As a reminder, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It's for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.

Let me abuse my mod powers to present you with some nice statistics:

The Trans Mega went from 190 comments on average in March, 372 in May, to 2508 in July. That's over a tenfold increase in 4 months. This means we're well on our way to take over the internet. Carry on.

Alright folks, its time for the diceroll again. Please post in reply if you want to host the megathread next week. I'll do the dice roll on the 11th. You must be able to post it Monday 12th at 4pm GMT

Also, everyone please check out our public matrix chat! https://matrix.to/#/#tracha:chapo.chat https://hexbear.net/post/3088303 Its got quite a lot of people on it now posting every day!

Me every day

Socialism is when trans people exist. And it's more socialism if more trans people exist. And if a lot of trans people exist, it's communism.

up with trans

i was so envious of the women in my previous jobs when they left and changed into their normal outfits and looked fine

but today I am that woman and it feels so fucking GOOD

I love slowly finding out what I like regarding gender expression. Removing the boundary of looking like a girl creates so much freedom. Also shaping my body by training muscles will also be awesome when I get on T.

I’ve always loved the look of somewhat masculine (twunk) men with very feminine clothing, and knowing I can look like that somewhere in the future is awesome.

New mega

It such a surreal moment whenever it comes up whenever I try to reach for my pre voice training mode of speech.(usually as a cute party trick with queer folk)

this last weekend at a queer gathering, I was completely unable to have a sound concept for what I used to sound like pre voice training, and the best I could conjure was basically a woman who smokes cigarettes kind of voice.

Feels like a really good place to be. Voice training was an incredible thing for my inner sense of self and healing.

The further I get along, and I certainly have such a long way to go, the more I feel like whoever I was pre transition integrates into a better sense of self. For the queer joy, just want to emphasize that there are so many fucking challenges that go into transitioning, but it is still the best decision I have made in my life.

I'm so glad that none of you can see the messages that I send to my beloved. It's too gay for even any of you to handle.

She is a cissie, though.

i like how half of the posts in the trans megathread arent even about being trans or gender or anything, its just the place for trans people to post. and it has more activity than the normal mega all the time. hexbear is a very trans site lol

Good news: My insurance approved electrolysis

Bad news: The only place taking my insurance is over an hour away by car. And I don't have a car

How's the public transportation route look? Oh over 6 hours (if every single bus is on time) with half an hour of walking in extreme summer heat. Love that US infrastructure

Trump on Walz: "He's very heavily into transgender. Anything transgender, he thinks is great."

who here is heavily into transgender

go on trans reddit

Noncredibledefense posting

close trans reddit

guys please never ban me from here i hate trans reddit so goddamn much

I went to a lesbian bar also first time dressing femme and wearing my hair long and I just felt alienated. Maybe my dysphoria but like shit I was just alone for the whole time. I struck up a conversation with someone then asked if they wanted to smoke to which they said yeah and then after a short nothing conversation they left and so did I

But it honestly did feel so natural wearing my hair long in my crop top not giving a fuck

i'm in a work meeting right now and people are admitting that they make fake fan accounts in fan community discords/reddit/etc. to seed discussions and drive sales. i mean, i know it's happening and have been for a while, but i think i will probably tell as many people as possible how common this business practice is

Does anyone want to see my totally not a Sonic OC that I made and haven't done anything with?

Just had an incredible time going to a queer gathering in the woods. I cannot emphasize how life affirming it is to be in queer dominant spaces, people. Feel the best that I have in months.

This is your daily reminder to try a new gender today. You should change your pronouns at least once per year for good opsec

381 evil dating app questions? Fuck this stupid Q&A. My ratings are all really boring and don't deviate from the middle of the % bar by more than like, a fifth. Maybe I answered too many?

Fuck the dating part though, that fucking quiz gave me so much psychic damage. Bunch of weird fucking liberal fucking imperial core fucking western "democracy" bootlicking ass shit.

It also asks me freak transphobe questions about trans people when I fuckin specified in the gender section. God there must be such bad brainworms on here, seriously fuck this thing. I am legit mad now. Do not.

The only good personality quiz is the one at the start of Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Red/Blue Rescue Team.

I think I'm in a good enough mental space to come back here, or at least attempt to. The depression seems to have finally lifted thankfully, maybe. Just replaced with some stress. Either way, I hope everyone's doing well.

Body Hair Eradicated

what if you wanted to refresh the transgender hex bear dot net (formerly chapo dot chat) mega thread, but the browser said '504 Gateway Time-out'

many such cases unfortunately

Broke what has been a pretty major mental barrier for me and went outside in a skirt today

thighs are getting pretty squishy

Feeling quite excited to play minecraft with the trans people in my 'puter~

My twin called me a transgender lesbian... how did he know what the fuck

Down with cis

Saw a pretty girl, back to being bi again

::: spoiler parental transphobia, forced outing I sometimes wonder if I come across on here as having all this gender stuff all worked out... in reality, I'm just a huge fucking mess lol. I have no advice for coming out to parents because I got forcibly outed when I was a teenager, I'm just lucky that the worst that happened were a couple of really horrible transphobic conversations but no complete disowning. I'm not on T and I'm four years into all this, thanks to a combination of ADHD and living with my parents (who have no idea that I want to physically transition — my mom didn't even like the idea of me going on birth control.) I'm socially out for the most part but I girlmoded throughout all my time at my past job and I'm considering doing that again for my next. I haven't even legally changed my name yet. I still feel like I'm not great at this whole "being trans" thing and I don't know how to do half the stuff that's associated with it, like all the health insurance stuff is hell for my ADHD brain. Since I currently live with my parents I exist in this sort of half-closeted limbo state with them, like they know I'm not cis but because of my past bad experiences I just haven't pushed on it further. :::

Well fuck. I have to come out as trans to my conservative brother today.

::: spoiler transphobia and homophobia I've gone almost 3 years now without telling him, because he's a transphobic techbro dipshit. He tolerates gay people, but thinks trans people are all mentally ill and just need conversion therapy or something. I really don't want to do this, but I can't delay it any longer. It's obvious that I've become much more feminine over the past few years, and lately he's been questioning my parents about what's up with me and if I'm gay or something. If I don't say anything he'll just force an answer out of my parents. Currently he's in another country, and won't be returning for probably another few months, but I'm still really scared of how he'll react.

I fucking hate this shit so much. I can't handle conflict, yet I have no choice here. And it has to happen now, when I'm pretty much at my lowest point in terms of confidence and self-worth. Why can't I just exist? Why does this have to be such a big fucking thing that I have to announce to others? Why can't other people just mind their own fucking business and let me come out at my own pace?

He's also taller than me and way stronger, so that's fun. I'm not comfortable with the fact that he could beat the shit out of me if he felt like it, even if it seems unlikely that he'll do such a thing. :::

I was talking with my grandfather (who i'm not out to) earlier today and he called me a completely wrong, mostly femme name by complete accident and actually? I kind of like it now? I think I'm going to have to try out a new name now? I can't post it publicly here but wow I already have a second name for myself?

big nazi rallies and pgoroms were planned all over today, one near my area. and honestly none of them even showed up. every day people, not just blac bloc antifa types, were jumping at the bit to kick the shit out of them lmao, but none of them even showed up

I kinda like extreme heights. I'm not fussed on whatever height a partner is, generally I can appreciate anything, but if you are really tall or really short I think that's great. I guess because I am a median kinda height, but I either want you to put your chin on my head or let me use you as an armrest. Because cute

The ADHD really is ADHD-ing today.

Can I create another girl inside of me to forcefem me cause this part of transition sucks ngl

The matrix and it’s consequences have been a disaster for the trans mega

Going to and for the next two weeks or so. Going on a backpacking trip. Keep up the down with cis posting in my absence as the spirit strikes thee.

just remembered the time i was at a club and a cis girl rudely pushed me aside and told me to get out of the way so she could see the drag performers. like sorry the queer is taking up space??

Just gonna drop by to say I love my trans comrades

It always amazes me how much better everything tastes/sounds/looks when I'm feeling good vs not. This was a great night hexbear, I love you all very much The people on this funny bear website help me a lot. I hope I can come out, be accepted, and start my physical/social transition soon. Anyway I'm just feeling happy and emotional. Goodnight.

The fact that being attracted to other women is now gay for me is pretty great. Though I'm terrified of the reality I now live in where being attracted to men is now.... STRAIGHT shudders

trying to stop myself from drinking by saying that i need to lose weight if I want to weight cycle so I can get girl curves

Oh yeah, chug that entire bottle of Sake girl, it'll be great

That's at least 800 empty alcohol based calories and you're already struggling to get down below 200, let alone your goal of 185. Don't do it

I was born in the Saint Judes Incredibly Gay Children's Hospital for Profoundly Homosexual Children

They call ya Mommy once and it activates some hidden subroutine

Correct, yes, I am Mommy

Did you all see this fake headline making the rounds yet?

To be honest at the current rate of things I wouldn't be surprised if the transvestigators try to do this in two years.

oh this is BULLSHIT. i just changed pharmacies and now this spiro doesn't smell as good as the last batch what the FUCK

::: spoiler horny me and my partner finally christened our bed. they just moved in with me. before we got here she asked me what my bed was like for sex and i realised i'd never had sex in it. results: good for fucking this is a trans post because we are trans. :::

Idk if anyone can relate to this, but on the topic of they/them pronouns for the longest time I used them alongside she/her, but I kind of realized I was only doing so because I couldn’t accept myself as a woman and as a way to endure the third-gendering cis people often inflict on binary trans people.

i need to remove my black nail polish because of "work-place hygiene" smdh utter transphobia

Stop surpassing us news nerds or I will call my mom

Sorry slept in

Wish me luck ya’ll, got my first laser appt for bottom surgery tomorrow, and am both hype for results and emphatically not hype for the pain.

getting bullied for making the same meal (and variations thereof) too often. There's variations! I'm mixing it up! Sometimes the ingredients change! Sometimes it's a sauce on rice, sometimes it's sauce in rice, sometimes it's rice in stew! I'm iterating, I'm innovating, I'm perfecting this shit but nooo I have a limited palate and a poverty mindset.

Gonna eat potatoes alone out of sheer spite rn

gotta give it to him, joe biden answering "at least three" when asked how many genders there are is pretty funny

oh maybe i should become someone with 5 middle names

me --->

I am once again asking if there's any dating apps that aren't completely awful for transbians

thinking of awful things. what if the general mega rebranded as the Cis Megathread and started competing as well

I'm writing a blog post rn and honestly kind of having fun with it. Just on a Wordpress free plan for now, until I can get a job and actually get a domain and stuff. I yearn to outfitpost and I hate instagram -> thus, blog.

::: spoiler so I thought getting gendered correctly was the best feeling ever but its actually getting called your real name. That word had been rattling around in my brain for a while, and that's why. Because that's who I really am. And getting called it feels so good.

Another great day I'm the happiest girl in the world right now. I am very excited for all my other firsts.

I know there's been a lot of emotion posting, I have a special interest post I have been meaning to make, I will try and actually write it out soon. You all better like nerdy >.< :::

Is this the normal bi-cycle or am I straight cause if I'm straight I swear to god I'm gonna be pissed

Oh my god I got ass eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I mean I already had a nice one even pre-E but now it's gotten noticeable even in boy pants

Having a pretty lovely transiversary~ 4 years of being one of them gosh danged transes, it feels really nice.

Went out in my favourite casual outfit to go to a cafe with my brother who was visiting, and I even managed to push myself to go do groceries while still en femme. Proud of myself for that second bit. Plus honestly it's incredible how much better I feel from going out en femme after so long. And I got complimented when I got home by one of my roommate's friends! Still the cutest girl alive~

And apparently I slimmed a bit, since I can't wear my favourite skirt as a high waist quite as easily as I could before. I think my weight might be cycling considering I saw the increase of fat in my ass so that's nice. Sad I can't wear my favourite skirt now though, gonna have to tailor it smaller.

But now I'm back home and can take the rest of the day nice and easy and mess around building cute stuff on the minecraft server now that it's up. Feeling very, very good.

There's basically only one friend I haven't come out as trans to because we only talk on discord, and it's really starting to bother me that he doesn't know, but also I'm meeting him in person next month and I think it would be funny to tell him I just ate too much soy or something and that's why I look like this now idk.

He does treats me differently now so maybe he's already figured it out and is just waiting for me to say something anyway, I definitely act and sound pretty different than I used to.

i genuinely feel like i would be so much further ahead in life if i didn't have adhd. i could have a job that doesn't pay absolute shit, a degree, an earlier transition, etc.

actually debilitating

Genderfluid in the sense that inside of me there are two wolves and one of them has been having an existential crisis for most of the past 10 days and doesn't really care about gender that much right now as a result and the other really wants to be more feminine and gets most of the joy and dysphoria from that... and also there's like two dead wolves over on the side don't worry about that <-- me right now

First time binding with trans tape, today.

::: spoiler not-so-quick initial review

1. It doesn't get the chest down completely flat, which I was expecting; however I do wish I had managed to bind a little flatter? Right now it looks like I have either small A cups or very large pecs, and there's definitely still cleavage there. In the videos I watched it seemed that the people in them were able to get slightly flatter results. This may also be an issue of self-perception and things coming across differently on video, though.

2. The good part is, when I put on a shirt, it does sell the illusion a lot better. From the front view the illusion works best, from the side view again, looks like small A cups to me but still not too bad. Definitely a lot better than the B/C cup boob silhouette that I was getting really tired of. (I don't know exactly what size bra I wear, the last time I wore a bra at all regularly I was a B cup but that was 5 years ago and I think my boobs have grown since then.)

3. Definitely feel a lot more comfortable than a traditional binder, which was my main reason for getting it. I got my first binder when I was 18, and right after getting that binder I got COVID. Since then, binders have just... not been comfortable for me, and the last time I tried wearing one I had to take it off really quickly just because of how much difficulty breathing I was having. I could probably get slightly flatter results with a binder, but I don't think it's worth the health risk. I know people also use sports bras for the compression, but I hate bras. They are sensory hell to me and they always have been.

4. I was not wearing a binder regularly because of how uncomfortable I found it. I think I may try to bind more regularly now with the tape, because yeah, always having to dissociate a bit from my chest area got to be tiring after idk two years of doing it. Hopefully I'll get top surgery sooner rather than later, but I think that's probably still at least a few years off, unfortunately.

5. Since this is my first time applying it, my application was pretty sloppy and I had to redo one side. I think I'll get better at that as time goes on.

6. Not having saggy tits is such a boost to my mental health. I know there are probably some people in this thread who want saggy tits, and all I can say is: take my saggy tit energy :::

Hello everybody, hope you are having a good week, much love!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🥰🥰🥰🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

~All Trans Mega Users Are Obligated To Respond To This Post~

Have you ever played a Sonic?
Which ones? What is your favorite?
Who is your favorite character?

transbian polycule dating be like:

::: spoiler voice stuff Having a good voice would help me so much mentally, but voice training is the last thing in the world I want to do. It's all just so hard. I hated my voice changing during puberty, and I still hate it now.

I genuinely can't both speak and ask for she/her. :::

Sorry. Just struggle with it.

Well, I put everything in the vial and sealed it. If it dissolves properly by Monday, I'll sterilize it in a pressure cooker because I'm too lazy to do it properly.

I've never taken any medicine by injection before, let alone something I've made myself. And I honestly have no idea what happens if it goes wrong.

::: spoiler nsfw kinda okay fuck the people who promised my sex drive would inevitably be lower on hrt. Like the moron I am I believed them, and I thought it was a bit sad, but was pretty okay with it since I don't have a partner anyway, so why did I get the literal opposite problem where I feel just unbearably horny half the time? Eveything cis people tell me about transitioning always turns out to be completely wrong. :::

Someone threw a rock at my apartment?? I dunno if they aimed it at my place but it hit my balcony and made the bars ring. It's kind of a nice skipping stone style rock... weird. I'm 3 stories up, that's quite the throw

::: spoiler nsfw bdsmtest is too cisgender. discuss :::

Everyday we get a little closer to making femboy hooters a reality

i got beautiful fishnet wristwarmers chat! im going to be pillaging rome soon, that's the amount of goth im getting to

ice cold sodie pop and a can of salt and vinegar crisps for breakfast yeah I'm a real grown up

https://lemmygrad.ml/pictrs/image/c5e0b5c3-008b-47bf-a11c-58ea3eb6566e.webp

Okay but have you considered two lesbians?

I don't usually post dreams cuz they're stupid, but last night I dreamt I was talking to seryph and tomboymoder abt various things whilst buying my wife a DSi. As if the matrix was a real place or something.

Think I’m gonna get into Jazz
I’mma make it an annoying part of my personality until I inevitably drop it and move on to something else.

My first apartment ever, I paid $700 a month for a 3 bedroom apartment. Can you imagine??? Now I pay $1000 for 1 bedroom and even then that's the cheap end in a rougher neighbourhood.

One neat trick computer experts don't want you to know: There's unlimited secure file storage in /dev/null.

Went thrifting today, first time clothes shopping in I think over a year so I kind of went all out and bought a lot of stuff, most of it in black because I can never have enough black pieces in my wardrobe. I'm most excited about the blazers I got, definitely looking forward to DIYing a punk blazer. I honestly feel like my wardrobe is missing some good basics; I really need a few good black dresses for example, and I didn't find any today that I loved.

actually, donkey kong is the scientist. you're thinking of donkey kong's monster

TERFS FUCK OFF • TRANS LIBERATION NOW 🩷🤍🩵

Womens Action Group founder, Michelle Uriaru, and her fascist ilk are planning a transphobic rally.

Help our community drown out the hateful and regressive rhetoric!

FASCISTS OFF OUR STREETS!
DESTROY CARCERAL FEMINISM!
TRANS LIBERATION NOW!

Please join us to show your support for trans liberation:
• Saturday 17th
• 12pm
• Parliament House
• Bring noisemakers and everyone you know!

We must continue to oppose fascism militantly. See you there.

Share to your socials!\

https://www.instagram.com/p/C-TuSPIzalR/

crossposting local to me info

Yknow what fuck it, they’ve gone too far, it’s color revolution time

I’m gonna be the news mega’s zelensky, who’s gonna be my navalny/prigo/zaluzhnyi/ponomarev/kasparov/etc

still mad as fuck at the IOC over pulling the olympic licence for mario and sonic. and what did they give us? some shitty mobile game with fucking NFTs. was the mario and sonic at the olympic games series just a shitty minigame collection? sure, but I liked the shitty mini game collection god damn it, that was a fun party game

bought 4 kilos of sunflower seeds and I'm gonna go to the river and feed the geese and ducks and pigeons. I fucking LOVE the god damn birds and I WILL give them kilos of yummy nutritious seeds

sometimes i genuinely forget that people are invested in cishet norms. like i forget people are straight and think gender is normal and good. it just seems obvious to me that gender isnt real and then people come along and are very invested in biologism or something

i'm so leftist that my left tiddy is noticably bigger than the right one

staring at my steam collection of 441 games, and I have nothing I want to play

wake up

put on a T shirt

realize i put on a T shirt instead of an E shirt

day ruined

if you move slash in it/its you get i/tits

i feel like sonic and link are in the same category where someone could say they're transmasc and someone could say they're transfem. and they would both be right. exceptionally transgender creatures

I think I have worked out that my personal fashion ideal is "fancy romantic goth meets patched-up punk". I love the juxtaposition of like, a frilly white blouse and heaps of pearl bead jewelry with scuffed-up patch pants.

No thoughts, head empty, gay

I have been girlshopping for the past... maybe two or three hours? And my god everything is expensive, small, and/or poorly made. At first I was just adding stuff to the list, but after looking deeper at the reviews a lot of it is cheap garbage that won't even fit me right. I need to re-evaluate and pick the handful of things I want most I guess. Why is being a girl so expensive.

Anthropology has a lot to answer for. Back in the 90s, a transphobe named Serena Nanda turned the gaze of the university onto the issue of gender in India and we are still living with the consequences. With the power of imperial knowledge-making behind her, she has laid down the dogma that only (educated, middle-class, white) Westerners claim to be trans women while those Indians we call hijra are actually a third gender. All the cis academics since agree with her and even the Indian courts cite her, so it must be true, right? So if you see photos of a protest with signs like "Hijras are women" or Indian trans women saying that they're trans women, you can rest assured that's that just our malign colonial influence. The exotic truth, on the other hand, is safely preserved in the centers of power of the Anglophone world thanks to the daily labor of cis academics everywhere – preserved from the colonial force of white trans women who threaten to extend their reach everywhere.

sisyphus must be stoked for the heat death of the universe

down with cis

Having trans thoughts all day every day is tiring, actually.

Also had the chance to buy a cute plushie the other day and didn't take it (cuz scared), kicking myself now.

A couple days ago I was speaking with my mother and she deadnamed me. Much to my surprise, it did not affect me in the slightest when I used to get angry with her. I guess I've finally dissociated with it. Kinda nice that my deadname holds no dominion over me any longer.

look, i'm not trying to troll the weird transphobes by fucking with their own logic, but every time I hear that one tired transphobe argument of "but this isn't how god made you", I can't help but just flatly disagree. I'm not sure if there was some form of divine intelligence that aided or steered in my creation, but if there was, I'm pretty sure god just made me trans. It's really that simple

::: spoiler body stuff, mostly positive i had a really interesting conversation with a cis woman friend who is the same height as me, and has a large bone structure (mine is slightly larger but we're similar in a lot of ways). i'm totally cool with my height, i think i have the right height for my sense of self. and i was kinda surprised to learn that she has always wanted to be shorter, more petite etc. surprised because i have always appreciated how she looks and i know she appreciates the strenght etc that come with how she's built.

it's like she has more gender dysphoria as a cis woman than i do. and my heart goes out to her for it. she can relate in a lot of ways to my experience being trans and intersex. :::

I have too much anxiety to go to an actual barber shop so I’ve been doing my own hair and it’s a bit of a mess right now

fun little trans thing: looking down at the ground and seeing your own cleavage like you're checking your health in that one jurassic park game.

::: spoiler dysphoria (but I'm actually feeling good right now) Chat I am so big/cooked. I was talking with some lovely people earlier about shoe size and its so over for me. I knew my feet were big but apparently my idea of "very small" (I remember wearing bigger at like 11/12) is actually big for women. Basically its all over. T has made my body so incredibly large.

Supposedly this large size doesn't effect passing but I don't buy it. Also just being small and cute would be kinda nice idk.

I know this sounds like I'm sad/crying or whatever but I'm actually just which is very weird but welcome. Uh also sorry if I've posted about my size recently I don't remember what I post vs what I think about posting at all and my sense of time is fucked. :::

Having peach fuzz is fine, I am a mammal
Having peach fuzz is fine, I am a mammal
Having peach fuzz is fine, I am a mammal
Having peach fuzz is fine, I am a mammal
Having peach fuzz is fine, I am a mammal

I feel bad because I pushed back on some wild racism by a friend's family member and the vibe definitely got awkward afterwards. Like, I know it was the right thing to do and all, but I hate confrontation and I feel it was my fault things got weird.

All my coworkers are asleep, ah this is perfect. No one is listening to music or the olympics, no one wants to talk to me and make a connection, just silence.

1,488 comments. fucked up

I absolutely am a 'cannot eat without youtube' baby. but part of it is I find chewing noises, even my own, EXTREMELY over stimulating. the other part of it absolutely is having baby brain where I need constant stimulation and entertainment tho, can't lie

::: spoiler weed doc today

let's see if I've been appropriately self medicating for years or if I've got a substance use disorder shall we

::: spoiler starting HRT week 3, boobs and cum, dead bedroom Third sub-c shot. Nipples were sensitive all last week. This morning I noticed my ejaculation was mostly clear, so I guess my sperm production is down.

Girlfriend and I aren't having sex atm so she can find more sense of safety, which is something we both want. But there's no flirting or passion in our relationship right now and because of chronic tension and cPTSD, I hurt myself and flareup every time I try to go do something fun with her.

Feeling like I'm going through all these sexual changes alone, like I can't share with her right now without it making things uncomfortable. And like she'd be happier dating someone that's not chronically tense to the point of disability. :::

On the bright side, third HRT shot and started voice training. Working with a straw to feel more vibration in the front of my face. Yesterday I was on the back step smoking, talking to brainworms in my femm voice.

Reading a collection of trans essays called trans-gressions. And ordered A Thousand Plateaus by Deleuze and Guattari.

Are you really living if you're not listening to your fave album of the week, having two to five conversations on Discord, and flipping between social media sites?

WHAT THE FUCK, I JUST FOUND OUT MY TRANSGENDER WIFE HAS NEVER PLAYED FALLOUT NEW VEGAS

trans mega 200 comments ahead of news mega. thank you nothing ever happens bros for keeping the news mega quiet

@Eco@hexbear.net Is Shadow the Hedgehog rlly a transbian, does this mean Sonic and Shadow are sapphic t4t

need very large woman to crush me to death with big hugs

Trying to make a sim that looks like me, but I haven't looked in a mirror in 3 years.
What I have so far kind of reminds me of my sister though, so I think I am close.

i took away the upbear numbers and i dont know if i like it

i dont stress about post quality but i dont get the dopamine hits when lovely comrades upbear my comments. what do?

::: spoiler job hunting I feel like I am in this weird position where my past work experience is rather atypical for someone my age to the point where despite the fact that it was pretty specialized work, I don't feel confident in being able to get another job like it. For context I was an art teacher/art teacher's assistant (I honestly do not really know what category I'd fall into) at this private art studio, right out of high school. So I have a lot of experience with teaching art, working with kids K-12, and also with photo editing. But also I don't have a college degree yet, let alone any sort of teacher's certificate so I don't feel confident in applying for most art teaching jobs. Art tutoring jobs, maybe...? :::

CW sadposting, dysphoria, executive dysfunction, hygiene/grooming

::: spoiler spoiler Should have showered and shaved and went to the store earlier, couldn't bring myself to have to interact with my own body like that or look in the mirror to shave and ended up blowing the whole thing off and feel disgusting and exhausted by everything

When I was young, I hoped I could be beautiful someday

Then it became hoping I could be decent looking

Then it became hoping I could look normal enough to go out in public without feeling uncomfortable

Now the bar's sunk to the level of just hoping I can put up with myself enough to function sometimes

I feel like I'm running out of expectations to lower and ways to disappoint myself more

I know sometimes I just have shitty mental health days and can catastrophize and this ain't my first rodeo but I just get so fucking tired of having to be me sometimes :::

Not giving in to social anxiety by deleting comments

remember when the Kiwi governmentt crushed unions so the hobbit movies could be made in New Zealand, what bastards. utterly crushed creative industries in NZ

When it takes every fiber of your being to resist wanting to strangle transphobes to death with your bare hands.

had to leave work after less than an hour because i'm super sick

People always think I am younger than I am and I can't tell if it's just because I am short or because I am cognitively stunted in some way.

I'm feeling very depressed this evening and I genuinely cannot tell whether it is because of dysphoria or because I lost at some meaningless video game

::: spoiler boy mode, suicide attempt, and body image When I'm boy moding my body image is not accurate. I 100% have had hair bangs down to my chin for over a year.

When I'm boy moding I imagine that my hair is shaved short.

I also noticed yesterday in the hospital, after boy mode landed me there by eating a bunch of pills*, that I've been covering up worry with restlessness, anger, and sensual desire. It happens reflexively. Boy mode doesn't allow for worry and this quickly blows up my relationship with my gf, other people I'm close with, and my life in general.

Noticing this distorted body image I think will help me be more mindful of myself. And challenging the false body image feels affirming even if worry is uncomfortable for me. It's also easier for my GF than this mess I keep putting her through.

*I won't say what but it was dicey. I have some schooling in pharmacology and had researched which meds and how much when upset last month. This was impulse yesterday and I quickly regretted it. I ate some activated charcoal at home and they gave me more at the hospital as well as IV fluids. I think the charcoal caught a lot of it based on subjective experience and articles I had read about overdosing on this med. There's less dangerous ones in this class I'll talk to my Dr about switching too. :::

::: spoiler boobs I think I've always had breast buds. Very sensitive nipples since puberty. A week into sub-c HRT and they're already sore when I barely bump my arm against them etc. :::

::: spoiler Discussing bottom surgery For me, life after bottom surgery has been amazing. I'm still amazed sometimes when I look in the mirror and see a vagina. Sometimes I still have thoughts of "I wish I had a vagina" and have an "oh wait" moment just a second later. It's something you'd think one would get used to after 4 months, but gods, it still amazes me day after day. :::

The council of transes has decided your fate... 1000 years as a cute girl! (Alternately cute boy or enby)

Everyone stop posting about Sonic now so I can sleep

Mania honestly has the most dog-shit sprites and art style.
Everything is too shiny and Sonic is a sickly bright blue instead of the nice cool shade he has in every other game, he looks radioactive.
Sonic 3 clears.

::: spoiler complaining about scars ::: spoiler self harm scars/talking about past self harm So as some of you know, I have a bit of a problem. Relapsed twice recently, although I'm really hoping that's the last of it. I know they still have a lot of fading to do but they're very obvious right now. Very pink. I don't know... Scars just make me really sad. Especially because I really like thighs, and I'd like to like mine. But now there's (potentially) two big ol marks on them, reminding me.

I have others, in more obvious spots even too. I don't know. Just hate scarring. I guess in some ways it keeps me from doing it more. Often it's the only reason I don't.

I don't know, sorry I guess. I'm not like super upset or crying right now. Just been thinking about it a lot and wanted to say something about it. A lot of the time I'll just get stuck on a thought until I talk about it. Maybe that's an autism thing idk. :::

I feel like d*scord doesn't really notify me when i get a message so i end responding hours later and worrying that the other person thinks i was being rude

seeing the newspapers celebrating the counter-protestors as if these fascist protests weren't a direct result of their anti-immigrant rhetoric is insane

you guys should post more when I am busy so I have more content to come back to and read, please. thank you for your consideration

I like that we have just pulled ahead of the news mega through the sheer power of Sonic

Every night I wait until midnight so I can do the days NYT puzzles when they come out.
I feel like such a little nerd or grandma 😔

It’s bullshit that my epilator takes longer to charge than it takes to deplete the battery.

pffft. cis people aren't real. they're an old kids tale from 17th century hungary to scare children into eating their turnips

abrathatfits has me in C/D range instead of B/C now

The temperature has been cooler these past couple of days, and I'm actually so happy that it has. Windows can be open, I can hike, and the air feels much more fresh, even if it's still humid.

I got spontaneously gendered correctly at work yesterday (first time) by someone who actually knows me (not an accident) but only through work. Kinda bizarre, made me feel very weird conflicted feelings because I def have a crush on her but she reads as straight (maybe bi? Feels like cope) to me which means that my pipe dreams of making out with her are going up in smoke (there was always no chance)

getting jokerfied applying for apartment viewings. go to reality websites, message like 7 estate agents, 6 call you back to tell you the place that was listed 2 days ago is already rented out. I have some viewings set up, and more I am waiting to be gotten back to on.

why can I not just walk into the appartment shop, pick one, and say then and there yes I want this one here is money let me live there now. I don't wanna deal with all this shit

Based Sonic Mega.

*withering*

Uh oh, I can feel myself expiring. I must read something w/lesbians in it else I will not last. dang...

::: spoiler weight loss When I went vegan almost a year ago, I lost about 30 lbs fairly rapidly over the course of a month. It made a large part of my wardrobe unwearable. I didn't have a lot of money so I was only able to replace a portion of it using thrift stores. Then about 3 months ago, I started Adderall for ADHD. I lost another 10 lbs and now some of those replacement clothes are getting loose and baggy too, including a new bra that's now too loose in the band. And I have even less money than I did before and I'm at a loss at what to do. I've tried but putting the weight back on but I can't eat enough to the calories to do that. I have a sewing kit but not like a machine or anything and trying to adjust clothes seems like a nightmare. I also don't have a ton of experience so it'd be slow and I'd probably fuck it up too.

I don't regret going vegan or starting medication but I wish I didn't lose the weight. I miss the roundness in my face :::

::: spoiler horni I thought I was ready to hang up my hat on sex. Finish off on a high note and never fuck again.

But the horniness... why must you come back... just stay away, you do not spark joy, you are not wanted :::

keep staring at my face in the mirror thinking "nothing has changed" and "a lot has changed" both at the same time somehow

guess who drank dangerous tap water yesterday 🥰

Pokemon but it's me collecting trans people in my DMs instead of animals.

::: spoiler height dysphoria stuff This past week has been filled with constant reminders that I'm way taller than the average person. People commenting or joking about how tall I am compared to them, my head almost reaching the ceiling, hitting my head on door frames, couches and chairs being too low for my long legs, can't use changing rooms because the curtains are too low. I hate being tall so much, even if it doesn't have any impact on passing (I think it does). I was hoping hrt would make me lose a couple of centimeters at least, but I'm almost a year into hrt now and still the exact same fucking height :::

@thirtymilliondeadfish@hexbear.net you need to start posting in here or i'm gonna get mad

There's bad boys, there's sad boys, we should invent more boys

Rad boys, add boys (🧮), glad boys (ooh that's a good one), comrade boys, crab boys (carsinization is inevitable, might as well get a sneak peek in), fab boys (modern dandies🤔), lab boys, plaid boys, armor-clad boys (bring back pretty knights), the possibilities are essentially endless we could start with the lab boys, they'll help invent the rest

I've been busy thinkin bout boys

Altering my pronouns because very many skyr*m g*mers used "they" no ill will, I'm sure 90% of these users just did not see the original poster or were doing the autism thing where you default to "they" for everyone, but like blegh. Nty.

out of spiro, almost out of E. got to go back into the pharmacy again.

love being off sick for three days and my workplace is noticeably gross. how does this place get five stars on its hygiene ratings

I get a lot of drive time at work and I usually spend the time listening to audiobooks or singing. The last few weeks/months I've been doing a few hours of voice training a week. The lesson videos are helpful for showing me what I need to work on, but I have found it substantially more helpful to just sing and work on it that way. I think I'm really starting to get close too.

I made a really good sandwich

i'm making trans skibidi

fuck sakes, it set to go back up to like 30c over the weekend, gdi. I was enjoying how mild today has been

Obviously we all have different brains and many of you probably have more dysphoria than me, but what mental changes have you all (specifically adhd peeps) experienced with hrt?

The transgenderman is the best Minecraft mob. He teleports into your base and steals your hormones/genitals

managed to last five hours at work today before exhaustion got the better of me

hope tomorrow will be okay

words of affirmation for transfems 🥰

::: spoiler Unabashedly Horny Tweet :::

oh my fucking god i am so tired. the lack of T is shrinking sll my muscles and it is making me so, so very tired. i am the human equivalent of a deflated balloon

ugh i've slept so much and still feel shit

if anyone who earns six figures ever complains about being broke they owe me a year of their salary

I started explaining the COD zombies lore to my wife, and she said "this sounds like some unhinged kingdom hearts level shit"

Didn't get the promotion, boss hired some external candidate instead. I guess our workplace needed at least one cis man.

All my coworkers have told me that they wish it was me, and so do I kinda, but this is also kinda freeing - I don't need to worry about doing anything more than my job, I can stop stressing about the program as a whole and just focus on my tiny corner. Coast for a bit.

Nervous that this new guy is gonna be my supervisor though, even though he's completely new to the agency and doesn't really know our shelter's unique culture...

Wrote a gender thing in an older thread I just found if anybody wants to read it and compare notes or something

::: spoiler addiction I know nicotine really is bad for you on HRT, it blocks some of the uptake of estrogen and stuff. and ofc, it's bad for you in general. but damn there is no way in hell I could cope quiting nicotine, and that kinda sucks. I need my vape stimmie chemicals to stop my ADHD riddled unmedicated brain from exploding :::

trying really hard to not horny post right now, this one thought just keeps going around in my head and it's killing me

Just had to pay $600 to renew my license and insurance for my job. Grrr

2003 is the year Sonic Heroes came out

Worried sick about a missing cat, dead tired and don't know if I'll be able to get any actual sleep

This is a good litmus test for politics; do you view this bee with respect or disgust?

sexuality nerds: is there a term for when you have a platonic crush on your friend but you wouldn't mind having a good conversation then kissing once before deciding not to do it again?

real image of me cooking curry in a completely unventilated kitchen

wishing to wake up groundhog's day style on the day i came out to various people just to see what would be the funniest way to do it

Managed to get another AC and dehumidifier at a bargain outlet, so far so good. The basement no longer reeks of mold and my room will cool into something sleepable at night. The past week I've been rolling around at 1-3hrs of sleep, just can't stay out with the heat, last night though I slept like 11hrs. Sleep I've missed you.

I don’t care when it came out Sonic CD takes place after 3&K chronologically

watching a retrospective of mirror's edge and the reviewer has spent an extended period of time complaining that the shooting sucks and is clunky. like no shit?? it's almost like it's discouraging you from using guns

I'm in full autism mode today :D

Like I've probably talked more about useless bullshit on here then I have in awhile.

my new full tarot deck is here!

did two readings and they were great, love the art on these too, looks even better than it did on the store page

Playing the Sims has been very revealing for what I want to look like. I kept accidentally choosing the fashion I like for Sims instead of fashion that fits their character.

Anyway, it has helped me figure out that I like very practical-looking clothes. Big cargo pants, boots, gloves, sweaters with a rope across them. Also white hair, I definitely want white hair. Basically I want my gender to be some kind of rugged adventurer from a fantasy or sci-fi world. Masc? Fem? Dunno what those mean, I have a quest to complete

::: spoiler dysphoria, gender envy, BDD I live in a city with a lot of immigration from Latin America so it’s not uncommon to see both very short men and women, but every time I have to walk near a short petite women it makes me feel like a lumbering beast in comparison :::

I'm like 8 months in and I still never internally gender myself correctly. Very frustrating for me, why is this

Went to the vape shop (pls no bully, it's better than smokes and I'm not a MLG siqq phat clouds dweeb) and was super anxious about going out initially but the cashier guy was really nice to me and seemed like a sweet doofy hot couch weeb dude. He had Naruto ear plugs lol

(also I got super lucky leaving a really congested parking lot with perfect timing taking a left in a break in traffic)

:everything-went-better-than-expected:

Everyone saying their favorite character is Knuckles where the fuck is the love for my girl Amy!?
(and also Shadow)

My dream included the friend I haven't seen in over a decade and barely talk to (but whom I headcanon as trans for basically no reason) as a goth girl. I blame wearing purple and green (eva unit 01 colored) hair clips while driving yesterday. Now I'm gonna be disappointed when I see him next and he's not a goth girl. /j

uhh... how does one apply for jobs as a college student lol, i'm struggling

(i have had one job before but it was one that i did not need to apply for because the person hiring me was a former art teacher)

underutilised emote

Sister is back home.
I ended up having to mediate the conversation between her and my parents, I think I did a good job.

I decided to finally check out fear and hunger termina. spooky occultist gothic weirdcore RPG. yeah, nooo, my anxiety is far too high today to deal wih being chased and spooky jumpscare batle encounters thank you. perhaps some other time

I have been informed that everybody is super sonic racing? kinda concerned by this trend

the new yorker, new york times, and new york magazine need to get together and either merge or change names

Accidentally bumped my boob in the dryer door while parents were over and made an "ow" noice and worried they might wonder why I was hurt by that before remembering cis people probably would never connect that .

I have an ugly tattoo on one shoulder. Which bothers me when I wear clothes that show my shoulders. That and being 6' has made dress shopping unfruitful.

Been wearing skirts and T-shirts since I began social transitioning. Have put together some cure outfits. But I look like a teenager.

Bought a black dress today that fits me well and covers my shoulder.

Feels nice to have a more adult looking outfit.

Sitting down to pee because I hate the lingering smell of boy pheromones in my girl bathroom.

This evil dating app fucking sucks, it keeps spitting out temp email addresses I give it. I hope no anon is stupid enough to make an Outlook or Yahoo for this shit.

Edit: this is really fuckin stupid, every single question in the Q&A needs a longform written response. The categories it grades are neat but goddamn. E.g. "Is it okay to date two people at once as long as you haven't agreed to be exclusive with either of them?" Uh.... like going steady or like first dates? Do I have the option to talk to both of them, or is this some kind of evil thing on the sly? Why is some silicon valley tech startup tryna cringe its way into being a weird fed dating honeypot?

E.g. 2: "Are there too many laws for things which are none of the government's business?" In that gender and sexuality should not be policed maybe, but I aint a fuckin libertarian?

::: spoiler eg3 transphobia "Should children who identify as different genders be allowed to undergo hormone replacement therapy before puberty?" Fuck you die. :::

i'm organizing a queer pawn stars watch party, who's in

This Sonic Mega was a great idea, I can do more of my autism right here!!!!

As a certified Autistic Child, it actually makes me pretty upset that Sonic Adventure DX is bad. I'm not that cut up that it happened once, like some people get all "THEY DEFILED A CLASSIC" about it and sure, but whatever team Sega delegated to it I'm certain were under harsh deadlines and crunch. There is evidence in the code that the devs tried to get LANTERN Lighting system and proper alpha textures/materials to work in DX, but it was abandoned probably due to time constraints.

Naw what bugs me is that they took this Gamecube "update" and then ported it to Windows XP... and 360/PS3... and Steam... while making the video, audio and texture quality even worse. Why, Sega? Death to america. Of course I own one of each cause I am very normal, but the only good version is literally emulating the Dreamcast release, very sad. Not every change in SADX is for the worse, but so many damage the game's ✨ immaculate vibes ✨

If you don't know about SADX somehow, you can read about it here!

I have seen the Dreamcast Conversion Mod, and I think it looks about as good as Dreamcast but it does not play much better. Chat, they fucked up either the controls, the collision maps or both in SADX, I get caught on stuff I would not in Dreamcast :(

Are those Manscape razors actually good for shaving your pubic hair and balls?
Honestly consider getting something like that, might be cheaper than the add up of spending money on disposable razors.

This is by far the worst PMS I've gone through to date. BY FAR. I've been doubled over with cramps for 3 days. I'm super fatigued and can't do anything but sleep. My emotions are bouncing around like a bouncy ball in a dryer. I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm elated, I'm hurt, I'm happy, I'm crying, I'm offended. It's like my emotions are a die in a Sorry! popper and some 4 year old is wailing away at it without abandon. This sucks. This fucking sucks. I hate it. I just want a normal weekend. I want to be able to just paint my fucking minis and smile and not worry about ripping someone apart that doesn't deserve it. Now I'm just waiting for the gods ending migraine that I've been getting with PMS the last few times to crop up and force me into a dark room for an entire day.

::: spoiler CW: Paranoia, True Crime Shit A part of me is actually afraid my sister or her ex will try to murder my family in our sleep because of this drama. :::

::: spoiler girl who has the coriander soap gene, but likes the taste of soap vs girl who has the normal coriander flavour, but doesn't like it they're gay and they kiss :::

what is the point of having hundreds of games on steam if i have nothing to play

back to reading i guess

::: spoiler discussion of prominent transphobes hilarious to me that magdalen berns, or "your favourite transphobe's favourite transphobe", literally died of terminal brain rot. god willing it will come to the rest of them too :::

::: spoiler complaining there is little that sucks the soul out of me quite like getting called to make dinner for my family. it's always an hour-long endeavor. I hate cooking so much. :::

I finally brought myself to get "female" shower gel and shampoo (and conditioner) 😊

But I now realize I unconsciously picked the exact same scents my mom and her sisters would have picked 🤔

I did the water test, and the bottles were labeled correctly. So nothing wrong on that front, at least. The EEn has dissolved to the point where I can only see little specks when I shake up the bottle. Hoping it finishes over the weekend.

kier starmer should budd dwyer himself

mirror's edge still looks better than basically every game that came out in the following 16 years

@CDommunist@hexbear.net answering your guitar instruction questions in the new mega. Justinguitar is my favorite resource on the interwebs, and from my experience as a guitar instructor, most method books are rather similar for those starting out on the instrument. I would encourage pursuing a teacher if the discipline of having semi regular check ins for improvement helps you personally!

Down with news

::: spoiler fan fiction thoughts, not horny for once So I'm reading this WoW fan fiction and the author gave a nice chapter-long look into the thought and psyche of the night elves. And that got me thinking about how a race that is basically immortal would start to think about every other race ie. as short lived and expendable, worth very little when you can blink and everyone you knew from them is gone. And that got me thinking about how inherently fascistic that whole thought is. An eternity of existence and not a single intelligent thought has been raised.

it's a shame Blizzard sucks at writing because they have so many good building blocks for SOMEthing, anything interesting, but that's why i read the fan fiction :::

I feel sick this is very uncool

::: spoiler relationship stuff Girlfriend wants to have a non-sexual open romantic relationship. I'm having difficulty with feeling horny but think I'll just be celebate as I don't feel safe really dating other people.

Not sure how to get through the hornyness. The hormones are changing how I relate to sex but I still like sex.

Is there a definition for this type of relationship so I can find resources for having a non-sexual romantic relationship or resources anyone can share? :::

Me normally: hell yeah I love my nails I love how long they are 💅

::: spoiler spoiler Me when boofing prog: :::

CW: Dysphoria/sad girl hours

::: spoiler Last skirt came in from my first order of girl clothes and.... it kinda sucks :(

The material feels cheap, its too long for how short I am, just a bit to tight for how wide I am. Plus I think I'm too big to wear high-waisted skirts right now anyways...

This fuckin stings because when my egg was cracking and I was looking at women's clothing, that skirt was the first thing to make me audibly say "Oooh! How pretty!" I wanted to try it so bad. I was sooooo fucking excited to see how I looked in it after seeing how I looked in the cheaper one I bought on a whim. I just wanna look as pretty as the girl in my head is.

https://links.hackliberty.org/pictrs/image/757f7db8-8714-407f-840f-b4d1a33df0c2.jpeg

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::: spoiler CW: Family Drama My parents gave my sister an ultimatum: she can get back with her abusive ex, but she can’t do it under their roof.
She just left and they are changing the locks :::

Zelensky has a lot to pay for with this incursion into Russia that's spiked news mega posting

As some of you know, I am thinking about coming out... maybe not immediately but I am thinking about it. One of my big worries is them not understanding, and doing things that might hurt me without meaning to (am fragile ) Obviously I can explain things to them, but I don't want to have to explain everything. Its hard enough being a baby trans without having to explain everything to a cis person.

So my question is what resources would you recommend a cis person read/watch/whatever to better understand a trans person? I'd look at anything you suggested as well obviously, and with that I'm sure explaining would be easier, but being able to offload some of it would be very nice. Any recommendations would be appreciated

::: spoiler Added concerns They are christian and probably think I'm going to hell for this. Not that I care what they think about that, lmao, but also they haven't pestered me about going to hell in forever (I'm a bad girl who was already going) but just to give you an idea where they might be at. But they're the like, "gays are going to hell for living in sin, but that's their issue to work out with god" kinda christian if that makes sense. I don't know, anything I can give them to help them understand and alleviate things a little for me would be really nice. :::

i'm going to personally hunt down bruno mars if my coworker plays his music again tomorrow. every fucking day for two months

i love playing my tabletop game with all my gay ass tabletop friends. we have literally one cis man and the rest of us are trans women

Every song i write, its just trans allegories all the way down

oh yeh, I'm so cool

remember back when there'd be a big release of a game, that'd have like 5 different versions that played entirely differently, even with different stories. like Star Wars episode 3 came out on PS2 and Xbox with one version, a totally different one on DS, another totally different one on gameboy advance, and then they always had a shitty gameloft mobile game with the same name too

I read through half of Boy Parts and just couldn't finish. I've read plenty of extreme horror, I've read plenty of stuff with annoying or morally bad protagonists, I dunno what didn't catch me about it at all. It was like "what if American Psycho was about this one sociopathic alt chick who photographs erotica/fetish art and it took place in the 2020s and also... its a GIRL protagonist" and I dunno, I thought Id be more into that premise. Kinda reminds me of what I would've written to be edgy when I was 15

::: spoiler horny Oh my god chat I want someone who makes me feel small so bad :hyperflush: jesus just the thought of it ::: spoiler more horny Also holy fuck I want a vibrator. Why must I be this way I'm dying aghhhhh alsnfsjkgs :::

brain melting

so tired

why do i keep doing this to myself

Sonic thread ends today

tiktok is a hellsite for many reasons, but the biggest one for me is the shitty annoying music that makes me want to stab myself repeatedly in the ears.

"oh cute animal video! wonder if there's sound" - last words before death

Still haven't figured out how to apply mascara to my lower lashes without making a complete mess

Attempting another voice training regimen, hopefully my meds will help me stay on track this time and I don't get too discouraged. Maybe if I can keep with it long enough, I can start streaming and practice my girlvoice into the void

kitbashing my barbie dolls like I'm Syd from toy story

my list of gender envy sources and transition goals is literally every woman ever except also Kazuma Kiryu is thrown into the mix for some reason

I wrote two and a half cover letters today and I'm tired. Going to have fun doing DIYs now, that's enough adulting for one day.

whoever posted this youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmMubqzMeJDrW7u6d4SJh-Q the other day i love you and all of their videos, i don't remember who it was though

::: spoiler dysphoria I generally like how I look but just randomly I see myself and think “why are those hands and forearms so big? It seems disproportionate. Ahg.” :::

So how did everyone here react when they found out sonic wasn't real?

Thought I'd check out a trans dating app but the best trans dating app article I was reading used totally offensive language (wtf it was on an lgbt website!)

I might try hooking up with a female friend I like. Gf doesn't want sexual intimacy and the emotional intimacy in our relationship seems to revolve around hurt feelings and defenisiveness.

laughing and living so peaceful