pronouns requested in the gender survey have been added. ae/aer, thon/thons, pup/pups, ee/ees, and em/ems.

https://hexbear.net/post/3712030

hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

Thallo (10/21 - 10/27)
GenderIsOpSec (10/28 - 11/3)
TheChemist (11/4 - 11/10)
oscardejarjayes* (11/11 - 11/17)
HelltakerHomosexual* (11/18 - 11/24)
GayTuckerCarlson* (11/25 - 12/1)
Luna* (12/2 - 12/8)
Eco* (12/9 - 12/15)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

I used to pressure my guy friends into wearing my dresses and then I would nearly die of envy after seeing them in my dress.

Can’t wait till I’m muscular and manly so I can wear dresses again.

"there is nothing indecent or improper in my dress or appearance; I am not accountable to mortals"

The Friend is definitely near the top of the list of "dope historical figures I'd want to go hang out with if I had a time machine"

Listening to a guy rattle off paragraphs about his favourite slop, nodding along and agreeing, and then right when he's done, dismissing the entire thing because the slop is misogynistic as fuck

The stupid "buzzkill feminist" thing was actually invented for me.

I'm graduating uni today

Out of all the historical (like pre-20th century) transes I looked for years ago, PUF was easily the most based.

The PUF!

Fuck NPR I remember years ago they were doing a piece on the PUF and deadnamed and misgendered them constantly

Really shook up the status quo tonight, came out to a long time friend. First time telling someone other then you all.

It went well, he is supportive and reminded me he's my friend. Asked what pronouns I'd want around other friends too, which I forgot to bring up.

I never like change, I am very fearful about this one, but it is actually going okay so far. Thank you to all the mega posters, I would not be where I am without you

I DON WANNA PLAY WIT LEGOS

I DON WANNA CLEAN MY ROOM

i call her my wife and she loves it. i call her my waifu one time...

It's official. I have plans to go shopping for girl clothes with a friend once I get paid

::: spoiler they/theming transfems I keep getting they/them'd by people who know I prefer she/her. And I mean honestly I vibe with they/them and might set them as secondary pronouns on this site. But it would be nice to be she/her'd at least once in a while, considering that's how I ask to be referred to as.

I get that I'm mostly masc presenting right now, but I really shouldn't have to earn the right to be she/her'd. It really feels like they're saying "it feels weird to call this man she, but I can compromise with a they so that he doesn't get on my case about it."

Even though I like they/them pronouns, it's starting to feel very tiring and invalidating considering the relative frequency. :::

My hair is the longest that it's ever been in my life, but I seem to be getting to a point where I'll need to purchase some better-fitting shower caps.

god i love reporting comments on this website (for valid reasons, transgenderly). having a mod team that doesn't suck rules.

the government should pay me for anything transition-related ie. hormones, clothes, haircuts, ffs

it's in the public interest that i'm as hot as possible

One of my friends was like, yo, even if you're just enby, you're not cis and don't wanna be cis, you should post on the trans mega!

So, uh, hey all, how we doing? Gonna make a dal with canned pumpkin in it this weekend

I’ve been broke and unable to afford testosterone and it’s killing me. Been off of it for months now

Are trans people genuinely this much cooler than cis people or did I just get unlucky with the cis people in my life and lucky with the trans people?

I love how many transgender people have a secret extra set of pronouns they divulge as you get to know them.

Being ace and hot is so strange.

MFW i check out my ass in the mirror only to realize i've been wearing my panties inside out all day

come out at work on the 31st, telling everyone that my halloween costume is a woman

just keep doing it for the rest of my employment there

chat i think i found the best way to come out at work

Spotting trans mega posters outside the trans mega is the ultimate crossover event, such a rare and pleasant treat

The Friend's theology was broadly similar to that of most Quakers. The Friend stressed free will, opposed slavery,

and supported sexual abstinence.

volcel Friend?

tiddies hurting which means tiddies are growing, but owie

Readiing this thread, there's lots of sad queers who cant sleep

I am now obligated to point out it is a full moon

Solidarity

Hate that it feels like you have to walk on eggshells around so many cis people. You never know who is gonna take it as a deep personal insult if you politely request them not to say certain things.

I’m scared no matter how much HRT changes me, how much weight I lose, how good I get at fashion or makeup or hair care…BDD will forever have me only seeing a guy in the mirror.

sometimes this site is exhausting tbh. why is it that people here love armchair moralizing about other peoples’ decisions that don’t affect them (this is about the “eating slop” thread but i see it elsewhere too) without maybe considering that disabled people exist under capitalism too. i almost want to report that thread for ableism tbh.

I love you all genuinely. I cherish reading about your lives—your hobbies, your concerns, and everything that matters to you. Please know how much you are appreciated.

Today, I actually stopped and looked at my shadow instead of just avoiding it and didn't completely hate what I saw.
That's progress of a sort, I guess

Got called "lady" by a stranger at the grocery store. They don't know I'm actually a nasty gremlin

to backup my disability application my GP gave me a bunch of old correspondence between the psych hospital I was inpatient at for a while and him. some highlights:

::: spoiler medical transphobia

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my old head doctor from the hospital, now retired, repeatedly misgenders me in a letter from last year when we had already been working together for a year or so. fuck doctors!

my intake overview refers to me as "a female transgender". this one was just funny to me lol, very old school. obviously it is transphobic but it gave me a laugh. anyway just wild having hard personal evidence of the medical field being decades behind when it comes to dealing with us... I've thankfully got private option too, I'd say it's even worse here if you have to go public.

:::

My little sister fretted about turning 18, she thought she was gonna be too old. She wanted to look like a teenager forever, which... ugh I know she just was but personally when I was that age it was a relief to finally be an adult and get out from being told what to do all the time

Reminded me of the young twinks lamenting their twink death at 19 lol

Not going to self doxx, but seeing one of my favorite transfem artists tonight and am so excited!

They're putting me on all the estrogen. 10 mg injected estradiol valerate.

Where do I get the estrogen that will give me

I'm down to talk for about an hour before I go to bed

Length of call: 3 hours, 34 minutes

I can genuinely only talk for about 30 minutes tonight because it's late

Length of call: 1 hour, 32 minutes

(When I pointed out that we're past 30 minutes, she said she doesn't mind staying up a bit longer so we continued talking)

I can talk for about an hour before bed

Length of call: 3 hours, 3 minutes

(This was tonight)

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I really enjoy talking with her. She makes me feel understood.

oh good lord, my tits are slightly visible through my old dysphoria hoodie

I'm trying to learn German but whenever i check a German news site, the entire front page is bombarded with "terror-group Hamas attacks peaceful Israeli citizens."

It's fucking excruciating.

In theory I am pansexual and polyamourous. In reality I am single as fuck because I dont know what flirting is

Goodnight, my fellow puppygirls and lovely ladies

::: spoiler health, weight, positivity

Getting closer to hitting 20 pounds lost! sitting at 18 as of today. Not too far off from being under 200

Been doing okay staying up on exercise and weight training. One day I will thirst trap hexbear. That is my goal :::

You're all gay and based.

::: spoiler sad

::: spoiler Very very sad

::: spoiler Very very lonely

::: spoiler Want to talk so desperately

::: spoiler But cannot be vulnerable

::: spoiler People hurting hurts me

::: spoiler Im surrounded by hurt people

::: spoiler Im also a hurt person

::: spoiler I want to be taken care of

::: spoiler I want to take care of those im close to

::: spoiler I just want to be held

::: spoiler And told everything is ok.

::: spoiler Even if its just for a night, or even just a few minutes, I want to know that its ok.

::: spoiler I want to feel loved

::: spoiler I am loved

::: spoiler I just cant feel it.

::: spoiler I can never feel it.

::: spoiler I can love.

::: spoiler But no matter how much someone loves me, i can never feel it.

::: spoiler Im alienated from my self and my feelings of love.

::: spoiler Do i even love anymore?

::: spoiler or do i just chase ghosts?

::: spoiler I havent had friends last more than a year, maybe two.

::: spoiler Now im coming up on the time to leave again.

::: spoiler Everyone always leaves me

::: spoiler So i try to leave first.

::: spoiler I got close to them.

::: spoiler It was a mistake.

::: spoiler because now i dont want to leave.

::: spoiler but i have to.

::: spoiler its not safe to be close to people

::: spoiler its safest alone

::: spoiler but alone is lonely

::: spoiler i just cant find people who want to hear about my experience of life.

::: spoiler except i can

::: spoiler i just dont want to be close to them once they care about me

::: spoiler because it isnt safe anymore

::: spoiler i know its not real,

::: spoiler but everyone leaves

::: spoiler so i have to leave first.

That way i dont get hurt.

Goodnight

::: spoiler anxiety/sobriety Got an incredibly gay lil' idea for a Halloween costume that might be cute but I don't have any event to go wear it to and I'm agoraphobic and like all Halloween parties involve booze for adults and I'm holding on to the metaphorical wagon for dear life

:::

I held my tongue for so long but every time Julia Serano writes "hormonally female" or "physically male" my soul tries to exit my body. And then she hits me with the WELL TRANS WOMEN'S BRAIN STRUCTURE like wow.

I respect fully that the intent of this book is to analyse the ins and outs of being trans in the gender binary, but when she writes shit like "mtf spectrum" I'm sitting back and wondering if she actually read Gender Outlaw. Maybe the pre-2016 version is a lot less funny, but this cisnormative gendering of certain bodies and hormones is even less funny and I hate it absolutely to death. It feels out of place and eye-rolling in a text otherwise filled with many salient observations about the media's methods of subconsciously signaling the artifice of trans feminine gender, or just how much society both covets and devalues femininity as a whole.

Like how do you write the quote about "the acknowledgement that there are exceptions to every gender rule and stereotype" and then just write about estrogen being female. How cam you be so uncritical of cisnormativity as to use its language when writing all of this?? I mean, the text outright states that testosterone makes a "male" body and estrogen makes a "female" body.

This also makes me realise, if there's a specific piece of theory that lays out the destruction of cisnormativity regarding bodies, hormones, etc I haven't seen it. That one is to me homespun on forums and chatrooms.

Saw my favorite transfem artist perform today, and she taught the audience a powerful trick. Whenever you ever get misgendered as “he,” witches cackle HEHEHEHHEHEHE at them.

New trans mega! Last night I was at a restaurant and I sit down and in the corner of my eye I see this girl. I look over and it's fucking ME!!! I was sitting near a mirror!!!!! I then sat there admiring my hair for helping the corner of my eye to gender me correctly

Oh boy, a lot more people are pissed off by the contract offer than I thought there was. We're probably gonna strike

need trans friends to cuddle

::: spoiler freddy mercury if he was gay we will cock you

who wants to suck together?

fat- bottomed boys :::

i think this is a pretty original bit. no one's allowed to steal it

Might have less hair on my lip than both my sisters at the moment

Went to a queer meetup thing and it was so nice not having to talk to cishets for once. Main issue is I still have so much anxiety and after wards I just kept thinking of how akward I was

I cleaned my computer desk! Only took me 4 hours! Threw away manuals for like the headset I used in 2009 Desk is looking real nice now though

Mission successful. God I'm such a fucking girl

my wife woke up to go pee, so I asked her her favourite taxonomy fact. hers is that ants are either a type of wasp or decended from a wasp like ancestor (thee science is still out on it). and like it's true, you look at an ant vs a wasp and they do look really damn similar, especially flying ants

Found another white hair in my brush

drunk cis woman was wildly transphobic to me and my gf in the supermarket:/ not particularly upset by it, but definitely went fight or flight and coming down from that is no fun, end up getting dissociated for a while. they're always with the sidling up and muttering under their breath, like say it with your chest coward. anyway proud of myself cause I chose to just say something dismissive and move us away and she fucked off to go antagonise other people in the supermarket(???). couple years ago I might have escalated to a fight so I'm proud of myself for making what I think was the wise choice, even if a part of me is unsatisfied by avoiding confrontation.

sadly holding a bag of bread in the checkout line

"this isn't what i wanted when i said i wanted to get bred"

::: spoiler venting i wish i lived in anything approaching a civilized society where it would be acceptable to take off at least a couple of years to work on healing trauma rather than having to somehow juggle that with the stress of every day life under capitalism with a brain that has a horrifically low tolerance for stress :::

If I could bend reality to my will I would turn every straight piece of RanAka fan art into yuri when I see it.

Man I wish I could have known the public universal friend. Absolute ledg

Kinda sus that pianos have 88 keys

yesterday i threw out my back falling up stairs and today i wrecked my ankle going down stairs

it's clear. this town ain't big enough for the two of us. one of us has to change. some third, appropriate cliche.

god i hurt

Idk if I'll fully drop he/him or reverse it to secondary yet but feeling out they/them is good. Man been feeling too heavy while guy is light. I can't fully explain it yet need to sleep on it and ponder

wife and I made vegan sushi and onigiri. they're really good! (I say we, she did most the work)

doing hot trans girl mechanic shit

drought's over, shit's flooding @belligerentkitten@hexbear.net & i were in full crisis mode for a moment there

pls send any & all energies you can spare

e : for context this is a 300yo stone house

::: spoiler Mental health, burnout, family shit Feeling real today

Lend me gay energy to take care of myself instead of just burning myself out dealing with external problems

I feel like I'm trying so hard to improve myself and do so much for other people to just keep my dysfunctional family afloat and it's never enough and I never feel appreciated for it

It's like no matter what I do and how hard I try to get my shit together, I'm always gonna be treated like a dumb gremlin baby by my family even as they increasingly become incompetent geezers that need my help with simple shit that they're too lazy to do for themselves

It feels like I'm carrying them around in the Flintstones car and if I quit lifting it up and kicking my legs to keep it moving, the wheels are gonna fall off and that's gonna be all my fault according to them and I'll never hear the end of it. :::

Anyways here's a cute cat pic

I think you all deserve another post to look at

::: spoiler so here you go clicking for increased interaction :::

"so you're a lady, huh?"

-"actually i routinely rip farts so loud it scares our cats"

i'm eating notifications and they are delicious

::: spoiler venting anxieties about sibiling's potential dysphoria To set some background, my sibiling came out as non-binary a couple of years ago. They were 8 at the time. To this day, that is still how they feel. However, things have been changing for them recently, and while I've had thougts before, I've become increasingly concerned since I started my own transition. I think that they're feeling dysphoria, and I'm going to try having a serious conversation with them about how they feel towards growing up on T. They've already told me they're afraid of, and don't like looking in mirrors, and they still mostly look like a kid. They have started growing more body hair, and a small amount of facial hair, and I think that may be getting to them. They've told me they don't want that. I'm sorry I'm rambling, but I'm worried they're going to go through a puberty they don't want to go through, and they're not going to realize they can so something about it until they're older (like me).

I've brought up puberty blockers with my parents, but despite how good they are with most things, they seem to be against doing that. I intend to bring up HRT with my sibiling, but considering they might not know what they want for themselves, I don't want to seem pushy, nor do I want to get them on something they won't like.

Sorry, but I really had to vent. I don't even know how this relates to any of you, or myself, at all, but I needed to voice my concerns to somebody without getting into an argument about someone else's body. :::

::: spoiler Light brainworm related yapping I was thinking about the brainworm place and other spaces like it, and I arrived at a thought: the thing where they decry anyone having fun with 'catgirl' stuff as like, "anime cringe" or whatever is born out of A) the same ableist judgemental sludge that causes cringe culture to be a thing, but also B) the usual like, transphobic/transmisogynist motive for any of the other gender/sexuality policing they do where they do not want trans people to do anything but assimilate. These losers have a vested interest in you not enjoying being the pretty kitty.

Think about it... :::

::: spoiler mental health meltdown, spectrum brain shit, trans shit, dysphoria, alcohol cessation, drugs

I think I overloaded and short circuited something in my weird brain from stepping too far out of my comfort zone

I got extremely sad and overwhelmed by realizing how acutely difficult it is for me to try and Have Fun and Be Normal and big crowds and noise make me really existentially weird and maudlin about how being surrounded by happy normal people make me viscerally feel Alone and mentally beat the shit out of myself for not already being in a better place in my life overall

Saw a trans woman there and I know it's bad to assume things about strangers but something about seeing how much of a Normal Woman(Trans) she seemed like made me extremely self conscious and feel incredibly grotesque and meltdown internally with "oh god why did I stay in denial so long, why didn't I come out in my teens and transition young, I'm doomed, etc" thoughts

I got home late and really wanted to buy booze and fall off the wagon and get blackout drunk but willed myself out of it and took a bunch of kratom and can't sleep and feel kinda sick and just totally burned out

Sorry for being like this and also sorry for apologizing for not being okay lmao

^AAAAAAAAAAA^

@Tomboymoder@hexbear.net

sovereign citizens are the result of a communist conspiracy to engineer the people most perfectly equipped to annoy cops

There is a part of me that thinks it's not right that they gave Kirby he/him pronouns, way back when...

PFLAG and WPATH sound like environment variables

Viral on Chinese social media:

Transwoman frm Hunan beat up a gay man from Hong Kong in Changsha. She said because he called Changsha city poor and ugly. She called him short. He threw food in her face. She proceed to beat him to the ground

cw, her dress slides down and she doesnt have a bra, the absolute queen

i saw this and all i could think of was "bussy pass denied" ~i'm~ ~sorry~ ~that~ ~was~ ~awful~

driving home behind a fire engine with flashing lights is scary ngl. instantly my brain is convinced i left the oven on and my house is burning down (i did not and it was not)

Why does my co-worker have to be such a radlib?

me and my wife

thirtymilliondeadfish has had there social position, personal integrity, leftist credentials, and gender credentials savaged.

it is 2018. place japan enjoyers are coming up with increasingly esoteric ways to deny that a trans character in japanese media is trans

it is 2022. place japan enjoyers are coming up with increasingly esoteric ways to deny that a trans character in japanese media is trans

it is 2024. place japan enjoyers are coming up with increasingly esoteric ways to deny that a trans character in japanese media is trans

::: spoiler cw reddit/fashion brainworms I am wearing skinny jeans today to spite the whiny people I saw a few years ago on Reddit complaining that they were out of style.

Spite wearing is kinda fun actually, I dig it. :::

I look really hot topless and braless but wearing jeans, dunno what it is

Having sushi and cake for breakfast. Bougiest breakfast I've ever had lmao

hello new trans mega!!!

HASAN SHAVED noooooooooooooooooooooooo~oooooooooooooooooooo...~

if a comm doesn't get made after being put on c/commrequest, is there someone we can go and ask about that? i really feel like c/disabled is a comm we should have.

Cis people with bathrooms are wild. Oh its progressive to have the lobby of the building be a lkeypadded gender neutral bathroom (one person occupancy) while having every floor just have the typical 2 gender bathrooms

I fucking love going clothes shopping with my transmasculine comrade. We both know exactly how to shop for each other’s needs and have so much fun doing it.

I do not have a wardrobe made for the cold.

There's an old joke/stock phrase and it goes like this: "take two and call me in the morning"

You used to be able to call your doctor any time and schedule an appointment for the NEXT DAY?! I can't even get a consult to show up the next day in the hospital 😬 WHERE THEY WORK.

Okay I obviously have a lot to learn about this puppy girl thing to say it lightly lmao

::: spoiler spoiler I literally have only ever encountered it in terms of pet play, I didn't know y'all had a whole other thing going on and that's on me for not knowing :::

Got my gay lil umbrella, gay lil bag, gay lil water bottle, and gay lil box of gay lil pastries

my mam has been asking me a bunch of stuff about communism so i sent her the Parenti lecture

Being a blue whale seems like a sweet gig (other than the noise pollution) just swim around with your mouth open, visit the carribean laze your way to the Indian ocean, visit by the antarctic

When you're watching a random early 2000s action movie that's on TV, and out of nowhere... ::: spoiler Transphobia, chaser nonsense two characters talk about watching porn, with one them saying he's getting tired of watching women on women action, to which the other responds that maybe he should try (insert porn slur popular with chasers) porn. :::

In know about twink death but I'm hoping for twink rebirth as I make slow sustainable changes in my diet/exercise/beauty routine these coming years. Going from a power type character to a speed one is end goal

Got nail polish so that's, cool. Problem is I fucked it up and didn't buy nail polish remover

::: spoiler cw: dysphoria, vent It feels wrong calling myself a woman when my voice and body are the way they are, like, it feels like I don't deserve to call myself that when I haven't really done anything I know this is all just and I don't owe anyone anything to be able to call myself a woman, but it still crosses my mind frequently and it bothers me a lot. Hopefully I can get out of this living situation and get to a point to where I feel comfortable transitioning, but it's really looking like I'm going to be locked into this for another couple of years at least. :::

girl magic :3

cw needle

If huffing nail polish is so bad for you why does it smell so good? Checkmait liberals

The State of Kansas has just become the Sixth US State to officially recognize Asexual Awareness Week, which starts today, on the 20th. I am happy this happened, as an Asexual Man.

Crawl into bed at 2am, a reasonable hour! Suddenly connect that people I was helping pay for medical appointments last year have recently bought an apartment. At least I have this stale popcorn.

@EstraDoll@hexbear.net sorry I missed the lego’s gathering at your place! When’s the next one?

It’s cold, I wanna be a burrito

So I’m starting to wonder if I’m getting delusional about whether I’m still boymoding. The other day I was talking with an instructor who I had met before but hadn’t really talked with and out of the blue he was like “oh before I forget, pronouns. They/them right?” And I straight up replied with “sure” He also said that he was reminded because he was talking to [other instructor] earlier and apparently that instructor mentioned me and then corrected his pronoun usage and then he wrapped up this story with “he is getting better at this”.

I have never told anyone irl to use anything other than he/him, they just assumed I didn’t use them. Apparently it’s becoming common knowledge or something that I’m not cis, which is, uh, like I don’t even present any differently (aside from that week I wore nail polish) I literally wear the same clothes I always have. The first week of class an instructor was doing attendance and called my (very masc) first name and I raised my hand and he just looked at me like

Bought a lesbian bracelet but I'm too anxious to wear it outside :/

me and my wife

::: spoiler I discuss transphobia/terfs a lil, nothin specific tho I was rolling this fucking Shiela Jeffreys (deeply unserious woman) quote around in my head, the one about men and histories of transgression and whatever. The easy answer is that cis men beinv more privileged to do transgressive anything stops when... you stop being a cis man, because it's societally constructed. Duh.Real brainworm consumers know.

The thing I finally hit on though, is that I don't think there's literally a single terf argument or "theory" that cannot be defeated by realising "these fuckin' losers, their entire thing hinges on taking assigned gender as sacred and absolute and true. Gender assignment was literally made up by people based on "common traits" they observed thousands of years ago, it's demonstrably insufficient to describe humans, and yet these dweebs want to base their discrimination on it? They're literally licking the boot that presses on their throats."

Felt kinda good independently using the theory I've absorbed to bust up goofy terf screeds. 3am I-skipped-my-gabapentin thoughts :3 :::

They say you're nobody till somebody loves you

But you are somebody

Because I love you

This goes out to the very special person reading this, you

What are your hair strats? My hair isn't super long, but reaches down a bit past my neck in the back, and is straight. I'm looking for ways to have more fem hair on days that I want to, but be able to kind of turn it off on days that I don't. I want to talk to a stylist, but I don't want to go in completely blind

Waking up crying, gross, woke up too early now theres not enough time to fall asleep again

Public Universal Friend Megathread!

Is it toxic that I like when people I date are a little bit annoyed with me?

I don't know why this is the case, but I hate how hard calling myself a woman is. Maybe with time/transition progress it will be more natural feeling? I definitely want to be, so I guess I am, idk it still feels wrong.

I aspire to be even a fraction as as the Public Universal Friend.

The Germans cannot be trusted with a nation-state

Uploaded all the doggirl and catgirl emotes to https://mega.nz/folder/ZkpiELhb#uKDQ2gwg_34N1_9J54eSnQ

:3

:arm-L: workout done :arm-R:

got power and internet back! the water damage to the electrical system was limited to the plug sockets. can finally chill

GAY, UP TOO EARLY AND VERY HUNGRY

I've dated poly and monogamous and I swear to god, if I end up being a straight monogamous woman I'm going to be somehow be the weirdest of the kinky and trans community lol. How the fuck did that all shake out that's not even fair

i was going to type more about possibly thinking about dating a poly person and how i feel about that but fuck me i got to shower and head out to work too soon to write that essay today. gay thoughts later

i like girls :)

Thomas Blounts dictionary of 1656 lists the word tranfeminate. Though apparently it meant then what we'd call transmasc. Or transgender in general Wild.

how does one get over a crush?

My prolactin was high :(

It can get high from HRT (some of em), but it can also go up from stress. And baby, I am stressed

So I'm trying to apply myself to some theory in earnest, now that I've had the funny book as a little treat, and

We must also stop pretending that there are essential differences between women and men. This begins with the acknowledgement that there are exceptions to every gender rule and stereotype, and this simply stated fact disproves all gender theories that purport that female and male are mutually exclusive categories.

Thank fuck, holy shit. On some level I know this is probably the most basic tenet of feminism and gender theory proper, but it's still gratifying to see it reproduced in such an oldass text, especially because I came to just this conclusion entirely independently. This shit rules.

The negotiating committee says: "this is probably the best deal we're going to get, it's up to membership to decide if this deal is acceptable but we recommend ratification"

The general membership seems to be saying: "we can get better."

And I can sympathize, I do think we can get better. But I don't really have faith that my fellow union members are actually willing to go to the mat to get better, or if they're financially able to. Cause I don't think this government is going to give and I think if we strike, strike pay is SHIT in the first place, they'll legislate back to work - and I don't know about the wherewithal in membership to put up an illegal strike. Cause they will fine us as a unikn, some members (mostly in leadership) will be threatened with fines and even jail time, but it's definitely a struggle we can win to get better pay which is one of the big disappointments from membership. So many of us are living paycheck to paycheck and are single parents and can't afford strike pay for months.

I hope, should we ratify, they keep that anger for the length of the contract, they build up their coffers and solidarity funds and communal stuff, so that the NEXT contract if we don't get a better raise again - then we can go to the mat and wildcat if we need to. But just shouting "fuck you" in general isn't gonna win us much better than the current offer and it could end up worse...

::: spoiler health venting ugh there's so many things i could vent about with my health and the stressful situation it's put me in, but one thing is that it has once again pushed hrt down the road for me. i'm too busy dealing with my chronic fatigue crash and its ensuing consequences to pursue hrt rn and i'm just thinking about it rn and i'm so, so frustrated. :::

t4t but they're both catgirls. discuss

GAY CUDDLING

you know how like sometimes you know a thing is true, but you're kinda annoyed it's true and would rather it wasn't? I feel this about giraffes and horses. like ok you look at a giraffe and you're like oh, it's a tall horse, I get what's going on here, it's related to horses. but no! horses are odd toed ungulates and giraffes are even toed ungulates, and their last common ancestor was like 60 million years ago in the early eocene!!

and like I know this, it is a factual truth, but I don't want it to be! my brain sees a giraffe and is like na mate, that's a big horse. the bastards are more closly related to fucking dolphins than they are horses!

New mega thread!

Up with trans

Down with cis

so i've alluded to this before but i don't really have a ton to really write out about this and I'm like 90% sure I know the right answer here and I hate the answer but i got to vent still

::: spoiler rambling about the girl i'm into being poly but how that kind of puts of me off the idea of dating her. this might come off as kind of shitty towards polyamorous people idk. if it is call me the fuck out please so anyway, this one girl that i've really, really fallen for pretty hard mentioned to me offhand the other day that she is, in fact, polyamorous and i'm really conflicted by that answer because like, yay i guess that means she (might) be open to dating me but the more i think about it, the more i realize that like, i don't think i could be that fulfilled in a relationship where my partner has her attention split between three other people and also me? I really need that one on one connection and yeah, I'm already jumping several steps by assuming she'd be willing to date me just because she's poly, though I still think that there are other signs she might be into me back, I feel like if it actually came down to it, if she asked if she wanted to date, despite the fact that I'm really, really into her, I'd have to just... grit my teeth and say no because I can already see this not working out on my end? I still do really want to at least remain friends and not have this get any more awkward than it has to be with trying to force a romantic connection that I know I won't be completely satisfied with

There is one obviously right answer here, and it's to look the girl I wrote a love letter to with no intention on sending it dead in the eye and saying "I think we should just be friends" and fuck me that fucking hurts to say :::

I have three fashion styles:

-gremlin in big hoodie and tracksuit pants, just wearing the comfiest clothes

-genderless adventurer on some kind of quest

-nude

Therapy in 7 mins 😍

::: spoiler Poiting out my current stim phrases to bully myself Somewhere somehow someway, I picked up saying "it rocks/it rules" or "this rocks/this rules" or similar about fucking EVERYTHING, both ironically as a shitpost and unironically for some reason.

I am not sure where this phrase comes from, I think it is Orange Book. Maybe it's when she says "it's not even ironic: Poison rules" about the big patch of the first Poison album cover on the back of her stupid denim jacket? My brain remembers that she was describing something terrible with "which rules" or something.

Please send help. :::

Got my flu and covid shot and now my arms are mad at me about it bleh

i am in sight of 99 agility in runescape

::: spoiler Transphobia, misgendering Cissies will hear me say I'm a woman, I go by she/her, and will correctly gender me once then never again. Unlimited forced transition on the cis :::

Sometimes in a relationship you have to take a firm hand

What do you mean? This is the sole reason I transitioned.

mmmmm gender

::: spoiler sadposting

I'm so fucking tired

I need a fucking break

I need like a week in a nice cabin in the woods to myself miles away from other people with a big warm comfortable bed to hibernate in and try to make up for months of a sleep deficit but that's completely unrealistic

I have a whole thing about gender shit and family shit to vent but now I'm gonna attempt to sleep and kick my own brain's ass if it's uncooperative in doing that because I'm so fucking exhausted that I'm seeing shit in the corner of my vision that isn't there

Goodnight/morning

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Initial consult for my therapist went well! We scheduled a follow-up, and I am looking forward to it!

I also got a bra that fits. The cup is a bit big, but I have some sort of mastia due to my weight so I should be able to fill it out with some inserts. Idk how things are going to go as I lose weight/start HRT, but it's affirming for now. With that, I am working on assembling another outfit. I want to try something goth/punk. I will try to figure out some normal femme clothes eventually, but if it's in private for now then I might as well have fun as a baby trans. I also want to go to some metal shows again and it would be nice to not seem like a square.

It is done (catgirl emojis)

I got rate-limited for this, the bear won't let me upload photos right now

It’s pretty wild looking back at older pop culture to see Mae West and Raquel Welch—two sex symbols of their time—being the subject of heavy transvestigstions. Raquel Welch even transvestigsted Mae West in her later years.

Just goes to show that you can even have the ideal woman’s figure and people will still somehow accuse you of not being cis.

::: spoiler early AM NSFW thought

A cabinet of dildos, call it the Library of DONGress.

getting back in to weird paranormal shit. ghosts, aliens, weird magic stuff all that jazz. and my god none of these people have even just a modicum of critical thought, skepticism about extraordinary claims, or ability to question their own ideas. I want paranormal shit to be real, because it'd be cool and make the world way more interesting, and I know in my heart of hearts I want to believe which is why any time I find myself being swayed I'm like woah ok we gotta touch base here and look critically at this shit. if you want it to be real, you need to be 1000% more skeptical, because your brain is trying to get you to do a dumbass cognative dissonance and look past actual rigorous critical analysis.

why are there so few reasonable 'idk bro, could be somethin, but we'd neeed more evidence. as of right now, this is merely a weird thing that more than likely is nothing' paranormal investigators!

at least marvel writers can be safe in the knowledge they'll never write anything as embarassing as the elon musk scene in iron man 2

i sat up for too long today and i’m paying for it

Ahhhhhhhhh, I have a couple days off~ I got violin lessons today, trashy TV to watch with my mom, and a union meeting, but tomorrow... tomorrow is gonna be a total chillax day~

working on american cars is the worst. you chose imperial so stick with it. dont fucking use both metric and imperial in the same fucking car ugh

i'm completely dead and still in shock i think. we spent the entire day bailing water out of our flooding house. this rain was like an order of magnitude worse than anything i've ever seen. the landscape has changed, so much soil eroded. not to mention the new person who is just incredibly toxic.

Bought a door-hanging mirror so I could properly evaluate outfits, and the cats are immediately messing with it.

pup pronouns added to the site yeyyyyyyy *wagwagwagwagwagwags*

I'm so sleepy, but why could.I not sleep earlier? This sucks, now I'm gonna be tired all day...

it was really foggy this morning, and my wife sent me a bunch of pictures of the thick fog from her commute making London look like fucking Silent Hill. fog is cool

::: spoiler hormone updates from ten years in, also dysphoria? I have little tiny black hairs growing on the bottom third of my upper arms now. I do not know how to feel about this, has 12.5mg cyproterone acetate betrayed me? Should I start scarfing 50mg again to try to defeat this probably very natural part of aging???

Beautiful goblin says it's just soft and downy and part of getting older but like, I am comfortable with the body hair I have now. I do not really want more... :::

my wife has never seen shrek and I still can't get over it. no, she does not want to watch it

::: spoiler health and academics venting i feel like i don't really have much of a choice but to withdraw from one of my classes due to my health issues, which will place me on their version of an academic warning. it's incredibly frustrating because i was working hard at all my classes and i feel like i'm just getting punished by my school for things that were completely out of my control. :::

Who the fuck goes to Japan and buys shit from H&M? Brand brain must be destroyed

I like to lick up individual popcorns with my tongue

No work, it's cold and grey outside and i'm huddling under a blanket with my shark reading a fantasy book top tier day so far

barking at cis people

I'm shopping for gender affirming clothes tomorrow 😳 . Going with a friend. Ughghgh I can't wait

I wish Comrade Cromalin was still posting with us.

Kinda wish there were catgirl equivalents to the puppygirl line emotes...

What is happening today in gender, ya’ll?

I want a wheelchair so bad but it's probably going to be a while until I can get one...

Had to come out to my mom (and eventually the rest of my family) again, because something decided to give genderfluidity to someone who has social anxiety that makes these kind if things awkward.

At least she didn't jump to the conclusion that I might be a man, even for a bit, or that I was detransitioning or something like that, so I'll take that as a win.

::: spoiler cw: angry (but important) dysphoria rant thing, kink (but not kink actually) talk, transphobia please dont call therian identity "a kink" like seriously wtf,,,,, das not okay

please actually educate yourself on stuff and dont decide what is a kink for someone else (das pretty weird)

just because you think something is a kink doesnt mean it is to everyone, and that honestly sounds a lot like transphobic rhetoric "oh its just a kink" like no

going to maul the next person who calls it a kink *grrrrrrrr*

(this is not to say it or at least stuff adjacent to it cant be a kink, or that you cant be therian and have a petplay kink of somekind, but that you shouldnt just assume)

edit: also this mightve been a slight overreaction to a comment we misinterpreted but we are gonna keep it up anyway because we wanted to say this and its important!!!

edit2: also dont call therian identity just being a furry either, also not the same thing, at all :::

I feel so wide all the time, but I think everyone might just be wider than I think and I have BDD

Day whatever of being a moody irritable asshole. I dislike this because I'm not really able to talk to people like this, I have been ignoring matrix (hello) all day as a result. Just being a shitty asshole on websites instead :)

idk what I am gonna do with my surplus of estrogen pills when I leave.

I feel like I’ve won the lottery with my current schoolwork becoming one of my hyperfixations because I don’t know how I’d be able to sustain this level of work otherwise. Caught between trying to ride this wave for all it’s worth and pacing myself so I don’t get burnt out

::: spoiler mental health, it's fine now but aaaaaa Almost had a little meltdown because this

lil' stinker found a cardboard box in my closet to hide in and then fell asleep and couldn't hear me looking for him everywhere thinking that he got out somehow and ran away

❗

📦

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ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

Ugh, pushed myself too hard too soon yesterday postop and paying for it today.

A lot of my people are going thru shit rn, and I want to be there for them when they reach out, but I really feel like I can’t at the moment.

Ugh, gonna try and go back to sleep.

::: spoiler discussion of transphobic rep Oh my god, I cannot believe that Julia Serano has the same brainrot that I do. She must have spent years studying The Slop to be able to cross-reference Priscilla Queen of the Desert with The World According to Garp with A Mighty Wind with The Adventures of Sebastian Cole. The absolute ironclad tolerance for garbage of this woman, in pursuit of obliterating all of these stupid movies' transphobic bullshit, I really respect. :::

Kinda dismayed that I could have missed being a fucking weeb. I wouldn't know what that fucking goddamn Demon Slayer reference means if I hadn't seen One Piece and Naruto on YTV, and then seen that there was a dumbass english-language manga magazine that serialised them. Goddamn, Shueisha.

damn. i regret my choice of girl name today after realizing i could have named myself Ligma

im thinking of requesting another comm, called /c/multilingual. the point of the comm will be to post only articles, comments, etc. not in english

people can post translations to english in spoilers in the same post if they want to work on translation skills

would anyone here be interested in modding such a comm?

the goal would be to increase international participation on the site

supermarket meal deals are british bento

wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife

Four waffles is too many, but it's all the machine makes. In less than five minutes, bounty begets melancholy...

• The Tortured Breakfaster

::: spoiler dreams, sex Had a normal kinda dream devolve into me having anal which was cool I guess, then I had a far more interesting sex related dream but I can't remember any of it :( :::

you got beef with your ops? girl, you don't even got beef on the plate. call that shit a tofu

( )

I don't think I've ever longed for site admins to allow pronoun-maxing more than today. I feel like I need a third set of pronouns for some reason

@ashinadash@hexbear.net

re : carpenter

i hesitate to call any of his other movies shit after vampires like sure prince of darkness puts me to sleep but at least the concept is kinda cool. halloween is honestly high art in comparison. even his weaker films tend to have something to enjoy but vampires is where the macho bs truly took over. it cannot be overstated just how aggressively awful it is. like just thinking about the fact that i ever gave it another chance makes my blood boil

anyway yeah i'm familiar with most of his work but the thing & they live are the only ones i ever feel like revisiting anymore.

::: spoiler whining, dysphoria I haven't complained about it in a while, but voice dysphoria continues to be terrible. Want to come out to a friend or two, but the thought of using my voice, egh. Obviously the actual coming out can be over text, but after that I can't explain it. I hate pretending to be a boy, but saying I'm a girl and sounding like this...

Voice is just disgusting and horrible. All wrong. I don't have any idea how I'd want to sound either, if I could pick.

I know it won't get better without voice training, I know I need to, I know I should, all that. I'm not trying right now, I just can't. I know nothing will get better until I do. not worth continuing this and typing out all my self hatred. ::: spoiler I've said this before, but I'm thinking about it again and not like I can tell anyone irl I remember not liking my voice changing during puberty. Thought that was normal and I'd like it eventually. Clearly I was wrong, and tbh I wonder if I'll ever like my voice again. Current trajectory isn't looking good. How sad. Just ruined by T. ::: fwiw yesterday was quite good for me, very calm. A nice break from some of my usual struggles.

Me: "I should probably come out to my parents"

Also me when my mom just casually having her hand on my back: "Oh no, she might notice what I'm wearing"

Day one of Gabapentin Is For Losers, Cold Turkey Gang, I Ain't No Fuckin Loser:

I stop taking the anxiety med, I have more anxiety when I'm going outside

No bad withdrawal stuff though, baby tier. I'm goin' back to anxietytown.

Might get a TikTok just because my YT Shorts is increasingly becoming reactionary/normie garbage for some reason.

pokemon leaks got my monkey neuron activation goin over and over

I will

NEVER

wear a bra!

i blow dried my hair today for the first time in a while and it turns out that it makes my hair very different (normally curly hair became kinda straight?), huh...

thoughts on microwave pizza?

::: spoiler whining

I NEED A VACATION

I NEED A MASSAGE AND A SPA DAY

PAMPER MEEEEE

I'M GONNA McFuckin™️ LOSE MY SHIT I'M SO STRESSED AND EXHAUSTED

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:::spoiler new pronouns dropped

::: get yer ae/aer pup/pup’s thon/thons

The PUF is my bestie

worked out

Fall rain is such a vibe, why can't it be fall and rainy all the time?

Yesterday I was photographing a self bondage set in a small grove between some trees, a sort of lost in the woods thing wearing the green dress from Howl's moving castle and a pair of blue wrens landed on the branch next to my head and hung out there for a few moments, I didn't manage to get the picture with them because I was too surprised but I'm a motherfucking Disney princess.

Every time I stumble across the transfem-tomgirl post about how Dorley Hall and Serious Weakness should kiss, my brain cracks violently in half like I'm watching Pyramid Inu make funny references. Someday, there WILL be proof positive of the "weird transfem novels" world and the "black dresses gangosphere" kissing, and something catastrophic will happen. It will be Big.

::: spoiler I have rotted my brain out, no cws Okay so like... if no physical trait or anything is inherently gendered, which is true, then surely hormones and other physical things like that can't be an aspect of gender expression...? Just looking at that written down I realise I must be missing something, but my brain is sort of dumb right now. Stop taking gabapentin and The Gender Thoughts awaken immediately :::

::: spoiler in here we take about drugs People on twitter keep bringing up the drug debate cause of two-three trans girls doing drugs.

Chat, I’m gonna be real with all of you, they’re making drugs look really lame.

::: spoiler sex toys, genitals, masturbation When I masturbate, even just trying to stimulate the tip, I still get erections. Would getting a vibrator help that at all? Also any recommendations? I have heard the magic wand is good, but its a little pricey, and my apartment has very thin walls :::

I watched Beyond the Black Rainbow the other day, it was a good spooky slow burn horror movie. The psychic cinematographic effects were neat. The soundtrack was cool, reminded me of Carpenters movies - evil pulsing synthwave. It wasn't like a heart stopping scare ya Halloween style flick but I enjoyed it.

Also found out it was a Canadian production and a mini budget one! Only ~$1 million.

My sister stole my eyeliner and I have no idea where she put it

She was like "Oh, I borrowed your eyeliner today, look at how good it is!" and I was like "that's good" while thinking to myself that she took it from me and used it before I got the chance to. At least I know it's good eyeliner

In a lot of Anglo cultures/communities, which most of you are from so this won't be a surprise, wives take their husbands' last names. In queer couples, they sometimes do it sometimes one takes the other etc. Even in hetero cultures, occasionally the husband takes the wifes' last name (very rare). In Quebec and France and probably a bunch of other Franco places, it's not legal to take your spouses last name lol. Best you can do is double barrel.

I have NO attachment to my last name. It's from my dad, who was and remains an asshole. But I wanna be a good strong feminist and also not buy into this Anglo tradition 😭 At least it's not an actual problem, I am at no risk of getting married anytime soon lol but I would be tempted to take my future spouses last name just to cut off that last bit of my dad.

no motivation to voice train

listen to seventy seven dog years

motivation to voice train

the new chat pile album is so good holy shit

i've had these girls for like 4 months and yet i still get surprised by the fact that i have tits

why is there no drug that lets us grow a tail :c need

he / hims stay classy

oh hey is that our public universal friend? it is! hi puf!

rereading a yuri manga that i read five or so years ago

it's still pretty cute

On the first day of Hallows Eve my true love gave to mee
A bat in a dead oak treeee

can't sleep, let's have a tea thread.

I like Earl Grey lately for the afternoon for a little caffeine boost (with a bit of oat milk and maple syrup), but I'll also drink sencha or genmaicha.

At night I like camomille, or sleepytime, or Bengal spice, whatever Partner is making.

Since I stopped Spiro we've accidentally ended up with a huge bag of peppermint tea and I'm trying to like it again, because Spiro was gross but I used to like peppermint.

I should have gone back to bed a while ago, I am going to end up so emotional today. On that note, dear god I want to be on hormones :kitty-cri:

The different therian subtypes are called theriotypes, that's rad, that's like perfect. Better than the species thing some furries use

fucked up in the crib sippin Dr. Perky

tired but I guess Death Grips is more important

why the fuck am i up so early. this fucking sucks

Anytime there's a scifi club, there's always hot feminine coded aliens grinding in cages or otherwise inaccessible

Where are our hot dude coded aliens?! Or even our hot alien-aliens??

Just woke up again.

What if I bought a set of cat thigh highs and cat ears... haha.... unless :3

Think I'm gonna train myself to use my left hand more, used my left hand to type this so far so good

Bah

Sanity check chat, is a parent saying "you can do a b c transition things, but I don't want you doing x y z while you live here, I'm just not comfortable with that/goes against my beliefs", abusive? Like assuming its strictly transition related. I don't know what specific things are being thought of either. Personally, I'm assuming that to mean hrt/pronouns/name/clothes?

is girltwink anything

does anyone have any trans lit recs? i just read Tell Me I’m Worthless and it destroyed me. i’ve already read Nevada, Detransition Baby, Little Fish, and Wild Geese

::: spoiler an NSFW joke a tad too far, tbh how can i ever even earnestly call myself a trans girl? i've never fucked a pumpkin before :::

I decided to finally mod in a female codriver into my favorite rally game. It's so much nicer than the robotic British dude shouting at me.

more like the soy-cial soy-ences. am i right, fellow stem bros?

benjamin, lord tennyson is british ben 10

I was looking at my shadow today, and it looked like I was wearing an awesome coat with a long back piece flapping in the wind, along with my jeans. Yeah, in reality it's just a sweatshirt thing that happens to have a small portion that hangs out in the back, and it does it in the front too. Now I really want a coat like that...

MFW THEY GO TO FUCKIN RENO, NEVADA IN CUCKOO

IS THIS THE FAMOUS ORANGE BOOK REFERENCE???????

Trying to mass download the puppygirl line emotes but every website I try just gives me the default emotes

need to find a way to use an IPL on my upper lip without blinding myself

ok hai. my name is bocchi and um it's been a while since i made a new video. so i decided that because of recent events that i could make a new videooo. and um so yeah so let's just start off by getting a couple things straight. i have friends... mm hmm! no, I know that you all think that i don't have friends, but, i do, actually. and i actually do have a band also, ahh hehehe, which is funny to me. ummmm yeah.

::: spoiler suicide, toxic bs, drugs

so we got another person here like a week ago & it's been acting like a fucking dickhead the entire time. doesn't respect boundaries, emotionally manipulative, constant aggressive behaviour like throwing & breaking shit. last night it was suggesting it was gonna kill itself & like wtf is anybody gonna say to that?obviously this isn't v compatible with this lifestyle. the kicker is tho, the idiot actually did od! didn't succeed & is now acting like nothing happened. i'm literally so furious i circled around into this zen kinda mode. like jfc, this is how you go about your long awaited chance of actually living your life? i fucking swear, i'm gonna drag its sorry ass all the way to the nearest town if that's what it takes.

i don't think there exists an emoji potent enough to express how i feel.

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I never knew about The Friend! Learning new things every week with trans mega :trans-ferret:

As a little folkie guitarist, lemme just say that one of the only good things to come out of is their beautiful tradition of folk music.

Currently learning one of my favorite guitar medleys. It’s a really fun challenge. I love the sound of an acoustic guitar played well in alternate tunings. https://youtu.be/rSD9qg9biC4

How do I make my wrists stop hurting? They are sore, when I turn them, exert straight force on them or hold something with weight.

Been trying to play more Warhammer 40k - Rogue Trader and I just....can't really get into it.

::: spoiler some light spoilers in the end, mostly just a rant about crpgs and making the player a big fucking deal but the gameplay doesnt reflect that There's a lot of dialogue and that is completely fine. the turn based combat? also fine, great even. What I can't fucking stand is the running, the constant running from place to place, to scavenge every single locker to see if I can find something to use or sell. I'm supposed to be a big fucking deal (tm) in the universe. Like I have a room sized "Warrant of trade" that the corpse god personally signed^1^ for me, but I'm still personally running around and looting every fucking supply closet to see if someone left a Broom + 2 in there?? And I know for a fact that if I don't in later chapters some lvl 69 Peasant is going to one shot my gall even if she is in power armour, because I missed out on the Duster + 12 that was hidden in this one guy's toilet.

uuuuuugggghhhhh just give me a game where I get teleported from conversation to conversation and battle to battle please. The cRPG looting simulator shit is getting tiresome to me.

Had the same issue with Dragon Age Inquisition too, actually. Two things, stop making me such a big fucking deal right from the get go OR give me servants who loot everything!! treat me like shit instead of a member of nobility and I can totally understand looting everything, but goddamn. Getting quests from my own subordinates because their lives are in danger or some shit. BITCH I OWN YOU!!!!! You go fetch your grandma's knickers or whatever the fuck this quest is about. Better yet, I'll make you the loot bitch who runs after me, how does that sound?

Stop. Making. Me. A Leader. If. I. Cant. Give. Orders. Please.

^1^ ^might^ ^not^ ^be^ ^from^ ^the^ ^emperor^ ^himself^ :::

🎵 Everypony hurts.... sometime 🎵

down with cis

🚬🤘😔🖕🥃

getting shredded

I call my dog “creature” now

::: spoiler preening, positive but maybe with weird stuff, feel free to critique language etc Despite lifting, I also continue to gain body mass. I guess I'm not doing sit-ups so it makes sense, my arms tighten up while my tummy becomes the squish zone.

My torso generally gives off a lot less "skin stretched over a ribcage" vibes than before, although I can still see my ribs. I am digging the squish though, I look great. I should get more, maybe I don't need to worry about the day my metabolism slows way down, like my mom constantly said about. :::

markiplussy

miniminuteman, Milo Rossi, is one of the most attractive men on youtube

awwwrrruffff :3

Gotta figure out to level my irl vigor

funi joek

What do you call androgynous smelling pretty perfume? ::: spoiler punchline Eau de parfum pour themme :::

just remembered this time when I was 14, when my English teacher spent an entire lesson, out of nowhere, telling us all her new age spiritual beliefs like indigo children, and higher spiritual states and shit. I loved it, because I didn't have to do shit for an hour

I'm a bit embarrassed to ask this, but is wikipedia correct about Leslie Feinberg's pronouns? So, for example, if I were to be discussing hir among an audience of non-trans people, I should use she/her?

okay so I have upbears off, but I'm seeing upbears in threads again for some reason? they're not there on the main page?

edit: i had to hard refresh

I don't have an epilator yet, but I spent some time with a tweezer plucking hairs on my hand and wrist. For those with epilators, how bad does it hurt compared to tweezing manually (which doesn't hurt too bad).