So yeah, after like 3 months of tests, including an IQ test for some reason, today I was given the "good news" that I'm not making it up, I actually have ADHD, and my struggles are valid in the eyes of the medical establishment. ... read full post
Painfully relatable, give it a listen if you can
I just keep bouncing back and forth between spending way too much time refreshing social media (it’s fun a bit of the time and the rest I’m stuck) and logging off for a while, spending a lot of time with random hyperfixations and finally reading random shit in my tabs. It would be nice to be able to spend only the amount of time that is actually fun on here. ... read full post
Anyone know what I mean? Either I mask into being much quieter and "mysterious" which does help me avoid eye contact, but I just feel like I'm being cool on purpose which is really goofy and undermines my confidence. Otherwise, I think the other personality I fall into is really, like, boring I guess? I basically roleplay as what I imagine a redditor who isn't bigotted is. Politics definitely plays a role there, obviously, if I feel the need to make a statement about a subject that is prone to set other people off I tend to hide my power level and say things in a very boring and "academic" way. But both of those definitely are pretty far from how I naturally am, and it feels like I'm being a little deceptive to my acquaintances who I don't know well enough to be myself with. ... read full post
I wish I could figure it what's wrong with me. Am I rapid-cycling bipolar? Is it ADHD? Is it autism? I'll go days, maybe even a week or more feeling like I have barely any energy at all, it'll be hard to do much more than a quick chore or two. Fatigued, unmotivated, energy drinks don't really work. And then all if a sudden boom, awake at 7am, energy drinks kick my ass. Yesterday I was doing chores/projects from 11am to 1am. Couldn't fall asleep til around 3am, and now I'm up naturally at 8am, with energy to go. Towards the end of the night I got hyperfixated on making pretty excel spreadsheet templates so that might be why I was up so late. I'm also spending hundreds of dollars on things all at once which I normally never do... But they are all practical and I'm tired of not having things that make my life nicer/easier. ... read full post
I got an Instagram account when i got out of rehab because I wanted a way for people to get ahold of me when they haven't seen me for a while. I like reconnecting with people but I can't do it (sober; I used try to do it while I was drinking and usually acted inappropriately or just ghosted them really quick lol) ... read full post
I figure what better way than to make one up of like-minded people who see the world similarly. Maybe meet like once a month or something. The more I venture out into the world, the more it seems like I am speaking a completely different language than everyone else ... read full post
I just finished 3 very expensive psychologist evaluations yesterday (it cost me as much as my rent split even after insurance) and it turns out my childhood diagnosis was correct: I've got a big ol case of Autism! 
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Just wanted to share a bit of a bright point from last week, especially since I know The Workplace is a gauntlet of horrors designed to punish a lot of us neurodivergent people. ... read full post
This could basically be a checklist to determine "is this person not autistic"?
When are we going to reckon with the fact that job interviews are designed to keep the neurodiverse out?
I've told myself and others that I don't get bored easily. I can daydream through some experiences or I'll distract myself with games, books, etc. ... read full post
She went to the psych and got checked all because I asked her to and told her it would mean a lot to me if she did! Now she's considering meds even though she's kind of a herbal supplement crystal woowoo type person.
Now we just gotta get my grandmother to the brainmechanic.
I recently figured out I have ADHD. I also recently discovered that having a daily routine makes me feel a lot better. I learned this in a structured environment (rehab) and once I left that, I still know what I need to do and I know it will make me feel better and more productive, but I don't know how to do it... ... read full post
Putting this in neurodiverse because i am neurodiverse and i'm working with an autistic population. ... read full post
No need to read this drivel unless you’re curious lol ... read full post
What has y'all experience with fidget or stim toys been? I'm getting assessed for ADHD, and it's likely i have autism, too. Today, during one of the ADHD assessments I mentioned to the psychologist applying the test that I pick the skin around my fingernails constantly, and she recommended getting one.
Do they help, in your experience? Anything to look for in one?
Working remote made me forget this but hanging around NTs I find one of them will absolutely be unable to suppress making a shitty comment to me usually about my face or something "oh gorb you should smile, whats the matter you look upset" I'M LITERALLY JUST EXISTING FUCK OFF. ... read full post
Got the dreaded backorder text for concerta 27 two weeks ago. No change. Talked to my prescriber who called in Ritalin 30 LA today. It's backordered also. ... read full post
My stepdad is a great and nice guy, and I've suspected for a while that he might be autistic. He's very quiet and reserved, rarely shows strong emotion. Chuckles rather than laughter. He's also fixated on certain things and hobbies, and can talk/ramble about them for quite a long time. He likes puzzles and, what have been given to him, legos. Putting together and taking apart things. ... read full post
im not sure where else to post this. it's a bit of a vent, but I'm not gonna take too long ... read full post
I specifically try to keep the language neutral too. I know other ND users dont post because they're afraid of being accused of sealioning or catching a temp ban. I don't know where else to post this but I needed to vent and I'm sick of it.
Edit: thank you carcosa. Appreciated.
About ten years ago following a consultation with a doctor, I got diagnosed as having "treatment resistant depression." I gather this is maybe not the most broadly accepted terminology out there, but having tried out a few SSRIs and an SNRI (and multiple therapists) to absolutely no results or worse, I've come to respect it as the only diagnosis that makes any sense to me, and accurately describes the situation. ... read full post
Treatment Options for ADHD-Related Sleep Problems ... read full post
Heya all, ... read full post
So I'm sure a lot of us have been dog-piled before, where several people are jumping down your throat or demanding things of you and even in the best of times it would be hard to keep up but now you're in crisis, etc. It devolves into being the 'lolcow' for those present, especially if you're like me and can struggle to disengage and sometimes lash out especially when spurred on so it gets funnier the more people fuck with me, how cool! ... read full post