got punched in the head by a fascist today after screaming at a march they were doing in my city. I'm fine (it was a very pathetic punch), no regrets, it's scary that that's something I have to worry about regularly now though. stay safe out there and happy pride

Had my first ever date on the first day of pride and I am in shambles. She's so cute and she thinks I'm so pretty and I just can't handle a girl that cute calling me pretty aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

I propose we all get one free stabbing of a cishet this month

Came home from work yesterday to find a dress I ordered off Etsy came much sooner than I was expecting. It's first actual dress I've gotten. So I ran inside, and put it on. Sooooo comfy and cute. Then when my husband got home a little later, he immediately said I looked cute and that he was proud of me for buying a dress finally. (I've clogged our shared amazon account with dress recommendations from all the searches I've done) Then he told me he had gotten me an anniversary gift and it came yesterday also. So he gave it to me and it's an adorable pleated skirt! I nearly died. I started crying and hugged him, thanking him over and over. I'm so lucky I get to have him in my life.

down with cis

I wonder what percent of the population is actually trans. Studies always say quite a bit lower than 1% of the population identified as transgender. But if you asked 1960s Americans if they were gay, you'd also end up with an extremely low number. Alfred Kinsey did a more detailed survey and found a very high percentage of people had gay attraction. Li Shiu Tong came to the same conclusion but I don't know what his methods were. So the vast majority of LGB people identify as straight in homophobic societies. The recent survey that shows something like a fifth of Gen Z is gay in some way proves this. So I wonder what percent of trans people identify as cis in transphobic societies? Are there any studies that ask if people would press The Button, or other questions more insightful than just "are you trans?" What if it's actually rather high? Egg discourse would go crazy.

Happy Pride from us Autistics.

I had to boymode to the store today because I was out of clean women's clothes. I haven't really done it the last month or two, and now it just made me feel horrible and dysphoric.

I used so much money to update my wardrobe this winter/spring, and now I have to do it again for summer because I have like 2 outfits for hot days.

Just noticed this mega is for the week ending in 6/9.

Nope, nothing unusual or special about that.

local pride is corporate cop collaborator shit and trans pride, a local separate event that was anti cop, got neutered by fucked up local statutes in the wake of 2020, so i'm probably not attending pride events.

but happy pride for everyone. Four and a half years of hormones, north of five years of social transition under my belt and: I'm really tired but this is still the best thing I've ever done for myself.

So I'm doing a lot of research right now on stuff like hair removal options, make up, transfem workout programs, and related stuff. Is there a beauty comm for this stuff in particular? Or could I use the fashion comm? I just don't want to intrude on more serious discussion with questions on makeup or cute leggings or whatever.

Also trying to come up with a good transition strategy. My plan so far is just to go forward with HRT, body hair removal, and growing my hair out, until I can't hide it anymore, then I can just be like, "Welp. Guess I'm a girl now lol" but not sure how well this would work in practice. I also need to lose weight which could complicate things, or maybe it could provide me with more motivation to do both? Not sure how HRT and weight loss go together though, honestly.

Oh and I've started thinking of names, but I'm worried what I come up with is gonna be cringey. I really don't want a "normal" name, though, but I also don't want an obvious goth princess name (though I do want to be a goth princess).

EDIT: Ok I thought of a good name that is something meaningful to me and is really starting to stick in my head...

posting: posting: yep, in a trans girl house now. internet now works

GAY

Thinking about switching to E injections and going on progesterone. Also I heard from a friend that they often give you extra so maybe I can crack some eggs with that

Changed pronouns We'll have to see how these feel. I plan on mentioning my gender feelings™ to a couple people this week.

Edit: changed back, felt fake

I started E two weeks ago! Feeling all sorts of brand new.

My quest learning how to makeup continues. My power grows with every passing day, but we face setbacks. Today, I grew frustrated as a comedy of errors mounted everytime I tried and retried to reapply eyeliner. Somedays I feel and sometimes I feel I am happy at the stage in my life that I found out about my transness, my only wish is that I envy the teenage girls who got all this practice in earlier in their lives. Ah well, now’s better than never, and it is really fun. Embracing and learning from mistakes is part of the process. Being trans fucking rocks.

Also, two weeks shy of one year on the horms! I find it deeply amusing that my traniversary is on Father’s Day. Here’s to the father I will never be, ya’ll.

So I have slowly been building a very trans and queer friend group in my city. It's been going so well. It was my birthday recently and I held a little birthday get together at my house and 9 people came (to watch UFC no less!). I gotta say it's pretty fun watching MMA with a bunch of trans women (none of them are into MMA at all.. lol). Then we went out to some bars. It was fun. Good birthday.

As a seperate comment I have been holding PPV watch parties at my place with all my trans friends for the last like 5 months and it has been so much fun. I'm so suprised how many actually show up. It is WAY more fun watching it with women than with men, honestly. When I used to watch with some men it was always... shitty. The vibe of watching with women is so much better

Happy pride

::: spoiler moving woes Moving to get away from my shitty roommate and I can not wait to get tf out of here. There's something new with this fucking guy every goddamn day.

But my god i'd forgotten how fucking insufferable the process is. WHY does applying to places cost minimum $25? WHY do they have to see my bank balances? WHY do people have visible disdain for non-families moving in? I hate every fucking step of this.

I'm actually out of money, I had to borrow money from my partner and she's also nearly out of money. I literally can not afford to apply to a new place for the next 3-4 days and time feels like it's very quickly running out. I applied for a loan from my own retirement account so hopefully that makes everything go smoother but it also means I'm tied to this job that i fucking despise until i pay it off and that money's not going to get to me for at least 3 days, maybe longer.

And there's absolutely no guarantee that we're even going to be accepted by anywhere we apply to. Every place I've gone to see has had more than just us seeing it, and it's almost always a more "traditional family." My partner has been very pessimistic about even finding a place during this entire process and though I've been trying to stay optimistic and to keep both our spirits high I'm starting to be worn down. I have options if we fail to find a place by the end of the month, but my other two potential roommates are going to be shit outta luck and I can't have that on my conscience.

One silver lining is at least if everything goes well my new roommates will be my long-time friend's non-binary partner, and a trans woman.

:::

second lasering of my face, went full power cause it didnt really destroy any hair last time. hurt less this time 'cause I was more used to the pain.

::: spoiler cw: me being into pain got some lovely chills going down my spine when he popped my neck though, definitely a certified freak 7 days a week with regards to my neck :::

Back in my day we used to read the rainbow passage! Now all you transgender youngins are talking about "heat from fire" or whatchamacallit...

sure its pride, but do we all know june is also PTSD awareness month, because I sure am being made aware of my trauma

Just took a painkiller in preparation for epilating. I tried it a couple weeks ago and it was so painful. Rip and tear until it's done

customer asked me if it was "sir or ma'am at work today". i had to lie about it but damn did that feel good

doing voice training so i can sound like a girl if i wanted to then choosing not to

ough. Happy pride everypony

I am too nervous to go to pride, I also have no idea how to not dress to not draw eyes, and I also don't want to(dress lightly). I don't know how to not boymode in public really, and I also don't want to have to explain stuff to people. I should go, though. If simply to have contacts to local queer people

Painted my nails 💅

First

Today I learned you can use eyeshadow as eyeliner? Makeup is so fun, ya’ll. This gendered thing is bullshit.

Hello all!!! I hope you have a nice week and a happy pride!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

There's a grassroots sorta pride thing going on in a nearby city on the 22nd, parallel to the more corporate sanctioned shit. Gonna be my first time going to one of these things as an out-and-proud transfemme.

Any of you got any advice?

Pride edition

hoping this pride month is a good one

Quickly put this together. Couldn't find a high res so I grabbed a similar image off the internet instead

happy gay month my fellow prides

Happy pride my friends!

::: spoiler dysphoria, sad posting I'm never going to be a woman. I'm just not. I'm a man. I hate it. I hate myself. I hate my body. I'm so big and hairy. I don't think the right ways. ::: ::: spoiler ed (eating) I'm so fat and only getting fatter. I need to stop eating so much. I want to be thin but I just can't stop putting garbage in my mouth. What is wrong with me. I used to be able to restrict to almost nothing, and now here I am guzzling down calories. My body used to be so small. Now its a prison. I have no self control. I hate every time my body is in my peripheral view. Why does this hatred not give me the control to eat less, like it used to. :::

I looked up pride in my city just to see when it was. Turns out it's in July for some reason. Never attended before, but I might this year. Weird as hell it's not during June.

This is my first pride, and I'm so excited! I tried to join last year before I knew I was not cishet but got rained out on the only event I could attend.

In other news, ordered bras to try :) I'm extremely excited 🥰

Lately I've been really wanting to run a Pathfinder campaign because, well, I love TTRPGs and WotC can burn to the ground for all I care. So I've decided to run a campaign with 4 transwomen and I'm calling it "You Have Nothing to Lose But Your Chains"

It'll be my first time DMing a long-form campaign. Should be a blast.

does anyone have any advice for wig shopping? i wear an XL (men's) hat and none of these wigs that im seeing online fit me lmao

Had a higher-up at my job out me to staff and clients yesterday. I'm so fuckin tired of cis people's bullshit.

What am I supposed to wear to pride that's not boring? I am a masc guy

society if you could make your balls produce estrogen instead of testosterone

e hasn't been making me cry as much as i wanted

::: spoiler i'm not sad but someone else is [uspol] I'm sorry but I do not know what to do for you tgirl who is having a panic attack at the prospect of trump winning the election. Like the entire world is a zone of imminent entroponetic catastrophe but I guess you're not ready for that information. #JustBlueStateThings :::

Been seeing some very upsetting news lately shared on trans subreddits without content warnings or spoilers. There really aren't any safe spaces on

Clothes shopping is getting me very frustrated. I'm tall enough for an xl but because I'm lankey even the large would be baggy on me so nothing is close to fitting

Trying to reconcile my nonbinary dyke charm with the embarassing gender envy I feel when I see an athletic man in techy sportswear enjoying a perceived sense of freedom.

I probably just need to buy a binder and work my issues out at the gym, honestly.

Scared to shop for women's clothing 😬 But, like, wow, it's better in every imaginable way

I'm going to miss EVERY PRIDE MARCH in my city this year because of traveling. God damn it!!! And there's three of them!!!

noob @ girl

start of 2024: "yeah i'm totally cis"

me right now: taking my spiro washed down with a pink monster energy wearing pajamas i got from that place next to victoria's secret

going to set a very ambitious goal and try and go out in public femme for the first time at the end of the month at my local pride event. will i be clocked? almost certainly but it's a pride event, who is going to be shocked to see a trans woman there?

Good girl? No, I'm pretty bad at being a girl, unfortunately. I'm very new at this

Laser tomorrow ❤️

must stop drinking. must lose weight. need to be carryable by future wife

Well, didn't end up saying anything about it this week like I meant to.

::: spoiler negativity about being trans? I wish I could just forget about this whole thing, but it's constant now. Following me around. I wish I was in a different environment. :::

New game: auDHD or Trans? Read something like genderdysphoria.fyi and try and figure out if the examples you relate to are because of auDHD or because you are trans.

Has anyone here used the internal family systems model for CBT?

Is wearing short shorts with tights underneath still acceptable or was that like a 2010s fad?

::: spoiler oversharing my emotions instead of getting a therapist

you never had a crush on her. that emotion was the most wildly unchecked gender envy you could have possibly felt, and you were far, far too emotionally stunted to understand that. you tried dating her instead because it was the closest thing to being her that you could get and she just wasn't interested in you, and frankly, you weren't terribly interested in dating her either. you desperately wanted to be her and never had the words to understand that :::

::: spoiler dysphoria Wow this just keeps getting worse. It's constant now. And yet I still don't feel legitimate :cri: I wonder if I'll ever like my body. It's not looking good right now 😢 :::