create a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto would just be to smash these two affixes together: ge- + -u = geu. Simple as that.
To me this seemed like such an obvious idea in hindsight, that when I looked into it the next morning, I was genuinely surprised to find that apparently no-one else had ever come up with this idea before me: all the other neopronouns coined in Esperanto thus far apparently just smash the gendered pronouns together, or take the gendered pronouns and replace the first letter randomly. This approach comes with its own advantages and disadvantages, but in any case my proposal isn't really trying to "compete" with these other neopronouns, any more than they competes with xe, you know?
Edit: A neat little coincidence is that Korean has a gender-neutral pronoun commonly romanized as geu. Maybe that was a subconscious influence!
In completely unrelated news, did you all know that Margaret McDonald (any/all) is non-binary? I don't know when xe came out as non-binary, but xe's an English-language anime dub VA who I have heard in a lot of different things over the years. I was just watching the movie Tamako Love Story with my mom, in which McDonald plays the titular Tamako Kitashirakawa: I couldn't remember the VA's name, so I looked it up, and that's how I found out that thon was non-binary. Among many other credits, ae also plays Miho Nishizumi in Girls & Panzer — which was frankly the only name I could pull out of my butt, I literally said, "Tamako sounds like whoever it was who did Miho" — and McDonald also voiced Rikka Takanashi in the ever-goated Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions, and he also played Sachi Momoi in Maria Holic, which interestingly enough is an anime dub that just straight up drops the T slur at one point.
So yeah, nonbinary pog.
Also, e's pan.
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Ambii [she/her] - 1.5yr
oh my gods i did not expect Detransion, Baby to be so unabashedly horny and raw. I read content warnings beforehand but I wasn't expecting this
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
My mom read this 🥴
Is it like, not transphobic? Wanna know if it had a good influence on my mom wrt trans ppl
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Ambii [she/her] - 1.5yr
It's pretty good so far; like the other commenter said, Torri Peters is trans herself. This really shows in the text imo as there's too much intimate knowledge in regards to the thought processes and motivations of trans women when it comes to gender relations and relationships.
The CWs are mainly there for how graphic the book can be with violence, sex, and (trans)misogyny but at it's core the book is a romance of sorts.
To me, so far, the book feels like as if I was reading a story that starts after what would be a bittersweet ending to a coming of age story. Like a "What happens next?" to a hypothetical trans romance that left you feeling hollow.
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
is it sad?
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Ambii [she/her] - 1.5yr
Yeah I'd say it's had a lot of sad parts so far. I haven't gotten to the end yet so i can't really say if it's a happy/sad story overall tho
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Oh, alright. I'll get it for my trans friend's birthday
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peanutbuttercupola [she/her] - 1.5yr
I thought it was good. There is some transphobia depicted in the book, but I felt like as a whole, it was sympathetic to trans people. For what it's worth, the author is a trans woman.
With Vampire attacks ramping up, my characters wife and two daughters living on the edge of whiterun in a homestead with only the guard dog vigilance seemed too precarious.
So I moved them to my newly renovated Golden Hills farm. With a powerful mage Runik as my steward, an armoured guard troll and vigilance, they're much safer.
Also Brenuin my farm hand looked after my daughter Lucia when they were both homeless and Embry lived in Riverwood with my wife Camillia. So there's familiar faces even if they're two drunks.
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
the plural stag says he feels like a million bucks
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Trying something new
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler HRT Question
Okay, so, I wanna get on progesterone and have been looking into DIY options as much as my anxiety allows, and I've been seeing some stuff about people snorting their progesterone... is this legit? I'm having trouble parsing if it's like a bit or if it's a legitimately viable option... I thought taking your prog pills as an anal suppository was a bit at first too, , and it's not, so, I just wanna make sure what like my actual viable options are. I've looked around and I can get prog powder a lot faster and cheaper than where I get the rest of my DIY, and I wanna get on prog asap but also a little hesitant to just kinda start snorting meds...
If it's for real, are there any differences in dosing or additional precautions that should be taken ... or is it really just as easy as "yeah you can just start railing prog?"
...sorry if this is, like, a dumb question or if I coulda just clicked on a resource that's easily available on the website for this. Anxiety might be getting the better of me on this one and my brain is just like "Just spew this shit out on the Mega that's the best course of action."
:::
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TerminalEncounter [she/her] - 1.5yr
Physiologically, you snort or have drugs given intranasally to help bypass the first pass effect (your liver cleaning all the stuff you eat before it hits your bloodstream, which sometimes we don't want if it's meds lol). It can matter how they're made, sometimes they need to be micronized or have some bit in the manufacture fixed. Sometimes with the right applicator and some water you can get things to help enter your bloodstream. I would be curious on if you can get prog to be taken at the right amount by snorting, easier to measure by scale and boofed or injected.
We boof/take progesterone by the anal route because it bypasses the liver on its first pass, so it helps with the drug be available to your body. Some people swallow it, some of it will get eaten by your liver but it might work better for some people.
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AcidSmiley [she/her] - 1.5yr
Progesterone in capsules is usually contained in some kind of oil, which sounds like a really bad idea to snort because if it ends up in your lungs you risk lipid pneumonia. If it's a powder, i don't know how well absorption will work without such an oil as a carrier substance.
I've heard from a few people who've tried both oral and rectal use of prog and report different effects from each route, but prog's effects are all over the place to begin with, there's very little research into them and you basically have to try things out for yourself and see how it works for the immediate effects people take prog for (as a sleep aide and for libido). And how it affects breast growth is honestly really difficult to say for sure. Like, when i was on prog, sure, my breasts grew, but that was between my 12th and 18th month of HRT, they just do that during that time and i have no way to tell if they did so more than they would've otherwise.
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imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her] - 1.5yr
never heard about this and no idea about viability but i would strongly recommend against because you would quickly do physical damage to your nose/sinuses. if you could formulate some kind of nasal spray it might work, but afaik powders can't really go up there without doing damage in the long run. if you're really drawn to the powder you could boof it in solution form? but that would definitely be more effort than actual suppositories.
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
I’ve never heard of snorting it but apparently there were some studies being done with prog nasal sprays in the 90s with success. So I’d assume that it would work, although there has to be a reason why it never took off. Maybe unstable levels, maybe side effects, who knows.
But considering that there are already great alternatives, even to those without vaginas, I’d just forget about the snorting thing and use a method that is proven to work reliably.
And yes, it is a dumb question. So it fits perfectly here.
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Thought of a good post but I'll save it for tomorrow so I can maximise the replies I get
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler question about genitals
This might be weird thing to ask, although it’s purely a medical question, but…like…how are your balls supposed to hang?
I feel like mine “hang” very close to my groin/body to the extent that half the time it doesn’t feel like my scrotum is completely “full”…if that makes sense.
Idk if this is just cause they are on the smaller side…or if they are being overly retracted by the cremaster muscle.
(Yes I am looking into this because of my earlier post. Shut up.)
:::
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
she full on my metal until i alchemist: brotherhood
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inTheShadowOf [she/her] - 1.5yr
I think time limits are interesting.
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
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knightly [none/use any] - 1.5yr
Just realized today that my gaming PC is 12 years old, and it might finally be time for an upgrade now that new release games don't run well at low settings.
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
You’re just in time for the GPU market crash
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knightly [none/use any] - 1.5yr
If we're lucky, that'll be just enough offset the cost of the new Taiwan tarrifs.
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
I have found soviet eastern front Yuri. Praying its actually good and not double genocide bullshit. Wish me luck
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
you will never lead an army into battle carrying a battle standard
Besides ... how do you find a mommy?? (I don't think there is anything that makes it seem otherwise, but it is a genuine question, I wish to find one)
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ComradeMonotreme - 1.5yr
Been getting into wearing jewellery in particular rings, as well as the history of queer symbology of certain rings. It’s funny that no one can really agree on any of it.
What I’ve gleamed is:
-Signet rings on left pinky were normal in the late and early 20th century for men. One on the right pinky might have suggested you were gay. But this is flimsy in evidence. For example Oscar Wilde has his on his left in all pictures as was the normal fashion,
-Signet rings however on women on any finger were a big sign of being a lesbian in the early to mid 20th century. Because it was a traditionally Mens ring.
-for a brief moment late 20th and early 21st century, civil union bands were worn on left middle fingers, but now with gay marriage everyone just uses the ring finger if married
-everyone thinks thumb rings are associated with lesbians but that’s largely vibes based
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
went on /tttt/ just to see what it was like for old times sake, but the experience was just pic related whenever I tried to make any trans megaesque posts
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
music monday everyone. watcha been listening to?
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buh [she/her, any] - 1.5yr
Alexisonfire mentioned!
Have you heard their latest album? I haven’t heard it all, but there’s a song on it called Sans Soleil I really like
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
i actually haven't listened to it - i'll give it a go tomorrow
love love dälek, bfmv, and slowdive! i'll have to check out some of these others
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iridaniotter [she/her] - 1.5yr
If you like mbv check out "2" by Kevin Shields
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
I like your taste, lot of overlap
Listening to a lot of Trophy Scars, Deafheaven, Liturgy, Vildhjarta and Foresthall lately
New used car has a working cd player but the aux cable needs to be replaced so I've been listening to a lot of BTBAM and Animals as Leaders in the car too
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Saving this for later, because I suspect I’m gonna dig your recs
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Lemme know if you want specific genres/vibes because I have all kinds of shit I'm into and love giving recs based on what other ppl like!
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Also thanks for posting and taking the time to give recs :)
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
You got anything on deck like agalloch? I really like their vibe. Ragana and panopticon kinda check that box for me a bit as well. Bleak and wintry. I’ve listened to WITTR a bit as well, but somehow never got as into them as I thought I might.
I also love isis and wish they were still making music. In that same vein, the ocean, cult of Luna, and Rosetta mostly scratch the itch.
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Maybe check out East Of The Wall (Resentiment specifically) as an Isis/Ocean fan
For Agalloch fan recs, big recommend for Falls of Rauros "The Light That Dwells In Rotten Wood"
Very good atmospheric black metal
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
I haven’t heard of either of these! I’m excited to check them out.
Thank you :)
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Ooh, just thought to rec Pelican, Giant Squid and Russian Circles if you dig The Ocean too
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Ooh this falls of rauros album is exactly what I was looking for! Will definitely be listening to more of them as well. Thanks again for the recs, you really nailed it!
Also I see they’ve done a split with panopticon, which is a good sign that they’re probably not fuckin nazis. Not that you’d recommend them if they were, but like, I always worry with black metal lol.
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Understandable lol, reasonable concern lol but I think they're lefties (anarchists I think, idk but they're cool)
Fwiw, I used to really like Young & In The Way and don't ever give them money, their bassist was a real piece of shit and did some horrific SA shit allegedly and the other guys handled it really poorly
(cool crusty black metal/atmospheric vibes though and a sick logo, really unfortunate they suck, "I Am Not What I Am" was one of my favorite albums of the 2010s)
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Checking out ressentiment right now, feels like isis-y meshuggah or something off the bat. Definitely ocean-like. Also maybe some protest the hero vibes? Very much enjoying this so far, thank you!
Edit: yeah, I dug that album all the way through, will definitely have to check out more of their stuff!
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
You're welcome!
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Oh hell yeah. I’m gonna think about this a bit and come back. I’m very excited :)
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
i'm a huge deafheaven fan, as well as liturgy. not familiar with vildhjarta, trophy scars, or foresthall though, do you have any albums of theirs you'd recommend?
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LocalOaf [they/them, she/her] - 1.5yr
Vildhjarta might be my favorite band. They're very much a Meshuggah descendent and started out doing Meshuggah riffs+metal/deathcore stuff with screechy horror soundtrack ass bits and spooky ambience and have really carved out their own niche that everyone refers to as "thall"
Both of their full albums are concept albums about a spooky old European kinda folktale woodcut vibe story about sentient critters in a critter town in the dark woods called Måsstaden (Seagull Town roughly in Swedish) that gets taken over by a cult, and the protagonist Snake 🐍 has to rescue his friend Bird 🐦 from them
Their early demo and unreleased stuff all whips ass and is mostly instrumental, look up "Vildhjarta 2007 demos" for their super crispy early production to get a feel for them, I fucking love the early version of Traces and Deceit, super fat punchy 7 string tone and great drums
Måsstaden, Thousands of Evils EP, and Måsstaden Under Vatten are their main releases, the first two got remastered and sound better imo
MUV is one of my favorite albums of all time
They released 3 singles after that which are basically an EP that are just named with "++" around the song titles but all go together and are an evolution of their style from MUV
"+den spänka kanslan+" (the Spanish feeling)
"+ylva+" (she-wolf)
"+kristallfågel+" (glass bird)
They're linked to the band Humanity's Last Breath (more deathcore-y) through Buster Odelholm, who is Vildhjarta's drummer and producer and HLB's main writer, guitarist (he plays left handed with the strings upside down on a 30" baritone 7 string lol) and vocalist
Vildhjarta's guitarist has a solo instrumental side project called Stoort Neer that whips ass too if you like Vildhjarta's guitar writing style
(sorry for the special interest dumping lol)
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Ooh whale albums spotted! And panopticon and gizz. Ooh and alcest, I always forget how much I like them. I have you tagged as “Likes good music” and you continue to convince me that was a correct tag. I need to start digging into the albums on your posts that I don’t recognize.
I love panopticon (band), as well as panopticon (isis album). Too panopticon (concept) isn’t similarly rad.
Microtonal banana is a sick album. Everything they put out that year was amazing. Polygondwanaland is my all time favorite of theirs.
I have been continuing on my ahab streak, and been pushing into sunn O))) because I’m just really feeling the “music that makes me feel like lava” vibe right now.
Oh yeah, and cult of Luna. Less of a lava vibe but still scratches an itch in my brain. Very good atmosphere.
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Eco [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
i'm a big fan of precambrian by the ocean, if you haven't heard it. if you like cult of luna maybe it'll be your thing. also australasia by pelican
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shallot [she/her] - 1.5yr
Hell yeah, the ocean is rad. I think pelagial is my favorite of theirs. I haven’t listened to pelican in a while, but now that you mention them I do remember them having a lava sorta vibe. Good call!
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JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them] - 1.5yr
Good shit. Got a couple of my favorite albums on there, so that means I need to check out the rest.
Everyone talking about eyebrow threading is right. I got a men's eyebrow threading. Because I am a coward. And even this has drastically altered the way I look. Much more androgenus.
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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] - 1.5yr
::: spoiler CW alcoholism
i've actually been so nervous recently that i've been wanting to not drink and frankly i'm a little terrified at what that means
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Tomboymoder [she/her, pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
Oh, another Sonic level ranking with Marble Zone at the bottom? How original.
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amy_jmayday [she/her] - 1.5yr
Thanks for all the input / advice from my question earlier - appreciate it
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AntifaSuperWombat [she/her] - 1.5yr
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inTheShadowOf [she/her] - 1.5yr
Going from "the new BCNR song is boring" to "okay, yeah, it's pretty good" when I notice it's gay.
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ComradeMonotreme - 1.5yr
When you're roleplaying a Paladin of Mara and you pop into Dawnstar en route to another mission and Erandur is like can you help me with these bad dreams? Okay guess I'm doing this mission.
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KatGirl [pup/pup's] - 1.5yr
How long does it usually take to add new pronouns? Msged carcosa around 2 weeks ago and they haven't been added. Sorry if I'm being rude
Ciel in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
Trans Megathread from January 27th, 2024 to February 2nd, 2024
Hiiii!
Today: a short yap about computer hardware:
Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.
Computers are fun!
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Also, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It's for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.
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______I hate the phrase "he or she" in academic texts. Like come on, we have a pronoun for when someone's gender is unknown or unspecified, its they. You don't need to do "he or she" at all. Its just worse than "they" in every way.
Now if your gender is "he or she", then that's a lot cooler
fox news: the school nurse is giving kids bottom surgery if they ask nicely
actual school nurse: i literally cannot give you an ibuprofen or else the entire school district is getting sued to kingdom fuck
Bah. I spent decades of my life trying to force myself to stay in the closet and no amount of repression could keep me in there, and most trans people can claim the same. Does Trump think he can force us back in with a few executive orders? He has no idea who he's dealing with
::: spoiler Depressing stuff He doesn’t think anything about us really. He just says and does whatever makes his supporters go wild for him. Many years ago he even made the news for overturing a ban for a trans beauty pageant from his Miss Universe organization.
It’s honestly depressing to think that all of this dehuminization is just an act to boost his own ego and to keep himself in power, all fueled by our blood. :::
going to start the trans equivalent of the japanese red army and start stringing up transphobes from traffic lights :3
:3
It's funny how a week after fucking with trans people's passports, air travel becomes unsafe in general
Got tucking underwear on Monday, have worn it every evening since. Felt gender euphoria for the first time on Monday
Came out to my brother and he was super supportive. Just crying tears of joy and relief.
i may doompost later so to balance that out here is my cute taco kitty
I'm pan and nonbinary and trans feminine
You all know that already but just felt like reiterating
I'M THEM
I'VE BEEN THEM
I WILL CONTINUE TO BE THEM
She who makes a beast out of herself gets rid of the pain of being a man
The beast in question:
trans girls with deep voices are super hot
shout out to transgirls that sound like whiny preteens
If only I was one of them.
::: spoiler doomposting you ever feel the need to just rot in bed all day and not do anything because whats the point in doing anything if the world is careening off a cliff with the pedal welded to the proverbial floor?
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I feel this way when I’ve slept most of the day on accident
Behold! As of today, I’m both biologically and legally female. So fuck you, fascists! Victory is mine!
Having top surgery 1 week from now, I'm very nervous but excited !!!
::: spoiler depressing the state government here are pulling a terf island and pausing puberty blockers from being prescribed through the public system for under 18's
since there was literally already a review done last year (that found kids were in no way being coerced into hormone treatment but instead that wait lists were way too fucking long - at 577 days for some patients), i'm guessing this is just an excuse to defer to the Cass review. i kinda guessed something like this would happen soon but shit's really making me want to
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I somehow drummed up the courage to get fitted for a bra at a local boutique. Holy actual fuck what am I doing? I'm terrified.
Got a treat for doing the chores. Jealous?
Clothes are fun. They should be free for trans people for the first few years of transition.
::: spoiler i've made 5 or 6 attempts to write a post now so i'll just keep it simple:
GAY
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simple perfection tbh
Wondering how my family will react to me being in a butchfemme relationship where I’m the femme.
::: spoiler privileged question which countries should I be trying to nudge my family towards if shit ramps up untenably in the states. they're considering the UK primarily atm so I absolutely have to find a different avenue if we are to pack and abscond :::
::: spoiler discussions of transphobia how to tell a cis person that trans people should be allowed to compete in sports because sports are arbitrary competitions they've attached excessive weight to and they should get over it :::
::: spoiler venting about transphobia It’s fucked up and annoying how people who as recently as a couple years ago were hardcore anti-feminists (and probably still are, but just aren’t as vocal about it) suddenly spouting TERF talking points and pretending they give a shit about “protecting women” :::
edward elric and winry rockbell are a straight t4t couple
Bit idea: when a cis guy talks about having a vasectomy, refer to it as bottom surgery.
Bottom surgery but it’s brain surgery to augment the parts that make you submissive
This implies bottom and submissive are the same or connected
I wish there was HRT that made you less wide
Tbh, I wish HRT worked the way it does in something like Trials in Tainted Space.
Where it’s like a delicious candy and it rapidly alters your bones and muscles and can turn you completely cis if you overdose.
But alas, they can't even invent a width slider for most video games...
Someone should invent a HRT that just removes your lowest rib tbh
u can do this yourself if ur quick or smart about it*
* note to readers: do not try this at home.
There are surgeries you can get for shoulder and ribcage width
::: spoiler need some advice (cw institutional transphobia)
Just saw something from a person saying they went to renew their expired passport and werr told that they could not be issued a passport, under any gender marker, because they updated their marker with social security.
Ive done that, and have a passport thats still valid for a couple more months now. Am I facing a de facto travel ban? I think i am, but im really unsure.
Well, I wasted a fair number of syringes and a couple doses getting it right (I think I got it right...), but I completed my first intramuscular EV dose!
My cat children now find it funny to sleep on my tits like they’re pillows for cats. Their head just lying on my breast and nothing else. Gods I love them. They’re such little shits.
today was a really bad fuckin day
Are my nipples supposed to feel kinda sore on week 2 of the good shit or am I placeboing nipple tenderness?
uhhhmuhmuhmuhhmuhmhhm >~<
The woke left doesn't want you to know this but you can just make your own gender and make a flag only you use and be sick as hell
I'm making up new lesbian pride flags all the time, but we already have like 10 of these and i keep procrastining actually making any of them, so the poly t4t disaster lesbian community is still not properly represented.
All I have playing in my head is, what am I supposed to do.
I feel like crying but I can't.
::: spoiler spoiler I wanna frot with a trans guy. I wanna measure up week by week as he's taking T and I'm taking E, see when he inevitably gets bigger than me 🤤🥵 :::
Read I Love Amy, was good but very sad at parts
Thinking about wearing something like this to my sister’s wedding.
Top:

Bottom:
Idk about fashion
This would look very cute, I'd maybe add a corset or a ribbon to add a bit more visual flair around the waist to fit how detailed the top is but it's plenty pretty as is.
omg I wanna see tomboymoder in a corset that would be so fun
don't corsets go under clothes?
Depends on the kind. Some of them are essentially very wide belts you use to accessorize and accentuate your waist/chest. They can be very intricate and ornate, or much more minimalistic. They're cute, and I think they'd be a good choice for your outfit!
something like this?
Sort of, this one is more toward the belt end of the spectrum, but they can be over the hip and underbust, or just over the hip or just underbust, or neither, which is similar to the one you showed, only a bit wider. For a skirt+shirt combo like the one you're planning to wear, i'd say over the hip would work better. Here's someone who wears a corset as underwear pretty much every day (mind, this is the rigid, full-on kind of corset, not so much an accessory), maybe it can give you an idea how one is supposed to look like/fit
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
Cute imo
Same type of shoe?
Idk
Ooh, some open toe wedge sandals?? With some sparkly nail polish??? Idk depends on the type of wedding and season and venue and everything but that'd be really cute imo
Gotta do my transplaining gender presentation for nursing students again but I'm so sleepy, finished a night shift only had 4 hours of sleep 😴
Got an appointment for orthopedic for my broken hand
Uninsured lol
This is gonna fucking suck
::: spoiler dysphoria (boymoded for the appointment before this and X-rays)
(Nurses assistant) "Any medication changes? Are you still taking.... estrace and spironolactone? (??)"
(spaghetti floods the exam table)
fuckkkkkk that was awkward
She was really nice about everything but ahhhh
I looked like absolute dog shit and my voice was all hoarse and gravely from smoking a lot and screaming when I broke it and fuck
Probably the most masc I've looked/sounded in ages and it's the one time I get directly clocked lmao
I gotta work on voice training
Otherwise I'm just gonna have to go for "futch tomboy Dr. Girlfriend" :::
More men should show me their soft bellies with their little treasure trails
They would if they weren't cowards
Boys 🥰
boys are so kyoot
YES
I did get measured today fora bra after work. It was terrifying, but I did manage to do it. I now have a definitive bra size and I love it and hate it. 38I/40H. I didn’t expect that large of a cup size. Kind of gave my mind rest so I don’t have to worry about them being too small. Also, I will never buy another bra under $70.
I was terrified and nervous, but the shopkeeper did an excellent job taking care of me. I’m shocked I was able to do it. Maybe things are turning around. I hope so.
Hell yeah, my new clothes unexpectedly arrived just now after waiting for almost a month. Nice quality, look amazing and I got them for a really good price:
::: spoiler Some fancy white jeans with a big floral print
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::: spoiler and a translucent, black shirt that I can nicely combo with a spaghetti-top
So fucking happy with both of them.
I started doing voice training exercises, and it feels really good and I’m already seeing changes and I’m crying a bunch.
Does anyone have tips for not having to keep stopping to yawn?
I've been doing some thinking about my own morality as of late and why I believe the things I do, and the more I think about it, the more I feel drawn toward veganism
looking through my old discord DMs, I can pinpoint the moment my egg cracked drunkenly venting to a friend about my gender with a margin of error of about 15 minutes
My egg cracked when an online friend asked if I was trans because I was using an anime girl as a mascot online and I said "no" and then a few days later I did the makeover mage in runescape and said "maybe"
This is basically what happened to me, haha. I was on an ancient ass forum and someone called me She because I had a catgirl pfp and I was just like, "ooooh shit, I'm She."
Mine cracked after watching Strawberry Panic!. My poor brain just got completely overloaded with gay shit to the point where it just shut down and rebooted with my new genderOS.
Edit: Although it still took like 3 more months to fully hatch because I wasn’t completely sure whether I was an enby or just an androgynous woman.
I wrote a note in notepad about my gender dysphoria. Which I then read back to myself. That is where I set the point of my egg cracking.
I want to learn how to knit so I can make sweaters for my plushies

I've been thinking about what name to call myself. I have one name in mind that I really like, but it's literally my birthname with two letters added. And I don't know how to feel about that. And while it sounds good in most of the languages I speak, it sounds like it was ripped out of some fantasy novel in english, because that's the only context where I have heard the english translation of that name being used.
Good morning to you.
Is it worth it to get actual bras instead of the cheap sports bras I got when I started hrt? Breast tissue still isn't very developed so I'm just anxious about spending money on bras over and over
I like when my dream is like:
…and then I actually do it as if I’m not a 5’3 estrogenized girl-thing who can’t even pick up 50 pounds to save my life.
I haven't come out to anyone about being agender which is weird because I like being agender. But I absolutely hate having to come out. I've still barely told anyone I'm pan, and I've never done that sober.
And I'd like to say my friends will all be supportive and loving but I'm not sure that's true.
Hello trans mega friends, I think you’re all very cool and I’m glad that you’re here.
I like to name my characters in video games and ttrpgs the name I veeery nearly chose for myself, as like a little joke that literally only I find funny.
Secondhand enterprise IT equipment should be considered gender affirming medication covered by insurance
::: spoiler suicide Sorry for the fucked question, but is there a trans suicide hotline that won't call the cops on me? :::
translifeline: U.S. (877) 565-8860 or Canada (877) 330-6366
This hotline says they won't call unless you ask them too. I hope you are okay/as okay as you can be. I'll be thinking about you.
Thank you
broke: quitting drinking for health reasons
woke: quitting drinking because it makes me long for a bf so badly 🥺
i thought of "full middle malcomist" and assumed i was being original but someone's already made the joke :(
malcomist third middleist
::: spoiler kink adjacent when your dick is too small for the chastity cage
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I see all the suffering in the world and feel like I don't deserve to be safe or happy.
::: spoiler dysphoria I feel like never looking at myself is giving me a very warped sense of myself.
I either pass more than I think I do and I’m inflicting needless mental anguish on myself, or I pass even worse than I think and knowing that will destroy me.
Maybe I’ll hazard a look when I’m 50kg and been on this dose of hrt for a year. :::
Planned Parenthood follow-up went well. We upped my dose from 1 mg 2/day oral tablets to 5mg/week EV IM (keeping on the 50mg 2/day spiro for now). Really excited!
Last mega I asked about feeling out potential allies. I finally just asked my sister directly what her opinion was about queer people. To throw her off of any suspicions however I immediately followed it by asking her what she thinks about the war in Palestine, to make it look like I was just trying to find out about her general political views. I stuttered in the first question, but I still think I nailed it.
She said "Good. I have no problem with them", and to the second question she said that she wasn't informed enough to have an opinion about it.
It doesn't say much, but at least I know she isn't a right wing freak (though I did know that already, because if she were she would be constantly talking about it).
I guess the only way to really know is to come out to her and hope for the best.
idk what your family situation is like, so like...it can vary depending on where you are from or how religious the person is, but for the most part I feel like younger apolitical cis people are probably just going to be really imperfect allies, but not really care about people being trans.
Hope everything goes smooth.
Thank you!
Victims of Transphobia Foundation
::: spoiler Depression, anxiety, self thoathing Feel fucking useless. Every time I try to go do queer shit so I'm not so chronically lonely I get most of the way there, barley holding myself together from anxiety, then it all bursts and I have to struggle not to break down right at the door. It always ends in me being so mentally fucked while I'm there that I don't talk to anyone and nobody talks to me, or I am so broken down mentally that I don't go and leave crying. Just dont understand how the fuck people do this shit. Just feel constantly burnt out and lonely :::
First?
EDIT: Yes.
Yesterday night, I took too many drugs (doctor prescribed) and ended up telling a friend I'm planning on transitioning. Ended up deleting the messages before he saw them, but damn that felt good.
I'm thankful to be living in the same universe as oatmeal
Hyped myself into telling my mom about wanting to experiment looks-wise/gender-wise down the road. She’s hesitant but open to helping me try which is honestly on the better end of what I can hope for w/rt it
imagine having to stand on a chair to reach the top shelf. couldn't be me
::: spoiler volcel violations inbound yep .about 5 days on 200mg prog and i can really start to feel it in my chest and downstairs as well
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The actual puppygirl struggles they don't tell you about

So busy lately wow
::: spoiler anti-trans legal situation
So far I have heard of state agencies rejecting ID renewals if you use an amended birth certificate, and one case of a trans woman having her passport renewal rejected despite other documents having an updated sex.
I am wondering if the latter was a case of authorities refusing to honor a sex change during the passport renewal process, though, or if the previous passport had also been updated and somehow they knew anyway.
https://xcancel.com/BiggRatBastard/status/1885138737052450887
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gonna try to be less of a lurker on here. howdy to all
shout out to progesterone, just upped to 200mg from 100mg and my tits are feeling a type of way
oh shit you too? I haven't been on that dose long enough to really feel it yet but let's see!
Oh shit you too?
I got mine doubled in October and my emotions went absolutely ballistic on me for about 2 months. Never understood what other trans people were talking about because E alone did almost nothing to me emotion-wise. But holy moly do I get them now.
So enjoy the emotional rollercoaster ...well if you’re as prog sensitive as me.
E alone did change my emotions just fine but prog mostly just made me horny
might start fucking literally anything i could conceivably fuck in like 4 weeks though let's see. It's only been about 4 days
Really interesting how different our experiences can be. My libido is still pretty low, although it does spike now every couple of days or so, which can be overwhelming when I’m not expecting it.
Oh, mine definitely is usually super low, but even once in a while it's completely consuming of me
Then apparently our prog experiences are pretty similar, at least when it comes to the horny stuff.
did prog make your tiddies grow bigger yet or did it not do anything noticable like mine?
::: spoiler CW: Genitalia Tried tucking for the first time (in private). I got some compression panties from Tomboy X. They are expensive, but seem to work. Unfortunately, I got an erection from gender euphoria that ruined the tuck, but I was able to try on some pants that I had gotten and really like but couldn't wear due to the fit as it regards the untucked crotch. :::
Also, starting to do voice training exercises. It's neat to feel and manipulate the larynx, although I can see how it's going to take a lot of practice and effort to sound natural/consistent. Got laser hair removal scheduled as well. Just going to be $75/session for the the face/neck, which isn't bad at all.
Regardless of the broader context, I am happy to be making consistent transition progress.
Saw a posting for a job I actually want instead of just needing to survive, but I don't think I'm qualified
Might just apply anyway. If they laugh and throw out my resume it's not like I'll know any way.
thigh highs vs thigh hickeys
🤔
bad thoughts must be destroyed
must be productive, must finish work, then play games
I had such a long and exhausting day but I got a permanent cast for my hand instead of a splint held on with an ace bandage wrap and the lady that put it on for me was the nicest person and really good about explaining everything and was so sweet, I'm gonna have to bake her some brownies or something and get her a nice card
::: spoiler sad I think that's the first time someone's (sort of) held my hand in like 5 years lmao
After all this stressful shit, when I got home all I could think about is how nice it'd be to have a partner to come home to and just cuddle me
I'm so fucking lonely lol, it physically hurts sometimes
reading r/transnord, getting reminded how garbage our healthcare is for trans people.
From the mind of an exhausted night shift:
hexbear dating sim
Sleepy-time tea done, time to lie down
first bit of gardening done this year ^_^
Hexbear trans posters
What standard superpower would you want? You're all trans or questioning, you all get shape shifting by default so we'll put that aside so we can give the other super powers a chance
it's friday (rice), friday (rice), gotta get down on friday (rice)
Is life just an endless cycle of u-hauling into a different relationship every 2 years? Surely it will be different this time...
Hai everyone!
Want to post through the pain (not actual pain or mental pain don't worry I'm just using words wrong) but I'm realizing I jus kinda need to see a psychiatrist or some shit. Also get friends but that's even harder somehow
just when i think shit in life might go right for once it all goes back to shit again
Fuck I had a terrible thought I am being a bad communist ::: spoiler smut, horny Had a thought about being in a relationship with a theoretical person in a communist party where because of the power dynamics at play they order me to cuddle them and get kissed by them and I have to follow their orders :::
Alright anyways, I think I'm a bottom-switch, but I am near constantly a sub and a flustered mess when someone is mildly nice to me
::: spoiler spoiler ::: spoiler self harm / suicidal thoughts (yes again 😭 sorry I keep doing this) I've gone back to self harm after about two months clean. Honestly idgaf about being clean or not right now, I want the suffering to stop. There is only one way for that to happen.
I have never been able to deal with anything. I've always been weak and pathetic. I don't think there's anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.
I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Why can't I be free. Why is dying just... Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it's just over. It's just suffering my whole existence and then it's over. Why don't I get to not suffer. :::
There's such sweet adorable guys in this world
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
screampost
I scream
You scream
We all scream
Hawk Tuah
the feminine urge to get thee to a nunnery
My sleep has been so broken lately, a few hours in a row at most. This sucks
I had no idea people were DMing me on discord. I had no idea I had DMs from people other than my friends on discord. So many people have tried to hit on me only to whiff because I'm like Mr Magoo and literally didn't notice it lmao
Keep at it strangers online, I will continue to ignore you because it's way funnier if I never notice
I have a coupon for trans girl fiction recommendations that I'd like to redeem
🎀 Dresspost #8 is up 🎀
Been feeling down a few days because of some kinda bad decisions I've made, but heard a song I really love today and it grounded me back to earth a bit. I'm not the same person I was pre-transitioning, I can handle a setback or two without shutting down completely
I think I want to have a fem voice when I'm talking but keep my baritone singing voice
Sup?
Had a dream featuring a cute robot lady and she kept threatening to bite me, but like in a threatening way and I just kept swooning for her
Caves of Qud is so much fun!
Dysphoria-pilled bedrottingcore... or something like that
No one has commented on my piercings at work. I think I could walk in there wearing a dress and people would be too polite to say anything to my face. I'm glad that I'm not getting aby mean comments, but the complete silence on the changes so far has kind of been annoying.
Next week: nails in public.
Also, consultation with the medspa for hair removal went well. Going to be a lot cheaper than the cosmetic surgery place. I also got a quote from Milan and I am creeped out by how persistent they are with the sales. It's way too expensive and I don't want to commit to a lifetime package.
I feel like if changes are overt enough, people will assume you are doing it as a bit or because you lost a bet, so they'll be more likely to laugh about it, thinking they are laughing with you.
(cat reading newspaper)
I should get better at baking
Gave cookies to the x-ray ppl and orthopedic place that helped me with the broken hand and they were all so kind and appreciative
Wish I was a good baker instead of just adequate but I thought the cookies turned out well all things considered
my booba itch
but only the left one?
CW: Dysphoria been pestering me, also potential harassment hard to say
::: spoiler spoiler The new meds the doc has me on makes me feel all bloated and weird, gained like 5 pounds overnight, almost get a phantom chest flip out in the corner of my mind's eye. Then while I was walking around early today some dude started making some standard pick up people on the street commentary and my dysphoria laden brain goes 'omg I'm so bloated I don't even pass anymore!' rather than a tiny bit more sensible 'people raging against the closet in the dark hours' or 'frat brats starting pranking early'. Hard to say if it was even toward me since there were two other much older guys walking by me and we all sort of looked up like 'wat, who' and joked about it. :::
I've been a dog person my whole life. I was such a dog person that I'd let the outside dogs jump in through my bedroom window to sleep with me (my room was in the basement). I never actually got my own dog though, I never had the room or proper space. I've had a couple cats and an ex who is more or less a cat lol, I did like the cats but I miss doggies more
Dreamt I was having the intake for bottom surgery ;-;
Why can't every artist just make their art like 20000% faster so I can enjoy it more?
ran out of prog for almost 2 weeks and got back on, how long are these intensified mood swings gonna last it's exhausting
i went through the same thing when i hopped on initially and it lasted for a good few weeks but ultimately settled down and i decided the drug was worth it. but if I'm in for another month of this cause i took 10 days off I'm gonna be pissed.
::: spoiler lovey dovey stuff
::: spoiler actually it's smut My partner and I went to the sex shop yesterday and got some new toys, including a strap-on harness and new dildo. Unfortunately, my hole is in recovery from bad, scratchy shits
We still ended up fucking for 3 hours but I wanted it so bad
Now that we have the strap I'm more motivated to watch my diet and drink a metric ton of water, though.
:::
Gonna have to remember to ask my therapist if I was able to adequately tonally convey pissed the fuck off while maintaining femme voice
does faceapp still have the best gender filter or are there better alternatives out there now?
also, if anyone could recommend a good virtual haircut tester, would appreciate it
looking for ways to grow out my hair in a way where I can do it without having 'conversations' with my parents so have to find one that looks natural on me. have basically been in stasis with my hair since I was 10 so I'm pushing lengthening through the idea that I need to experiment more because I don't want to go my entire life without trying something different, but (reasonably) they want me to actually have a style in mind. tried Ulta's but it's not really doing it for me
can't spell "sonic the hedgehog" without "he hedgehog"
people who headcanon him as transfem owned
Well, the trans support group I was hoping to start attending isn't having a virtual meeting tonight since the subject is first aid (which makes sense for in person demonstrations), but because I still have the sniffles (and it's an hour drive), so I will have to wait until next week.
In the most recent Larian community news post about Baldur's Gate 3:
Statscan has been calling me lately, the first two times I thought it was a scam. I finally picked up. They were asking about my ex lol, it's almost been 2 years and every once in a while our very enmeshed lives still comes back
What is statscan?
Like the US Census Bureau or the UK's Office of National Statistics.
does anyone know what kind of office-appropriate clothes i should buy? work's starting to enforce RTO so i want to look good when i'm arrested for arson
We will always have Friday Rice
At like 4 AM a few nights ago, sleepless, I frantically penned down an apparently brand new idea for a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto, despite not being a proficient Esperantist. It's like this:
To quickly explain the idea: Esperanto has a prefix that (unofficially) forms gender-neutral words, and a suffix that (mostly unproductively) forms pronouns, so I figured that the most obvious way to create a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto would just be to smash these two affixes together: ge- + -u = geu. Simple as that.
To me this seemed like such an obvious idea in hindsight, that when I looked into it the next morning, I was genuinely surprised to find that apparently no-one else had ever come up with this idea before me: all the other neopronouns coined in Esperanto thus far apparently just smash the gendered pronouns together, or take the gendered pronouns and replace the first letter randomly. This approach comes with its own advantages and disadvantages, but in any case my proposal isn't really trying to "compete" with these other neopronouns, any more than they competes with xe, you know?
Edit: A neat little coincidence is that Korean has a gender-neutral pronoun commonly romanized as geu. Maybe that was a subconscious influence!
In completely unrelated news, did you all know that Margaret McDonald (any/all) is non-binary? I don't know when xe came out as non-binary, but xe's an English-language anime dub VA who I have heard in a lot of different things over the years. I was just watching the movie Tamako Love Story with my mom, in which McDonald plays the titular Tamako Kitashirakawa: I couldn't remember the VA's name, so I looked it up, and that's how I found out that thon was non-binary. Among many other credits, ae also plays Miho Nishizumi in Girls & Panzer — which was frankly the only name I could pull out of my butt, I literally said, "Tamako sounds like whoever it was who did Miho" — and McDonald also voiced Rikka Takanashi in the ever-goated Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions, and he also played Sachi Momoi in Maria Holic, which interestingly enough is an anime dub that just straight up drops the T slur at one point.
So yeah, nonbinary pog.
Also, e's pan.
oh my gods i did not expect Detransion, Baby to be so unabashedly horny and raw. I read content warnings beforehand but I wasn't expecting this
My mom read this 🥴
Is it like, not transphobic? Wanna know if it had a good influence on my mom wrt trans ppl
It's pretty good so far; like the other commenter said, Torri Peters is trans herself. This really shows in the text imo as there's too much intimate knowledge in regards to the thought processes and motivations of trans women when it comes to gender relations and relationships.
The CWs are mainly there for how graphic the book can be with violence, sex, and (trans)misogyny but at it's core the book is a romance of sorts.
To me, so far, the book feels like as if I was reading a story that starts after what would be a bittersweet ending to a coming of age story. Like a "What happens next?" to a hypothetical trans romance that left you feeling hollow.
is it sad?
Yeah I'd say it's had a lot of sad parts so far. I haven't gotten to the end yet so i can't really say if it's a happy/sad story overall tho
Oh, alright. I'll get it for my trans friend's birthday
I thought it was good. There is some transphobia depicted in the book, but I felt like as a whole, it was sympathetic to trans people. For what it's worth, the author is a trans woman.
lmao added to my reading list
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With Vampire attacks ramping up, my characters wife and two daughters living on the edge of whiterun in a homestead with only the guard dog vigilance seemed too precarious.
So I moved them to my newly renovated Golden Hills farm. With a powerful mage Runik as my steward, an armoured guard troll and vigilance, they're much safer.
Also Brenuin my farm hand looked after my daughter Lucia when they were both homeless and Embry lived in Riverwood with my wife Camillia. So there's familiar faces even if they're two drunks.
the plural stag says he feels like a million bucks
Trying something new
::: spoiler HRT Question Okay, so, I wanna get on progesterone and have been looking into DIY options as much as my anxiety allows, and I've been seeing some stuff about people snorting their progesterone... is this legit? I'm having trouble parsing if it's like a bit or if it's a legitimately viable option... I thought taking your prog pills as an anal suppository was a bit at first too, , and it's not, so, I just wanna make sure what like my actual viable options are. I've looked around and I can get prog powder a lot faster and cheaper than where I get the rest of my DIY, and I wanna get on prog asap but also a little hesitant to just kinda start snorting meds...
If it's for real, are there any differences in dosing or additional precautions that should be taken ... or is it really just as easy as "yeah you can just start railing prog?"
...sorry if this is, like, a dumb question or if I coulda just clicked on a resource that's easily available on the website for this. Anxiety might be getting the better of me on this one and my brain is just like "Just spew this shit out on the Mega that's the best course of action." :::
Physiologically, you snort or have drugs given intranasally to help bypass the first pass effect (your liver cleaning all the stuff you eat before it hits your bloodstream, which sometimes we don't want if it's meds lol). It can matter how they're made, sometimes they need to be micronized or have some bit in the manufacture fixed. Sometimes with the right applicator and some water you can get things to help enter your bloodstream. I would be curious on if you can get prog to be taken at the right amount by snorting, easier to measure by scale and boofed or injected.
We boof/take progesterone by the anal route because it bypasses the liver on its first pass, so it helps with the drug be available to your body. Some people swallow it, some of it will get eaten by your liver but it might work better for some people.
Progesterone in capsules is usually contained in some kind of oil, which sounds like a really bad idea to snort because if it ends up in your lungs you risk lipid pneumonia. If it's a powder, i don't know how well absorption will work without such an oil as a carrier substance.
I've heard from a few people who've tried both oral and rectal use of prog and report different effects from each route, but prog's effects are all over the place to begin with, there's very little research into them and you basically have to try things out for yourself and see how it works for the immediate effects people take prog for (as a sleep aide and for libido). And how it affects breast growth is honestly really difficult to say for sure. Like, when i was on prog, sure, my breasts grew, but that was between my 12th and 18th month of HRT, they just do that during that time and i have no way to tell if they did so more than they would've otherwise.
never heard about this and no idea about viability but i would strongly recommend against because you would quickly do physical damage to your nose/sinuses. if you could formulate some kind of nasal spray it might work, but afaik powders can't really go up there without doing damage in the long run. if you're really drawn to the powder you could boof it in solution form? but that would definitely be more effort than actual suppositories.
I’ve never heard of snorting it but apparently there were some studies being done with prog nasal sprays in the 90s with success. So I’d assume that it would work, although there has to be a reason why it never took off. Maybe unstable levels, maybe side effects, who knows.
But considering that there are already great alternatives, even to those without vaginas, I’d just forget about the snorting thing and use a method that is proven to work reliably.
And yes, it is a dumb question. So it fits perfectly here.
Thought of a good post but I'll save it for tomorrow so I can maximise the replies I get
::: spoiler question about genitals This might be weird thing to ask, although it’s purely a medical question, but…like…how are your balls supposed to hang?
I feel like mine “hang” very close to my groin/body to the extent that half the time it doesn’t feel like my scrotum is completely “full”…if that makes sense.
Idk if this is just cause they are on the smaller side…or if they are being overly retracted by the cremaster muscle.
(Yes I am looking into this because of my earlier post. Shut up.) :::
she full on my metal until i alchemist: brotherhood
I think time limits are interesting.
Just realized today that my gaming PC is 12 years old, and it might finally be time for an upgrade now that new release games don't run well at low settings.
You’re just in time for the GPU market crash
If we're lucky, that'll be just enough offset the cost of the new Taiwan tarrifs.
I have found soviet eastern front Yuri. Praying its actually good and not double genocide bullshit. Wish me luck
:catgirl-flop: why bother
Thinking about last megathread.
Besides
... how do you find a mommy?? (I don't think there is anything that makes it seem otherwise, but it is a genuine question, I wish to find one)
Been getting into wearing jewellery in particular rings, as well as the history of queer symbology of certain rings. It’s funny that no one can really agree on any of it.
What I’ve gleamed is:
-Signet rings on left pinky were normal in the late and early 20th century for men. One on the right pinky might have suggested you were gay. But this is flimsy in evidence. For example Oscar Wilde has his on his left in all pictures as was the normal fashion,
-Signet rings however on women on any finger were a big sign of being a lesbian in the early to mid 20th century. Because it was a traditionally Mens ring.
-for a brief moment late 20th and early 21st century, civil union bands were worn on left middle fingers, but now with gay marriage everyone just uses the ring finger if married
-everyone thinks thumb rings are associated with lesbians but that’s largely vibes based
went on /tttt/ just to see what it was like for old times sake, but the experience was just pic related whenever I tried to make any trans megaesque posts
music monday everyone. watcha been listening to?
Alexisonfire mentioned!
Have you heard their latest album? I haven’t heard it all, but there’s a song on it called Sans Soleil I really like
i actually haven't listened to it - i'll give it a go tomorrow
Microtonal banana!
microtonal banana!
Shoegaze and experimental hip-hop mostly
love love dälek, bfmv, and slowdive! i'll have to check out some of these others
If you like mbv check out "2" by Kevin Shields
I like your taste, lot of overlap
Listening to a lot of Trophy Scars, Deafheaven, Liturgy, Vildhjarta and Foresthall lately
New used car has a working cd player but the aux cable needs to be replaced so I've been listening to a lot of BTBAM and Animals as Leaders in the car too
Saving this for later, because I suspect I’m gonna dig your recs
Lemme know if you want specific genres/vibes because I have all kinds of shit I'm into and love giving recs based on what other ppl like!
Also thanks for posting and taking the time to give recs :)
You got anything on deck like agalloch? I really like their vibe. Ragana and panopticon kinda check that box for me a bit as well. Bleak and wintry. I’ve listened to WITTR a bit as well, but somehow never got as into them as I thought I might.
I also love isis and wish they were still making music. In that same vein, the ocean, cult of Luna, and Rosetta mostly scratch the itch.
Maybe check out East Of The Wall (Resentiment specifically) as an Isis/Ocean fan
For Agalloch fan recs, big recommend for Falls of Rauros "The Light That Dwells In Rotten Wood"
Very good atmospheric black metal
I haven’t heard of either of these! I’m excited to check them out. Thank you :)
Ooh, just thought to rec Pelican, Giant Squid and Russian Circles if you dig The Ocean too
Ooh this falls of rauros album is exactly what I was looking for! Will definitely be listening to more of them as well. Thanks again for the recs, you really nailed it!
Also I see they’ve done a split with panopticon, which is a good sign that they’re probably not fuckin nazis. Not that you’d recommend them if they were, but like, I always worry with black metal lol.
Understandable lol, reasonable concern lol but I think they're lefties (anarchists I think, idk but they're cool)
Fwiw, I used to really like Young & In The Way and don't ever give them money, their bassist was a real piece of shit and did some horrific SA shit allegedly and the other guys handled it really poorly
(cool crusty black metal/atmospheric vibes though and a sick logo, really unfortunate they suck, "I Am Not What I Am" was one of my favorite albums of the 2010s)
Checking out ressentiment right now, feels like isis-y meshuggah or something off the bat. Definitely ocean-like. Also maybe some protest the hero vibes? Very much enjoying this so far, thank you!
Edit: yeah, I dug that album all the way through, will definitely have to check out more of their stuff!
You're welcome!
Oh hell yeah. I’m gonna think about this a bit and come back. I’m very excited :)
i'm a huge deafheaven fan, as well as liturgy. not familiar with vildhjarta, trophy scars, or foresthall though, do you have any albums of theirs you'd recommend?
Vildhjarta might be my favorite band. They're very much a Meshuggah descendent and started out doing Meshuggah riffs+metal/deathcore stuff with screechy horror soundtrack ass bits and spooky ambience and have really carved out their own niche that everyone refers to as "thall"
Both of their full albums are concept albums about a spooky old European kinda folktale woodcut vibe story about sentient critters in a critter town in the dark woods called Måsstaden (Seagull Town roughly in Swedish) that gets taken over by a cult, and the protagonist Snake 🐍 has to rescue his friend Bird 🐦 from them
Their early demo and unreleased stuff all whips ass and is mostly instrumental, look up "Vildhjarta 2007 demos" for their super crispy early production to get a feel for them, I fucking love the early version of Traces and Deceit, super fat punchy 7 string tone and great drums
Måsstaden, Thousands of Evils EP, and Måsstaden Under Vatten are their main releases, the first two got remastered and sound better imo
MUV is one of my favorite albums of all time
They released 3 singles after that which are basically an EP that are just named with "++" around the song titles but all go together and are an evolution of their style from MUV
"+den spänka kanslan+" (the Spanish feeling)
"+ylva+" (she-wolf)
"+kristallfågel+" (glass bird)
They're linked to the band Humanity's Last Breath (more deathcore-y) through Buster Odelholm, who is Vildhjarta's drummer and producer and HLB's main writer, guitarist (he plays left handed with the strings upside down on a 30" baritone 7 string lol) and vocalist
Vildhjarta's guitarist has a solo instrumental side project called Stoort Neer that whips ass too if you like Vildhjarta's guitar writing style
(sorry for the special interest dumping lol)
Ooh whale albums spotted! And panopticon and gizz. Ooh and alcest, I always forget how much I like them. I have you tagged as “Likes good music” and you continue to convince me that was a correct tag. I need to start digging into the albums on your posts that I don’t recognize.
I love panopticon (band), as well as panopticon (isis album). Too panopticon (concept) isn’t similarly rad.
Microtonal banana is a sick album. Everything they put out that year was amazing. Polygondwanaland is my all time favorite of theirs.
I have been continuing on my ahab streak, and been pushing into sunn O))) because I’m just really feeling the “music that makes me feel like lava” vibe right now.
Oh yeah, and cult of Luna. Less of a lava vibe but still scratches an itch in my brain. Very good atmosphere.
i'm a big fan of precambrian by the ocean, if you haven't heard it. if you like cult of luna maybe it'll be your thing. also australasia by pelican
Hell yeah, the ocean is rad. I think pelagial is my favorite of theirs. I haven’t listened to pelican in a while, but now that you mention them I do remember them having a lava sorta vibe. Good call!
Good shit. Got a couple of my favorite albums on there, so that means I need to check out the rest.
Damn Ironmouse calling me tf out on my TL
Everyone talking about eyebrow threading is right. I got a men's eyebrow threading. Because I am a coward. And even this has drastically altered the way I look. Much more androgenus.
::: spoiler CW alcoholism i've actually been so nervous recently that i've been wanting to not drink and frankly i'm a little terrified at what that means :::
Thanks for all the input / advice from my question earlier - appreciate it
Going from "the new BCNR song is boring" to "okay, yeah, it's pretty good" when I notice it's gay.
When you're roleplaying a Paladin of Mara and you pop into Dawnstar en route to another mission and Erandur is like can you help me with these bad dreams? Okay guess I'm doing this mission.
How long does it usually take to add new pronouns? Msged carcosa around 2 weeks ago and they haven't been added. Sorry if I'm being rude
Gay