::: spoiler Insecurity I got floppy saggy titties
Tiger stripes on my belly
But I'm a childfree thirty-three
So why don't I look like those other ladies

I used to be quite the fatty
I know this intellectually
But my wrinkly boobies
Don't look like the other ladies

He says I'm hot
But I feel like a blob
My tits will be down to my knees
By the time I'm fifty-three :::

I am fighting this bleary day with carbs

falcon babies cute

Okay, I am so over children right now. Was not aware we'd see 5yo Niece again until the chaos entered the front door.

Then going into the room partner and I are staying in, and touching everything. A mad rush to hide the condoms before she started asking about them. I already woke up on the wrong side of the bed, so I was quite short with telling her to leave.

I just want to go home.

Edit: this is grounding me, an Austrian banger https://youtu.be/wkQKfNatKco

Standoffish cat was little spoon! Standoffish cat was jetpack! I am blesséd!!

::: spoiler I don't think I want to work with people anymore.

I work in retail (sometimes). It's so odd how some customers think you're really patient and kind, and others accuse you of treating them like shit. Yesterday I asked someone to do something that we have to ask customers to do, and I get called a bitch and that it's all bullshit.

I know people's behaviour is just communication, and that I shouldn't take it personally, but sometimes in the moment, I still feel my fight-flight-freeze response going. Body says danger.

Was floating around the store today and the 15 year old girl at registers got really overwhelmed. A customer was on crutches and was waiting a while because the girl obviously couldn't be in two places at once, and needed assistance. I walked past there and she was bawling her eyes out. I could've handled it so much better, by apologising to the customer first and helping them, and then seeing if the girl was okay. The customer was getting pissed and telling me that there should be more staff on, and that that girl didn't know what she was doing. The girl knew what she was doing, but got really overwhelmed by that customer. She was justified in being angry, but taking it out on a 15 year old girl, come on.

I went straight to the girl, and asked if she was okay, and then told that customer not to be rude to the girl. She's 15 and trying her best. Then another customer came up from behind and said I should be more considerate to the injured person, and it's not their fault if we don't have enough staff. I kept telling her I understand, and she's like no you don't. Clearly you don't know what's in my head ma'am.

I should've just said what's going on and gauged the situation to de-escalate it, but I see someone crying and panicking, and feel like they should be tended to first. Going to try not to beat myself over this. :::

Anyway, cheers 🍻

eek, there is a halloween monster in the house

I miss my old barber so much. He moved and so I've had to find someone new. First replacement didn't do a great job and the second replacement, while better, still isn't it. Too long first time, now too short second time. My head is cold. At this stage I'm going to just grow my hair out indefinitely and look like a bum.

Ooh just saw the oxalis post from yesterday lol.

I suppose we need an update.

Aerogard (40% deet) works very well. It's been a few months and surprisingly it hasn't bounced back so I think it does maybe hit the bulbs. Didn't kill any other plants using it. Found it works best when it's a still, sunny day.

Everything is so X rated on the DT today.

We've gone from not naughty librarians, to dingers, to sex toys and lube and boobs.. an ibis (if that's what ducks are into these days it's hard to keep up).

There's a rave choon for that

Yesterday I did 8,660 steps during a strenuous day at work, then dashed home, cooked dinner and fell asleep! Woke up just after midnight. Must've turned back into a pumpkin or something 😆

Got the 2am sads. Why you do this brain, I want to go back to sleep.

First interview done. Not bad.

Second one was postponed to Tuesday.

Gym done, time for music practice and more applications.

Friend I haven't seen since January is working in Japan for six months. I don't know if she would do the same for me, but I've wanted to visit Japan, and maybe see her along the way. Flights are not super cheap, but I've been researching all week to the point where Google Flights shows me a higher price because of all the browsing. I feel like I've hyped myself up for it.

Went to my managers at work and they said they support my endeavour. As soon as uni is done, I will be on the grind for more cash.

I missed seeing the text yesterday that the meds came in! They’ve been obtained now, that’s a relief.

The flowers seem to be starting to come up in the pots now. The blessing and the curse is there isn’t much for me to do there.

It’d be great if either my area or health was better to feel comfortable going out more. I spend too much time on the internet which is tanking my mental health. Meetups aren’t the answer though. I feel like a lot of people there are using it to find dates, which isn’t something I’m interested in and creates uncomfortable situations.

::: spoiler one of these is not like the other lol :::

ok what the fuck happened last night because I know four people with ADHD in various levels of medication / support needs and they're all on their goddamn squirrel skates today

I'm feeling a lot better today so I've just been chilling at home and tinkering with some music. It's nice to have a day to myself where I'm not trying to do anything or get things done like a regular day of leave.

Yesterday I spent a bunch of time playing Echo Point Nova. It's a must check out if you like your fast paced shooters like Doom Eternal or Ultrakill.

Glasses picked up. Bets on how many minutes until a cat yeets them. Also, no I am not your naughty librarian.

Shit sleep gang

Pizza has arrived.

Gatorade is cold.

Dragon ball z is on.

Heaven!

(Seriously dragon ball is fucking awesome)

I'm into week 2 of listening to books about and by the royals

after the initial horror and disgust at the psychos like fergie, andrew and edward 8 etc my brain is slowly turning to mush

these awful people are all the same, it's boring

Apparently there was another $75 energy bill relief payment for October. That will help a tiny bit to mitigate the massive bill I'm expecting now that they've actually read my gas meter instead of estimating it.

I’m still waiting on Melbcat’s meds that were ordered in 🤞🙏 One is available but not the other

Edit: And her food obviously was running out of stock because instead of the full amount I got some loose cans and a refund.

i'm taking a slow relaxed sick day

Now we know it's really Friday

7/10

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Insect of the Year poll

Duck billed Christmas beetle has my vote - never knew there was more than one sort.

that was fun, a book I didn't order appeared in my audible library

password is now changed and book refunded

amazon contacted, suspicious activity reported and is being investigated

that extra sleep really helped, I was starting to get run down

Tonight is emo night. Cheers! 🍻🍻🍻 https://youtu.be/uhG-vLZrb-g