don't think you have something that deserves it's own post? wanna vent or get support? wanna share good vibes or support your trans comrades? post it here!
sharedburdens [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
Spent the first half of the month struggling with gatekeeping and doctor turnover in the middle of the holiday, but I got my hormones set for 3 months
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
why are implants not more of a thing? you get some pellets embedded subcutaneously every 3-6 months, get really steady hormone levels for the entire duration, and don't have to think about it otherwise. I know they're more of a thing for trans guys but estrogen pellets are a thing for cis women going through menopause so it's not like they don't exist. but insurance won't cover them and it's hard to find doctors who will do them for trans women. death to cissexism.
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kristina [she/her] - 2.5yr
They can leave some big scars afaik
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ashinadash [she/her] - 2.5yr
I want those hormone scars. Give them to me
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Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
I've heard it kinda hurts
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
only if they give you lidocaine that hasn't been properly buffered. it's mostly painless otherwise. you mainly have to avoid putting pressure on the spot for 3-4 days but it's not that hard.
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Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
Ah okay. I kidna like the injections at the moment but I have considered the pellets
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beef_curds [she/her] - 2.5yr
as someone who is megatrans, thank you for this space.
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
megatrans pride
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milistanaccount09 [she/her] - 2.5yr
she's a 10 but she watches shonen
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odmroz [he/him] - 2.5yr
??? so she's a 12
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milistanaccount09 [she/her] - 2.5yr
she watches gundam too its okay
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
gay gundam is the closest we get to shoujo anymore
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
the apothecary diaries isn't technically shoujo, but it's what all my shoujo friends are into these days
beautiful freak of a mc who loves tasting poison and got a job where she could experience as many poisons as possible in the imperial court, where she has to navigate the drama
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
hell yeah
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
me
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President_Obama [they/them, she/her] - 2.5yr
Trans man won a regional swimming competition
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Kuori [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
we stan a sleek, speedy king
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
feeling especially transgender this morning
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ElectronNumberSeven - 2.5yr
based
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roux [they/them, xe/xem] - 2.5yr
We love our trans comrades. You all exist and we see you. you are valid and anyone that says otherwise gets the wall after the revolution. 🖤❤️
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casskaydee [she/her] - 2.5yr
Just here to say I fucking hate voice work just give me a pill that will make me sound like Natasha Lyonne how hard can it be
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Kuori [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
extreme voice goals
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frankfurt_schoolgirl [she/her] - 2.5yr
What gets me about voice training is that it seems to come so naturally for some people. I guess nobody tells you how long they've spent practicing, but it just feels like I have to work extra hard for awkward androgyny results.
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
the thing that worked best for me was to just use my andro-masc voice 24/7 while being anxious about not passing so I constantly forced it to be as good as possible. I stopped thinking about voice training and suddenly realized 1.5 years later that no one ever misgendered my voice anymore. ymmv
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SnowySkyes - 2.5yr
It's fucking hard, but you can do it! It's a long process, but the rewards are immense! It took me like 7 or 8 months to get to a passing voice and I'm still fine tuning it a year later (I still have trouble passing over the phone for some reason). Mind you that's with completely throwing away my old voice and never using it ever again and struggle bussing all the way here.
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Kuori [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
not trans-specific (except insofar as i am trying to find a friendly place to flee to so i can escape florida) so feel free to remove my complaining but i have driven like 1,600 miles in the past two days and now i will be doing the same exact drive again just one 12 hour period later.
i am god's sleepiest trans girl
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
if you need a place to stay, DM me
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Kuori [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
i appreciate the offer so so much. i'm actually in an okay situation though! i have a super strong support group.
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
yay! glad to hear it!
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
trans
gender
street
lenin
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thirtymilliondeadfish [she/her] - 2.5yr
I love you
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
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Babs [she/her] - 2.5yr
So do all the grey market estrogen sellers just do crypto now? I never learned how that works and I don't want to now. Last time I bought my anime meme estrogen the seller could still accept paypal.
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Findom_DeLuise [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
God, I fucking wish she still took PayPal. The anime meme seller is only accepting crypto as of last spring/summer. It sucks, too, because her wallet is banned from CoinBase, so you have to use Binance to do the transfer, but Binance doesn't let you buy crypto with actual money. So it turns into this whole mess of having to by BTC via another service, wait for the holding period to expire, transfer it to Binance (and pay all the damn transaction fees, which really add up), and then pay from that crypto wallet. And yes, value often fluctuates wildly during that holding period, so you have to account for that along with the transfer fees.
It's really on-brand that the FTC slapped together a couple of ineffectual milquetoast crypto reforms (the waiting period and the Binance restrictions) and about the only ones being hurt are trans people.
If you just want oral or patches (or T-blockers), there's a Turkish pharma site listed on HRT [dot] coffee (note: the one whose fucking SSL cert isn't expired) that has worked for me in the past. Customs processing can take upwards of a fucking month, and the stuff is priced a little higher than average, but their payment processor takes regular credit or debit. Note: their payment process is sketchy as hell because it's through a third-party site and they send you the link a day or two after you make the purchase. There is absolutely some kind of obfuscation going on there, and if you have a credit card that lets you provide a virtual card number, I'd recommend doing that with an expiration period set on it just to be on the safe side. Again, though, I've ordered from them a couple of times and it has been fine other than the long customs delay and the lack of injectables. (Otokonoko still has the cheapest injectables beside OELabs, even with crypto fuckery factored in.)
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Babs [she/her] - 2.5yr
Damn this is a nightmare. I fortunately have a stockpile of pills, they're just super inconvenient and I'd rather have a few extra vials instead. Fluctuating value, transaction fees, wait times... It seems crypto is just straight up worse at being money than money is?
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Tommasi [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
I bought from the anime meme site last month and it honestly wasn't too difficult to get the payment done. Most people recommended using any of the options beside etherium or bitcoin. Since those blockchain are more busy, transactions are slower and can potentially have huge fees.
So apparently, the more popular your cryptocurrency is, the worse it functions as an actual currency. Genius system.
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
you make an account on an exchange, buy btc, then send it to the address the seller gives you for the order. buying btc can take awhile and the exchange will only let you buy a few hundred dollars worth in a day because of money laundering rules. they want you to send btc because payment processors won't let them stay merchants due to the whole selling drugs thing. iirc coinbase will let you use a credit/debit cards after an id check (obligatory reminder not to use crypto for anything genuinely illegal because it's not anonymous - estrogen is luckily gray market).
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good_girl [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
I know HRT affects everyone differently and I have to be patient but JUST TAKE ME ALREADY AHHHHHHHHH WHERES THE CHANGES
Also I've been so bad about voice training. I want to blame the fact that I'm hardly alone, but I should try and get over my fear/shyness and practice with my girlfriend. It's so hard tho I've always been so shy about things like this that I think are embarrassing. I'm even seeing a voice therapist... she's gonna be so disappointed when I tell her I haven't been actively practicing outside of my drive home.
...can you voice train while singing? Is that a thing?
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
you can absolutely voice train while singing, or at least practice manipulating the relevant muscles
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Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
It is so fucking hard to practice voicetraining. My voice feels "fake" and ridiculous to me but I know the only way to get it better is to practice. I'm also just practicing on my drives bur now I can do an OK voice in the car but once I leave the car I lose everything lol
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nathanfieldertulpa [she/her, it/its] - 2.5yr
i love my trans comrades
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SnowySkyes - 2.5yr
I had a moment of reflection yesterday that made me feel particularly good. I've been on HRT for roughly 17 months now. With all the changes that I've made to myself, I cannot recognize any semblance of my "old self" anymore in my current state. Even my wife says that there is almost nothing left of that persona. My looks have completely changed. My body has completely changed. My attitude is completely different (happier mostly, but also more femme). I've fully embraced my feminine self and thrown away all the masculinity entirely. It's like that person never existed. And I fucking like it that way. My life was never even a tenth as good as it is now, and all that really changed is that I am now moving towards the real me. Gods, I'm so glad I figured myself out.
Also, yesterday I asked my wife why she never calls me cute. She then said the following without hesitation, "I don't see you as the cute type, but more as the sexy type."
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ashinadash [she/her] - 2.5yr
You have subsumed & replaced the person who used to be you. You have taken their body and made something great of it, you are You now
I really like this too, no harsh on people who value their pretrans self & see themselves as the same person, but I spent a lot of time as a teen reassuring people that I wasn't gonna change, I'd still be "me". I too am now totally unrecognisable as that person, I have become a new and wonderful self
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vertexarray [any] - 2.5yr
I've been settled with my weird futch identity for a while now but it might be fun to try voice training. I wasn't interested before, but moving to a new city seems to have put me into a mood to get more femme
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anarchoilluminati [comrade/them] - 2.5yr
Not trans but hope all of you have a great and beautiful 2024!
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Ceres [she/her] - 2.5yr
ok so a few years ago i discovered my visual snow isn't just "vision being weird" and its a specific and currently poorly understood thing. Hadn't thought about it for a while, but just this morning while unable to sleep due to stress from being out of hormones (for a few days now), I first realized I heard a faint tinnitus-hiss, then realized I was seeing the usual visual snow, then realized that I think those have both been missing since I started HRT months prior (only noticing its reappearance). definitely an interesting lead for neuroscientists if HRT gets rid of visual snow + mild tinnitus, and I'll post an update when my hormones finally get here.
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alexandra_kollontai [she/her] - 2.5yr
My mild tinnitus started a few years into HRT, so probably not a miracle cure (unfortunately). Weirdly I got my hearing tested and they didn't find any abnormalities in the test. I don't have any missing parts from my hearing. I just hear additional annoying noises.
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ashinadash [she/her] - 2.5yr
Hhhhhh you gotta help me, I'm feeling so gay n trans right now. My wife is asleep n I wanna kiss her...
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
many such cases
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GaveUp [she/her] - 2.5yr
put myself in a situation where it might've gotten physical and it was the first time in my life I was deathly afraid of losing a fight
I miss the over-confidence and arrogance from testosterone
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
reading downthread about gray market estrogen makes me happy i have some experience in that already.
i'm a bit out of the loop on what's current but can probably answer basic questions about crypto transfers etc. usually i have to do a full day deep dive to catch up on all the current quirks in the gray/black market world
i'm probably going to start DIY soon even if it's a bit scary but my state is teetering on the edge of being trans neutral or going full "your name is now on a list for future fascist death squads"
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LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves] - 2.5yr
Are there any sites that take Monero? Altcoins are mostly bullshit, but Monero does have extra functionality to make it desirable for this
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
pretty sure monero is not really a full crypto coin on it's own. like it can be converted into other crypto and transferred but isn't directly taken.
back when i still played around it was just used for person to person transfers and then converted to ltc. but yeah it is actually anonymous which makes it have some utility
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
you buy monero, transfer it to your wallet, and use it through a service that sends btc in exchange for monero directly to the seller. no one really takes monero directly, unfortunately.
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squirrel [they/them] - 2.5yr
🌰🥜🔩🌰
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LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves] - 2.5yr
Wanting my schizo meds back, not because of the impending psychosis, but because they gave me nice tits and hormones illegal.
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ashinadash [she/her] - 2.5yr
May I know about these nice-tits meds while you're here?
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LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves] - 2.5yr
Yeah, Risperidone is an anti-psychotic that flattens out testosterone production and boosts progesterone. Wouldn't recommend taking it unless you need an anti-psychotic, side effects from anti-psychotics are quite heavy, but it does give quite a bit of boob growth.
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
new unjust depths chapter! posting in the trans mega and in the main mega, because if you're either trans or a communist you have no excuse not to be reading it
in this chapter someone who knows how politics works is forced to chat with a liberal and realizes just how batshit she is, while another woman has a high school reunion with a fascist. meanwhile, with the a team on a mission the b-team all learn a bit about biology and muse on imperialist extraction. shenanigans ensue. a princess continues to be proletarianized and learns about how her ex is doing. and solidarity between tendencies reaches its limits quicker than anyone could guess
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GarfGirl - 2.5yr
Still haven't got off the high of someone posting about me behind my back on another website ages ago saying "she's a 10 but she thinks China's a democracy"
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
I think they typoed butt so it's a triple win
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DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
I am wondering if my preference for utilitarian clothing will change as I get more comfortable in my body. I do like my comfy trekking shoes tbh, it is also a good way to get cred with local working class people to wear that brand(store brand from the local hardware chain, almost all phyisical workers run around in them), so there are also social benefits, especially if I am otherwise nonconforming.
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DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
Due to being in treatment for depression I am doing a lot of mindfullness excercises, or trying to. Literally as soon as I focus on my body/myself as is instructed, I want to jump out of my skin. I always thought that I wasn't very dysphoric, I guess I have learnt better. At least it gave me the push needey to out myself to my doctor (treatment here has to go over her, but at least hrt is informed consent only)
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ilyenkov [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
Told my mom about how my breast growth has started and she got excited to teach me about bra shopping. I love her so much
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Ocommie63 [she/her] - 2.5yr
You have a really cool parent
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DerEwigeAtheist [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
None of the cis women in my family are very "feminine", for lack of a better term. They all have shorter hair than me, they all almost exclusively wear pants and I believe there is little to no majrup present in my house, let alone worn. My mother and I have shared shoes and jackets for the longest time. I think I wear more jewlery than her too.
This puts me in a situation where I am not quite sure how being a woman is much different aesthetically from how I have been till now. But it also makes it easy to "pass" amongst family.
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Tommasi [she/her, pup/pup's] - 2.5yr
Banking on the baggy sweater and tight jeans combination to carry me through my first year of transitioning.
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
baggy sweater + tight jeans is always a good look
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kristina [she/her] - 2.5yr
I still do that shit, it's just a good vibe
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Rania 🇩🇿 - 2.5yr
Just got military service order in the mail, shit scared me, on a specific date I'll have to go there and have them check my galls (girl balls) or smth
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kristina [she/her] - 2.5yr
noooo
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Rania 🇩🇿 - 2.5yr
I'll be ok
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Edie [it/its] - 2.5yr
Gock and galls. lmao.
Also, oh no. I got out of conscription because I got sleep medicine, yay.
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
i want to talk about stuff to my trans coworker sooooo bad
her best friend (whos soon to be my boss since i stepped down) accidentally outed her to me but knew i was an "ally" (i'm not out at work)
she's not publicly out despite transitioning and i keep rehearsing ways to talk to her about it: "like OOOPs your BFF accidentally outed you to me but it's TOTALLY OK cause i am also trans now tell me what doctor you go to, etc. also please don't out me here (which seems unfair somehow)".
so much shit i want to talk about. first: HRT is fucking magic you can really see the changes in the last year. also her electrolysis seems to have fully taken at this point
but mostly as someone terrified of the health care system i would love a personal recommendation. my only other option is to talk to my ex girlfriend who works as social worker and specializes in helping trans people. the other option is DIY which increasingly looks likely to be my path.
would it be wrong to tell her i know but also that i'm trans? or should i wait until she officially comes out (if she ever does, we live in a shitty part of a semi-shitty state).
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
are you out to her? I'd just out yourself to her, if not. that will make her feel safer telling you herself.
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
nah i wanted to wait until i was officially no longer in management. i wanted to remove the power dynamic first.
i'm still technically acting manager until we hire a new FT person and my assistant takes over. i mean for me it's whatev i'll keep getting the $22 an hr and don't even open my emails anymore lol
do i sound paranoid or does that make sense?
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
I think outing yourself is fairly safe and not really making use of the power dynamic. you're not pressing her to out herself, just creating room for her to do it if she wants to. I think, if anything, it'll make her feel safer, knowing her manager is also trans, even if only temporarily -- she has allies if she wants them. I would not press her to come out, though.
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
wouldn't coming out imply i know she's trans? i mean i know she has good baby leftist politics (hasan watching demsoc) and i've made it clear to my crew i'm a filthy commie.
i have thrown as many eggy hints as possible but at work i go hard with boymode most of the time
maybe i should just do it i hate social anxiety overthinking just don't want to her to think her BFF fucked up
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
wouldn't coming out imply i know she's trans?
not really? if you know she's a baby leftist, you can play it off like you know she's a real ally.
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Des [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
yeah ur right thats probably the safest strategy. i'll go for it when i have a good private moment at work. i'll let you know how it goes
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
yay! I'm looking forward to this!
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
going to start posting all my random bullshit in here
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
i'm watching movies on a regular basis exclusively with transgender communists and it's improved my life massively
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
tonight we're watching some good old fashioned paul schrader
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GaveUp [she/her] - 2.5yr
So I recently came out at work and talked about my gender dysphoria. Just saw on a tech forum that a coworker at my company posted a comment mocking trans people and telling somebody to say that "your mind was constantly disoriented by gender dysphoria" in response to getting in trouble with HR by accidentally endangering a coworker
This is word for word what I said in my email. They are 100% one of the ~90 people who received the email that I sent out
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
wtf fuck that guy. can you show the comment to HR? they probably won't do anything but they definitely know who he is.
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GaveUp [she/her] - 2.5yr
Unfortunately no, that's no concrete evidence to find out who is was
I know for sure it's a coworker because they posted in a section where you had to authenticate using a @<company>.com email but it's purposely built to anonymize all accounts past that
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
honestly, if they're bitching on glassdoor, I'd count it as a trophy. frame that shit, put it on your wall, they just told transphobes to look elsewhere.
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
transgender cuddle pile movie nights: folks, they're good!
I am not in the US and not currently going to college, but I am rooming with a chud as a closeted trans woman. Just, you know, european flavour chud. Grandfather was high ranking SS(really proud of that). Compares pride to nazi parades, but mostly because he thinks it's unfair that people discriminate on fascists, but accept pride flags.
I told him that they should have thrown his grandpa into a mine after he complained about "the jews", didn't like that.
Luckily not violent, he said that he "accepts trans people if they don't talk about it all the time", and I am socially competent enough to room with him, without many issues. He likes my long hair, because he thinks long hair is manly(Vikings), as is haircare.
Like before he turned the fascism way dial up I got along well with him, there is a good person below metric tons of garbage.
Though his choice of yt content was always very suspect to me
(one was about subliminal messages in music telling modern women to hate men, which was very funny)
I do not know if the other people I could have gotten would be any better and it's only for a few weeks, and this weekend I will go clothes shopping with my cousine, who is without a doubt my most stylish relative and also really excited about it.
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
oof, i'm really sorry. stay safe!
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ilyenkov [she/her, they/them] - 2.5yr
Today is my third week HRT anniversary and last night my nipples started to feel sensitive and they feel weird today and my breasts are absolutely a bit bigger than they were! It's happening!!!
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Cromalin [she/her] - 2.5yr
wooooo!!!!
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TheGenderWitch [she/her, she/her] - 2.5yr
Infinite genocide to eepy i wanna not be so eepy it hurd my eyes
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silent_water [she/her] - 2.5yr
mood
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Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them] - 2.5yr
So like... I just found out that my insurance may cover FFS... I'm kinda like freaking out maybe? I should probably get some consults?? I never thought FFS would be a good option for me and I shouldbprobably wait to see what HRT does but a friend ofbmine just got it and it's been life changing for her. ?????
silent_water in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
Trans Megathread for January
don't think you have something that deserves it's own post? wanna vent or get support? wanna share good vibes or support your trans comrades? post it here!
Spent the first half of the month struggling with gatekeeping and doctor turnover in the middle of the holiday, but I got my hormones set for 3 months
why are implants not more of a thing? you get some pellets embedded subcutaneously every 3-6 months, get really steady hormone levels for the entire duration, and don't have to think about it otherwise. I know they're more of a thing for trans guys but estrogen pellets are a thing for cis women going through menopause so it's not like they don't exist. but insurance won't cover them and it's hard to find doctors who will do them for trans women. death to cissexism.
They can leave some big scars afaik
I want those hormone scars. Give them to me
I've heard it kinda hurts
only if they give you lidocaine that hasn't been properly buffered. it's mostly painless otherwise. you mainly have to avoid putting pressure on the spot for 3-4 days but it's not that hard.
Ah okay. I kidna like the injections at the moment but I have considered the pellets
as someone who is megatrans, thank you for this space.
megatrans pride
she's a 10 but she watches shonen
??? so she's a 12
she watches gundam too its okay
gay gundam is the closest we get to shoujo anymore
the apothecary diaries isn't technically shoujo, but it's what all my shoujo friends are into these days
beautiful freak of a mc who loves tasting poison and got a job where she could experience as many poisons as possible in the imperial court, where she has to navigate the drama
hell yeah
me
Trans man won a regional swimming competition
we stan a sleek, speedy king
feeling especially transgender this morning
based
We love our trans comrades. You all exist and we see you. you are valid and anyone that says otherwise gets the wall after the revolution. 🖤❤️
Just here to say I fucking hate voice work just give me a pill that will make me sound like Natasha Lyonne how hard can it be
extreme voice goals
What gets me about voice training is that it seems to come so naturally for some people. I guess nobody tells you how long they've spent practicing, but it just feels like I have to work extra hard for awkward androgyny results.
the thing that worked best for me was to just use my andro-masc voice 24/7 while being anxious about not passing so I constantly forced it to be as good as possible. I stopped thinking about voice training and suddenly realized 1.5 years later that no one ever misgendered my voice anymore. ymmv
It's fucking hard, but you can do it! It's a long process, but the rewards are immense! It took me like 7 or 8 months to get to a passing voice and I'm still fine tuning it a year later (I still have trouble passing over the phone for some reason). Mind you that's with completely throwing away my old voice and never using it ever again and struggle bussing all the way here.
not trans-specific (except insofar as i am trying to find a friendly place to flee to so i can escape florida) so feel free to remove my complaining but i have driven like 1,600 miles in the past two days and now i will be doing the same exact drive again just one 12 hour period later.
i am god's sleepiest trans girl
if you need a place to stay, DM me
yay! glad to hear it!
trans
gender
street
lenin
I love you
So do all the grey market estrogen sellers just do crypto now? I never learned how that works and I don't want to now. Last time I bought my anime meme estrogen the seller could still accept paypal.
God, I fucking wish she still took PayPal. The anime meme seller is only accepting crypto as of last spring/summer. It sucks, too, because her wallet is banned from CoinBase, so you have to use Binance to do the transfer, but Binance doesn't let you buy crypto with actual money. So it turns into this whole mess of having to by BTC via another service, wait for the holding period to expire, transfer it to Binance (and pay all the damn transaction fees, which really add up), and then pay from that crypto wallet. And yes, value often fluctuates wildly during that holding period, so you have to account for that along with the transfer fees.
It's really on-brand that the FTC slapped together a couple of ineffectual milquetoast crypto reforms (the waiting period and the Binance restrictions) and about the only ones being hurt are trans people.
If you just want oral or patches (or T-blockers), there's a Turkish pharma site listed on
HRT [dot] coffee(note: the one whose fucking SSL cert isn't expired) that has worked for me in the past. Customs processing can take upwards of a fucking month, and the stuff is priced a little higher than average, but their payment processor takes regular credit or debit. Note: their payment process is sketchy as hell because it's through a third-party site and they send you the link a day or two after you make the purchase. There is absolutely some kind of obfuscation going on there, and if you have a credit card that lets you provide a virtual card number, I'd recommend doing that with an expiration period set on it just to be on the safe side. Again, though, I've ordered from them a couple of times and it has been fine other than the long customs delay and the lack of injectables. (Otokonoko still has the cheapest injectables beside OELabs, even with crypto fuckery factored in.)Damn this is a nightmare. I fortunately have a stockpile of pills, they're just super inconvenient and I'd rather have a few extra vials instead. Fluctuating value, transaction fees, wait times... It seems crypto is just straight up worse at being money than money is?
I bought from the anime meme site last month and it honestly wasn't too difficult to get the payment done. Most people recommended using any of the options beside etherium or bitcoin. Since those blockchain are more busy, transactions are slower and can potentially have huge fees.
So apparently, the more popular your cryptocurrency is, the worse it functions as an actual currency. Genius system.
you make an account on an exchange, buy btc, then send it to the address the seller gives you for the order. buying btc can take awhile and the exchange will only let you buy a few hundred dollars worth in a day because of money laundering rules. they want you to send btc because payment processors won't let them stay merchants due to the whole selling drugs thing. iirc coinbase will let you use a credit/debit cards after an id check (obligatory reminder not to use crypto for anything genuinely illegal because it's not anonymous - estrogen is luckily gray market).
I know HRT affects everyone differently and I have to be patient but JUST TAKE ME ALREADY AHHHHHHHHH WHERES THE CHANGES
Also I've been so bad about voice training. I want to blame the fact that I'm hardly alone, but I should try and get over my fear/shyness and practice with my girlfriend. It's so hard tho I've always been so shy about things like this that I think are embarrassing. I'm even seeing a voice therapist... she's gonna be so disappointed when I tell her I haven't been actively practicing outside of my drive home.
...can you voice train while singing? Is that a thing?
you can absolutely voice train while singing, or at least practice manipulating the relevant muscles
It is so fucking hard to practice voicetraining. My voice feels "fake" and ridiculous to me but I know the only way to get it better is to practice. I'm also just practicing on my drives bur now I can do an OK voice in the car but once I leave the car I lose everything lol
i love my trans comrades
I had a moment of reflection yesterday that made me feel particularly good. I've been on HRT for roughly 17 months now. With all the changes that I've made to myself, I cannot recognize any semblance of my "old self" anymore in my current state. Even my wife says that there is almost nothing left of that persona. My looks have completely changed. My body has completely changed. My attitude is completely different (happier mostly, but also more femme). I've fully embraced my feminine self and thrown away all the masculinity entirely. It's like that person never existed. And I fucking like it that way. My life was never even a tenth as good as it is now, and all that really changed is that I am now moving towards the real me. Gods, I'm so glad I figured myself out.
Also, yesterday I asked my wife why she never calls me cute. She then said the following without hesitation, "I don't see you as the cute type, but more as the sexy type."
You have subsumed & replaced the person who used to be you. You have taken their body and made something great of it, you are You now
I really like this too, no harsh on people who value their pretrans self & see themselves as the same person, but I spent a lot of time as a teen reassuring people that I wasn't gonna change, I'd still be "me". I too am now totally unrecognisable as that person, I have become a new and wonderful self
I've been settled with my weird futch identity for a while now but it might be fun to try voice training. I wasn't interested before, but moving to a new city seems to have put me into a mood to get more femme
Not trans but hope all of you have a great and beautiful 2024!
ok so a few years ago i discovered my visual snow isn't just "vision being weird" and its a specific and currently poorly understood thing. Hadn't thought about it for a while, but just this morning while unable to sleep due to stress from being out of hormones (for a few days now), I first realized I heard a faint tinnitus-hiss, then realized I was seeing the usual visual snow, then realized that I think those have both been missing since I started HRT months prior (only noticing its reappearance). definitely an interesting lead for neuroscientists if HRT gets rid of visual snow + mild tinnitus, and I'll post an update when my hormones finally get here.
My mild tinnitus started a few years into HRT, so probably not a miracle cure (unfortunately). Weirdly I got my hearing tested and they didn't find any abnormalities in the test. I don't have any missing parts from my hearing. I just hear additional annoying noises.
Hhhhhh you gotta help me, I'm feeling so gay n trans right now. My wife is asleep n I wanna kiss her...
put myself in a situation where it might've gotten physical and it was the first time in my life I was deathly afraid of losing a fight
I miss the over-confidence and arrogance from testosterone
reading downthread about gray market estrogen makes me happy i have some experience in that already.
i'm a bit out of the loop on what's current but can probably answer basic questions about crypto transfers etc. usually i have to do a full day deep dive to catch up on all the current quirks in the gray/black market world
i'm probably going to start DIY soon even if it's a bit scary but my state is teetering on the edge of being trans neutral or going full "your name is now on a list for future fascist death squads"
Are there any sites that take Monero? Altcoins are mostly bullshit, but Monero does have extra functionality to make it desirable for this
pretty sure monero is not really a full crypto coin on it's own. like it can be converted into other crypto and transferred but isn't directly taken.
back when i still played around it was just used for person to person transfers and then converted to ltc. but yeah it is actually anonymous which makes it have some utility
you buy monero, transfer it to your wallet, and use it through a service that sends btc in exchange for monero directly to the seller. no one really takes monero directly, unfortunately.
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Wanting my schizo meds back, not because of the impending psychosis, but because they gave me nice tits and hormones illegal.
May I know about these nice-tits meds while you're here?
Yeah, Risperidone is an anti-psychotic that flattens out testosterone production and boosts progesterone. Wouldn't recommend taking it unless you need an anti-psychotic, side effects from anti-psychotics are quite heavy, but it does give quite a bit of boob growth.
new unjust depths chapter! posting in the trans mega and in the main mega, because if you're either trans or a communist you have no excuse not to be reading it
in this chapter someone who knows how politics works is forced to chat with a liberal and realizes just how batshit she is, while another woman has a high school reunion with a fascist. meanwhile, with the a team on a mission the b-team all learn a bit about biology and muse on imperialist extraction. shenanigans ensue. a princess continues to be proletarianized and learns about how her ex is doing. and solidarity between tendencies reaches its limits quicker than anyone could guess
Still haven't got off the high of someone posting about me behind my back on another website ages ago saying "she's a 10 but she thinks China's a democracy"
I think they typoed butt so it's a triple win
I am wondering if my preference for utilitarian clothing will change as I get more comfortable in my body. I do like my comfy trekking shoes tbh, it is also a good way to get cred with local working class people to wear that brand(store brand from the local hardware chain, almost all phyisical workers run around in them), so there are also social benefits, especially if I am otherwise nonconforming.
Due to being in treatment for depression I am doing a lot of mindfullness excercises, or trying to. Literally as soon as I focus on my body/myself as is instructed, I want to jump out of my skin. I always thought that I wasn't very dysphoric, I guess I have learnt better. At least it gave me the push needey to out myself to my doctor (treatment here has to go over her, but at least hrt is informed consent only)
Told my mom about how my breast growth has started and she got excited to teach me about bra shopping. I love her so much
You have a really cool parent
None of the cis women in my family are very "feminine", for lack of a better term. They all have shorter hair than me, they all almost exclusively wear pants and I believe there is little to no majrup present in my house, let alone worn. My mother and I have shared shoes and jackets for the longest time. I think I wear more jewlery than her too.
This puts me in a situation where I am not quite sure how being a woman is much different aesthetically from how I have been till now. But it also makes it easy to "pass" amongst family.
Banking on the baggy sweater and tight jeans combination to carry me through my first year of transitioning.
baggy sweater + tight jeans is always a good look
I still do that shit, it's just a good vibe
Just got military service order in the mail, shit scared me, on a specific date I'll have to go there and have them check my galls (girl balls) or smth
I'll be ok
Gock and galls. lmao.
Also, oh no. I got out of conscription because I got sleep medicine, yay.
i want to talk about stuff to my trans coworker sooooo bad
her best friend (whos soon to be my boss since i stepped down) accidentally outed her to me but knew i was an "ally" (i'm not out at work)
she's not publicly out despite transitioning and i keep rehearsing ways to talk to her about it: "like OOOPs your BFF accidentally outed you to me but it's TOTALLY OK cause i am also trans now tell me what doctor you go to, etc. also please don't out me here (which seems unfair somehow)".
so much shit i want to talk about. first: HRT is fucking magic you can really see the changes in the last year. also her electrolysis seems to have fully taken at this point but mostly as someone terrified of the health care system i would love a personal recommendation. my only other option is to talk to my ex girlfriend who works as social worker and specializes in helping trans people. the other option is DIY which increasingly looks likely to be my path.
would it be wrong to tell her i know but also that i'm trans? or should i wait until she officially comes out (if she ever does, we live in a shitty part of a semi-shitty state).
are you out to her? I'd just out yourself to her, if not. that will make her feel safer telling you herself.
nah i wanted to wait until i was officially no longer in management. i wanted to remove the power dynamic first.
i'm still technically acting manager until we hire a new FT person and my assistant takes over. i mean for me it's whatev i'll keep getting the $22 an hr and don't even open my emails anymore lol
do i sound paranoid or does that make sense?
I think outing yourself is fairly safe and not really making use of the power dynamic. you're not pressing her to out herself, just creating room for her to do it if she wants to. I think, if anything, it'll make her feel safer, knowing her manager is also trans, even if only temporarily -- she has allies if she wants them. I would not press her to come out, though.
wouldn't coming out imply i know she's trans? i mean i know she has good baby leftist politics (hasan watching demsoc) and i've made it clear to my crew i'm a filthy commie.
i have thrown as many eggy hints as possible but at work i go hard with boymode most of the time
maybe i should just do it i hate social anxiety overthinking just don't want to her to think her BFF fucked up
not really? if you know she's a baby leftist, you can play it off like you know she's a real ally.
yeah ur right thats probably the safest strategy. i'll go for it when i have a good private moment at work. i'll let you know how it goes
going to start posting all my random bullshit in here
i'm watching movies on a regular basis exclusively with transgender communists and it's improved my life massively
tonight we're watching some good old fashioned paul schrader
So I recently came out at work and talked about my gender dysphoria. Just saw on a tech forum that a coworker at my company posted a comment mocking trans people and telling somebody to say that "your mind was constantly disoriented by gender dysphoria" in response to getting in trouble with HR by accidentally endangering a coworker
This is word for word what I said in my email. They are 100% one of the ~90 people who received the email that I sent out
wtf fuck that guy. can you show the comment to HR? they probably won't do anything but they definitely know who he is.
Unfortunately no, that's no concrete evidence to find out who is was
I know for sure it's a coworker because they posted in a section where you had to authenticate using a @<company>.com email but it's purposely built to anonymize all accounts past that
honestly, if they're bitching on glassdoor, I'd count it as a trophy. frame that shit, put it on your wall, they just told transphobes to look elsewhere.
transgender cuddle pile movie nights: folks, they're good!
I feel like I am living in this story. https://www.scribblehub.com/series/411745/to-own-the-libs/ (It's a good piece, I like it)
I am not in the US and not currently going to college, but I am rooming with a chud as a closeted trans woman. Just, you know, european flavour chud. Grandfather was high ranking SS(really proud of that). Compares pride to nazi parades, but mostly because he thinks it's unfair that people discriminate on fascists, but accept pride flags.
I told him that they should have thrown his grandpa into a mine after he complained about "the jews", didn't like that.
Luckily not violent, he said that he "accepts trans people if they don't talk about it all the time", and I am socially competent enough to room with him, without many issues. He likes my long hair, because he thinks long hair is manly(Vikings), as is haircare.
Like before he turned the fascism way dial up I got along well with him, there is a good person below metric tons of garbage.
Though his choice of yt content was always very suspect to me (one was about subliminal messages in music telling modern women to hate men, which was very funny) I do not know if the other people I could have gotten would be any better and it's only for a few weeks, and this weekend I will go clothes shopping with my cousine, who is without a doubt my most stylish relative and also really excited about it.
oof, i'm really sorry. stay safe!
Today is my third week HRT anniversary and last night my nipples started to feel sensitive and they feel weird today and my breasts are absolutely a bit bigger than they were! It's happening!!!
wooooo!!!!
Infinite genocide to eepy i wanna not be so eepy it hurd my eyes
mood
So like... I just found out that my insurance may cover FFS... I'm kinda like freaking out maybe? I should probably get some consults?? I never thought FFS would be a good option for me and I shouldbprobably wait to see what HRT does but a friend ofbmine just got it and it's been life changing for her. ?????
I need tits so badly like plz tits
new unjust depths chapter just dropped! a social democrat, an anarchist, and a marxist leninist walk into a bar...